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During the few seconds of waiting for the final ranking, Han Shen's brain almost stopped functioning, and even the sound of breathing became lighter. His eyes were fixed on the void in front of him, just waiting for the result.

Han Shen has never been so eager for the first place as he is now. This time is different from all previous competitions. It is no longer just a ranking, but it carries Yu Xingnan and his team. Crazy and enthusiastic agreement, although they are in the cooling-off period, but it does not affect the fulfillment of this agreement.

It's a pity that reality is reality and will never be swayed by people's emotions. When Han Shen learned that he missed the championship of the annual drivers by 0.68 seconds behind, his mood at that moment was so complicated that it was hard to describe the point.

The first thought that popped up in Han Shen's mind was embarrassment.Right? Yes, he missed the championship, and his sense of regret and loss is not as strong as embarrassment!

He still clearly remembers that in the reply letter to Yu Xingnan a few days ago, his tone was extremely firm and conceited, saying that Yu Xingnan should not think too much, just wait and see the final result. ?.But today, the reality ruthlessly gave him a head-? stick, which prevented him from announcing the relationship between the two of them to the world as promised.

Various interviews and business activities after the game took up Han Shen's two full days. During this period, he was only coping with it on the surface, but what he was thinking in his heart was how to explain it to Yu Xingnan.

You don’t need to guess, Yu Xing? Nan must be right now? He is terribly disappointed, he-? He made promises over and over again, and-? He broke the promise again and again, if? Maybe the heart is already dead.

Because explaining this matter cannot be delayed for too long, Han Shen took the initiative to call Yu Xingnan on the second night after the game, thinking that it would be better to say something personally. At least it can appear sincere.

It took a long time for the call to be connected. In the next instant, Han Shen heard a familiar deep voice, "Deep."

Han Shen's heart trembled, his Adam's apple moved, and he felt a little nervous, like a primary school student being called to answer a question by name.

Han Shen laughed dryly, leaning against the window of the bedroom, pulling the curtains with his hands because he was nervous, and at the same time pretending to be calm: "Well, it's me, have you had dinner yet?" When Han Shen said these words, His heart was beating violently, as if it was about to jump out of his chest cavity. He was more nervous than when he first fell in love.

The other end of the phone was very quiet, and Yu Xing Nan's magnetic voice could not hear any emotion at the moment, "It's still early."

Han Shen was stunned, and then suddenly realized, "I almost forgot, there is a two-hour time difference with you now."

Yu Xingnan responded, "Yes."

Han Shen: "..."

Topic terminated.

Looking at the night view of the city with shining lights outside the window, Han Shen knew that he should explain the game immediately at this moment, but at the same time he didn't know where to start.

As a result, the atmosphere became weird. Both of them didn't hang up the phone, but they didn't talk either. Just a few minutes seemed to have passed—a century.

In the end, it was Yu Xing Nan who sighed softly, broke the silence, and said in a low voice: "Shen, it's okay, I can see that you worked hard in the last game, even though the result? Deviations, but still excellent.”

After Han Shen listened to these words in silence, a burst of unconcealable sourness surged up in his nasal cavity instantly, as if a string was gently touched deep in his heart-a soft ripple came out .Han Shen never thought that Yu Xingnan was still trying to comfort him at this moment.

Han Shen exhaled softly, suppressed the choked sobs in his throat, and said, "OK? Nan, I didn't expect to encounter an accident in the last few laps, otherwise it must be the first..." Han Shen said this? Sometimes the tone of voice dragged a bit unconsciously, maybe even he himself didn't realize it, and every word and every line expresses a meaning - begging for comfort.

Yu Xing? Nan—? He heard it immediately, and immediately softened his tone a little, and said: "Well, I know, so just pay more attention next time."

It was at this time that Han Shen belatedly realized that he seemed to be asking for comfort, and he succeeded... After waking up, Han Shen was silent for a moment, then got to the point, and said in a low voice, "Actually, you You don’t need to comfort me, it’s me who should say I’m sorry, because I failed to fulfill the promise.”

Hearing the words on the other end of the phone, there was just—? There was silence, and after a while, he said: "If there is no accident in the middle, and you finally win the championship smoothly, will you announce it at that time?"

Without even thinking about it, Han Shen said, "Of course! Of course it will be announced, and it will be announced in front of all the cameras!"

