Long time no see (GL)

Gray dark clouds pressed down on the dark sky, causing the air pressure in Xuan'an to drop suddenly, and the indifferent wind swept across Gu Weiran's forehead fiercely. Only when the cold raindrops fell on his face did he feel a little bit.

Looking up at the sky, the white clouds are gone, and the black clouds are covering the top, sinking like her heart.

The bitter cold wind was like the roar of a wild beast, tearing at Gu Weiran's heart, never felt such heartache like this moment, just thinking of what Yun Shu said, it would break his heart.

The cold rain slapped Gu Weiran's body, but she didn't feel the cold, but she lost consciousness all over her body, her heart was torn into pieces by Yun Shu, she was full of despair for this world.

The last time she ran out like this, she still knew when Yun Shu became her little mother. At that time, she ran sullenly and stopped only to find that Yun Shu was following her.

But this time, she won't be here, right?

Every few steps Gu Weiran took, he hesitated whether to turn back or not, it was extremely hateful, she obviously hated her, but she was still looking forward to it.

She can't be there, and turning around will only see disappointment.

"Are you sick? Yes, you are sick." She asked herself and spurned herself. The people on the road were in a hurry, but she walked slowly, as if she wanted to wake herself up with the rain.

But she felt more and more uncomfortable. She didn't want to think about it but she couldn't control it. The grievance in her heart snowballed and became bigger and bigger.

Along the way, after seeing all the bleakness and withering in the rain, she walked like a walking dead, and finally walked home.

From the moment Yun Shu left, this family has no meaning?

After being scolded bloody by her, she still thought about it, Gu Weiran laughed dumbfounded, lowered her head and wiped the water from her face, and opened the door dejectedly.

"Hey, why did you come back at this point?" Su Qing came back to get things, and was very surprised to see Gu Weiran came back, and then saw that she was drenched in water, so she hurriedly pulled her in, "Why did you get so wet, take a shower and change clothes. "

Gu Weiran stared blankly at Su Qing, holding back her grievances, pouring out like flood water, she hugged Su Qing and began to sob, tears gushing out like broken pearls.

"It's okay, it's okay, you can cry if you want." Su Qing caressed her back. In the past few years, she hadn't even seen Gu Weiran shed tears, let alone cry into tears.

She didn't cry earth-shatteringly, she was extremely sad, she just shed dull tears.

After crying for a while, Gu Weiran gradually calmed down, Su Qing pushed her to the bathroom to take a bath, and went to the kitchen to make ginger tea for her.

Warm water poured down from her head, Gu Weiran felt her legs and feet were sore and limp like never before, she hugged herself and squatted down.

She hates herself like this, the whole world revolves around Yun Shu.

In the past, Yun Shu was gentle and amiable, and never lost her temper, but this time she came back, her body was covered with thorns, as long as Gu Weiran wanted to get close, she would be riddled with thorns.

why?Gu Weiran couldn't figure it out.

Su Qing walked out with ginger tea, and heard a "ding" sound from Gu Weiran's phone. She glanced at it and found that the interface displayed Yun Shu's name.

Su Qing was thoughtful, could it be that Weiran has something to do with Yun Shu?

The screen light gradually went out, turning into a black screen, and Gu Weiran walked out wearing a bathrobe.

"Ah Choo!" She sniffed her nose and shivered.

Su Qing brought the ginger tea over, "Hurry up and drink some to dispel the cold, what's the difference between being in the rain and self-abuse?"

"Drenching in the rain makes people sober, I wish I could knock myself out." Gu Weiran held the ginger tea in a dazed manner, her gaze was a little dull.

"What's the matter? Are you willing to say no?" Su Qing asked.

Gu Weiran took a sip of the ginger tea, and found that even if there was sugar in it, it still wouldn't sweeten her heart.

A rain and a burst of crying calmed her down a lot. She said, "I don't know what I did wrong in this matter, and it will make her furious..."

Gu Weiran recounted the ins and outs of the incident in detail, and she repeated what Yun Shu said, like sprinkling salt on an unhealed wound.

"Susu, do you think I'm cheap?! Why do I have to be troublesome? People don't appreciate it at all. They say she has nothing to do with me. They think I'm smart, so I owe it. I'm so mad." Gu Weiran Flushed with anger, he drank the ginger tea in one gulp.

Su Qing laughed out loud, "Gu Weiran, you are so stupid."

"What do you mean?"

"Mr. Yun should be concerned about you, so he will make hurtful words. The weight of her words means how much she worries about you. Besides, you are at fault for talking about this matter."

Gu Weiran stared at her, "Which side do you belong to? What did I do wrong? Besides, I didn't harm her, it's good for her, okay?"

"You broke her heart."

"what?"

Su Qing rubbed Gu Weiran's hands, said with a smile: "Actually, the reason is very simple, you like her."

"What?!" Gu Weiran jumped up in fright, "What nonsense are you talking about, I am asexual, hate love, resist marriage, and plan to never marry or love in this life, you already knew about this in college, right? How can I be gay?"

