Seeking the Law of Summoning in Taisho

...he saw it.

This is the conclusion [Osamu Dazai] came to the moment he heard the voice of the other party, and then his mind went blank.

He didn't think about whether the other party would mind if he wasn't the original Osamu Dazai, and he didn't think deeply about what he meant just now, all he could feel now was this hug.

It is obvious that the other party is no longer alive, without the heat provided by physical activities, this hug should have no warmth, but... But he rarely felt a trace of warmth.

From the place of contact with the other party, from the fingertips of the other party, from one's own chest.

The thing in full bloom there, the heart that he thought would decay forever, started beating again, his fingers trembled, and he opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say.

Until the voice next to my ear rang again: "I didn't catch you at that time, I'm really sorry, Dazai."

"No, no, it's not your fault, Oda..." [Osamu Dazai] withdrew his hand subconsciously, and the palm fell on the opponent's back, but he just put it down lightly, as if he didn't dare to use force, "Oda Tsukuru... ..."

"Dazai."

Oda Sakunosuke just called his name, but [Dazai Osamu] seemed to have received great encouragement. While he was relieved, he couldn't help but say:

"Odasaku."

"Ah."

"Odasaku."

"I'm here."

"Odasaku..." Without asking the other party to answer this time, [Dazai Osamu] giggled like a child, and then said out loud, "I thought you were going to apologize for something."

"Something" naturally means that in the parallel world, [Oda Sakunosuke] held a gun at [Dazai Osamu] and did not allow him to call the other party's nickname.

Since Oda Sakunosuke saw the parallel world from Aoi, he must be able to understand everything that happened there through other means, [Osamu Dazai] has no doubts about this.

And Oda Sakunosuke also knew it well.

His words sounded firm: "I don't think that's what you want."

[Osamu Dazai] lowered his eyes, pursed his lips and smiled, but the ends of his eyes were a little red. The light passed through the gap between the long eyelashes, reflecting the iris-colored eyes brightly, as if they were illuminated by a layer of melting water.

He truly realized that this man's understanding of "Dazai Osamu" does not refer to Dazai Osamu or himself in the main world, but the entire personality that exists as "Dazai Osamu".

He knew more about the existence of Osamu Dazai than Osamu Dazai himself.

How lucky to have met such a person.

So [Osamu Dazai] will never regret it.

He moved his arms up and hugged him tightly, then put his lips close to Oda Sakunosuke's ear, and said softly:

"It is an honor to die for someone I love."

Because of the existence of the other party, his life has meaning, and his death also has meaning.

The endless darkness he was in finally lit up a light, in front of his eyes, warm and dazzling, guiding his way forward.

"It was you who made me realize the meaning of being in the world," his lips trembled, his fingertips unconsciously grasped the other person's clothes, but his voice was still very soft, "Like a real 'person', I have found the meaning of being alive." I am no longer confused and alone standing in the same place... I am very happy."

Even if it's so fleeting.

But he also had it.

I really understand how lucky it is to be born as a human being.

He closed his eyes, and his long eyelashes, which had been stained with a little moisture, shone finely under the light, and he curled his lips:

"Odasaku, thank you."

The final sound in the words was as soft as a whisper in a dream, and dissipated in the air as soon as it was uttered, as fast as an illusion.

Oda Sakunosuke caught the falling body from the opposite direction, subconsciously hugged him tighter, but did not speak.

He knew that the other party had left.

There was a long silence.

Until the breathing of the person in the arms changed, and a confused single sound came out: "...Eh?"

Oda Sakunosuke's hand loosened, Dazai Osamu withdrew from his arms, put his eyes on his face, and after two seconds, he showed a clear smile: "Did you tell the difference, Oda Saku?"

Oda Sakunosuke nodded: "Why did you suddenly make an exchange?"

"I just think he should see you once." Osamu Dazai said, "But then again, I thought we were very similar. How did you find out?"

Oda Sakunosuke paused: "It's easy to identify, he... is more like a child who has never tasted sweetness."

Because I have never tasted it, I am more careful when I get the candy, and I work harder to protect this piece of candy.He desperately wanted to pretend to be the same as Dazai Osamu and Oda Sakunosuke in his memory, but because he tried too hard, he accidentally showed his desire different from Dazai Osamu.

He longs for someone to talk to when he is tired, for someone to listen carefully when he is chattering, and for someone to coax him when he is angry. These are simple childish wishes, but for [Dazai Osamu], the realization is actually Biden. God is still difficult.

So when these wishes had the opportunity to be realized, they completely violated his own reason, and unconsciously leaned towards Oda Sakunosuke.

This is naturally different from Osamu Dazai beside him.

