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Lu Jinsen was stunned for a full two seconds before telling the driver to turn around and drive home.

Reverse traffic is not allowed on the one-way street, the driver pressed the speeding line and circled around before rushing back. Lu Jinsen was checking the situation with the housekeeper.

Lu Jinsen didn't really believe that Xie Zhitang wanted to jump off the building. Now Xie Zhitang's condition? Has been effectively controlled, and the frequency of his illnesses has been greatly reduced. Now it is only 15 minutes before he goes out.

Xie Zhitang sent him out 15 minutes ago in good spirits, half a month ago Xie Zhitang was still in his arms, whispering like a secret, that Xie Zhitang was reluctant to die now.Occasionally there are sad or extreme thoughts, but he doesn't want to die.

Xie Zhitang said that he wanted to be with Lu Jinsen forever.

Whether it's illness or emotion, Xie Zhitang has no reason to leave. After 15 minutes of seeing him, he immediately fell ill so seriously that he wanted to vent his emotions by jumping off a building and committing suicide.

But this matter, 'Xie Zhitang intends to jump off the building'? matter, is not something that Lu Jinsen thinks is illogical and can be underestimated.Besides, Lu Jinsen suddenly thought of Xie Zhitang's condition? Report.

The butler quickly organized his words, telling Lu Jinsen the reason why he called Lu Jinsen and deduced that Xie Zhitang intended to jump off the building, and asked Lu Jinsen for help.

"Two minutes after you left the house, Mr. Xie received an express mail." The housekeeper spoke very carefully, without missing a single detail: "Mr. Xie showed eagerness when he opened the mail. Immediately got off the table, and even accidentally swept a glass on the floor, which I don't think is normal."

"Mr. Xie's mental state is unstable. I'm worried about his state, and I dare not leave him alone. Mr. Xie said he wanted to go to the rooftop to have a look, but he didn't let us accompany him when he got there. He leaned against the glass alone. It's too dangerous to read emails in the fence. Now the nurse is trying to talk to Mr. Xie to divert his attention, when will you arrive?" The butler asked quickly.

"10 minutes." Lu Jinsen glanced at the road conditions outside the window, estimated the itinerary and said, "I can arrive in 10 minutes at most."

Lu Jinsen thought for a while and said, "Give the terminal to Xie Zhitang and tell me I'm looking for him."

The butler responded immediately, trotted back to the rooftop and resumed his steady pace, handed the terminal to Xie Zhitang with a gentle attitude, and said that the opposite was Lu Jinsen.

After a short period of blank time passed, Xie Zhitang's voice mixed with the slight wind sound came: "What's wrong, brother?"

Lu Jinsen lied and came without writing a draft: "I left something in the room."

Xie Zhitang was stunned for a moment. He didn't expect that Lu Jinsen's sudden call was because of this. He turned his eyes from afar, turned his eyes back to the butler in front of him, and asked with a slight tilt of his head, "Do you need me to find it and send it to the public? Yes. Are there ingredients for this morning?"

"No need," Lu Jinsen's steady voice came from the terminal, and then dissipated in the wind: "I still have 10 minutes to get home."

Xie Zhitang responded and said, "Then I'll wait for you to come back."

The butler secretly breathed a sigh of relief, took the terminal handed over by Xie Zhitang, and asked, "Mr. Xie, are you going downstairs to wait for Mr. Lu?"

It was the windy time in the early morning, and there were no tall buildings around the villa to block the wind. Xie Zhitang was wearing thin clothes, without a coat, and the heat from his body was blown cold.

"I'll just wait here for him to come back." Xie Zhitang smiled slightly, turned around and turned his direction slightly, and turned his gaze to the direction where Lu Jinsen was going home. He loosely pinched a few pieces of paper in the mail with his fingertips, The paper swayed and curled with the wind, as if it would be blown away by the wind in the next second and fall into the distance.

The driver knew that Xie Zhitang was going to commit suicide? The matter was no small matter. He drove the car very fast along the way, and stopped in the underground garage of the villa in seven or eight minutes.The housekeeper and the nurses were all waiting for him in the garage, and when they saw him coming, they immediately opened the elevator door.

"Mr. Xie said he was waiting for you on the roof." The housekeeper quickly finished speaking, and helped Lu Jinsen press the roof button and got out of the elevator.Lu Jinsen went straight to the rooftop.

When Xie Zhitang designed the decoration of his new home, he would often ask him for his opinion. Xie Zhitang designed the roof fence into a glass style and Lu Jinsen also agreed.Glass is more convenient to enjoy the surrounding scenery than other fences.

But the bad glass is also obvious.

