I heard that Dr. Cheng is not easy to follow.

The day I met Cheng Sen was probably a weekend. I don’t remember Zhu Le very clearly. I only know that there was no plot in an idol drama. The sun was shining. It rained heavily that day. The place where I fell in love at first sight was not romantic.

Zhu Le also doesn't understand why he is alive, but existence is the reason. For 20 years, he has no feeling for this world, so he is alive.

Until the age of 22, he met Cheng Sen, the reason why he loves this world.

Just at night, when the city lights are on, the small alleys on the street corners are full of people, the noise in the alleys, the scuffing of the cooking spoons against the edge of the pot, the yelling and cursing of the shop owner, the busy footsteps of the waiters, Both are important factors that make the alley look so harmonious.

"Congratulations! Clean up table 5!" A loud shout came from an ordinary small restaurant.

"Hey, here we come." The crisp voice full of vitality responded and ran.

Zhu Le has been used to this kind of life for a long time. It’s almost ten years. When he was 12 years old, he came out of the orphanage to work illegally. He begged, was looked down upon, and looked down upon. Zhu Le has long been indifferent. The shop owner is no longer the first The first time I said that he is like a machine without emotion, he has emotion, Zhu Le himself can feel it, it is strongly hidden in his chest, but there seems to be nothing in this world that can interest him, let alone anything that can make him Willing to sacrifice such precious feelings.

Who is it good for? Zhu Le has been looking for it.

At three o'clock in the morning, Zhu Le went to the small attic above the hotel. The small attic was a bit low. The boss didn't even have lights to save electricity. Zhu Le could only crawl in with his back bowed, and then lie down, so that the space would not be so stuffy. .

He took out his elderly phone, turned on the screen, Zhu Le’s eyes lit up, there was a text message, someone sent him a text message, Zhu Le pressed his heart, clicked on the text message, some words Zhu Le didn’t know, But this did not prevent him from being happy. After reading it roughly, it seemed to be a short message about stocks, "Oh, an advertisement." Zhu Le was a little disappointed, but he still reached out and fumbled, and found a book that was not too thick and not too thin. It’s a dictionary, the skin has been tattered, but Zhu Le likes it very much. I picked it up at the door of the store on Zhu Le’s birthday. This is Zhu Le’s 20 years, except that the mother-in-law in the orphanage will make him a bowl of eggs every time. The first birthday present beyond the surface.

With the weak light of the mobile phone, Zhu Le checked word by word. Some words are missing in this book, and many pages of this book have been lost, but Zhu Le never tires of it.

No one contacted Zhu Le, except for the mother-in-law in the orphanage, but Zhu Le has been looking forward to it. He wants to leave more evidence of his existence in this world. There is no contradiction between looking forward to and not having.

Zhu Le looked up all the words he could find, didn't delete the text message, turned off his phone, and decided to ask the store owner what those words read tomorrow.

Zhu Le had a dream. In the dream, there were many people fighting for the same thing. Zhu Le was also fighting for the same thing, but Zhu Le didn’t want to grab it. Zhu Le just wanted to watch the excitement. The thing turned into his own dictionary with missing pages. Zhu Le panicked. When he was about to make a leap, he found something grabbed his feet. He didn't have time to look at it. When the screen turned, the dictionary became Seeing a rose, Zhu Le suddenly squatted down covering his chest, tears fell uncontrollably from his eyes, more and more tears blurred Zhu Le's eyes, he was even a little out of breath, Zhu Le opened his eyes mouth, breathing heavily, he has never been so thirsty for oxygen, the people around are gone, only he is huddled in a dark corner, breathing heavily.

It was his elderly phone that woke up Zhu Le, the alarm was ticking, Zhu Le opened his eyes suddenly, unable to distinguish between dreams and reality for a while, he could clearly feel that he was still breathing heavily, He even raised his hand to wipe his face and the corners of his eyes. After confirming that it was a dream, he was stunned for a while. This dream is really strange.

As usual, Zhu Le went downstairs unhurriedly and opened the windows to ventilate. In fact, the smell in the whole alley was not very good. The smell of oil and swill was mixed together. The people in the alley and No one was spared, but the boss let the ventilation go, let’s go, sweep the floor, take out the garbage, wash the dishes, wash the dishes, and after finishing a series, Zhu Le went to get his own toiletries and went to the back of the store. Washing in the cement pool is said to be toiletries, but in fact there is only a cup filled with cheap toothpaste and a toothbrush that has lost its hair. It’s not that I don’t have money to buy it, but I just want to get used to it. The habit is really terrible.

While brushing his teeth, Zhu Le did some calculations. He has worked in this shop for about five months. Let’s go today. It’s been so long, and he made up his mind. Zhu Le rinsed his mouth and looked at the toothbrush and cup in his hand. , and half a tube of toothpaste left by the pool, "Throw it away."

After a busy day, it finally arrived in the early morning. When the boss was about to close the door, he yelled upstairs, "Zhu Le, open the door early tomorrow, tomorrow..." Before he finished speaking, he saw Zhu Le's black face when he came with him. The backpack went downstairs, "Why are you going?"

"Boss, I forgot to tell you that I quit. Please settle this month's money." Zhu Le put on a black backpack and held the old mobile phone in his hand.

"Why did you stop doing it all of a sudden? Didn't you do a good job? Is it because a customer smashed that bottle of beer today, I say you, you don't want to listen, he is a customer after all..." The boss hurriedly explained.

Zhu Le interrupted, "It's not my boss, I just don't want to do it anymore."

"You left suddenly, where can I find someone? How about I give you an increase of 100 yuan a month, Xiao Zhu, you see, now is the time to hire people..." The boss tried to persuade him to stay.

"It's not about money either. There are quite a lot of people looking for jobs now," Zhu Le didn't want to chatter anymore, "You don't want me to leave, it's just that I'm easy to pass, and the salary is low," Zhu Le raised his head. Hand, pressed the elderly phone, 03:30, "Boss, please hurry up."

The boss reluctantly counted Zhu Le's wages, and deducted a lot of inexplicable money. Zhu Le didn't care, put one hand in his trouser pocket, and took the remaining bits and pieces with the other. I thanked him for the money, and walked away.

It was so late, and the streets were still full of traffic, a busy scene, Zhu Le took a taxi, reported the name of a barbecue restaurant, and then sat in the car with peace of mind, lying on the window and looking at the busy figure outside, this is Zhu Le What he would do every few months, only at this time would his heart be filled with a sense of satisfaction.

The barbecue restaurant reported by Zhu Le is not far or near. When he arrived at the place, Zhu Le had already fallen asleep in a daze. The driver uncle woke him up, "Young man, you are so tired!"

After Zhu Le got out of the car, he replied, "Yes."

He doesn't like dealing with strangers very much, it's not that he's not good at it, it's just that he doesn't like it. Everyone wears a hypocritical cloak, and the overly enthusiastic greetings make him feel sick. I am even more tired, Zhu Le can't figure it out, and he doesn't want to understand it very much. Now he just wants to eat a barbecue with more cumin and chili peppers, and find a small hotel to sleep.