I was the first to catch up

Jiang Lingyu met Wang Meijuan in the vegetable market.At that time, they were picking vegetables together in a shop. Wang Meijuan greeted her with a smile when she saw her. Jiang Lingyu also nodded and said hello.

The vegetable market she usually went to was not open today, so she came to a vegetable market a little further away, and unexpectedly ran into Wang Meijuan.Wang Meijuan came over after saying hello, and she asked with a smile:

"How is your mother? I haven't seen her here for a long time. Is she very busy?"

Wang Meijuan speaks with a foreign accent, which is a bit out of place when calling Jiang, and sometimes Jiang Lingyu can't understand her.So at this moment, she blinked and Wang Meijuan said it again, and she understood.

"Ah——Mom is really busy recently. She's in Ming'an now, and she's just coming back after finishing her work at the branch store. It should be soon."

Wang Meijuan immediately smiled and said:

"Business is a good thing, busy means business!"

Jiang Lingyu nodded and smiled in response. She then lowered her head to pick vegetables, but Wang Meijuan didn't expect to leave. She stood there and suddenly called her:

"——Xiaoyu."

Jiang Lingyu was stunned for a moment, she turned her head and saw Wang Meijuan's gentle smile emerged, but the next sentence did not appear for a long time.

But Jiang Lingyu seemed to understand what she wanted to say.

"Although it is very sudden to say this now."

She paused and decided to continue talking.

"But thank you very much."

Jiang Lingyu looked at her in surprise, she was puzzled and subconsciously said:

"No, no need... I haven't done anything."

Wang Meijuan shook her head when she heard the words. She spoke in the noisy market, and every word was clearly discernible, and it went straight to Jiang Lingyu's ears and echoed in her heart.

"Some time ago, didn't the kid in my family graduate from college?"

Jiang Lingyu was silent, she wanted to look away, but Wang Meijuan's eyes were so straightforward.

"Her dad and I were thinking during this period, it's incredible, really. We thought she was a good kid, but she just had nothing to do with studies. In a blink of an eye, she graduated from college. Four years, who knows how she Where did you come?"

"Actually, it was my aunt who brought up the idea of ​​going abroad. I regretted it all the time, because I found that Xiaoguan was different. She didn't give up on herself even when we gave up on her. We thought, that How can a child of this age listen to his parents? Someone must be helping us and helping this child grow up."

While this person did it inadvertently, we are all grateful for her - after all we really feel powerless sometimes.

"I know, you must be very troubled when I say this... But thank you for taking care of my child so much back then. When she returns to China in two days, you can come to my house to have a meal together, okay? Auntie will cook a big meal for you of."

When Wang Meijuan said that, Jiang Lingyu shook her head, she just shook her head, but couldn't speak.She was afraid that she would desperately deny everything Wang Meijuan said, so she had to bid farewell and leave in a hurry, but Wang Meijuan's words still lingered in her heart.

--not like this.

She denied it again, and many rumors she had heard in the past four years emerged in her mind-Guan Buyu's embarrassing situation at that time, her painful studies, her family that had become strange, she had nowhere to go, and in the end she was killed by the only Lovers push away.

This happens only because the lover is preoccupied with himself.

Then become like this ending.

It was night when she returned to the store, Jiang Lingyu locked the shutter door, went to the second floor to wash her face casually, and some time before leaving the store, she slowly fell on the bed, and fell on the memory In the abyss, sank all the way, fell asleep.

I remember that when Jiang Lingyu stepped on the hard ground in Boston when it was snowing heavily, it must have happened a few years ago.

At that time, she felt—that she had packed up her mood.She cautiously asked Yu Xiaomin about Guan Buyu, trying to turn this question into an unintentional inquiry.Yu Xiaomin answered her casually, didn't Guan Buyu go to Boston?

From Yu Xiaomin's mouth, the rumors in his mouth became true, Jiang Lingyu thought:

She really went abroad.

So from that day on, Jiang Lingyu began to work as a tutor to save money and apply for a visa, and most importantly: she began to gather courage.

She didn't know where Guan Buyu lived, but she only knew the university Guan Buyu went to.She thought that as long as she went to that university, she would definitely meet Guan Buyu, and she firmly believed in this.

