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Lu Jinsen took out the terminal from his pocket and wanted to send a message to Xie Zhitang's psychiatrist, but his finger rested on the dial key, hesitated for a while, and finally turned off the terminal and put it on the table.

Lu Jinsen opened Xie Zhitang's medical records for the past five years.

The first diagnosis and treatment record was the day after Xie Zhitang's 15th birthday. The psychologist asked him to make many scales.

On the night of his birthday, he revealed to his parents that he had some depression, anxiety, hostility, and psychotic tendencies.

However, when seeing a doctor, whether it is SAS (Self-rating Anxiety Scale), SDS (Self-rating Depression Scale), HCL-32 (Self-rating Hypomania Scale), or SCL-90 (Self-rating Mental Health Symptom Scale) ), only mild somatization disorder, moderate depression and moderate mania were detected in him.

And in the subsequent medical records, there are only diagnosis and treatment records for bipolar disorder and somatization disorder.

Lu Jinsen quickly read all the records.

Xie Zhitang did not communicate much with the psychiatrist, and the longest conversation was when Xie Zhitang was 17 years old.

It was a fine morning, Xie Zhitang was lazily basking in the sun by the window, but suddenly decided to go and see the grassland alone.

Xie Zhitang immediately told the housekeeper about this matter, but the housekeeper couldn't change Xie Zhitang's mind, so he had to prepare several fully charged terminals for Xie Zhitang, and fastened the locator on the corner of each of Xie Zhitang's clothes.

Xie Zhitang didn't wait for Xie's family to apply for the flight route, he just bought a ticket to the grassland and set off that afternoon.

Xie's father and mother were worried, and arranged for several bodyguards to follow Xie Zhitang secretly, but they were all thrown away by Xie Zhitang.Xie Zhitang, who came to the grassland, sent Father Xie a message, saying that he would be disconnected for three days, and he didn't want bodyguards to follow him, and he didn't need to look for him.

After sending the message, Xie Zhitang disappeared on the grassland.Only a few bodyguards were left looking at each other.

Xie father and mother are going crazy.

The grassland Xie Zhitang went to was a primitive grassland without people.Lions, leopards, rhinos, elephants, all the grassland animals you can think of are here.Even the most experienced adventurers dare not enter the grassland alone, but Xie Zhitang disappeared on this vast grassland.

For three days, Xie Zhitang used the terminal to report his father's safety every twelve hours. This was the only contact he had with the outside world, and it was only a single contact.

Until the end of the three-day period, Xie Zhitang appeared in the small hotel on the edge of the grassland, contacted the bodyguards that Xie's father had found, and was escorted back to Xie's house.

Xie's mother was terrified of Xie Zhitang's whim and inspiration, and hurriedly took him to a psychiatrist.Seen by his mother's tearful eyes, Xie Zhitang had no choice but to sit on the sofa honestly and play with the psychiatrist, asking and answering.

"Why do you want to go to the grassland?" the psychiatrist asked.

Xie Zhitang looked out the window and said: "Because the greening in the garden is done very well, it reminds me of the lush green grassland, so I want to see the grassland."

The psychiatrist then asked, "Did you make the decision impulsively?"

Xie Zhitang was silent for a few seconds before saying: "When I made this decision, I started planning my trip. I just wanted to see the grasslands.... Impulse, what do you mean?"

The psychiatrist said, "Your state of mind."

Xie Zhitang focused his gaze on the psychiatrist, smiled slightly and said, "Of course, the decision was made in a manic state."

Then the psychiatrist asked Xie Zhitang some things about the grassland, and Xie Zhitang answered them all, as if he had finally tried to open his heart to the psychiatrist.

Surprisingly, after the treatment ended, Xie Zhitang decided to change the psychiatrist again.

Lu Jinsen reopened the record and carefully read the conversation between the psychiatrist and Xie Zhitang again.

The psychiatrist asked, "Have you ever encountered a large animal?"

Xie Zhitang said: "Yes. There are elephants, crocodiles, zebras, and yaks."

The psychiatrist asked, "Are you scared?"

Xie Zhitang said: "I'm not afraid. I look at them."

Psychiatrist: "Just watching?"

Xie Zhitang: "Looking at it is enough."

Xie Zhitang said: "Animal migration is spectacular, but unfortunately I didn't see it with my own eyes."

"But I saw the bones." Xie Zhitang thought for a while and said, "Yak bones."

"There are really a lot of crocodiles." Xie Zhitang said, "How many animals are needed to feed them... The law of the jungle is the law of animals, but humans can't kill each other like this, right?"

The psychiatrist replied: "Yes."

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After talking with the psychiatrist, Xie Zhitang waited for five days and finally decided to change the psychiatrist.

Lu Jinsen closed the file and tapped on the table for a while with his fingertips.

He hasn't studied psychology systematically, and he can't grasp Xie Zhitang's mental state very well. He only feels that his behavior is very contradictory.

He offered to seek medical treatment, but kept silent to the psychiatrist.

After taking the medicine for five years, the doctor didn't even figure out his condition.

Lu Jinsen couldn't tell whether Xie Zhitang was actively treating the disease or passively resisting.

But he knew that what Xie Zhitang wanted was not just to live, not just to maintain life.

It is very easy to maintain a person's life. A vegetative person has several tubes inserted in his body, and he can also use medical equipment to hang his life.

But is such a person still alive?

Xie Zhitang went to university at the age of 14, with excellent grades; during this period, he also made many achievements in the field of art.

Such an intelligent genius, if he did not drop out of school due to illness at the age of 14, what achievements would he have in the future?

With so many thoughts, Lu Jinsen didn't want to think about it at all, got up and took the terminal back to the room, and took a shower again.

It was just after eleven o'clock after taking a shower. Lu Jinsen stood in front of the window and hesitated for a while.

There are dim lights outside the window.

The city is always bright at night, with countless lights like stars in the sky. Although the lights are small, thousands of families gather together and dare to compete with the sun and the moon.

Lu Jinsen finally poured half a glass of wine, opened the terminal to check a lot of information, and swallowed the wine and knowledge together.

When Lu Jinsen walked out of the bedroom the next day, Xie Zhitang scattered rice paper all over the living room floor.

Lu Jinsen lowered his head and looked over carefully. The paintings all over the floor were plum, orchid, bamboo, and chrysanthemum.

There are only deep and shallow ink marks on the paper, some have dried, some are still wet, printed on the white rice paper.

Lu Jinsen's art appreciation ability is not high. He can see that the painting is good, but he can't see what is good or how good it is.I just feel that Xie Zhitang's paintings are not bad compared to the ancient relics in the Lu family's old house that were paid a lot of money for auction.

While watching, Lu Jinsen saw Xie Zhitang coming out of the studio. Lu Jinsen was stunned when he saw him, and then he said, "I haven't painted for a few months, my hand is raw."

"It's beautiful." Lu Jinsen boasted.

Xie Zhitang smiled, looked down at the paintings on the ground, walked to the edge of a painting, half-kneeled and signed his name in the corner, then picked up the drawing paper with one hand and said to Lu Jinsen: "You can frame this painting Get up and give it to your mother, she will love it."

Lu Jinsen raised his eyebrows and took the painting, which was a pair of black bamboo.

Xie Zhitang said seriously: "If you go to buy a painting that is eight square feet in size like mine, it will be quite expensive. I will stamp you after you mount it, but I didn't bring my seal."

Lu Jinsen agreed, rolled up the painting and said, "Thank you on behalf of my mother."

"You're welcome," Xie Zhitang smiled slyly, and asked, "Can you come back earlier tonight to accompany me to buy painting materials?"