sweet kiss bitter summer

Turn off the switch of the induction cooker, the hot pot soup stops boiling, and the hot air gradually dissipates. The not-so-simple simple dinner is officially over.

Liang Luoan leaned his body on the back of the chair, patted his own face, let out a breath from his watery and tender mouth, the air in the room was hot and humid, his skin seemed to be steamed through, showing a pleasant light pink color, like a Only beautiful pink peaches.

Perhaps it was because of the euphoria brought about by the feeling of fullness, which gave birth to various levels of satiety. Tan Chen didn't pay much attention to controlling himself, and his eyes were too unrestrained. Fen Tao was easily ripened by his gaze, and Liang Luoan's ears were red and lustful. Drop, blushed and asked Tan Chen what's interesting.

Tan Chen smiled, his eyes narrowed, and before the fat in the hot pot soup was completely solidified into an unmanageable solid, he took the initiative to arrange the tableware on the table.

It was the first time for him to come to Liang Luo'an's house, and he didn't even have a pair of slippers of his own, but he was familiar with how to do housework first, and he was already quite familiar with the road.

Liang Luo'an was full of food and drink, and was prone to laziness, and it was not easy for Tan Chen, who was a guest, to be busy alone, so he had to follow behind to tidy up, moving slowly.

Tan Chen tidied up the unfinished ingredients and prepared to put them in the refrigerator. The moment he opened the refrigerator door, there was no light as expected. Instead, it seemed that there was a steady stream of darkness overflowing, turning the field of vision into darkness.

Tan Chen looked around, the whole room was like frozen ink, it cooled down in an instant, the darkness permeated into every corner, the air became stagnant, and there was no sound at all.

"Luan?" Tan Chen put down the plate in his hand, stood where he was, and tentatively called Liang Luoan.

From the door of the kitchen came a very thin voice of Liang Luo'an: "...I am here."

Tan Chen groped, pushing away the darkness with his palm, and touched Liang Luo'an's cool and wet hand.

Liang Luo'an's hand first retreated in shock, and tentatively touched Tan Chen's arm again. His body quickly leaned up, clinging to Tan Chen, like a small animal in distress, breathing quickly and falling on the ground. On Tan Chen's shoulder, Tan Chen's name was called with a very small voice.

"It's okay, I'm here."

Tan Chen touched the back of Liang Luo'an's tense neck with his hands, trying to make him relax, but Tan Chen's own fingers became stiff.

In the black space, there was an expression on his face that Liang Luoan couldn't see.

Liang Luo'an was still afraid of the dark.

Although I still haven't been able to give up my fear, I have learned to adapt quietly, and I am used to not grabbing anyone's hand or calling anyone's name in the dark.

Tan Chen is not afraid of the dark, so he can't empathize with this fear, but when he is struggling to ask for help, he can only catch the empty and cold air around him with his hands. Tan Chen can deeply understand this feeling.

Getting used to stripping is painful to eat. You need to chew at first, and then swallow directly. You can not taste the bitter taste, but it is always bitter.

Liang Luo'an seemed to gain some courage to adapt from Tan Chen's touch, recovered his senses, and explained to Tan Chen who had been silent all this time: "The circuit in this community is aging, and sometimes there will be a power outage, and it should be repaired for an hour or two. "

"Are there frequent power outages?" Tan Chen asked.

"Since I moved in to the present, it has happened 22 times in five and a half years, is it frequent?" Liang Luo'an turned on the phone's built-in lighting with experience, and said indifferently, "It's not very frequent. "

"Very often."

Tan Chen's voice was a little stiff, "With such a frequency, you should prepare some lighting supplies at home, and the phone will run out of battery soon."

Liang Luo'an told him disapprovingly: "If the power goes out, I usually go to sleep right away, because it's dark even when I close my eyes."

"Ah."

Tan Chen responded in a low voice, and then asked: "What about now? Are you going to sleep?" Liang Luo'an didn't answer immediately, but turned his head in front of Tan Chen's chest. position toward the window.

Because of the large-scale power outage in the community, the windows of the residential buildings opposite are also pitch black, with only a little moonlight falling on the windows, which is the only light source.