The elevator door opened slowly, and Lu Jinsen saw Xie Zhitang at the first sight.

The glass was clean and transparent, and Lu Jinsen almost thought that there was nothing behind Xie Zhitang. Xie Zhitang was standing on the edge of the empty balcony, plus what the housekeeper said, "Mr. Xie is going to jump off the building." It had an impact on Lu Jinsen.

For a moment, he had the illusion that Xie Zhitang had Xie Zhitang's resolute thoughts.

Lu Jinsen paused and stepped out of the elevator, Xie Zhitang turned around and smiled at Lu Jinsen when he heard the sound, "Brother came back so fast."

Lu Jinsen said "Yes." Then he looked at the nurse.The nurse stood by the elevator and couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief when he saw Lu Jinsen arrive.

Xie Zhitang didn't talk to her at all.

She wanted to divert Xie Zhitang's attention, so she pretended to be relaxed... chatting with Xie Zhitang, trying to interact with Xie Zhitang.Unexpectedly, Xie Zhitang smiled politely and said to her after listening to what she said: "I'm sorry, I don't want to chat now. Can you please stay away from me a little bit, I need a certain amount of personal space now."

After that, Xie Zhitang didn't say a single word again, but after she opened her mouth, she gave her a look full of condemnation, almost making her feel guilty, and then turned her head and leaned back to look into the distance.

Xie Zhitang's state is abnormal and depressed, but she feels that Xie Zhitang's thinking is still very clear, and he has not fallen into an extreme state. This is still a controllable emotion.

So she slowly backed away from Xie Zhitang's side, giving Xie Zhitang some personal space, just standing aside and staring at Xie Zhitang, lest anything happen to Xie Zhitang.

And now that Lu Jinsen has arrived, her mission is over.

Lu Jinsen nodded slightly to the nurse, and stepped out of the elevator sideways. The nurse immediately entered the elevator, leaving room for them both.

Lu Jinsen? Xie Zhitang looked at each other, but didn't go in.Instead, he pulled away the chair on the roof and sat down, then patted the tabletop, signaling Xie Zhitang to sit opposite him.

Xie Zhitang, who had a cold and indifferent expression just now, softened quickly after Lu Jinsen came home. Xie Zhitang obediently opened the chair and sat down, put the mail on his lap, looked at Lu Jinsen obediently, and waited for Lu Jinsen to speak.

But they looked at each other, and it was Xie Zhitang who spoke first.

"Brother came back because... the butler suspected that I wanted to jump off the building?" Xie Zhitang saw Lu Jinsen's unhurried expression and suddenly understood something, guessing: "He is very nervous."

"Yeah." Lu Jinsen didn't choose to hide from Xie Zhitang, and said lightly, "The housekeeper doesn't know you yet, and the preparations he made about your illness before coming here made him even more nervous."

"The wind is raging, and the grass and trees are all soldiers." Xie Zhitang smiled understandingly, then shook his head and looked at Lu Jinsen and said, "I won't. I don't want to part with it."

He was reluctant and unwilling.

Lu Jinsen stared at Xie Zhitang for a few seconds and asked, "Why didn't you bring your coat?"

Xie Zhitang didn't expect that Lu Jinsen would ask him this, and was momentarily stumped.After a while, he said, "I forgot."

Xie Zhitang met Lu Jinsen's gaze and blinked obediently, "I won't do it next time."

Lu Jinsen nodded slightly to indicate that he accepted this explanation, and asked slowly, "How about the test results?"

This question was not answered directly, Xie Zhitang asked back: "Brother...do you like children very much?"

The question 'Do you like children' is too strange, and the inspection report has nothing to do with it, but Xie Zhitang looked at Lu Jinsen very seriously, wanting Lu Jinsen to give him an answer.

Seeing Xie Zhitang's serious expression, Lu Jinsen frowned and guessed the purpose of Xie Zhitang's question. He thought for a while and finally asked, "Tangtang doesn't like children?"

Xie Zhitang was silent for a while, then nodded slowly.

This? Lu Jinsen guessed the result, but Lu Jinsen is not satisfied with this.He even wanted to know Xie Zhitang's thinking - what Xie Zhitang was thinking when he asked him if he liked children.

Xie Zhitang saw Lu Jinsen's question, couldn't help lowering his head and glanced down, then raised his head and said to Lu Jinsen, "Brother wants two children? I...I don't want to..."

Xie Zhitang paused for a moment and continued to speak with difficulty: "I don't want a child....Whether it's my own or adopted, I don't want it. I'm a little scared..."

Xie Zhitang slowly tried to open up to Lu Jinsen, but it was still difficult.

