I was the first to catch up

In the third year of high school after the start of school, the mock papers came one after another. At the end of the winter vacation, every high school began to secretly make up lessons, even the most casual No. [-] middle school.

When Yu Xiaomin was working in the store, she would occasionally look at the second middle school students passing by the door one after another. She thought to herself, in this season again, is that guy Guan Buyu complaining?Next time, if she comes over to buy food, give her some more food.

Although Yu Xiaomin thought so, Guan Buyu seldom appeared due to his busy studies.Except for her, Yu Xiaomin always felt like there was something missing in her heart, it was empty, which made it hard for her to bear it.

However, Yu Xiaomin's life is very busy, and only occasionally does she feel this way.While working on weekdays, Yu Xiaomin also bought a few books and put them in the store and at home, trying to fill up all the small things.

Yu Xiaomin also has her own things to do during the break.On the second floor of the store, she would dig out the dresses she had worn before and not now, and then take out some cosmetics that were about to expire and start tidying herself up.

Such behavior made her seem to be back in her teens, so she didn't have the heart to organize those things.

Just at this moment, in this small room on the second floor, she is 17-year-old Yu Xiaomin.

The same is true today.The person Yu Xiaomin was going to meet today had already gone out with her no less than five or six times before that, which was considered a small number of times, but it was considered good for her.

After all, before, those men who had a blind date with her hardly made it to the third meeting.

She changed into lighter clothes today. She wore a black dress before. Zhang Ling—that is, the man who met her recently said that the color was too dull and he didn't like it very much.

Yu Xiaomin is not someone who likes to please others, and she doesn't know why she does this.Does she have a crush on Zhang Ling?Can't tell.

Zhang Ling, who runs a foreign trade company, is about 40 years old and divorced. He has a son who is in elementary school.Zhang Ling has a simple and honest personality, but he is very traditional. When they met for the third time, he smiled and said:

"Then, since we all have this, this similar situation, we don't need to make a big fuss about getting married, do we? We will simply get a marriage certificate, and then you will move into my house. That's what I plan to do."

Zhang Ling stuttered a bit, Yu Xiaomin had to listen patiently to him every time, and had to avoid interrupting his words in the middle, otherwise he would have to start from the beginning again.

At that time, although Yu Xiaomin was a little surprised when he heard the words, Zhang Ling was also the only man who didn't belittle her during the conversation.

Thinking of this, Yu Xiaomin couldn't help laughing at herself: Has her request been so low before she knew it?

She did not refute Zhang Ling, but instead asked:

"Then my shop?"

"Oh, you, your store! It's okay, you first, you open it first, if there is any problem, we will solve it together from the perspective of husband and wife after we get married, don't worry - don't worry, with me here, you will definitely be more relaxed than now a lot of."

When Zhang Ling said this, he seemed certain that Yu Xiaomin came here for this.On the contrary, Yu Xiaomin became a little confused. At that time, she began to realize that she didn't know her intention of coming on a blind date.

She didn't like Zhang Ling, and she didn't have the strong urge to remarry, so she met Zhang Ling again with this doubt. They made an appointment to meet in a shopping mall. The plan was to have a meal first, and then go to see movie.

After dinner, they strolled in the shopping mall. There were still ten minutes before the opening of the movie. Yu Xiaomin turned her head to look at Zhang Ling who was talking non-stop. She heard him mention the business that urged him to find another wife. partner, and suddenly asked;

"Then—then that's why you came here for a blind date?"

And Zhang Ling didn't hesitate like her, he replied naturally:

"Yeah, we are all adults now...Single-parent family, it's always not nice to say it, I, I'm in business, and many people say it's right, it's not good for children. As time goes by, I thought, indeed, the family should be complete. I am not short of money, I have a house and a car. If I can find someone to be a companion, wouldn't that be better?"

After hearing this, Yu Xiaomin froze there. She thought to herself, yes, a single-parent family is never complete.The same is true of her and Jiang Lingyu's family.

However, she never considered these issues—or, she dared not think about whether Jiang Lingyu also suffered such criticism?Has she always expected to have a father?But Jiang Lingyu never said it, she always smiled and said, Mom, all I need is you.

This is her, Yu Xiaomin.

I can't take care of anything, and I'm not competent as a mother.What right did she have to sit here and talk about looking for an easier life and even wanting to start another family?

And did she really want just another person's company?

Or is she just—

Her thoughts stopped abruptly, because Zhang Ling suddenly took her hand.Yu Xiaomin looked at his chubby face in surprise. Zhang Ling was much shorter than her, and his expression was a bit submissive, as if he was just pretending to be calm.

"You, you see, this kind of thing, we have to do more in front of our children in the future. My friend said that the better the relationship between husband and wife, the better, the better the character of the child."