"Don't get excited..." Su Qing narrowed her eyes and said, "During the years of college, the number of times you mentioned Yun Shu to me was close to three digits. I'm familiar with everything you did before."

"Isn't that why we talked to each other? You also told me about the orphanage."

"It's true to talk to each other, but you rarely mention your parents. Your joy, happiness, loss, and even hatred are all about Yun Shu. Have you ever thought about why you couldn't accept her as your little girl in the end? Mom, the more you hate it, the more you care, why do you care so much?"

Gu Weiran couldn't answer this question.

Su Qing continued: "You like her, maybe it started earlier. You have been numb for so many years, rejected many suitors and even claimed to be asexual, but you just buried her in your heart, but hiding does not mean forgetting Ah, Wei Ran. Ask yourself, on the day you reunited with her, was there no joy other than shock? Did you not expect her to come back at all these years? "

The knot entwined in my heart seems to be unraveling slowly.

Gu Weiran thought that his heart was deserted, but he didn't know that Yun Shu had already planted an oasis there.

In the five years since they were separated, she has met all kinds of people, met all kinds of strange suitors, and heard endless love stories, and her heart has always been as calm as water.

The illnesses, wounds, blows at work, taunts from classmates, and advice from neighbors were all worse than the knife that Yun Shu slashed across her heart.

Little mother, this title that scalded her heart, trapped her for many years and became an untouchable thorn in her heart.

Only now did I realize that perhaps it was simply possessiveness at work.

She cared about Yun Shu, but did caring mean love?

"Impossible, she watched me grow up, and I care about her because of family affection..." Gu Weiran didn't know the taste of love, she didn't believe that those out-of-the-ordinary plots would happen to her.

But those things that took root in her heart always pricked when she was caught off guard.

She was a little hesitant, is it love?

"Weiran, love is a very pure thing. Your world will shine because of her. All your expectations, thoughts, and actions are all because of her, because she is already in your heart, and you don't need to think about how to do it." , the body is the most honest."

"It's a joke, what a joke..." Gu Weiran held his forehead, already dripping with cold sweat.

Seeing that she was unwilling to face it, Su Qing said softly: "Don't force yourself, just let it be. Well, I'll go back to the company first, call me if you have something to do, don't force yourself."

Gu Weiran sat on the sofa blankly, crystal drops of water hung from her hair, dripping down her neck, it was icy cold.

She hugged the pillow, and heard Su Qing's voice coming from the door, "Yun Shu has a message, let's take a look, she must be very anxious if you run away like this."

Gu Weiran raised his eyes feebly, looked at the mobile phone not far away, then retracted his gaze, and fell asleep on the sofa, his eyes were distracted and unfocused.

"Ding" the phone message rang again, and she covered her head irritably, not wanting to hear it.

Even if Yun Shu apologized, she would not forgive her!

She never wants to see that woman again, and she will never soften her heart, never!

Out of sight is out of mind!Gu Weiran returned to the bedroom to go to bed, but subconsciously stopped when she passed Yun Shu's room.

She pushed the door open in a strange manner. The furniture in the room was already a little old, and dust had accumulated in some places. Yun Shu's breath seemed to be fading away.

Gu Weiran frowned, turned around and returned with a basin of water, and started to scrub with a rag.

She kept the bookcases and tables spotless, and even the four-piece bed set was changed and washed normally.No one has lived in this room for a long time, but Yun Shu never seems to have left.

This door is like the door of Gu Weiran's heart, she closed it with her own hands, and then opened it with her own hands.

It turned out that her heart had always been on Yun Shu.

Gu Weiran turned grief and indignation into motivation, and unconsciously wiped the table with great strength. She squatted by the table, opened the drawer, and was about to clean it up. She found an old CD inside, and on the cover there were several obvious big characters: A lifetime of loneliness

This is a very old song, did Yun Shu like it in his early years?Gu Weiran didn't know at all.

Looking at the CD, she unconsciously hummed this song:

i think i'll always be alone

I've been so lonely all my life

i think i'll always be alone

so lonely forever

the bluer the sky

more afraid to look up

...

Humming and humming, Gu Weiran's tears flowed down, she seemed to feel that Yun Shu was facing the world alone in the boundless loneliness.

How does she feel when she listens to this song?Abandoned suddenly by my mother, I never say I miss it, I don’t complain about anything, I don’t complain about life, I don’t get discouraged when I get hit, and I always smile at life.

Yun Shu once said that when she is capable, she must go to her mother and ask her why she left without a word and abandoned herself.

It was only at this moment that Gu Weiran realized that the sadness of living under the fence, and Yun Shu's sensibility and optimism in those years were all forced out.

No matter how good her parents are to her, they can't make up for the missing part of her heart.

No one understood Yun Shu's pain.

Thinking of this, Gu Weiran wiped away her tears, rushed to the living room, picked up her phone, and clicked on the message from Yunshu: I'm sorry, I'm more afraid of losing