But before he finished speaking, Lu Jinsen said calmly: "Then don't have children."

The wind on the roof was cool, but Xie Zhitang didn't feel cold.

Lu Jinsen's answer was within his expectation, but also beyond his expectation?Xie Zhitang knew that Lu Jinsen would choose him, but he didn't expect that Lu Jinsen would choose not to have children so easily, so he said, "But, Jiang Haichao said, you decided very early on that you would have two children in your life plan .”

Speaking of this, Xie Zhitang couldn't help lowering his eyes to avoid Lu Jinsen's gaze, and continued: "I don't want...your life will have regrets because of me. I..."

"I really think so." Xie Zhitang looked at Lu Jinsen with a seriousness to the point of almost swearing: "I hope you can get everything you want."

Xie Zhitang... Lu Jinsen looked at each other for a long time, and finally Lu Jinsen couldn't help but sighed.

Xie Zhitang's thinking logic is still distorted and abnormal. Although he has consciously controlled it, he is often extreme and closed without knowing it.But Lu Jinsen has already made good mental preparations, this? It must be a protracted battle.

Maybe Xie Zhitang will never recover in his life, but Lu Jinsen is willing to spend his whole life falling in love with him and fighting the disease together with him.

So Lu Jinsen said to Xie Zhitang slowly and word by word: "Tangtang, it is impossible to have a perfect plan in the world. The plan will never keep up with the changes? My life plan is just my speculation about my future life? ?Looking ahead, but it doesn’t need to be set in stone to be absolutely executed.”

"You are my future partner, and you will spend my life with me. I respect all your rights... opinions, including having children or whether to adopt a child." Lu Jinsen looked at Xie Zhitang, and finally picked a light-hearted topic: " Tangtang's life plan should also be constantly changing, right?"

Xie Zhitang nodded, his plan has been overturned and reset continuously since he met Lu Jinsen, and now it has undergone earth-shaking changes?

"Any difficulty has its solution." Lu Jinsen said: "Tangtang, as long as you bring it up, anything? We can try to solve it together."

"What if it can't be solved?" Xie Zhitang asked urgently.

"If it can't be resolved, I will spend it with you."

Xie Zhitang didn't say anything else, but suddenly lowered his head and smiled lightly, as if he had removed countless shackles, and stretched his eyebrows and eyes.

Xie Zhitang said softly: "Brother, don't rush home because of this kind of news in the future, I won't commit suicide. Even if I really have the idea of ​​suicide, I will immediately notify the doctor for human intervention. I want to talk to you Together, always together."

Xie Zhitang picked up the report on his lap, took out one and put it on the top, then put the report on the table and turned around to face Lu Jinsen.

This? It's a fMRI, made up of dark and light colors.

Lu Jinsen could barely see the shape of a brain, but he knew nothing about their names and nature.

So he couldn't see the damage on Xie Zhitang's frontal lobe.

"I was very nervous before I got the report. I didn't know what the report would bring me... You said that everyone can choose who they want to be. But I think genes also play a big role in shaping a person, So I can't suppress the feeling of fear... or loneliness." Xie Zhitang said: "But now I am very happy."

The wind gradually died down.The wind just now blew away the clouds, and the sun finally reappeared, casting light generously, covering Xie Zhitang's whole body.

Xie Zhitang's fingertips pointed to the frontal lobe and lightly tapped on the orbitofrontal cortex on the image, raised his head and smiled at Lu Jinsen, "Look, it's bright because I was thinking about you at the time."

"I love you."

The author has something to say: the text is over!

I think the end is not the end, it's a new beginning.

It's over, but the story of Sensen and Tangtang is still going on.

Like a documentary filming a blue whale, the documentary is over, but the blue whale continues to swim in its deep sea.

I think this is a very good time to 'end the filming'. That MRI image gave Xie Zhitang great hope, and this is a new node for them.

In fact, you can continue to watch them get engaged in public, get married amidst doubts and blessings, exchange rings and kiss at the wedding... to achieve a very happy ending with a sense of ending.

But a bright and warm future may not have any sense of ending, but it might not be a good ending.

(After thinking about it, let me explain the function of the MRI. To put it simply, Xie Zhitang thought he was 50.00% damaged, but when the inspection results came out, it turned out that he was only 30.00% damaged. His confidence immediately increased.)

(Before, Xie Zhitang would doubt whether I really loved him. Now Xie Zhitang can only think happily, I love him, I love him, I love him.)

In addition, I wrote all three extra stories.

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.感谢在2021-01-1422:06:37~2021-01-1820:59:57期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: r1 is not ry1;

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of Mingyue; 1 bottle of Quacking Gugu;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!