boy mature

In the summer of 2004, our high school entrance examination ended.

There was no reluctant farewell like in the youth story, no drunken dinner party, everyone walked out of the examination room with complaints about the hot weather, and then waved goodbye, everything seemed not much different from usual.

The most memorable partings that people experience all happen at the age when they don't know parting. It's a pity because they don't know.And this kind of regrettable experience of wanting to do it again will be unforgettable for a lifetime.

After the last English test, I walked out of the examination room and saw Li Na standing at the entrance of the examination room at a glance.

The afternoon sun made her face slightly red, and the rare healthy color made her look cute like never before. I watched her for a long time before she noticed me, and before I could say hello, she just She ran over in a hurry, then reached out and handed me a letter. Before I could doubt it, she smiled and said to me, "Open it when I get back."

She smiled mysteriously. Later, I suspected that this smart girl seemed to have met a long time ago, and that might be the last time we met.

It was in that summer that Li Na failed the heart surgery and never woke up from the operating table.

There was a time when I thought this pale girl was just an ordinary passer-by in my life, and my communication with her was nothing more than the period of SARS. I imagined her as a rival in love, and then deliberately approached her for a while.

However, the strangest thing about human memory is that it is always brooding over those fleeting experiences. I never thought that the memory of this girl would become an indelible chapter in my memory .

I often think of the scene when I took her to ride a bicycle that day, and she suddenly hugged my waist from behind.

I remember that I was so scared that I almost fell down, she hurried down to apologize to me, I saw her face that was about to turn red with shame, and suddenly laughed uncontrollably, she looked at me in embarrassment, and asked What am I laughing at.

I pushed the bicycle and walked slowly, and it took a while to tell her that she was very cute when she blushed.

She seemed a little embarrassed, so she didn't say anything more, but at this time I said something inexplicably: "Li Na, do you know that Liang Chi likes you."

She stared at me with a look of shock.I curled my lips, and said half jokingly and half seriously: "Why, I heard that Liang Chi, who is both good in character and learning, likes you, is he moved?"

She smiled and hit me: "No."

But I got serious: "If, I mean, if, Liang Chi and I, who would you choose?"

She froze for a moment, but what she said shocked me severely. She said, "You like Liang Chi, don't you?"

My heart skipped a beat for being unquestionable. I thought it was Yu Meng who told her, but I didn't dare to point it out, so I scolded Yu Meng as a traitor in my heart while looking at her suspiciously.

It was noon at that time, the sun was bright and soft, and this color would make people softer unconsciously.

Under such brilliance, she looked at me with her black jade-like eyes, and then smiled. It was that kind of "I guessed it is right" kind of determined smile, and I knew she was sure of it in her heart. I didn't want to know why, at that moment I felt a kind of relief that I had never felt before, and I asked her, "Is it so obvious?"

She smiled and said, "I actually guessed."

"Ah~" I had a cheated expression on my face, but she giggled, "Actually, I was suspicious when you first came to play with me, because no one in our school would dare to take the initiative to play with me."

"why?"

She froze for a moment, then said, "It's not like you don't know I'm sick."

I suddenly remembered that time when I quarreled with Liang Chi because of her illness, I was suddenly a little ashamed, but at this time she went on to say: "Once I was walking with my good friend on the playground, and suddenly the person fell down. I fell on the ground and broke my nose, think about it, children have never seen such a bloody scene, some girls cried in fright, and then everyone started to distance themselves from me."

I wanted to comfort her, but I didn't know what to say, so I finally had to look at her with my eyes to show encouragement.She smiled disapprovingly, and continued, "So, since you started approaching me, I have been thinking about the reason, but I have never thought about it because of this, but when you asked that question just now, I suddenly had Such a strange idea, I just asked tentatively, who knew it was true."

I was covered in cold sweat by this weird coincidence, and then I heard her continue: "Your eyes can't lie, and, let me tell you, don't try to test a woman, a woman's heart is stronger than a mirror." Liang, we might know what it is with one look and one movement of yours, sometimes it’s just that we don’t want to point it out.”

"Is there such a god?" I couldn't believe it.

"Of course, you see, women are called elves, but men can only be called monsters. This elf is not for nothing." She blinked at me as she said, and I was stunned by her for a moment. I heard her say again: "But if you and Liang Chi are the same, I might choose you."

"Why?" I was a little at a loss when I asked this sentence, but fortunately she just smiled and didn't speak again.

After a moment of silence, I asked her: "Don't you think it's strange that I like Liang Chi?"

She looked at me, as if she understood what I was thinking, and said directly: "You mean, you are all boys."

I nodded, but saw her innocent and romantic smile, she said: "There are all kinds of people in this world, but it is very difficult for a person to meet someone who really likes him. Maybe once in a lifetime, why bother with such trivial things as gender?"

After finishing speaking, she still looked sideways at me with a smile, and said, "You say, right?"

In the sun, she smiled and bent her big black eyes. I looked at her long black hair on the blue and white school uniform. At that moment, I thought to myself, if I like girls, I must be like her.

People will deliberately avoid certain established facts because of their cowardly character, such as Li Na's letter, which I have not opened until today.

This year's New Year's Day home renovation, I just happened to be at home, and when I was helping to move things, I found the letter in my desk. The envelope has been slightly yellowed by the years, but Li Najuanxiu's handwriting on the cover is still clearly visible. She wrote "Thank you, Han Tang", the strong farewell tone made me slightly sad, but in the end, I still didn't open it.