She does not intend to tell anyone about this secret wish, except once, when she was tutoring a little girl, she asked:

"Ms. Jiang, Mr. Jiang, what are you doing in America?"

Tong Yanwuji, a little girl, saw Jiang Lingyu inquiring about visa information during a break, so she asked this question.Jiang Lingyu was stunned for a while, and didn't want to hide it from the girl, she smiled and said:

"Go see someone."

The little girl tilted her head and asked again:

"Can't you see it here?"

Jiang Lingyu thought for a while, then said softly:

"I can't see you."

The little girl was lying on the bed, and she continued:

"There is WeChat, WeChat can also make calls, and you can also meet people!"

The child's attention shifted quickly, and she jumped to the next topic after saying this sentence.Jiang Lingyu smiled and looked at the phone.

WeChat.

She sighed, just as she was standing in front of that university in Boston, clutching her phone tightly.

On WeChat, Guan Buyu seems to have blocked her long ago.

She couldn't see her circle of friends, but Yu Xiaomin could, even Wu Jingjing and the others could.But Jiang Lingyu couldn't see it.She didn't quite know whether Guan Buyu deleted her or set up a group - it was right to delete her, after all, she pushed her away.

However, she may still have a little hope.She took a picture of the snow scene in Boston 10 minutes ago and sent it to Moments, but she didn't say anything.

If Guan Buyu didn't delete her...she should be able to see it.

When Jiang Lingyu thought so, she looked up from her mobile phone, the wind and snow in Boston made her hands and feet cold, but it was not as cold as one ten-thousandth of her heart.

She saw Guan Buyu—a long-awaited dream.But there are others.

From such a long distance, Jiang Lingyu can only recognize that it must be Guan Buyu.She has a bouncing walking posture, she is tall again, and her slender body is wrapped in a down jacket without looking bloated. She is both familiar and unfamiliar, and the girl who follows her tugs at her cuffs—just like Jiang Lingyu often does like that.

"Slower."

She seemed to hear herself saying it.But when Guan Buyu turned his head, it wasn't her that he was looking at.

Jiang Lingyu took a few steps back, she thought to herself: It's really embarrassing.

As she left quickly, she lowered her head and deleted the circle of friends.She hid in the hotel, the plane ticket to leave was two days later, and she didn't try to find Guan Buyu again.

It had been snowing for the past few days, and the road was blocked by thick snow, so she couldn't go anywhere.Sometimes when she was nestled in her room she would wake up suddenly and stare blankly at her chest—that's when she felt that she was missing a piece.

"Ms. Jiang, have you seen that person?"

After returning to Huanjiang, the little girl asked her this while eating a lollipop.Jiang Lingyu replied:

"seen."

The little girl wanted to say something more, but she suddenly closed her mouth.Seeing you, Teacher Jiang should be very happy, right?But why—why was she crying?

From that day on, Jiang Lingyu decided not to look back.Such behavior is indeed despicable and selfish, but it is an unconscious protective behavior.Saved myself from the abyss of regret.

Until Guan Buyu's name appeared in her life again recently.

Jiang Lingyu opened her eyes. She rubbed her sore eyes and felt a burst of fatigue all over her body.Shouldn't have slept.She sighed, and slowly got up and changed her clothes.After going downstairs, she packed up the goods, and then opened the small window - when she finished all this, Jiang Lingyu had returned to her usual state.

Although the mood is still heavy, it seems that it still cannot be relieved after being immersed in the wind and snow.But Jiang Lingyu would be much better when the night wind blows.She forced herself to calm down, after all, what's the use of thinking about it now?Everything has been overwhelmed.

Just as she was about to lower her head to open the lesson plan, someone came to the window.

"What to eat?"

She swallowed all her emotions, raised her head and asked normally, the person on the opposite side handed her the package and said:

"Flash."

"Ah, but I didn't—"

Just as Jiang Lingyu was about to say something, the tall and strong man immediately waved his hand and said that it will be delivered, and then he ran away, Jiang Lingyu didn't even have time to stop him.

For some reason, she always felt that he looked familiar.

Such a thought was fleeting, she looked down at the package in her hand, it was strange, there was no information such as the delivery address and sender, it was just a cuboid carefully wrapped in kraft paper.

In the corner, there was written "To Jiang Lingyu". The characters looked familiar, but Jiang Lingyu couldn't see clearly as if they had been wet with water.

