White dove

On Sunday, Tong Tong and Bian Cheng returned to Nanjing for a short vacation.

For a short while, live like a normal couple.

Both of them had no interest in going out to play, and stayed at home with peace of mind, doing those things that they had thought about doing with each other countless times in those years, but they didn't realize it.

It's all boring stuff.

Drinking water, eating, staring at each other in a daze, giggling, watching movies, playing games, and someone hanging on Biancheng like a humanoid pendant.

Tong Tong took a Polaroid and took many photos of the border towns, the border towns wearing only a pair of underwear and brushing teeth, the border towns where the heat is dense under the shower head, the border towns where cooking with an apron, and the border towns where smoking.

I don’t know what’s going on, Bian Cheng is only 26 years old, but when he smiles, there are fine lines in the corners of his eyes. Tong Tong loves these lines. He moved the camera very close, took a picture of the unclear fine lines, and then lightly Kissed him lightly.

Ever since I met him, Biancheng didn't take his appearance very seriously, because his work was exposed to the wind and the sun all year round, his skin and voice were as if they had been polished by sandpaper. He didn't care, and he didn't care much about skin care. The bones support each other.

Tong Tong used to think that Biancheng was an old cadre whose soul was sealed away. Now that it has been a long time, he feels the wildness in this person's bones.

In contrast, his so-called "wildness" is nothing more than a bluff and nothing more.

They did it once in the evening, on the sofa in the living room. At that time, the sunset glow burned through half of the sky, reflected from the door and window of the kitchen, and the whole room was rosy. They did it again at night, with the bright moon in the bedroom and the clear light. , panting like a sea tide.

Tong Tong came out of the bathroom and found that the kitchen door was open and Biancheng was blowing on the terrace.

With a cigarette between his fingers, Tong Tong walked over, Bian Cheng took his hand, let him sit on his lap, and hugged him from the side.

Tongtong's hand went around Biancheng's neck, caressing the hairy head, slightly pricking his hand, he suddenly asked: "Biancheng, have you ever hated me?"

The soot between Biancheng's fingers grew a little, he moved, and a piece of off-white powder fell down, he said: "When I was in the hospital, I told your mother that I never held grudges against you, and that was the truth."

"Why?" Tong Tong turned around and faced the border town, looking down: "If it was me, I would hate you and never see you again."

Bian Cheng smiled, and the lines at the corners of his eyes appeared and disappeared inconspicuously: "I won't, I will find you after everything calms down, let you see for yourself, what you once swore would change, don't believe it Have things changed?"

Tong Tong was speechless.

Bian Cheng asked softly, "Now tell me, has it changed?"

Tong Tong shook his head. Needless to say, this is a question that does not need to be answered.

Bian Cheng added: "To be honest, I wasn't sure when I picked you up at Wuhan Airport. I wasn't sure if you still remembered me, or if you still had feelings, but I told myself, I was just going to see you. Other thoughts, just want to see you, just seeing you, everything else is not important."

Tong Tong's fingers brushed over the slightly raised upper lip that opened and closed as he spoke, and that lip asked him, "What about you? Do you want to see me, at that time."

"I want to, but I'm terrified. I knew you were coming." Tong Tong said.

The fine lines at the corners of Bian Cheng's eyes flickered again: "Idiot, I am the one who is nervous."

Tong Tong also smiled: "I can't tell, she's all in black, standing in the crowd is so calm."

"I'm pretending, I'm afraid I'll scare you." Bian Cheng said: "At that time, I thought, if you are no longer the little pupil I remember, if you change, we really become strangers, that will be the last time I see you You, I won't bother you in the future."

"When you saw me, did you think I had changed?" Tong Tong put his hands on the back of Biancheng's neck and looked at him.

"No." Bian Cheng said: "The first time I saw you, I knew you were still that little pupil, my little pupil."

Tong Tong hugged him tightly. At midnight, the cool breeze was gentle and affectionate, and only sporadic windows of the surrounding buildings were lit. This open-air confession and affection was only known by the sky, the earth, the wind and the stars.

And they know each other.

For many years in the middle of the gap, it seems that nothing can be filled.

Biancheng said, "Tell me, what have you done since you left Yijiang?"

The rocking chair was very wide, Tong Tong was wrapped in a bathrobe, Bian Cheng simply hugged him into the bag, and slowly rocked on the rocking chair together.

Tong Tong leaned against Biancheng's chest and silently recalled it, as if many years had been lackluster.

"When I first left, I didn't dare to face everything. I just left like this. I couldn't forgive myself in my heart, and I felt that this was the only way. I have been traveling aimlessly for several months, and my money is running out. I had to work, so I went to Nanjing and entered the same industry as Mu Ke, selling houses in the sales office."

