I was the first to catch up

After sending Guan Buyu away, Jiang Lingyu returned to the dormitory. The dormitory auntie recognized her and knew that she was there to see off a friend, so she didn't say anything about her. It was the privilege of good students. Wu Jingjing and Gu Xiaoxia often complained about the dormitory. Auntie is really unfair.

In the dormitory, An Meng had already gone to bed early, Gu Xiaoxia was snoring like thunder, An Meng specially bought a pair of noise-cancelling headphones, only Wu Jingjing was lying there looking at her mobile phone, and she would throw some garbage to Gu Xiaoxia who was on the opposite bed from time to time, trying to disturb her cry.

Jiang Lingyu closed the door gently, she exhaled, took off her coat and didn't go to bed, but sat at the table, dazed for a while.

A deep exhaustion suddenly surged in her heart.

"Are you going to stay up late to study again today?"

Wu Jingjing's voice came, Jiang Lingyu rubbed her eyes and gave a "hmm", then she opened the book, but couldn't concentrate.

"You have worked too hard during this period. Looking at you, I want to learn myself."

Jiang Lingyu smiled when she heard the words, although Wu Jingjing said so, she would definitely never pick up the book until the critical moment.

Although the pen was already in his hand, and his eyes were fixed on this page, Jiang Lingyu didn't know what he was going to do.Once she started to read, things about Yu Xiaomin poured into her heart.What happened in the store, her bad state, but Jiang Lingyu couldn't ask.Once she asked, that Yu Xiaomin, her mother, would definitely push herself even harder.

She even started to blame herself - Jiang Lingyu knew her mother too well.She must have thought that it was her own fault that made her daughter start worrying about herself.It's because she hasn't covered up well enough, it's because she's starting to slack off.

The matter of Yu Xiaomin is like a sponge that has eaten water, and it swells in Jiang Lingyu's heart, making her unable to think about other things.In the gap at the corner is Guan Silent.

She has been coming more and more frequently recently, and even if she would take the high-speed rail to save money, she will still bear the expenses of going out to eat and shopping. He will take the bill and say: I will come and I will come.

Her tone was a little urgent and a little compensatory.Jiang Lingyu also knew what Guan Buyu was thinking.She originally wanted to come here by herself, and let Jiang Lingyu, whose family is not rich in the first place, bear the expenses, isn't that unreasonable?

This is indeed the case in terms of emotion and reason, but Jiang Lingyu always feels uncomfortable in his heart.

She leaned there, rubbing her temples.In the dormitory, she lit a desk lamp.Alone, Jiang Lingyu looked at the time, it was already one o'clock in the morning.

When calling Jiang, she had never stayed up so late.But recently there have been more homework, and the mid-term exam is approaching, and it seems that it is commonplace to still study at this point.

If - if.

It would be great if Guan Buyu could come later next time.

Uncontrollably, Jiang Lingyu thought so.

Whenever Guan Buyu came, she seemed to bring all the troubles that belonged to Huanjiang.Without her, Jiang Lingyu would only be annoyed by her studies.

When such thoughts popped up, the exhaustion in Jiang Lingyu's heart emerged again.Added to this was a deep sense of self-loathing this time around.It slapped Jiang Lingyu's heart little by little, making her resist such a sensitive and artificial self.

Guan Buyu is fine, why do I think so?Why do I have to think so?

Huge and corrosive emotions filled Jiang Lingyu's fragile body, she was about to be unable to hold it anymore, she closed her eyes.In front of her was Yu Xiaomin, with her white hair, she forced a smile.Then came Guan Silent, her pure——sparkling eyes.In the end it was herself, crushed to death by the books.

There was a familiar pain, this time it was physical.

The bedroom was very quiet, and Wu Jingjing also half fell asleep.Drowsy, she heard a cough coming from somewhere.

After the midterm exam, Fang Ranran looked at Guan Buyu's test paper, frowning, flicked the paper and said:

"What's going on this time? Why did you drop so much all of a sudden? According to the previous progress trend, you should barely be able to get on the second line now."

At that time, Guan Buyu was stuck on the lazy sofa in Fang Ranran's house.She looked at the ceiling, sat up suddenly and said:

"What school can I go to?"

Fang Ranran thought for a while, she blinked, and asked instead:

"Guan Buyu, I haven't asked you yet, what major do you want to major in?"

"what?"

"The popular majors of each school are different, and the corresponding admission scores will also be different. With your score - it is definitely impossible to get into a particularly good school. If it goes down like this, it may be difficult even for a good school. .”

Fang Ranran looked at Guan Buyu in front of her with a dazed expression, and knew that she must have thought about nothing, or thought about it, but she couldn't figure out why, so she still hasn't made a decision yet.

After all, to her, as long as it is Ming An's university.

"Guan Buyu, what's the matter with you recently? Did something happen?"

Guan Buyu lay back again, she looked absent-minded, and didn't seem to take the test result to heart.Fang Ranran asked this cautiously. She was also very busy recently and didn't go to school very much. That's why she was surprised by Guan Buyu's midterm exam results this time.

"Master Fang—Master Fang, what university did you get admitted to at the end of last year?"

"Babson."

"Oh——yes, Babson College. That's great. If it was Mr. Fang, it would be very easy to get into Tsinghua University and Peking University. Unlike me, even if I try my best, I can barely get a second degree. Even It might not be possible.”

Guan Buyu laughed as he spoke. Although he was laughing, Fang Ranran sounded like he was crying.If someone else had said this, Fang Ranran would have rolled her eyes and ignored him long ago.But the person who said this was Guan Buyu, Fang Ranran frowned, looked at Guan Buyu and sat up suddenly, and said a little excitedly:

"Master Fang, tell me, how about I go abroad too? My dad said that if I can't continue my studies, I will be sent out. You see, I really don't have that background. It's better to go abroad. Maybe foreign countries are more suitable for me. ?”