Anyway, it looked like something for her.Although the way is very suspicious... First take it apart and have a look?

Jiang Lingyu took some effort to remove the outer kraft paper. During the period, some guests came, and she had to put it down from time to time. Finally, it took more than half an hour to open the package.

After opening the package, she was even more surprised—it was just a note, a bit like that kind of doodle book, Jiang Lingyu always felt that she often saw such notes in the small supermarket next door.

mischief?

When she was thinking this way, she saw a white baby's breath sandwiched between the pages of the book, her heart beat heavily, and her hand carefully pulled out the baby's breath, and placed it on her soft in the palm of your hand.

——Then, she slowly opened the doodle book, and that sentence caught her eye:

"Jiang Lingyu, happy 20th birthday!!!"

Jiang Lingyu's head "hummed", and the emotions and tears she had just tried to hold back instantly recalled, and her fingers couldn't help trembling—she saw a lot of herself.

The self who is laughing, the one who is frowning, the one who is serious about solving the problem, and the one who can’t help crying after holding back desperately—just like now.

Guan Buyu's brushstrokes are really childish and overly cute, outlining her in a simple and vivid way, every stroke gently brushing against Jiang Lingyu's heart.She is also like a chatterbox, chattering endlessly in the blank space of every page, as if she really appeared in front of Jiang Lingyu at this moment, talking with her waist in her hands.

"When I was injured, it was Jiang Lingyu who saved me. Then I discovered a truth: the medicine in the infirmary can heal the pain in the body, but Jiang Lingyu can heal the pain in my heart. It is said that good medicine is bitter, But you are not bitter at all."

She can say such earthy love words.

"Xiao Guan lying on the table is dreaming of Xiao Yu, hey, may I ask if Xiao Yu also dreams of me when she sleeps? You must dream! Otherwise, I will get angry."

He will also talk nonsense as he pleases, and spread all his love on the paper for Jiang Lingyu to see.

"Did you know? Jiang Lingyu is the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life! Please smile more! Please!"

"But it's okay to cry, Xiao Guan has been here anyway, so you just hold Xiao Guan and cry."

More often, she would bluntly say to Jiang Lingyu, I like you so much, don't drive me away, please hug me as much as you want.

So the real Jiang Lingyu could only sob and say intermittently:

"But, you're not here now."

You are not here, you were driven away by me.You like me so much, but I have always been proud of you.It sucks - how selfish I am, I only care about myself, and I lose the person I'm holding.I even tried to bury it after throwing it away, tried to escape, tried to reach out and timidly withdraw it, just because I saw you walking with someone else——

Guan Buyu, I thought you wouldn't like me anymore.

And when she turned the last page, a half-folded paper flew out, she picked it up and unfolded it, and it was still herself.Different from the childish painting style just now, Jiang Lingyu in this picture is a sketch profile, very much like herself at the moment, she is smiling, her eyes are crooked, and her hair is blown by the wind.

On the back of this painting is still written in Guan Buyu's crooked handwriting - this hasn't changed at all.

She said, look, I can draw much better now, right?But I haven't seen you for a long time, I don't know if the painting still looks like it.But this is the you in my memory, always looking good as hell, always smiling at me.

Sometimes I wonder if it's all worth it.But soon I will feel that there is no point in thinking about this kind of thing, because we can't build a time machine!So it's useless to regret it any more, I can only keep going, clenching my teeth and not looking back.

However, very occasionally, such as thinking of you.I still feel that if there is a chance, I must go back to the past and hang on to you, no matter how hard you drive me, don't run away.I understand that when I grow up, I have to accept change, and I will lose a lot of things.But Jiang Lingyu can't.I want to keep her.

It's a pity that I didn't make it.

So Guan Buyu, who has grown up now, can only say to you, thank you for your tolerance, response to me, and love for me.You have given me so much and filled all the gaps in me.You also made me grow up, and made me into the adult I am now, who didn't cry after writing these words.

...actually I'm still crying.

After thinking about it, I still want to give this book to you, just as we are late.I don't want to say goodbye anymore, or I'm afraid I'll cry again.

So, full stop.

The author has something to say: Nine o'clock tomorrow morning!The text is over! !

In addition, I want to read be, I think it is very good, just read this chapter!No need to look back OuO