Yu Xing Nan said: "The runner-up will also face the camera."

Han Shen—? Dazed, immediately heard the meaning of Yu Xing? Nan dialect, he frowned slightly, and said after a long time: "OK? Nan, the runner-up is not worthy of you, only the champion can do it?"

After saying this, the distance between the two of them was almost instantly shortened, as if time and space were torn apart, and they stood together in a private space maintained by electromagnetic waves, so that the senses could be shared, and the familiar smell and body temperature seemed to be Right next to him, Han Shen could clearly feel Yu Xingnan's astonishment and touch, and Yu Xingnan could also feel Han Shen's sincerity and sincerity when he said these words.

This wonderful feeling lasted for a long time until Han Shen's eyes were slightly red, and Yu Xingnan's breath gradually became disordered before it dissipated.

Yu Xing Nan once again broke the deadlock, his voice was a little hoarse than before, and said, "Okay."

Han Shen blinked his sore and hot eyes, then let out a long breath as if he was relieved, and said with a smile: "Then the agreement will be postponed until next year, just wait, there won't be any accidents next time."

Yu Xingnan said, "I believe you can do it."

Han Shen smiled, "Hey, when did you become so polite? It's only been like this for 132 days?"

Yu Xingnan said in a low voice: "It's not polite, but - it's been a long time for more than a hundred days." Yu Xingnan wanted to meet this time, hinting at Han Shen.

Han Shen is not stupid, of course he can hear the meaning, so he half-jokingly said: "Why, miss me?"

Yu Xingnan bluntly said, "Well, I really want to."

Han Shen—? Startled, suddenly a little dumb, and answered after a long time: "I think so too."

Yu Xingnan chased after the victory, "You have finished your work this year, do you want to come to Germany to play?"

Han Shen opened his mouth, but he just couldn't say a word.Although it is true that he misses Yu Xingnan, but he still feels that he is not ready for what to do.

When Han Shen was hesitating right now, Yu Xingnan already knew the answer. He didn't force it, but just said in a low voice, "It's okay to come back when you're free."

Han Shen knew that Yu Xingnan was looking for a step for him, and his mood suddenly became a little complicated, but in the end he followed his heart and said, "Okay, wait a minute."

After hanging up the phone, Han Shen looked out of the window for a long time unable to regain his composure. For a while, his thoughts surged, and he even felt confused and bewildered.He and Yu Xingnan have been separated for more than four months. During this period, as expected, his love for Yu Xingnan has not faded because of the distance, on the contrary, with the passage of time , This layer of love gradually became stronger and stronger, as if it had been purified—so, pure and incomparable.And during this period, the shackles on his body were cut off from root to root, and he regained his former true self.

Now that everything is back to normal, why didn't Han Shen ever think about returning to Yu Xingnan?

In fact, the reason is very simple, but it's the reason why he was bitten by a snake in the morning and was afraid of well ropes for ten years.Yu Xingnan left deep in Han Shen's memory - an unforgettable and indelible scar.

All his life, what Han Shen feared the most was being controlled and designed, and Yu Xingnan had both, so even though Han Shen had finished healing, there was still a shadow in his subconscious. The original instinct, or? I dare not easily-? Plunge into it again, afraid of repeating the same mistakes, and go through again-?Those painful and repressed pasts that have been dusted in the depths of memory.

In fact, to put it bluntly, what Han Shen lacks now is courage.

After the season is completely over, the team members of Han Shen's team-?have a meeting together. This gathering-?is over, and we will meet again in March next year. Very open, open to eating and drinking.

Since it was a gathering of the entire team, Mu Yue must be there, and Han Shen would inevitably meet.

In fact, it has been two years since their immature and deceitful relationship, and Han Shen is not a narrow-minded person. In addition, the experience with Yu Xingnan in the end, so now they are all pessimistic. When Yu Yue took the initiative to drink with him, not only did he not refuse, on the contrary, he said with a smile, "I hope that when we meet again next year, your car repairing skills can be improved to a higher level."

Hearing this, Mu Yue also smiled and replied—“For next year’s championship to be easier, of course I will work hard.” After finishing speaking, he finished the wine in the glass——?

Han Shen also drank it all.After the two chatted for a while, Mu Yue couldn't hold back and asked, "Where's your boyfriend? I haven't seen you in the past few months."