Guan Buyu said with a smile, Fang Ranran looked at her quietly.After a long time, she spoke:

"What about Jiang Lingyu? Isn't the reason why you went to university is to stay with her?"

Guan Buyu scratched her head, she smiled and said:

"Anyway, with my grades, I can't get into Mingshi University, and I can't see Jiang Lingyu every day. Anyway, I will come back by plane if I want to see her. It should be the same, right?"

She pretended to be relaxed, Fang Ranran exhaled lightly, and said something that had been stuck in her heart for a long time:

"Guan Buyu, if you do this, Jiang Lingyu will feel very burdened. She is not you, and she doesn't have that much money to squander. If you pay so much every time to see her - she will feel that she has nothing in return .”

This sentence hit Guan Buyu immediately, she stood there in a daze, remembering Jiang Lingyu's expression when he said seriously that he wanted to treat guests.She even remembered that Guan Jian said to her, Guan Buyu, didn't you ever think about letting us worry?

——Yeah, she didn't let anyone worry about it by keeping silent.

After coming out of Fang Ranran's house, the weather was a bit hot, and Guan Buyu was very upset.She kicked the stones on the side of the road, sat on the curb again, and watched a car slide by.It seemed like she hadn't done this in a long time.

Except for the day when Wang Meijuan came to her house, Guan Buyu from Congliang never skipped class to hang out during the day, ate ice cream, sat on the curb in a daze, and spent the day doing nothing.Oh, if someone came to provoke her, there might be a few more fights, and then go home injured.

At that time, she thought that no one would take care of her when she was injured, let alone feel sorry for her.The same goes for skipping classes.No one cared whether she appeared in the classroom or not. The teacher and Guan Jian cared only because of "losing face", and also worried about why she couldn't be like other children and insisted on being so special.

Now, Guan Buyu felt that he deserved it.She is too capricious, she is too fragile.There is not much skill, but the fault is blamed on others.Maybe it has always been like this, she is just being tolerated by others.

By Jiang Lingyu, by Fang Ranran, by Yu Xiaomin, by Guan Jian—even, by Wang Meijuan.

She already knew about her running to Ming'an, but she didn't tell Guan Jian.Aunt Wang is also a good person, Guan Buyu already knew about it.But she still let her emotions control her behavior, she was childish, why couldn't she "grow up"?

Even now, she dialed the phone, but Jiang Lingyu didn't answer.Ten minutes later, Jiang Lingyu called back and asked her what was wrong, and then she said that she was still in class just now, so she didn't answer, sorry.

Guan Buyu shook her head and said it was okay, she looked directly at the sun under the scorching sun on a sunny day, it was dazzling and hot, leaving marks on the retina.She closed her eyes, passed the words she wanted to say seven or eight times in her throat, and finally swallowed them back.

"It's all right. Take your time in class! Well, I'm about to take the college entrance examination, and this period of time may not pass often, Jiang Lingyu, I'm sorry."

There was silence for a few seconds, Jiang Lingyu said hesitantly:

"Shut up?"

I'm sorry, I've been bothering you all this time, and I've put a lot of burden on your heart.

Sorry, if only I could be more sensible.

Guan Buyu didn't answer, she bit her lower lip, sweat and tears flowed down, making her unable to speak.

But she also has a little hope, hoping that Jiang Lingyu will say, it doesn't matter, you can come if you want, as long as we are together, all problems will be solved.

However, Jiang Lingyu didn't say anything.She said, then study hard, and you will definitely pass the exam.

Guan Buyu who hung up the phone grabbed the phone.Liar, she said.She couldn't pass the exam.

She's the one who doesn't succeed in anything, no matter how hard she tries, it's all in vain.

The sun is so big and the wind is rustling.All these covered Guan Buyu's whimpering and evaporated her tears.

"Guan Buyu classmate?"

After Jiang Lingyu hung up the phone, Wu Jingjing who was opposite took a sip of smoothie and said.Jiang Lingyu nodded, and Wu Jingjing immediately said "tsk tsk" a few times:

"You two really have a good relationship. When will she come next time? I really want to ask in detail how she caught up with you, hehe."

Ever since Guan Buyu came over, Wu Jingjing often jokingly made them a couple.Even if they were really a couple, Jiang Lingyu just smiled and didn't say anything about it.

This time, Jiang Lingyu didn't respond either.She looked at the phone, looking a little uneasy.She looked around again, she was sitting in the coffee shop that was just opened some time ago, there were a lot of people, and now more and more students came to kill time.

Jiang Lingyu has no class today.When she saw the incoming call from Guan Muyu, she weighed the question and the phone for a moment, but she still chose to finish the question first.

When Guan Buyu said that she couldn't come here for a while, she was actually relieved.

Even though she vaguely sensed that something had happened to Guan Buyu, she still found an excuse for herself: Maybe it's because of too much pressure. It's normal, right?Thinking of this, Wu Jingjing continued on the opposite side:

"Did a lot of people chase you when you were in high school? Alas, our family, Jiang Lingyu, is beautiful and gentle——Guan Buyu is pretty cute, but I still envy her for getting to know you so early. And I became such a good friend with you."

When Wu Jingjing said these words, Jiang Lingyu shook her head, instead of laughing, she coughed violently.

Wu Jingjing hurriedly handed her a tissue, and Jiang Lingyu took out the medicine from the bag while coughing. The moment she drank water and gave the medicine, she said in her heart:

Only she knew - it wasn't like that.

It's just luck.