I was the first to catch up

Jiang Lingyu opened the door for Guan Buyu, then looked back at Guan Buyu, Guan Buyu realized that she was not hallucinating.

Jiang Lingyu's home is located in a small alley near No. 101 Middle School. This is an old-fashioned single-family apartment with walls covered with ivy. Jiang Lingyu and Yu Xiaomin's home is Room [-] on the first floor, and they don't even have to climb the stairs.

Yu Xiaomin once mentioned in a chat that the landlord of this apartment was her old classmate, who threw a bunch of keys to her when she was looking for a house, and said, Miss Xiaomin, you can just pick.Rent is in no hurry, it's up to you.

Yu Xiaomin is not a person who takes advantage of others. She paid the rent on time and is very grateful to that old classmate.Jiang Lingyu was just in high school at that time, and his old classmate had eaten at her house several times. Once he secretly told Jiang Lingyu before going out, your mother likes to be brave, if you are really short of money, I will give her I'll give you back half of the rent, don't tell her.

Jiang Lingyu nodded, she said yes, she looked obedient, but she never mentioned their financial situation to that old classmate.Even if they really had some difficulties at that time, neither Yu Xiaomin nor she would choose to mention it to others.

While saying this, Guan Buyu had already entered Jiang Lingyu's house.The proprietress is not at home. The house is a two-bedroom house, not too big, but it is warm enough. The scattered small items are put away in the cupboard. The dishes and chopsticks that were cleaned by someone last night are neatly placed in the kitchen. The sofa is a bit old Yes, patched, yet soft enough to sit on.

Guan Buyu looked up and sniffed, there was a faint smell of sweet sauce in the air, Jiang Lingyu embarrassedly said that this was their dinner last night.Guan Buyu shook his head and said it was okay.

Of course it's okay, because these are all things that Guan Buyu had longed for in the past.She even felt a little at a loss, wondering if she was dreaming.

Guan Buyu sat on the sofa, Jiang Lingyu poured her a glass of juice from the refrigerator, and Guan Buyu was sipping the juice in his own glass right now.

Jiang Lingyu took a sip of the warm water in his cup, thinking with a smile, his grasp of Guan Buyu's taste seemed to be very accurate.

"The lady boss is really amazing."

Guan Buyu looked at everything around him, and after hearing why they lived here, he couldn't help sighing.Jiang Lingyu nodded, propped her chin and said:

"Sometimes, I think my mom is a lot like Superman."

Guan Buyu tilted her head and looked at Jiang Lingyu, her heart moved and she asked:

"So you want to be Superman too?"

Jiang Lingyu blinked, trying to find something in Guan Buyu's eyes.But she couldn't find it.Guan Buyu's eyes were pure, as if he was simply asking a question.

here we go again.she thinks.

She began to subconsciously look for the most correct answer that the other party most wanted to hear.

So she just nodded and said, thinking.

After hearing this, Guan Buyu said thoughtfully:

"But it was so hard work."

Guan Buyu's mood is not as tense as before, and she even feels that staying here is more comfortable than her own home.So she lowered her head and muttered to herself after drinking the juice:

"I don't think I can do it."

Jiang Lingyu's throat suddenly choked, she lowered her eyes, thinking to herself, Guan Buyu, you are much better than me if you can say this.

Probably because of Guan Buyu's active and natural show of weakness, Jiang Lingyu felt that he could take a little breather here.The atmosphere here allows her to feel a little inferior, and to relax and say:

"Actually... Actually, I can't do it either."

Guan Buyu looked at Jiang Lingyu - her shoulders shrank suddenly, she looked much smaller than usual.Such Jiang Lingyu lowered his eyes and continued:

"I can't do it. I want to work hard, but there are many things I can't do as well as my mother."

"—But, you, you are already very good! Everyone likes you very much."

When the truth was accidentally spoken, Guan Buyu instantly felt hot, but Jiang Lingyu just shook his head and said:

"Not good enough."

why?Guan Buyu looked at her suspiciously.

Jiang Lingyu said slowly:

"Compared to everything my mother sacrificed for me, my hard work is far from enough."

It's such a topic again.A topic that Guan Buyu will never be able to personally experience.But this must be very important to Jiang Lingyu, so important that she restrains herself all the time because of it, she can't do what she wants to do, she can't say what she wants to say, no matter how hard she tries, she can't catch up with Yu Xiaomin.These, Guan Buyu can personally experience.

Because that's how her life is.

Not the same, but close enough.

So Guan Buyu approached Jiang Lingyu gently and quietly, came to her side, and put his arms around Jiang Lingyu's shoulders.Fortunately, Jiang Lingyu is willing to hug herself.

How long has Jiang Lingyu endured it?Guan Buyu held her in his arms and thought silently.On nights like this, with a faint hum of cicadas outside the house, summer is coming to an end.Jiang Lingyu leaned on her, didn't cry, Guan Buyu was a little impulsive, she wanted to tell Jiang Lingyu, you can cry, in this matter, you don't have to learn from the proprietress.

Just a second before opening his mouth, Jiang Lingyu suddenly raised his eyes to look at her.Guan Buyu lost his words, only Jiang Lingyu's voice sounded next to his ears:

"Guan Buyu, I sometimes feel that liking is a very heavy thing."