"At that time, I needed money very much. It seemed that there was a huge hole in my heart that couldn't be filled. Before I left, I was trapped in the money dilemma. When I came to Nanjing, this feeling of poverty lasted for several years. In fact, I did not make much money in real estate sales. Little, but no matter how much I earn, I don’t think it’s enough. I spend very little money, but I just feel that it’s not enough.”

"Gradually I realized that I might have some psychological problems. I wanted to resign, but the company didn't agree, so I took a two-month vacation, so I went on a trip. The trip was long and vast. I used to say that I have a lot to say about the world. Imagination, during that journey, I saw a lot of imagination being confirmed, but no one can share it. Whenever I see something that I want to share with others, I just want to get you, and then I register a Weibo, share all Everything you want to say is written on it.”

"You know what happened later. My partner also met because of Weibo, and then decided to make a documentary together. At the beginning, I had no idea about this. I just thought I had to change the environment, change the way of life, and then return to There were days like that before, I couldn't take it...and now it's here."

"These years...it's really..." Tong Tong rubbed Biancheng's neck and looked up at him.

Bian Cheng just listened silently, with one arm around his shoulder, gently rubbing his neck-length hair, which was a little wet at the ends.

"For many years, I have been worried about how you are doing outside alone, whether you are doing well." The voice of Biancheng was like a wisp of sand in the night wind: "At that time you said you were going to make money, and I Later, when I earned every sum of money, I was thinking, when will you come back? If I earn a lot of money, will you come back? There was a time when I hated money, although I knew it was not because of this that you left, But I couldn’t help but think, if I could have secured the first contract earlier, maybe I could have prevented a lot of things.”

This topic is too serious, Tong Tong is speechless.

After Bian Cheng finished speaking, he let out a sigh of relief, and tightened his arms around Tong Tong: "But now that you are outside, growing into such a person in the wind and rain, you feel that you should be like this, with such a long life. , besides falling in love, there are always many other things to do..."

Before he finished speaking, Tong Tong suddenly interrupted him, slightly supporting his upper body with one hand, his eyelashes flickering.

"I want to fall in love." He said, "Biancheng, please fall in love with me again."

Bian Cheng was stunned, his breathing was a little short, and the person in front of him stared at him stubbornly until he nodded: "Okay."

"I'm a selfish ghost, Biancheng, maybe this time I still can't go back to Yijiang with you, but I want to have you, just like occupying a territory, I can't stand if you go back, just go back as a friend, and as a friend in the future Come and see me, no, I just want this title, you are my boyfriend..."

Bian Cheng gently kissed him: "I am your boyfriend, I have always been, you can be anywhere, whether it is in Nanjing, Shanghai, or Yijiang, it is the same, you can do what you want , go to a wider sky, but if you are tired and want to rest on the ground, I will always be there."

A warm liquid slid down and melted into the corners of the lips of the two, kissing all the way up the border, the corners of the eyes and the tip of the eyebrows, like kissing a piece of treasure.

On Wednesday, Border Town is going back.

He has put too much work on him. These days, Tong Tong watched him turn off his mobile phone to silent, and sometimes lowered his voice to explain all kinds of tedious things to his colleagues, and asked his assistant to help him change the appointment with the client. Tong Tong knew that , this is the time he specially set aside for himself, but as adults, they all have their own identities to complete.

Arriving at Lukou Airport again, Tong Tong used to leave, leaving the waiting person in place. This time their identities were changed, and Tong Tong became the one to see him off. He once again experienced the mood of the border town.

It's like obviously being able to breathe, but gradually sinking to the bottom of the water.

Biancheng had experienced this feeling so early, and Tong Tong felt bitter and distressed when she thought of it.

"Alright, be happy." Bian Cheng hugged him vigorously, rubbing his hair and face.

"Yeah." Tong Tong was really unhappy, he didn't want to say goodbye.

Bian Cheng leaned into his ear and said, "Let me tell you a little secret. Su Lei and I have already discussed that we will move the smart home company to Nanjing in the future, and we will gradually implement it when we go back. I have already reported it online. I have taken the flight license course, and the course will start soon, I will work hard to make money to get the license, and I will have a private jet in the future, no matter where you are filming, when I miss you or you miss me, I can come to you as soon as possible."

Tong Tong was shocked, no matter how far away and dreamy the dream was, most of the depression in his heart was dispelled, and the refreshing side returned to him, he said as if waking up from a dream: "The company moved... Introduced to you by the real estate company, their high-end real estate just needs smart home business!"

Bian Cheng was also taken aback, this guy's reaction was faster than his, and it sounded very feasible.

Tong Tong was finally willing to bid farewell to Biancheng: "Let's make an agreement. Before you move to Nanjing, no matter who goes to see who next time, the person who is seen must grant the other party a wish."

"One is not enough, ten." Bian Cheng was also amused.