Liang Luo'an thought for a while, and said, "I don't want to sleep yet, and I don't want to stay at home, I want to go out for a walk."

So 10 minutes later, they walked out of Liang Luoan's house, the elevator was out of service, and they spent about 5 minutes going down the stairs.

Because it was a bit late, and because Liang Luo'an judged based on his rich experience that the power supply should be restored soon, they didn't go very far, and the scope of their walk was limited to the inside of the community.

The small road in the night is extremely winding, and there are many shops along the road, most of which are closed early due to sudden power outages, and occasionally some shops use small diesel generators to maintain power supply, roaring continuously, and the strange smell created makes Liang Luoan I don't like it a bit.

They circled aimlessly on the ring road of the community. When they passed by a certain shop, Liang Luoan seemed to be attracted by something, his eyes suddenly shifted, and then he left the ring road with his body, like a small bird restrained off the track. The planet, with Tan Chen acting as his dedicated satellite.

A plaque of a pet shop hangs above the shop, and the door is locked, so it should have closed early.

Liang Luo'an was half-bent, his face was close to the display glass, and his eyes were looking at a white puppy that was shaking his head outside the glass without blinking.

Liang Luo'an looked at it carefully for a while, stretched out his hand, tapped the glass with his fingertips, and made a very soft knocking sound. The puppy immediately became lively, as if he regarded Liang Luo'an's fingers as a strange toy, and his little paw followed Liang Luo'an. An's fingertips touched the glass, and there was a continuous thin friction sound.

Liang Luoan laughed happily because of this, and the puppy also seemed to know the ability to read words and expressions, and immediately obediently stuck out its tongue at Liang Luoan, wagging its tail almost twisting.

"So cute."

Liang Luoan smiled.

Tan Chen watched for a long time, watching Liang Luo'an playing with the puppy, and suddenly thought of the pictures that Liang Luo'an had described to him one after another.

He said that in the future, they will live together, go home from get off work together, go to the supermarket together, raise puppies together, and watch the stars together.

Tan Chen felt his heart tremble, so he suggested to Liang Luo'an: "Don't you want to raise a puppy? If you like this one, you can find time to buy it."

Liang Luo'an straightened his body and looked at Tan Chen, his eyes were faintly lit in the dark night, but the faint sparks were quickly extinguished, he said with some frustration: "Forget it.

I can't even take good care of myself, and I also have a heart problem. I can't be responsible for my own life, so how can I be responsible for other little lives. "

Liang Luo settled down for a moment, his voice was mixed with the wind mixed with fallen leaves, and he sounded very disappointed: "So it doesn't matter if you like it, it's not like lemon ice or lollipops when you were young, you can get it if you like it."

The fallen leaves were blown by the wind and piled up on the side of the road. Tan Chen followed Liang Luo'an back to the ring road, stepped on the dead leaves, and made a slight dry and cracking sound, as if he was stepping on his heart.

He looked at Liang Luo'an's expressionless side face, and found that during the years of separation, Liang Luo'an had really changed a lot, became independent, tolerant, and less forceful.

Every change that can be called "growth" is gratifying, but it is just the opposite, making Tan Chen feel palpitations of fear.

Just as he didn't force it before, to Liang Luo'an, it was just a unilateral abandonment.

It was he who taught Liang Luo'an unforgettable, but now he is reaping the consequences.

When they were in an exchange situation, Tan Chen finally understood that the seemingly rational refusal to force was accompanied by a sense of instability that would be given up at any time, a kind of unknowing and gradual corrosion, which was more tormenting than the sudden stripping of the heart.

Perhaps between him and Liang Luo'an, he has always been the one who doesn't know what's going on. He thinks of objective factors too simply and too complicatedly, ignoring the hugeness of subjective emotions.

Its strength is not cut off because of obstacles, but lies in the courage to fight for the life you like, fight for it again, and force it again.

But liking Liang Luo'an was not something he forced.

Lemon ice, lollipops, white puppy, whatever Liang Luoan likes, Tan Chen gives Liang Luoan all of them.