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Wang Yang followed the little nurse to the payment window and asked about Fang Shen's situation. Generally, family members went through the hospitalization procedures, and Wang Yang was handsome and polite. Wang Yang said it again.

The more Wang Yang listened, the more serious his expression became, until the end his facial lines were completely stiff, and he couldn't even smile when thanking the nurse.

After completing the hospitalization procedures, Wang Yang hesitated for a moment, handed the things to the nurse and asked her to bring them to Fang Mao, but did not follow.

It's not that he didn't want to see Fang Shen, he even wanted to rush to Fang Shen's bed immediately and ask him why he abused his body so much, why... lived his life like this...

In the past five years, the only belief that supported Wang Yang to study hard and work hard in California was Fang Shen.

He thought that if Fang Shen left, he would really live a stable and happy life. Although he felt terribly sad, as long as Fang Shen lived well, he could grit his teeth and resist no matter how hard it was.

He only hoped that one day, when he came back here and met again, that person would still smile freshly and purely as in his memory, always retain the innocence of a young man, and live willfully without knowing the world.

He was looking forward to the opportunity to stand in front of Fang Shen again, and asked Fang Shen, is he qualified to stand by his side now?

But Wang Yang never thought that he would see such a Fang Shen.

A Fang Shen who was so thin that he was out of shape, smoothed all sharp edges and corners, gave up all dreams and hopes, became dependent on drugs and alcohol to the point of hallucinations... Such a walking dead Fang Shen...

Wang Yang knew that he could not meet Fang Shen now, and he was afraid that he would not be able to control his emotions when he saw that face.

But there was a fire in his heart, and the past scenes were replayed in his mind. He had doubted that strange ending for so many years, but it had never been so sharp and clear as this moment. The answer that had been buried for many years was almost ready to come out...

Standing in the corridor of the hospital, Wang Yang remembered that when he learned that his mother had cancer five years ago, he also met Fang Shen who came to see Fang Mao here.

Fate is really a wonderful thing, after going around and around, it turns out that the answer is here.

He propped his hands on the window sill of the hospital, took a deep breath, closed his eyes and stood there for a long time.

After sorting out all his emotions, Wang Yang walked into his mother's ward with a calm face. His mother could hardly speak now, and his father was sitting by the bed and reading today's newspaper to her.

Wang Yang patted his father's thin shoulders, resisted the soreness in his heart, and said softly, "Dad, you go out for a walk, you can't sit like this all the time, you go out and move around. I'll read to my mother."

After speaking, he took the newspaper from his father and pushed him to stand up.

Dad nodded, moved his stiff legs, looked at his mother and said softly: "I'll go out for a walk, and I'll be back in a while."

Mom looked at Dad, with a slight smile in her eyes, and nodded lightly.

Wang Yang sat on a chair, listening to his father's footsteps gradually walking away, and then finished reading a piece of news where his father was reading.

Mom looked at Wang Yang until he finished the last sentence. She opened her mouth and uttered a hoarse syllable: "Say."

Wang Yang put the newspaper on his lap, subconsciously grasped the edge of the newspaper and folded it back and forth, looked at his mother's deeply sunken cheek, and said with difficulty: "If I still insist on being with him, can you forgive me?" ?”

He spoke very carefully, trying to slow down every word as much as possible, but even so, when he saw his mother squinting her eyes and coughing violently, Wang Yang's heart still ached as if pierced by a steel needle stand up.

Wang Yang threw away the newspaper in his hand, grabbed his mother's dry wood-like hand and rubbed it lightly, the determination in his eyes collapsed, and he said incoherently: "I was wrong...I was wrong...don't be angry, you must Don't be mad...I'll never mention it again...I promise..."

Mom managed to catch her breath, closed her eyes and lay on the bed. After a long time, she opened her mouth and uttered two syllables: "Get married..."

Wang Yang's eyes flickered, he held his mother's hand and lowered his head, his voice was tense as if he would lose his voice at any moment: "Mom, don't force me... we... let's not force anyone, okay... I I promise you that I won't go back to him, but in this life... I can't get married... You know me, right?..."

Wang Yang laughed as he spoke, and the bitter laughter reverberated in the ward, looking a bit bleak: "You know me...you know me best...that's why you went to him back then, right?..."

Wang Yang raised his head, met his mother's surprised gaze, pursed his lips and frowned, thought for a while, and made up his mind: "You are my mother, and it is my fault that I can't be a son who satisfies you. This matter I don't blame anyone. I don't blame anyone for losing the person I love most in my life. The only thing I can promise you is that I won't look for him, and I won't look for anyone else. But I won't get married either. In this life, whether I die alone or die in bleakness, this is my destiny."

Wang Yang looked at the anxiety in his mother's eyes and the tears falling from the creases at the corners of the eyes, his heart was like a handful of dead ashes, only endless sourness remained, and even this sourness could not withstand a gust of wind.

The wind blows and the dust disperses, and in a blink of an eye, there is nothing left.

The vastness of the sky, the breadth of the earth, the depth of the sea... no place can accommodate him, no place can accommodate them.