In comparison, Dazai Osamu has a smoother personality, more smiles, but he is also better at disguising. Even in front of Oda Sakunosuke, he will not reveal his true emotions.

Rather, it was precisely because in front of Sakunosuke Oda that Osamu Dazai disguised his smile so impeccably, as if he didn't want him to see even the slightest bit of negative emotion.

Osamu Dazai rested his knuckles on his chin, and said with a smile: "... Is it really Odasaku? I clearly feel that I have done what he did, and you can see the difference in the end."

"...No, Dazai," the expression on Oda Sakunosuke's face suddenly became very delicate, "you won't be as angry as him."

Osamu Dazai looked at him and said nothing.

"In front of me, you'll only be angry with yourself, and when you're unhappy, you'll just smile and let it go, as if nothing happened." Oda Sakunosuke said slowly, "I actually hope that you can act like him, unscrupulously. Express your emotions, in fact, no matter what happens, I will always be by your side."

"You won't." Dazai Osamu suddenly said this sentence calmly and indifferently.

Oda Sakuyuki moved his lips and was about to refute, but the other party bent his eyes and smiled, "Are you talking about this kind of anger?"

Oda Sakunosuke: "...Huh?"

"Hahaha~ Are you scared?" Osamu Dazai turned around and walked out briskly, "Even if Oda Saku said so, I can't find a reason to be angry with you. Are you a child with a headache?"

"Dazai..." Oda Sakunosuke looked at his back and suddenly asked, "What are you afraid of?"

Osamu Dazai stopped at the door of the kitchen, and fell silent together with his hands resting on the door frame.

With his back turned again, Oda Sakunosuke couldn't see the expression on the other side.

As much as he wanted to step forward, as much as he wanted to pull the other person over to look at him, he knew he couldn't do that.

Osamu Dazai is used to escaping, he is used to retreating into the safe house he built when his heart is touched, and changing the subject. If he rushes up and breaks the house, the other party will not feel comfortable, but will only feel a sense of loss of security for a moment. fear.

He has to give the other party time to let the other party come out on their own.

Fingertips tapped irregularly on the door frame, and the sound broke the silence between the two. Osamu Dazai answered unhurriedly:

"No oh~"

Oda Sakunosuke bowed his head.

"Oh, by the way, although I wasn't the one who used my body just now, Odasaku's compensation for him is still effective~" Dazai Osamu looked back at him with a smile, "Then I will leave the medicine delivery tomorrow to Odasaku , don't forget~"

"...I will never forget." Oda Sakunosuke said.

In addition to agreeing to [Dazai Osamu], considering the current situation in Dazheng, he can't let Dazai Osamu put himself in danger.

So it was a very suitable choice for him to deliver the medicine this time.

At least in the pinch between Shangxian Yi and the monster, he can avoid Shangxian Yi's sight.

-

After breakfast the next day, Oda Sakunosuke took the medicine and prepared to go out, and Aoi, who was chatting with Dazai Osamu for some unknown reason, floated to his side, ready to go together.

Oda Sakunosuke: "I can do it alone, and Aoi can stay with Dazai."

"Everything on the other side is equally attractive to monsters," Aoi said, "Mr. Dazai doesn't need to go out, but Mr. Oda is more worrying."

"That's it." Oda Sakunosuke didn't refuse too much, and nodded after hearing what he said.

Before leaving, he looked at Osamu Dazai who was obediently sitting on the porch and waving at them, and suddenly couldn't help asking, "Dazai, will you wait for me to come back?"

Osamu Dazai showed a surprised expression, as if he didn't quite understand why he asked: "Of course, otherwise, where else could I go—oh, but yesterday Ubuyashiki mentioned the recent intensive training held by the Demon Slayer Team. Maybe go to see the excitement."

Oda Sakunosuke nodded, turned around and walked out the door.

The person behind him seemed to be stretching, talking to himself with inexplicable expectation: "Ah~ I really want to end the mission quickly and go back to eat crab hotpot..."

When Oda Sakunosuke passed by the gate, he thought that he hadn’t eaten for a long time. If it weren’t for the restrictions on kitchen utensils and ingredients, it would be nice to have hot pot for dinner...

Cotton-like clouds scattered across the sky, and returning crows fluttered through the air, as if they had drawn an ink dot on the cotton.

Osamu Dazai's gaze slid down from the point to the gate where the man disappeared, and then he jumped down while supporting the floor on the edge, and landed in the middle of the courtyard.

"Ah~ what a beautiful weather~" Osamu Dazai walked out stepping on the gray stone slabs in the courtyard, his steps were leisurely and his tone was relaxed, just like the ordinary days he spent in Yokohama, "It's perfect for suicide. .”