Han Shen smiled, "He's not my secretary, he has his own work to do."

Mu Yue was startled, then smiled helplessly: "Look at me, my brain is not working well, so I forgot about this." After Mu Yue finished speaking, he poured himself a full glass of wine, and at the same time said to Han Shen said: "Then this cup wishes you happiness."

Han Shen smiled, poured it on himself, raised his glass and replied, "—definitely."

In fact, Han Shen could feel that Mu Yue still didn't give up, but he couldn't help it. If you miss something, you miss it, and it's useless to save it. Human life——life, you have to understand this truth.Of course, he also understands this, so he will hold on to Yu Xingnan, and prepare to fill up his courage to go to Germany to meet Yu Xingnan as soon as possible.

It was early in the morning when the party ended. Han Shen went back to the hotel and took a hasty shower, then fell asleep in a daze, until he was woken up by the ringing of his mobile phone the next morning.

At this time, Tang Xiaochao had already gone to prepare breakfast with Anton, so there was only Han Shen in the bedroom. He frowned and stretched out his hand from the bed, and connected without looking at it, and asked impatiently in a hoarse voice: "Who is there?" ah."

"Yo, still asleep, it's already afternoon here."

It's Fan Tian!

Han Shen woke up instantly when he heard the sound, opened his eyes, the corners of his lips couldn't help raising, and he smiled lazily: "Grass, you are still alive."

Fan Tiandao: "I know you were busy a few days ago, so I didn't bother you."

Han Shen narrowed his eyes to see the sunlight coming in through the gap of the blackout curtain, and said in a dragging voice, "I know you are Dad's caring little padded jacket, so it goes without saying."

Fan Tian scolded with a smile—————“Can you fucking be normal? Are you so happy that you won the runner-up?”

"Yeah, Daddy is happy? I'm very happy. I'll buy you a toy car when I come back."

Fan Tian couldn't help laughing, and said: "Also? There's no end to it. I've got business to call."

Han Shen yawned, "Then you say it, and you didn't pinch your mouth to stop it."

"You wait for me, big? I haven't seen you in half a year, and Piguo is itching." Fan Tian paused for a while, and then quickly said: "I just want to ask you what? Why come back, I'll catch you up." .”

Han Shen smiled when he heard the words, thought for a moment and said: "Maybe tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, I will tell you when the flight is scheduled."

Fan Tian replied: "Okay, don't forget, otherwise no one will pick you up then, don't blame me for drinking the cold wind at the airport."

"Okay? I got it. How can I be like my mother? How about calling you Mother Fan in the future?"

Fan Tian cursed and hung up the phone.

Han Shen just smiled, put down his phone and looked at the ceiling, he couldn't help but think in his heart, winter, it's already winter,—? It's been a whole year...

"What?" Han Shen's eyes widened, "You want to get together with us?"

Anton, who was eating a sandwich, nodded lightly, swallowed the food in his mouth unhurriedly and said, "Well, I want to feel—— Chinese New Year."

Han Shen squeezed the corn in his hand and squinted at Anton. He is not stupid, what? Why is there no Spring Festival, why didn’t you feel it last year and the year before, but you feel it this year?Obviously just to follow Tang Xiaochao!

However, even though Han Shen thought so in his heart, he didn't show it on the surface, and said as usual: "Then welcome, the food is guaranteed to be the same for three months. But do you have a specific plan? I can help you plan."

An Dong looked as usual, looked at Han Shen and said seriously: "No."

Han Shen: "..." This? It's obviously a request for shelter.

Han Shen squinted his eyes and smiled, and took the initiative to pave the steps for Anton, "Then why don't you live with me? But my parents won't go back to China this year, so I have to spend the Spring Festival at Xiaochao's house."

Anton's eyes flickered imperceptibly when he heard this, and he quickly said, "Okay, I can do it."

Do you want it? No way, Han Shen thought.

Tang Xiaochao, who was drinking soy milk at this time, interjected, "Then I will contact Auntie to prepare a room for you now."

Anton said: "Thank you, I'm sorry."

Seeing this, Han Shen couldn't help laughing and said, "What's the hurry? I have to go back to the apartment to live with Fan Tian for a few days, and then go to your house after the Chinese New Year." Han Shen looked at Anton again as he spoke, "So Anton , do you want to live with me first—? or? Live directly at Xiaochao's house and wait for me?"

