sweet kiss bitter summer

"Tan Chen, do you feel cold?" The dim lamp at the bedside was on, and Liang Luo'an and Tan Chen lay under the quilt together.

He habitually shakes Tan Chen's hand. The palm that used to be dry and hot is now damp and slightly cool, as if soaked in cold sweat, and his fingertips are cold.

Liang Luo'an squeezed Tan Chen's fingers, rubbed them lightly, and warmed his hands, as if he said with experience: "When people have something on their minds, their palms will keep sweating."

Tan Chen turned his head to look at Liang Luo'an, and calmly denied: "No."

Because Tan Chen's face was in a position against the light, Liang Luo'an couldn't see his eyes clearly and couldn't read his expression, so he remained skeptical and said, "But tonight, my mother talked to you for a long time."

"Just said something."

Tan Chen paused for a moment, seemingly helpless and powerless: "The condom I brought back was discovered by my aunt."

"This... I wanted to tell you, but I didn't find the opportunity."

Liang Luo'an was a little frustrated, his heart suddenly suspended, and he asked nervously: "What did mom say? Did you tell mom about us? Did she criticize you?" "No.

I just asked random questions, I answered casually, and I didn't confess to you, so it's not a big deal. "

"Oh, that's fine."

Liang Luoan breathed a sigh of relief, relieved because Tan Chen had always been reliable, and asked as if suddenly remembering something, "It's not because of this, so why are you unhappy tonight?" "No unhappy."

Tan Chen seemed to be smiling relaxedly.

"Tan Chen, you think I'm a fool again, a liar."

Liang Luo'an stretched out his hand and gently rubbed Tan Chen's face with a forced smile, as if taking off the mask for him considerately, Tan Chen's smile disappeared little by little, his eyelashes drooped, and the shadow under the light seemed a little lonely.

"I didn't take you for a fool."

Tan Chen sighed, and confessed compromisingly: "It's my sister, she wrote me a letter, and my aunt handed it over to me."

"Sister?" This is a word that doesn't often appear in Tan Chen's language. What Chen paid attention to was probably the letter his sister wrote to him.

Liang Luo'an began to think about the strange sister Tan Chen mentioned.

He struggled to recall the little girl who was brought by Aunt Tan last summer vacation and called Tan Chen's "brother".

Liang Luo'an didn't have a good impression of her at first, because he remembered that on the day his sister appeared, Tan Chen seemed to be in a daze all the time.

But there is no way, she is Tan Chen's biological sister after all, and she is a dead knot in Tan Chen's body entangled by blood.

Even though Tan Chen seldom mentioned this younger sister in the past, and only shared a barely occupied afternoon with her, Tan Chen would still be happy and sad because of her without reason.

This may be blood.

Liang Luo'an's psychological feelings at this moment are somewhat indescribable, probably numbness, bitterness, and heart palpitations for no reason.

Maybe it's because every time his younger sister appears, he realizes that there are people in the world who are closer to Tan Chen than he is, so close that their fates are intertwined and they cannot be separated.

Liang Luo'an let go of Tan Chen's hand as if he was losing his strength, and then quickly clenched it again, with an awkward tone: "Your sister...what did she say in the letter?" "It's a lot."

Tan Chen's voice was very soft, as if he was talking to himself, his eyes gradually lost focus, as if he was remembering, but he didn't make a sound for a long time, and finally got up suddenly and turned off the lamp on the table, and the room fell into darkness.

Liang Luo'an couldn't see Tan Chen, and suddenly felt a little uneasy, so he could only grasp Tan Chen's hand more in vain, but unexpectedly, he was quickly and completely enveloped by the familiar temperature and breath.

Tan Chen hugged him, breathing very heavily, as if the weight of the darkness in the room was all on his body, making it difficult for him to breathe.

"Luan.

I'm useless, I'm really useless. "

Tan Chen's voice was slightly hoarse, suppressing some unknown emotion that was about to explode, Liang Luo'an couldn't be sure, because he couldn't see Tan Chen's expression, and he didn't know what it was like when a person was close to collapse.

"Tan Chen, what happened... What's the matter?" Liang Luo'an felt very at a loss, and begged Tan Chen to stop talking self-deprecatingly, "Don't talk about yourself like this, you are really good, Tan Chen Chen, don't say that."

"I read the letter my sister wrote to me. She said that she didn't want to stay at my aunt's house, that she didn't like my uncle and cousin, and that she would pick her up after I graduate and work."

Tan Chen's body trembled, his voice was low and hoarse, similar to the scream of a trapped animal, he was dazed and sad, "Her handwriting is intermittent, and there are many water stains on the paper, drop by drop... Tell me, did she cry to give up?" The letter I wrote, does she have to pretend to be sensible and wait indefinitely for her useless brother to save her, even though she is obviously having a bad time?" "Tan Chen, no, don't think about it."

Liang Luo'an's body was aching from being bound by Tan Chen, but he still wrapped his arms around Tan Chen's back, comforting him with difficulty, "You are not a useless brother, you are good at taking care of others, but you have just entered college That's all.

Just like when you were at our house when you were a child, your sister could only be sent to your aunt's house. There are many things that you have no choice but to do. "

Liang Luo'an is very contradictory, he is not a person with a big heart, and now his mind is full of everything about Tan Chen.

But also because he wanted to share Tan Chen's pain, he was not unwilling to try to prepare Aiwu and Wudi to take care of the younger sister, and began to help Tan Chen think of a way: "Otherwise, we will go to my aunt's house to see her during the holiday, or ...or we don't need to wait for work, if we can afford to rent a house outside, we can barely be considered independent, and then we will take your sister over, and then we will work part-time jobs together to earn money to support her..." Liang Luoan said A lot, and in the end, some donkeys were at their wits' end, so they could only let Tan Chen hug them all the time, repeating in vain to tell Tan Chen not to be too sad.

After a long time, until Liang Luoan also fell silent, he did not realize Tan Chen's breathing on his neck, and the intermittent wet touch on his neck, like a hot tropical storm, falling to Liang Luoan Physically, the sadness wrapped around Tan Chen spread to the depths.

He rarely saw Tan Chen cry.

Even this time, Tan Chen's tears kept falling on him, Liang Luo'an did not see Tan Chen crying.

Because Tan Chen turned off the light, out of the protection of a man's dignity or Liang Luo'an's emotions, he didn't want to show it to him.

For a moment, Liang Luo'an's heart was sore and astringent, but the comforter became bewildered and called Tan Chen's name as if he wanted to cry.

He just yelled, Tan Chen suddenly raised his head in the dark, touched Liang Luoan's eyes and face with his hands, seemed to confirm that there were no tears overflowing, then hugged Liang Luoan tightly again.

"Tan Chen."

Liang Luoan called him again.

"fine."

Tan Chen responded to him with a dull voice, "Go to sleep first, don't worry about it."

It seems that they have forgotten their agreement not to let Liang Luo'an sleep here, or maybe when a person's emotions are destroyed, doing some outrageous things can be forgiven in itself.

Tan Chen kissed Liang Luo'an's ear temples, and begged in a low voice: "I want to hug you for a while."