If you don't follow the stars, you will follow me

After Lin Hanchen left, Lin Xuan hid in bed and stared blankly for a while.Just now I told my brother what I have been thinking for many years, and I can't talk about relief or relaxation.The problem between them has existed for so many years. Judging from Lin Hanchen's expression, he obviously did not accept what he said, but being able to open up and chat with his brother like this is progress, isn't it?Lin Xuan grinned silently, and sent Gao Tiannan a WeChat message: 【My brother is a big fool. 】

【Are you a little fool? 】

Lin Xuan reckoned that Gao Tiannan had already fallen asleep, so he didn't expect him to reply to the message, and he didn't expect that there would be a surprise.Knowing that Gao Tiannan had no other intentions, Lin Xuan secretly kept this "little fool" as a love story.

"Good night, Brother Nan." Lin Xuan murmured to Gao Tiannan's WeChat profile picture, and fell asleep holding his phone.

On the other side, Song Tian was still sitting on the ground, and Lin Hanchen also kept lying on his side without moving.

"Before I was ten years old, I grew up in an orphanage. I don't remember how I got there. In short, my life in the orphanage was not good. There are children with all kinds of personalities. I am clumsy with my hands and mouth, so I just I hide from them everywhere, but nothing happened. At most, the food is not delicious, and I sometimes go hungry. Many children have been adopted. Some have a good life, and some have a bad life. They sneaked back and were taken away .Maybe it’s too obvious that I’m not likable, and I don’t even have anyone willing to adopt me.” Song Tian spoke suddenly.Talking about his own affairs made his hands and feet weak and his tone trembling.This was supposed to be his deepest secret, and he planned to keep it for the rest of his life, but he didn't expect that there would be a day when he would say it himself.

Perhaps Song Tian has been depressed for too long. For 23 years, no one has ever asked him how he is doing. No one has ever cared about his feelings. He has been silent all the time. Let him find a vent and a reason to shout.That's why he couldn't help telling Lin Hanchen, even if he just got an "oh" in the end, it was better than being suffocated by this increasingly heavy stone.

I don't know if Song Tian's misfortune should be counted from the orphanage or from the age of 10. Before the age of 10, life was poor and difficult, and no one depended on each other. After the age of 10, the Song couple gave him a brief warmth before pushing him off the cliff.

When he was adopted at first, Song Tian was very happy. He tried his best to be a good boy, prepared dinner every day before his adoptive parents got off work, and took the initiative to clean up after dinner.Those who can't keep up in school secretly memorize books in bed in the middle of the night, never play with classmates after school, and never go out during holidays.Other classmates have small cakes and pocket money, but he has never asked his adoptive parents for anything.

His cuteness was seen by his adoptive parents, and the three of them enjoyed themselves happily. His adoptive father would praise him from time to time, and his adoptive mother would cook him some delicious meals when he was resting.Occasionally, I would take him to the amusement park, or buy him snacks.

This kind of life lasted for about half a year. When Song Tian thought his misfortune was about to end, Song's mother became pregnant.The couple were so happy that the adoptive mother even hugged Song Tian and kissed him when he came back from school.

"Thank you, Song Tian, ​​you are really our little lucky star."

It's hard to describe Song Tian's mood when he heard his adoptive mother's words. He even wanted to blurt out "Mom".But before he called out, the husband and wife happily discussed about the child, forgetting about Song Tian.

"The later phrase "Mom" never had a chance to be called again." Song Tian snorted self-deprecatingly.Until now, he still calls his adoptive parents "Uncle Song, Aunt Song".

For Aunt Song, who has been unable to conceive a child, this hard-won child is a gift from God, so she is extra careful, strictly follows the doctor's orders in daily life, and even quits her job without hesitation.

Song Tian was worried that the birth of a child would make him lose the care of his adoptive parents, and at the same time envied this child who was regarded as a treasure before he was born.

When Aunt Song was pregnant, his role became more and more obvious.Uncle Song is busy working to support his family, and the burden of taking care of Aunt Song falls on Song Tian and Grandma Song.Grandma Song was in poor health, and Aunt Song even wanted Song Tian to drop out of school to take care of her. In the end, Uncle Song felt that the child was too young and couldn't bear to do so, so Aunt Song rejected Aunt Song's idea.It's a pity that Song Tian is not suitable for studying, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't improve his grades. In the end, he only studied in high school.In the end, it was Uncle Song who had no heart to let him give up going to school.

After the younger brother was born, he was named Song Tianci, and the whole family pampered him like a baby.As an older brother, he is more like a saddle than a horse.If the younger brother falls, you should blame him for not taking good care of him;

"Look, there is only one word difference between Song Tian and Song Tianci, but in fact they are very different." Song Tian probably said that he was enjoying himself, and simply lay down on the spot in the shape of "big", staring at the ceiling with his eyes empty.

When Song Tianci was in kindergarten, his adoptive parents thought of abandoning him.What they were thinking about was Song Tianci's future education expenses. If there was one less person, Song Tianci could be enrolled in two more training classes.In the eyes of his adoptive parents, Song Tian's value is equivalent to two training classes.

Maybe it's because of his childhood experience, maybe it's because of his personality, the 14-year-old Song Tian has neither puberty nor rebellion.He heard the conversation of his adoptive parents, and he didn't make a fuss or leave in a cool way. He cried and begged his adoptive parents not to abandon him. He could eat less rice and do more things, as long as he didn't want him.

After all, they have been together for more than four years, and Song Tian is indeed well-behaved. They finally reached a consensus on the condition that they will go to work if they do not have good grades in high school.However, Song Tian, ​​who had really bad grades, dropped out of school in the first year of high school and went to a restaurant to help cook.Later, when it was time to order food, he was spotted by scouts and hired as an entertainer.

Artists, in the eyes of adoptive parents who study and work step by step, get married and have children, are synonymous with no shame.When they knew that Song Tian had become an artist, their faces were very ugly.Fortunately, Song Tian was over 20 at that time, and the weak connection between them was not enough to restrict Song Tian's freedom.Originally ashamed to speak, after hearing about Song Tian's salary, they readily accepted his job and asked to take part of it home without disturbing their family.

"Now that I think about it, I was so stupid back then, why would I ask them to keep me? If I just turned around and walked away..."

"To meet me."

Song Tian turned his head and looked at Lin Hanchen blankly.When he said this, he was already lying on the bed, and he didn't remember whether he was dragged up by Lin Hanchen or carried up by him.Lin Hanchen was leaning against him, talking about everything that happened to him in order to meet him.

Song Tian cried.He talked about his 23 years of gloomy life without crying, but because of Lin Hanchen's words, he burst into tears.He cried freely, and seemed to shed the grievances and unwillingness of these years with tears.He was panting and hiccupping from crying. "Bastard! Hiccup! Trash! Fuck it..." Song Tian yelled while hiccupping, and he didn't know who he was scolding, maybe everyone should scold him, including himself.

Lin Hanchen didn't get angry when he heard his swearing, and grabbed him into his arms with his right hand.She patted his head with one hand, and patted his back with the other to comfort him.Compared with Song Tian's experience, the sins he caused in those years because he was jealous of his younger brother's favoritism really shouldn't have happened.Maybe Lin Xuan is right. The mother's dying sentence "You still have a younger brother" is not to ask him to take care of his younger brother, but to remind him that he is not alone, so don't always feel lonely. Mom sent a younger brother to accompany him. You……