Guan Buyu went through this sentence three times in her mind before she finally understood Jiang Lingyu's meaning. She was stunned for a long time, feeling numb in her heart, as if she had been severely shocked.

What's the meaning?like heavy?She——Jiang Lingyu, did she find out what she likes?

Should not be ah.

Guan Buyu didn't know how she showed her secrets, she was still thinking, but Jiang Lingyu continued:

"But I'm very comfortable when I'm with you. I'm wondering if it's because you're different from others. You don't have that kind of self-important expectation of me, and it doesn't make me feel very heavy. So, shut up, I It’s a pleasure to be friends with you.”

Guan Buyu looked at Jiang Lingyu foolishly, Jiang Lingyu's eyes were so sincere.She should be happy, but she can't be happy.Jiang Lingyu likes to be with her, and likes to be friends with her.But, not that kind of liking.Even, she didn't want that kind of liking.

Because liking is heavy?But how can liking be heavy?

Guan Buyu herself couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence, but she vaguely knew one thing:

Her love for Jiang Lingyu must not be said easily.

So she just nodded and said, me too.

Jiang Lingyu leaned his head on her shoulder and said happily, that's great.

It was getting late, and Guan Buyu sat at Jiang Lingyu's house for a while, during which Jiang Lingyu warmed up some leftovers for her, the taste was exactly the same as the dishes in the breakfast shop, so Guan Buyu ate and forgot After all, Jiang Lingyu was in front of her. Jiang Lingyu was talking, laughing, and patting her arm lightly because of the stupid things she did.

That would be great.I don't think about it.

She doesn't need to confess.

If it can be maintained forever, then it is okay for her to never say anything.

When Jiang Lingyu sent Guan Buyu to the door, Guan Buyu was already full and drowsy.Jiang Lingyu then reminded her to watch the road and not wander around.Guan Buyu nodded vigorously and lazily said yes, Jiang Lingyu looked at her for a while, then stretched out his hand to scratch her chin.

"What are you doing, it's so itchy."

Guan Buyu laughed because of being scratched, Jiang Lingyu couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth, she lowered her head and said it was okay, and smoothed Guan Buyu's hair again.

When Guan Buyu was about to leave, he suddenly remembered something. It seemed okay to ask now. The relationship between her and Jiang Lingyu seemed to be close enough to ask about private matters.

So she asked:

"Jiang Lingyu, why are you here a little late today? Do you have other things to be busy with. If you are busy, you can send me a message directly, and I can go home by myself."

Guan Buyu scratched her cheek and asked, she was a little embarrassed.She and Jiang Lingyu are good friends, so they can ask and communicate like this at will.This feeling is quite novel.

Jiang Lingyu gave a long "hmm", she didn't know why she was hesitating, but in the end she decided to answer Guan Buyu's question:

"There was a senior in school who had been chasing me before, and I refused once. Now he has graduated and was admitted to a university in another city. He occasionally comes back to see me, but he always doesn't say hello in advance, so I delay it for a while. "

Guan Buyu's yawn stopped abruptly in the middle, her eyes widened in an instant, and she lost all sleepiness.She froze for a moment and asked:

"That senior still likes you?"

"Senior still sends me flowers and takes good care of me, which is similar to his performance when he was chasing me. So, I think he likes it."

Jiang Lingyu tilted her head and said helplessly.Then she whispered, as if she was muttering to herself, but Guan Buyu could hear her clearly.

"That's why I said that liking is very heavy. Because I don't know how to respond is the best answer."

A burst of courage from Guan Buyu made her say in a hurry:

"If you don't like him, just say no?"

However, Jiang Lingyu frowned and looked away.she says:

"Don't you like him? Logically speaking, I should like him. Everyone said so. The senior is very handsome and popular. Everyone said that he and I are a good match. But I..."

Guan Buyu could no longer hear what Jiang Lingyu was saying behind him.She only heard "like" and "good match", and her mind seemed to be bombarded by lightning twice, so she couldn't think about anything.

She didn't know what she did to Jiang Lingyu later, and she didn't know if she would look weird. In the end, she hurriedly said goodbye to Jiang Lingyu, and then plunged into the dark street.

All the fantasies I had just now were all shattered at this moment, Guan Buyu's heart was in a mess, and he seemed to have suddenly realized something.So it turned out that it was a friend, but Jiang Lingyu seemed to have just divided her into another territory.There is no liking and matching in this territory, no love, absolutely nothing.

Is it because she is a girl, or because she is Guan Muyu?

No matter which reason is enough to make her despair, because that is not something that can be changed.

She ran out into the street, squatting on the ground panting.It turned out that she had started running unconsciously.Sweat dripped down and covered her eyes. When she wiped her eyes, her eyes became sore, and tears simply fell down.

It's so dark.Guan Buyu thought silently while weeping.

Why isn't there even a single street light here?She turned on the phone, and the faint screen light was blurred into a small ball in the blurry world.

She dialed out a phone, the ring rang for three seconds and was picked up on time, Fang Ranran's voice sounded:

"Guan Buyu, it's 49:[-] p.m., and I'm going to bed in an hour and eleven, so speak quickly if you have something to say."

Guan Buyu cried "Wow", she said:

"Fang Ranran! I—I'm also broken in love, can you come out and accompany me now, um, it's best to bring a bottle of the best and most expensive red wine in your house, two bottles! Let's drink together , woo woo woo, what? Where am I? I, I don't know—"