I was the first to catch up

When Jiang Lingyu came out of the class, the quiet students behind her exploded in an instant. From time to time, a sentence "How can it be so beautiful?" came to her ears. Jiang Lingyu closed the door with a wry smile, and went to office go.

It has been two weeks since the internship started, and Jiang Lingyu was flattered from the beginning—and a little panicked, but now he is not surprised, and even occasionally fights back.For example, now, a boy is suddenly pushed out of the class by his classmates. He said with a smile:

"Ms. Jiang, can I add your WeChat?"

Jiang Lingyu frowned helplessly. She remembered a game she had heard: The new Chinese teacher looks easy to bully, and she looks good. Do you want to bet on who can make her cry first? ——The unruly No. [-] middle school students had bad intentions from the very beginning, which Jiang Lingyu never thought of.

It's just that the bet disappeared after Jiang Lingyu took a few classes. The simple provocation turned into the clumsy love of adolescent boys. Who would be willing to make Jiang Lingyu cry?She spoke softly and was extremely gentle, and when she was stopped by students in the corridor to answer questions, she would speak patiently and seriously before leaving.So during the 10-minute break between classes, it was often difficult for Jiang Lingyu to get away and go back to the office.

"Are you from Class Seven? I remember I don't teach Class Seven."

Jiang Lingyu looked up at the class, and the boy said:

"I have some problems in Chinese. Teacher Tang is too busy. She said you speak well, so I will come to you."

If the students say that, what reason does the teacher have to refuse?

Jiang Lingyu smiled, she replied:

"Okay, then you can scan me, or come to the office to find me after school."

When she said that, the boy's eyes lit up. He didn't expect it to be so easy.But when Jiang Lingyu mentioned going to the office, he hesitated - after all, it was over when he met Teacher Tang, so he took out his mobile phone from his pocket and said:

"Okay, I'll just—"

The mobile phone he took out was taken away by Jiang Lingyu in an instant, the boy was stunned for a moment, and when he raised his eyes, he saw Jiang Lingyu smiling and saying:

"Now No. [-] Middle School is not allowed to bring your mobile phone during school, right? I took it away, remember to come and get it after school, and by the way, I will also ask Teacher Tang if she really asked you to come to me."

After Jiang Lingyu finished speaking, she left with a smile on her lips, knowing that the students around her were probably thinking: Teacher Jiang is not as easy to bully as the rumors say.

This is what she wants - after many years of lessons, Jiang Lingyu has finally learned how to refuse tactfully, instead of asking for perfection every day and only caring about accommodating others.

Although—maybe it's too late.

When I went upstairs, the class bell rang. The bell in the No. [-] Middle School was selected by the students who submitted their contributions every week, so it was different every week, which was very different from No. [-] Middle School.

Jiang Lingyu stood on the stairs, she paused for a moment, heard the noise around her gradually disappearing, and the teaching building became calm, she let out a breath slowly - this was her favorite moment.

In this one minute, she will gradually realize that her feelings for No. 1 Middle School are accumulating—at first, this is a somewhat strange school. She often passes by and hears it, but she has never had the opportunity to enter here.Even when interacting with her.

Now, No. [-] Middle School gave her some more special feelings.The feeling was new and entirely her own.

At least she thought so.

The ringing gradually stopped, and Jiang Lingyu hugged the lesson plan tightly in her arms. She walked forward and came to the second floor.In addition to the office on the second floor, there are some classrooms. When Jiang Lingyu walked through the corridor, he heard a loud voice coming from a classroom:

"...Can you guys do it? Huh?!"

Jiang Lingyu stopped. As she approached the classroom, she saw a strong male teacher slapping the table through the door glass. He looked very angry, and the students were silent.

"Which one of you is a genius? It's the same as that Fang Ranran, who can score 110 and [-] points in the test with his eyes closed, so I won't talk about you. If you really don't talk about it, you can do your homework if you like it, and if you don't want to do it, you can do it." Don't write."

Jiang Lingyu pursed her lips and smiled. In the past two weeks, she had heard Fang Ranran's name appearing in the mouths of various teachers, including during meetings, the dean would occasionally mention it, which made her occasionally run into Fang Ranran when she went home. Of course, I'm not ashamed all the time.

——After all, no matter how powerful she heard Fang Ranran, the one who appeared in front of her would always be Fang Ranran in her mother's pajamas, baggy and relaxed.

That Fang Ranran saw Jiang Lingyu couldn't help laughing, and asked strangely:

"What's wrong? There's something on my face—wait a minute."

Then she ran all the way to the bathroom and didn't know what to confirm. After she came out, she was even more strange:

"No, what happened?"

Jiang Lingyu could only smile and say it was all right.

Jiang Lingyu stood for a while, she shook her head, and when she was about to leave with a smile, the teacher with a loud voice suddenly said:

"—Or, you can just learn from Guan Buyu. No. [-] middle school vicious dog, have any of your classmates heard of it? I remember that many students who entered No. [-] middle school admired her very much. I know you are your age. My children like the kind of people who don't talk too much and rely on fists to talk. But even she didn't fight anymore in the third year of high school, but started to learn. She knows the truth, why don't you understand it?"

Jiang Lingyu stopped when she was about to leave, when she heard a classmate raising her hand and asking:

"Teacher, how is senior sister Guan Buyu's college entrance examination results? I heard that she went to study abroad."

The teacher's voice became louder:

"Don't think that if someone went abroad, it means that she didn't study hard. In the end, she was not far behind the first line. You may think: Hey, she is not very good. But as her class teacher at the time, I can tell you very responsibly ——Guan Buyu's progress is greater than that of anyone in this class. And this is all due to her hard work, not born with a good brain or luck."