Yu Xiaomin didn't speak or shake off his hand, there was a burst of sympathy in her eyes.To Zhang Ling, Yu Xiaomin seemed to be a piece of meat on the cutting board, ready to be played with.Because of this, at the same time, she felt that such a self was also very sad.

Since you know it well, why don't you say no?

When Yu Xiaomin and Zhang Ling were standing at the entrance of the cinema, Yu Xiaomin asked him to wait a moment. The cinema was on the first floor with an ice skating rink in the middle. Yu Xiaomin stood by the railing to answer the message. It was a matter of the store, and he would enter the cinema later. You can't reply anytime.

When she finished replying to the message, Zhang Ling's hand hadn't been let go yet, and Yu Xiaomin gave him a tactful glance when she just replied to the message, but Zhang Ling didn't seem to notice it.

Typing with one hand was tiring enough, Yu Xiaomin sighed, put away her phone and raised her eyes to look in front of her - at this moment, she froze in place for an instant.

Behind the railing on the second floor opposite, there was a familiar figure standing there, with one hand propped on the railing, her chin resting on her chin, and the direction of her gaze was Yu Xiaomin herself.

That person is Fang Ranran.

Yu Xiaomin seemed to be nailed to the spot, even if Zhang Ling pulled her hand and urged her to leave, Yu Xiaomin couldn't move.She can recognize Fang Ranran from such a distance, and Fang Ranran may be the same.She was wearing a loose sweater and a hood, which covered half of her face, but revealed a pair of eyes and a mouth.

Those eyes were cold, and that mouth—slowly, smiled.

It was like a sneer.

Then she turned and left without the slightest hesitation.Standing there, Yu Xiaomin finally heard Zhang Ling's voice:

"What, what's the matter? Are you still watching the movie?"

Yu Xiaomin suddenly shook off his hand, turned her head and said:

"Don't read it. Something happened suddenly in my shop."

Then she turned and left in a hurry, only hating herself for wearing high heels.Slow and loud, da da da, da, da, da.One after another, the sound echoed in the empty space of the shopping mall, and it stabbed painfully in the heart, poking out bloody holes one after another.

Yu Xiaomin didn't know where she had gone, and when she came to her senses, she was already standing in the dark breakfast shop.She didn't light the lamp, and it was so dark that she couldn't see her fingers.She stood there with sore heels and painfully crowded toes.When she was about to bend down to take off her high heels, she heard footsteps in front of her.

When she got up, she saw the light turn on slowly, and Fang Ranran got in from under the half-opened shutter door, just like what Fang Ranran often did in many, many nights.

She stood in front of Yu Xiaomin, with her pockets in her pocket, and was silent for a while before quietly saying:

"Yu Xiaomin, you have started a blind date."

This sentence is obviously just stating a fact, but it can suddenly trigger Yu Xiaomin's nerves. She shook her head violently, and said to the other side in a rush:

"What? Can't I find happiness?"

This Fang Ranran smiled, a very familiar smile, which Yu Xiaomin had seen just now.Cold, contemptuous smile.

She sharply exposed Yu Xiaomin's lies:

"You want to pursue happiness? Come on, you're just trying your best not to think about me."

The truth popped open like a bubble, and evaporated quickly. Before Yu Xiaomin had time to react, Fang Ranran said again:

"If you really want to find happiness, then why did you ask Guan Buyu—ask her, what Jiang Lingyu thinks about this matter?"

She sneered again, but Yu Xiaomin gradually lost her strength.

"Yu Xiaomin, you are contradicting yourself. You like me, and you are afraid that Jiang Lingyu will dislike you and stay away from you. So you try to find someone else to fill the void, which is ridiculous, even if that other person is not me - a 17-year-old girl , you are still afraid that you will have happiness first, and make Jiang Lingyu feel that you have been left behind."

Yu Xiaomin, Yu Xiaomin.You are cowardly, you are mean, you are selfish.You want everything, so you get nothing, and in the end you can only struggle in this mud—struggle, and finally sink completely.

Just like at this moment, the breakfast shop turned and twisted into one piece, the only light went out, Fang Ranran turned around and merged into the darkness, just as Yu Xiaomin wanted to stop her, but something grabbed her by the corner of her clothes.She turned around and saw Jiang Lingyu lying there with a pacifier in her mouth when she was a child. She opened her mouth and the pacifier fell off. Jiang Lingyu began to cry loudly. Fang Ranran's voice kept replaying in this space, screaming She Yu Xiaomin, Yu Xiaomin.These scenes were all distorted together, and Yu Xiaomin could only yell in the chaos——

When Yu Xiaomin opened her eyes, the breakfast shop was very quiet. She lit a lamp, and a bicycle drove past the half-opened shutter door.She was sweating profusely and panting, as if she had just struggled out of the water.

She woke up from a big dream, but she didn't really escape from that dream.