It is no longer the dare not dare at the beginning, but has become a more subtle emotion, more like reluctance.

I can't bear to accept the fact that this bright girl is no longer with me.

Like who said, there's a girl inside every gay man, not really wanting to be a woman, but, that's exactly what sets our group apart from other men.We are as delicate and sensitive as girls, full of extraordinary inspiration for this world.

This is how we are different.

And this soft part of my body became Li Na, a simple girl with a little sickness.Sometimes I even doubt whether Li Na has really appeared in this world. Maybe she is just a figment of my imagination, a manifestation of the unknown secret in my heart.

So her departure is more like the end of my thirteen or fourteen years of youth. After that, I began to hide those cautious and sensitive, and let myself slowly become a laughing, heartless teenager.

In this way, when I was 15 years old without Liang Chi, I ushered in my high school days.

In the summer of 2005, Super Girl became popular all over the country, and Li Yuchun became Yu Meng's second "man" she wanted to marry. She actually wanted Li Yuchun to be ranked first, but Zhang Ao was able to bring her a lot of mobile phone votes. She can only be wronged a little, and let her "chunchun" come second.

The summer temperature in the south is so high that it is unconscionable. In Yu Meng's words, "sit on the ground, the eggs are cooked." In this weather, Yu Meng, who is even more unconscionable, dragged a group of us on the street Cheer for her 'Chun Chun' canvassing.

"Auntie, use your mobile phone to vote for my sister!"

"Beautiful sister, please vote for my distant cousin!"

……

Me, Zhang Ao, and Hu Chao, the three of us took Yu Meng's homemade hands, saw a female animal on the street, and grabbed it, then acted cute and smirked at her, and tried every means to make it Yu Meng 'Little Lovers' vote.

Yu Meng and her little friends who are also "corn" are "working" on another street, and their target is the uncle and big brother who don't know what to do when they see their little sister.

This is the way Yu dreamed up.I don't know what the situation is on their side, but obviously the effect on our side is still very significant.

Although every time those aunts or girls see the huge sign with the word "Li Yuchun" written on our hands, and then hear the "distant cousin" in our mouth, they will show a shocked look, but most of them will still take it. Take out your phone and vote generously.

Thinking about it now, maybe the scammers at that time were not as miraculously described by various media as they are now, and people would not understand this kind of mobile phone sending a text message as a kind of deception, so they would lend a helping hand. Today, it is estimated that Li Yuchun's mobile phone votes will be much less.

Four

Going around all the way, Hu Chao and Zhang Ao, I, and I walked slowly to the city station. There were so many people here, and it took more than a dozen aunts to vote in just a few minutes.

Finally, when I was dying from the heat, Zhang Ao was out of breath and asked for a rest.This guy was originally born as a young master, and it was thanks to Yu Meng that he came out in the hot weather.

"Drink some water." Hu Chao bought some water for me and Zhang Ao from a nearby store.

We were drinking water on an iron sign surrounded by a nearby building, and Zhang Ao said, "Hey, Hu Chao, you and Han Tang are here to find someone to vote for, and I'll go see how Yu Meng and the others are doing."

After speaking, before we could respond, he walked away.

I was thinking about why this person is like this, when I heard Hu Chao's hearty laughter from the side: "Don't mind, Zhang Ao is just like this, he is used to doing his own way, but it is definitely interesting."

I shrugged disapprovingly: "It's only natural for him to visit his wife."

Hu Chao smiled: "Why, you're jealous."

I was baffled by what he said, and then I turned my head to look at him, and he just turned his head back, we looked at each other, he grinned with white teeth and said nothing, I was a little embarrassed, so I just turned my head and ignored him.

"Don't get me wrong, I'm joking." After a moment of silence, he said.

"It's okay, I'm not that stingy." I explained, and then said, "But you're not even funny at all."

After I finished speaking, he laughed and said, "I just want to tease you because I see you have a bitter face all the time."

His words made my heart suddenly feel overwhelmed, with a bitter face, it seems that my face will be there after leaving Liangchi, and it will be difficult to have any major influences.

I never thought that one person would have such a big influence on me. In fact, I have only known Liang Chi for a few years. At best, I can be regarded as a childhood playmate. But since that strange feeling sprouted from my heart, He also took root and grew deep in my heart, and no matter how I tried to break free, I couldn't break free.

I remember that my parents thought I had facial paralysis when they saw my healthy face for a while, and they were going to take me to the hospital for an examination.Fortunately, there is Yu Meng, she smiled and told my mother, now that I am popular outside the iceberg man with a face like a wood carving, my mother gave up the idea of ​​taking me to see a doctor half-believingly.

These are all big thoughts in my heart, and of course I won’t let Hu Chao know, so I rolled my eyes at him and said with contempt: "Are you a dick, you just know how to giggle."

He was not in a hurry, haha ​​said: "Yes, I am number two."

I glanced at him speechlessly, and found that at this moment, he was looking at me with his black eyes open, the corners of his mouth curled up slightly, and that bad expression suddenly made my eyes a little bit out of focus.

I wanted to look more natural, so I raised my eyes to look at his wheat-colored forehead, which was still a little sweaty, and it fell down uncontrollably, just landing on his slightly sliding Adam's apple. I found that no matter where I put my eyes They all looked uncomfortable, and just when I didn't know what to do, there was a sudden exclamation from the station.

I heard a hoarse crying voice: "Stop that man, he has taken my child!"

Looking back, I saw a man in a hat rushing towards us with a crying child in his arms!