Wang Yang stretched out his hand, gently wiped away the tears from the corners of his mother's eyes, and continued: "Li Yanan said that I chose the most difficult path, and my father said that I am a normal person, but I want to be a pervert..." He said There was a bitter arc at the corner of his mouth, and his voice became a little ethereal, "But only I know, how can I have a chance to choose? These are all my life."

After Wang Yang finished speaking, he smiled and lay down on the hospital bed, buried his face in his mother's thin palm, and warm tears flowed out along the messy lines of her mother's palm.

Mom moved her fingers, trying to grab something, but in the end it was all in vain.

She closed her eyes, two trickles of tears streaming from the corners of her eyes.Ms. Wu Cuifen, a strong iron woman, shed all the tears that she hadn't shed in her life in the last few days of her life.

Fang Shen experienced hallucinations due to drug abuse for too long and alcoholism, and overdose of diazepam before going to bed was almost fatal.

After diagnosis, the doctor said that Fang Shen suffered from severe depression and needed psychological intervention and oral antidepressant drugs for treatment.

Listening to the doctor's words, Fang Mao felt like he was losing his mind.

In the past few years, Fang Shen still loves the poor and loves to laugh at home as before, taking his two children out to play when he has nothing to do.

When Fang Mao asked him about his relationship, he always said that he would not let Fang Mao worry about it. Fang Mao thought that he just hadn't met someone who could make him settle down...

Fang Mao thought of the bedroom when he entered Fang Shen's house in the morning with heavy curtains drawn so he couldn't tell the difference between day and night, the neat and clean but empty living room...

She bit her lip to hold back her tears, filled with regret.

After having Wu Xiaojia, she has never been to Fang Shen's apartment again. Although she usually cooks delicious food and asks Fang Shen to go home for dinner, she has her own home after all, and then she has Fang Xiaoye...Fang Mao Being so busy around the family and children, it's pitiful how little energy can be devoted to caring about Fang Shen.So much so that she didn't realize that Fang Shen was seriously ill...

Fang Mao endured the soreness in her chest and came out of the doctor's office. The professor waited for her at the door with two children. She glanced at the two children listlessly and said to the professor, "Take the children back, I want to stay The hospital is guarding Fang Shen."

The professor was a little worried looking at Fang Mao's appearance, but the two children staying here really added to the chaos, so he had to take the children and leave first.

Fang Mao returned to the ward and looked at Fang Shen lying on the hospital bed. When did his tall and healthy younger brother become so thin, lying on the hospital bed like a fragile piece of paper, as if it would disappear when the wind blows.

Fang Mao couldn't hold back her tears anymore. She lay on Fang Shen's hospital bed and sobbed in a low voice, saying over and over again, "I'm sorry...it's my sister who didn't take care of you..."

Fang Shen woke up amidst Fang Mao's crying, and was dazed for a moment, his eyes finally found focus, but he felt dry and painful in his throat, as if it was split.

He raised his hand, put his broad palm on the back of Fang Mao's head, and said with difficulty: "What's wrong with you? Did you quarrel with the professor? Why are you crying like this?" His voice was dry and broken, and he swallowed, feeling a sharp pain in his throat .Fang Shen couldn't help but raise his eyebrows.

Hearing Fang Shen's voice, Fang Mao raised her head in a hurry, seeing Fang Shen's eyes, her tears couldn't stop, she cried and asked Fang Shen: "How are you? Is there any discomfort? Headache or stomach pain? What? Did you feel sick? They washed your stomach, did you feel any pain?"

Fang Shen's brain hadn't returned to normal operation yet, but "stomach lavage" made him realize that his sore throat was probably the result of gastric lavage with a tube inserted...

He frowned, resisting the discomfort in his throat, and said, "I want to drink water."

Fang Mao wiped the messy tears on his face indiscriminately, got up and poured a glass of warm water for Fang Shen, Fang Shen sat up and drank the water and felt much better.

He looked at Fang Mao with a puzzled look on his face, and asked, "Why am I in the hospital? Why are you washing my stomach?"

Fang Mao was so angry that he wanted to scold someone when he heard this question, but looking at Fang Shen with a haggard face, he remembered that the doctor said that he had depression, and Fang Mao was so distressed that he couldn't swear, so he finally sighed and said with a bit of complaint: " You took too much sleeping pills last night... I almost couldn't wake up this morning..." Fang Mao said, thinking of seeing Fang Shen lying on the bed breathing weakly in the morning, he still had lingering fears, if she went later...

She couldn't help but thumped Fang Shen's leg, and cried, "You almost scared me to death, do you know that! You will never be allowed to take sleeping pills again, do you know that?"

Fang Shen frowned, he couldn't remember what happened last night...

He sighed, took Fang Mao, who was out of breath from crying, into his arms, and comforted him gently.

Fang Mao muttered while crying: "If something really happens to you, what do you want me to do... I don't have parents anymore, and if you don't even have you, what do you want me to do..."

Fang Shen felt sore in his heart, he patted Fang Mao on the back lightly, and kept saying sorry.

Fang Mao was tired from crying, and sat on the edge of the bed, looked at Fang Shen, and said, "I saw Wang Yang in the hospital just now, and he took care of your hospitalization procedures for you."

Fang Shen froze for ten seconds before he broke into a distorted smile and said, "Really...that's a coincidence..."