Just wait till you die

"What is the purpose of everything you do?"

After I asked, Itachi was silent for about half a minute, and the closed box finally loosened: "What do you know?"

"I don't know anything. But, I have brains."

After Shisui's death, many things began to change rapidly. The panicked clansmen, Itachi who seldom went home, more and more eyes outside the clan... The day before the disaster started, the patriarch, his wife, and Itachi all found me. .Parents always care about their children, so the patriarch asked me to observe Itachi's state more, and Mrs. Mikoto told me not to separate from Sasuke, only Itachi sent a crow to tell me not to take Sasuke home early.

"Take care of him." Itachi told me that more than once.

"I did what you said," I said, without taking my eyes off him for a moment, "but you should also tell me your reasons."

"It's impossible for Zhishui to commit suicide. You were by his side when he died, right? Otherwise, where did you get the kaleidoscope Sharingan? Also, you can't suddenly exterminate the clan. Someone ordered you, right? Who are those people? ?yes,"

I stared into his eyes, hoping to see something else from his eyes, "People from the village? No, it's the third generation? It's impossible for him not to know about such a big event."

"I don't remember you being such a caring person."

Itachi tried to change the subject, maybe thinking about the timing of leaving, but how could I let him go?Let go of this once-in-a-lifetime opportunity?If he runs away again, where should I go to collect debts from him?

I took another step forward and forced him to confront me, "Everyone is subject to change. No one exists apart from others. If so, then this person can no longer be called a human being. Even I, in In such a situation, there is still you, Shisui, and Sasuke’s company, I don’t speak, but it doesn’t mean I can’t feel anything.”

I am used to being silent, but it is impossible to be silent forever.The relationship between people is very fragile. Even good friends who would die if they were not together when they were young will gradually distance themselves because of their respective pursuits until they no longer contact each other.This kind of relationship is very strong. If a classmate you have never communicated with suddenly dies one day, you will also be sad together.Silence doesn't mean I don't care about others, I just don't dare.

Fear of death, fear of revenge, fear of gossip... I'm afraid of too many things, but in the end, I can't be afraid of these things forever.

Konoha has always used his teammates as a bond to lock everyone, so Qihai will try his best to promote the relationship between me and everyone, even if he cuts off the connection between me and him in the end, it is impossible for me Therefore, I am cold-hearted to my teammates.They are innocent, I know better than anyone, and from this I also realize that maybe many people are like Nanami, carrying something that I can't see.

Itachi, itachi is also like this, right?Otherwise, in the end, why would Sasuke forgive him?

Hearing what I said, he became silent again, this time for a little longer, so long that I wanted to go over to see how Sasuke was doing.But when I moved, he stopped me.

"You take Sasuke seriously?" He finally started to echo my words.

"Yes, I have never lived without purpose, isn't that why you chose me?"

I have no purpose, so I don’t expect anything in return, I won’t give up halfway, I won’t whine, I’m better than anyone else.

It is also because of this that I can easily trust anyone, easily be manipulated by others, and submit to it.My weakness was so obvious, Itachi took advantage of me easily.

"Then keep your current state, Xiyin, this is enough for you, no matter what I do next, I will..."

Before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted.

"boom"

Itachi finally opened his mouth, but at a critical moment, a big cockroach smashed into the wall, and broken stones flew all over the space.

"You all underestimate me. I won't be fooled by such a simple illusion enchantment."

I don't know the person who came here. He shook his hair that looked more prickly than Sasuke's. His face was full of sunken old man's folds. A big word "oil" was written on his forehead.

His eyes are still a little out of focus, which is caused by the illusion I set up to prevent outsiders from eavesdropping. I thought no one would dare to approach, but I didn't expect someone to be tricked.

Itachi escaped through the hole made by his partner in the smoke.

"What's your relationship with that traitor?"

The person behind asked, I don't know when he was standing behind me, and his questioning tone should be someone from Konoha, and he knew Itachi.

I ignored him, swayed weakly, squatted beside Sasuke, and helped him up.

"This outfit?" The stranger was still thinking about my identity, "Is it one of the remaining Uchihas?"

I hugged Sasuke, lifted him so that his head rested on my shoulder, walked to Naruto again, and looked coldly at the stranger who was guarding Naruto.I already remembered who he is, one of Konoha's Sannin, Jiraiya.

"What do you want to do?" He asked, asking the boss to carry Naruto on his back to prevent my next move.

It looks like he and Naruto are together, then it's none of my business.I said, "Go back to Konoha."

"Come with us," Jiraiya said thoughtfully, "We just happen to be meeting another person, and she's pretty good at medical ninjutsu."

Have you been suspected for talking to Renren?Want me to be watched under your nose?

"No need." Anyway, I have many lice and I am not afraid of itchiness, why can't I find pleasure for myself?