The students fell silent, Jiang Lingyu didn't stay any longer, she took a deep breath and walked away, trying to suppress her emotions.

Again.

she thought.

After returning to the office, she exhaled, put the lesson plan on the table, and took a sip of her brewed tea.

"Teacher Jiang."

When someone called her, Jiang Lingyu looked up and saw the teaching director—surnamed Wang, but the name "bald" always came to Jiang Lingyu's mind.

"Mr. Wang, what's the matter?"

She put down the teacup, and Teacher Wang said with some embarrassment:

"That's right, there is something we want to ask you from our school."

please me?

Jiang Lingyu was stunned for a moment, she is just a college student who has only started her internship for two weeks, what can I ask her for?

"The school will hold an event in a while, and we would like to invite some outstanding students to speak at that time. When we think of this, the first thing we think of is Fang Ranran. We know that Teacher Jiang's breakfast shop is sponsored by her, so we asked I asked if you could speak to Fang Ranran for us."

Jiang Lingyu asked a little strangely:

"Shouldn't it be better for the school to ask directly than me?"

Teacher Wang replied rather helplessly:

"Well...the school has actually asked before, but Fang Ranran was abroad before and couldn't come back for a while. Because we have asked several times, this year is a bit—"

"—It's okay, let me ask."

Jiang Lingyu nodded when she understood. She didn't know about Fang Ranran before, but now Fang Ranran should have time. Besides, No. [-] Middle School is not only her alma mater, but also Yu Xiaomin's alma mater. I will definitely say yes this time.

After she agreed to come down, Teacher Wang didn't leave immediately. He stood there, obviously still had something to say.

"......Teacher Wong?"

Teacher Wang looked even more embarrassed. He scratched his hairless head and said:

"Also——Also, we want to invite some more inspirational students back this year to encourage those poor students. I heard that you have a good relationship with Guan Buyu in our school, so—"

These words made Jiang Lingyu stunned, and the emotion surged up again, which made her frown, and stretched out her hand to stop Teacher Wang's words:

"—Sorry, Mr. Wang."

Jiang Lingyu felt some inexplicable distress in her chest, she shook her head, trying to shake off these feelings, and forced herself to show a pale smile.

"I haven't contacted her for a long time."

When he said this, almost every word was like a needle, piercing Jiang Lingyu's heart.

Teacher Wang said regretfully after hearing the words:

"Really, that's a pity... Then I'll go first, and I'll leave Fang Ranran to you."

After he left, Jiang Lingyu leaned back in the chair all at once.She drank several sips of tea in a row, but she didn't feel any better.

It was at this time that she would always regret her choice.

Why did I fill in No. [-] Middle School in the volunteer form at that time, instead of No. [-] Middle School of my alma mater?

Even now, there is still no way to find out the reason for this choice. Occasionally, like now, a sentence belonging to the past floats back, and it sounds somewhere:

"If we break up in the future and I go to teach in No. [-] Middle School again, wouldn't I be sad every day—you said, I will often hear your name."

This is Jiang Lingyu's own voice.

She couldn't remember—did she say that?What a prophet.She is really sad every day, because she can feel the existence of Guan Buyu every day, and this is what she deliberately ignored in the past.As long as she can't remember, as long as she doesn't look back, if she doesn't look back at the ruins and the memories abandoned by herself, then life will continue to move forward, and she dare not look back when the sun is ahead.

Many times she would have such an illusion - she has come out.

But if she really came out, why hasn't she liked anyone until now?

It was as if someone dug out the thing of "love" - ​​this kind of emotion, from Jiang Lingyu's body and placed it elsewhere.Perhaps it was placed on the other side of the earth, where the snow was falling, and it was completely frozen.So Jiang Lingyu lost the ability to love her lover. She seemed to be better, but lost a part of herself forever.

There were no other classes in the afternoon, so Jiang Lingyu lay down on the table and planned to take a rest.Before she fell asleep, she heard a faint sentence somewhere, and that sentence came from Fang Ranran:

"But what she wants, can you give her now?"

In the dream, she remembered that she hadn't struggled with this.In Jiang Lingyu's sophomore year, after she decided to drop out of school, her regrets and reluctance emerged slowly, sinking her into a swamp of self-loathing.She wanted to go to Guan Buyu to sort out the recent things, but when she rang the doorbell, no one was there, so she called Fang Ranran to ask where Guan Buyu was. Fang Ranran's answer at that time was:

"Where you can't find her."

Her attitude was very clear, Jiang Lingyu tightly grasped the phone, and heard Fang Ranran say:

"If you haven't figured something out and have the confidence to stand firm in your beliefs, it's useless to find Guan Buyu. Everything remains the same, nothing has changed."

Then she murmured:

"Well, although she told me not to interfere, I still can't help meddling in my own business."

Fang Ranran continued to say that she also said the same thing to Guan Buyu one afternoon, but the situation was completely opposite.At that time, she said to Guan Buyu that chasing someone is like a war, you have to hit the opponent's weakness, and you can't do meaningless work.Now she told Jiang Lingyu that you are doing unnecessary work by forcefully going to see Guan Buyu.But Guan Buyu what she wants, can you give her now?

Jiang Lingyu knew that she came to Guan Buyu at this moment out of self-blame and confusion, but guilt was pushing her to act, not that she really knew what she wanted to do.She knew that she couldn't give anything - at that time, she couldn't even handle her emotions well, so Fang Ranran's words were right.

So she hung up the phone silently, and slid to the ground with her back against the door of Guan Buyu's house. She wanted to cry, but her tears seemed to have dried up.

Now she was crying in her dream, but the tears finally flowed out, and she couldn't help thinking:

It's too late for her to do anything.