At this time, Tang Xiaochao politely invited: "Brother Anton, why don't you come to my house directly, Auntie's cooking is delicious."

Han Shen smiled without saying a word.

Anton looked down for a moment, and said seriously: "Then I will go directly to Tang's house, it will be easier."

As expected.Han Shen looked at An Dong and Tang Xiaochao, smiled and waved his hands: "Okay, that's it? It's settled, I'll buy a plane ticket later."

Han Shen still doesn't want to interfere with the development of Anton and Tang Xiaochao. Anton can get along with Tang Xiaochao for half a year but he doesn't say anything, which is enough to show that he cares about it, not just for fun. In addition, Anton is mature and reliable, so Han Shen still thinks it is best to let nature take its course.And to be honest, Tang Xiaochao just needs someone like Anton to accompany him. The only shortcoming may be the height? The age difference is a bit big? Outsiders look like uncles and nephews.

A few people left? On the night before their departure, Donald, who had been silent for several months, suddenly contacted Han Shen, saying that he had something to return to him.Although Han Shen was puzzled, he went anyway and followed Donald to the rooftop of the hotel.

It's night now, and the wind on the roof is so strong that Han Shen wants to scold his mother, so he impatiently said to Donald next to him, "What? Say something quickly."

Donald looked at Han Shen, didn't say much, took out a velvet box from his pocket and handed it to Han Shen, and said at the same time: "This one is for you."

Han Shen frowned, took his hand and opened it—look, it's a watch, which Yu Xingnan bought for him as a gift.

"What else am I doing here?" Han Shen raised his eyebrows and asked.

Donald kept looking at Han Shen, "I'm afraid of meeting things and thinking about people."

Han Shen: "..." Just pretend he didn't ask.

Seeing the expression on Han Shen's face, Donald couldn't help but smiled and said, "Are you in trouble again?"

Han Shen frowned, and said after a while: "It's not a response, but can you stop saying these strange things suddenly in the future?"

"Brother, I won't be your substitute next year." Donald said suddenly.

Han Shen—? Startled, raised his eyebrows in disbelief, "Have you given up racing?"

Donald laughed: "How is it possible, you are still here."

"……Then what do you mean."

Donald looked up at the pitch-black night sky, exhaled a long -? breath and said, "I will be the official driver of another team next year, brother, then we can -? race together."

Han Shen was stunned for a long time when he heard the words, and it took a long time to come back to his senses. He nodded and said, "Congratulations, work hard!"

Donald smiled and said, "Of course, I will follow my brother."

Han Shen laughed: "Why do you go my way, go your own way, you know?"

"I know, I mean I will target you."

Han Shen said cheerfully: "Okay? I look forward to the day when you surpass me!"

Donald laughed, and then said in an unsightly way, "But in the meantime I'm going to keep chasing you."

Han Shen: "..." He stuffed the watch into his pocket casually, and then said with a blank expression, "If you say this again, I'll... damn it! What the hell are you doing?!"

Just before Han Shen finished speaking, Donald suddenly stepped forward, took advantage of Han Shen's unpreparedness, and hooked Han Shen around his neck and kissed him heavily on the cheek.

Han Shen reacted very quickly, turned around and took a few steps back, and then began to scold Donald.

It’s just that Donald just laughed at this, and started to walk back after the kiss. At the same time, he turned his back to Han Shen and waved his hands left and right: “This? It’s called a parting kiss, brother, see you on the track next year!” Donald didn’t finish his sentence , passed the corner and disappeared from Han Shen's sight.

Han Shenben was still frantically wiping his face with his sleeves, but after Donald's last words came to a sudden stop, the whole figure was frozen in place——like being stunned.

parting kiss...

From this, Han Shen couldn't help recalling the parting kiss he mentioned when he and Yu Xingnan parted in the parking lot more than four months ago.Although he proposed it on his own initiative, he was afraid that Yu Xingnan would regret it, so he didn't insist on it, and separated from that person hastily.

If you want to talk about what Han Shen regrets the most in the past four months, that is, when he parted with Yu Xingnan, he didn't give that bitter parting kiss.

He was so stingy.Han Shen thought so.