What Itachi didn't say in the end, everything became clear in the monthly reading before leaving: He told me not to interfere.

Don't meddle, as before, be deaf!Be blind!Be dumb!Be retarded!

Why does he think that I will listen to him without hesitation?

Itachi, people change, I want to slap you in the face right now!

Seeing the unconscious Sasuke, Sakura forgot her fear of me for a moment, and came to visit Sasuke every day. I sat on the chair and watched her go about her business in vain.

"Are you afraid of me?" I asked her when I had time.

Her green eyes shrank suddenly, and she was so frightened by my words that she backed up a few steps and bumped into the window.

The curtain was blown up by the wind brought by her movement and fell on her body. She stood up stiffly, which made me bored for a while.

"You are so weak."

I commented on her, watching her throw down the towel in a panic and run out against the wall.

Heh, it seems that I am still a stumbling block on Sasuke's love path.

She came back after a while, mustering up the courage to meet my gaze.

"I didn't avoid you on purpose, I, I can't forget, that day in the examination room, you treated Kusanagi like that...you put her..."

It turned out that she saw it, but I didn't seem to do anything. It's just that she can't accept it to that extent?Then she should really look at the wonderful body that I made of Orochimaru into sashimi.

"Did you tell Sasuke?"

"Not yet..." Her voice weakened.

"Then forget about it."

"……Yes."

"roll."

Sakura was scared away by me, by my image of a bad mother-in-law.But she can't bear this bit of hardship, she can't be with Sasuke, there are a lot of women living in this world, and there is always someone who is more suitable for Sasuke.

I admit that I was influenced by Itachi, and the hasty meeting with him made my desire for the truth stronger, and I was so anxious and uneasy.

The glass was crushed by me.I thought, why am I not another Sasuke, played by Itachi and the people behind the scenes in the applause.

But I am not the same as Sasuke, at least I know that in this unclear dispute, I am in a despicable position.

I guarded Sasuke, quietly waiting for him to wake up, I thought about it, I will tell him everything I know about Itachi.Anyway, I don't want Sasuke to be like me, foolishly waiting for others to manipulate him.

A few days later, Naruto brought Tsunade Hime, one of the Sannin, and she cured Sasuke, and went next door to check Kakashi's situation.

"Sasuke?"

I called the name of the person on the bed, and I couldn't remember the last time I waited so tenderly for someone to wake up.

His eyes opened a slit slightly, his black pupils slowly turned to my side, and a tear fell to the pillow.

Seeing him like this, I also seem to be under the illusion, betrayal, deceit, abandonment and forgetting, all kinds of things are vivid in my mind, but at least we are still alive, and there is hope for change when we are alive, isn't it?

"Xiyin, have you ever lied to me?"

Sasuke on the bed asked, his voice hoarse, endlessly sad.

"Cheated." I won't in the future.

"Are you and Itachi lying to me together?"

"...Some are, and some are not." I was also deceived by Itachi.Sasuke, we feel sorry for each other.

"..." He stopped talking and closed his eyes.

"I'll go get you some water."

He looks a little strange now, probably because Itachi weaved strange illusions for him.

"do not go!"

I turned around and saw his eyes wide open, he was in a sitting posture from lying down, and he looked like he was going to eat me.There seemed to be something between us, obviously I was right in front of his eyes, but he looked at me as if he was looking at another person.

"Where are you going?" He asked me questioningly.

"Go and report to Itachi about my situation?"

"I saw it! On the day of the genocide, you and Itachi, you talked to him, and he wanted you to stay by my side!"

"You're waiting for me to turn on the kaleidoscope so I can dedicate my eyes to him!" He jumped off the bed and staggered towards me.I subconsciously wanted to help him, but was shocked by the grief and anger in his eyes and withdrew my hand.

"Itachi, he asked you to protect me, no, to be precise, he asked you to protect my eyes... Why did you do this to me? Why? I believe in you, and I still look forward to revitalizing the family with you after killing Itachi, why Do you want to do this to me?" The more he spoke, the more excited he seemed to have figured something out, and regardless of his injuries, he rushed towards me, lightning flashed from his intact palm, and he sang like a bird.

This is no joke, he actually used Chidori!Deal with me the same way you deal with Itachi!Uchiha!Sasuke!do you know what you are doingyou want me dead !

"You are all liars!"

"Shut up!" I'm impatient, Itachi, you know better than anyone else.

"No wonder, you can even kill Qihai, let alone me!"

"I told you to shut up!" I didn't want to bear it anymore.

"boom!"

The current sound disappears.

I retracted my foot indifferently, and used Itachi's move against Sasuke.But I am much gentler than Itachi, Sasuke was kicked onto the bed by me, and the soft quilt supported him, so that he still had the strength to cough out, slurring bad things about me.