White dove

After drinking for a whole night, Tong Tong couldn't see any marks on his face. He probably inherited Tong Shining's extraordinary talent. When he was a child, Tong Shining was drinking eight out of ten days, and sobered up for the remaining two days. Finally, he drank. When the stomach was hemorrhaging, Yu Xing watched him vomit half a bucket of dirty blood in the middle of the night. At that moment, he was so calm and hesitant about whether to call an ambulance to the hospital for rescue. If this guy was left alone, he might vomit to death. He was drunk and relieved his worries, but Tong Shining had a fit of desire to survive, and he was still in a state of insanity directing Yu Xing, "Call me, call an ambulance, a car..."

After half a month, Tong Tong went to the hospital every day after school. At the beginning, there was no bed in the ward, and Tong Shining was lying on a simple bed in the corridor, his face pale. A five or six-year-old child approached the unconscious Tong Shining curiously, and was grabbed by his parents. He carried the man back and yelled in a low voice: "What are you looking at! This man is dying!"

Tong Tong at the other end of the corridor laughed, how could he die so easily, wicked people live a long life, so it's worth it.

Tong Tong also drank, but he hadn't really been drunk yet. The more he drank, the whiter his face became, and the more he drank, the more sober he became. The heart soaked in alcohol tonight let him see the ending between him and Qin Shu, and he couldn't be fooled. people.

He didn't remember when he started to have a slight and hazy feeling for Qin Shu. He grew up in a courtyard, and the class distinction was not so obvious. In the hydropower station group, the homes of big leaders and ordinary workers were mixed together. Tong Shining couldn't talk to Qin Shu's father, Qin Feng, but Tong Tong had followed Qin Shu all over the compound since he was a child.

When he was young, Tong Tong didn't grow much, he was only one year younger than Qin Shu, but he looked like he was two or three years younger. He was white and clean, with long eyelashes. All the big and small boys in the courtyard loved to bully him. I thought that this "fake girl" could be scared to cry casually, but I don't know that the fake girl is a ruthless character who will swallow blood even if her teeth are broken. They will be beaten back again by the tall and big Qin Shu.

A childhood of retribution, a boy who had fun in bitterness and fought wits and courage with his family, the two of them grew up together like this, Tong Tong didn't worry about studying, the first year player in his grade, and he was silent when he was in junior high school He skipped a level with a bang, and became classmates with Qin Shu directly. On the first day of the third year of junior high school, Qin Shu was shocked when he saw Tong Tong, who walked straight into the classroom with a sullen face and sat next to him, carrying a schoolbag. have no idea!

Then Tong Tong turned his head and smiled at the stunned Qin Shu. This was his carefully planned surprise for Qin Shu.

There are too many memories, Tong Tong is lying on the upper bunk bed, everyone else in the dormitory has returned to the room, the dormitory of the college boys is like a perpetual motion machine, full of noise, but he is stuck in the memory, watching himself sinking, sinking again .

In the third year of junior high school, I met an "Iron Lady" class teacher and math teacher. The homework assigned in one day could not be finished in three days. Tong Tong and Qin Shu led the rebellion and called on the whole class not to do homework together. Standing, Iron Lady poked their heads and said, "Want to be the leader? Revolutionary vanguard? First look in the mirror to see if your bones are hard enough, and whether you will be crushed to death by the gun specially designed to shoot the first bird."

Tong Tong glanced over Tie Niangzi's shoulder and looked out of the corridor. When the people had finished scolding and left, he hooked Qin Shu's finger from behind: "Look, it's snowing."

Qin Shu was afraid of the cold, so he shrunk his neck at a glance, feeling a little regretful: "Fuck, I feel more like Yang Bailao in an instant, and I was kicked out of the house in a snowy day."

Tong Tong laughed, watching the snow with Qin Shu on the corridor, this is not a punishment but a reward.

In high school, he helped Qin Shu copy physics, chemistry, mathematics, and English homework. When his cheerleaders watched him play a basketball game and were not allowed to drink, the two of them were sweating profusely, touching ice-cola under the shade of a tree...

In his eyes, Qin Shu has always been "stupid", so stupid that he didn't know that he had other thoughts about him, and recklessly hooked up with him, swimming and going to the public bathroom to take a bath together, so stupid to see ghosts A piece of himself was struggling, and his arm came around from behind to cover his eyes.

When did Qin Shu know what he was thinking?When did Tongtong start to feel that this was not his own thoughts?

It's too difficult to go back and trace the source. Tong Tong didn't know what happened and came to the present.

The ignorance, heartbeat, jumping, guessing, loss, and happiness on the way are superimposed, and the mountains are as high and as heavy.

Leng Chao was completely drunk, and snored on the bed. Tong Tong envied him, even though he was about to be forced to live with his girlfriend and mother, and after a few months, the eighth exam would reveal his original shape. He should eat, drink, and sleep. He won't fall, he is obviously the kind of chic character who goes to the execution ground after eating and drinking, but Tong Tong is not, he will starve himself to death before going to the execution ground.

It's easy to break, it's him.

Intoxicated by alcohol, Tong Tong turned on Leng Chao's computer and logged into Century Time and Space. There was a long list of comments on the incomprehensible post in the afternoon, all of which were Ye Shen, you are back, You have appeared, I am waiting for you to death.

The private messages were also flooded, and he switched them off one by one, and saw that a disobedient post was pushed to the top of the list again, and he was calling him from the air.

The title reads: "Yetong doesn't see me, so I have to deal with it in a man's way. How about a frontal PK?"

Tong Tong is at a loss, what is this guy going to do?

"Mysterious Yetong, there is only Yetong with a blurry silhouette in the early years. Everyone is curious about Yetong. Like everyone who manages the time and space of the century, I am also curious about who is behind this all-powerful ID. I am not What kind of gentleman wants to force him to reveal the veil in an exciting way, Yetong, if there is a way, let's have a fair and just PK, use your best words as weapons, and we will each write a post with the same name, title You decide, after a week, whoever has the most popular posts, whoever blows up his face, if he dares not come, or loses and fails to fulfill the agreement, then he will disappear from the BBS forever."

The following comments lined up as expected, calling for Yetong to fight, mocking disobedience and being too narcissistic, in fact, they were looking for various excuses to blow up their own photos...

Tong Tong became drunk, and typed a word forcefully to reply: "Okay."

The disobedient private message on the site was sent in seconds: "What topic?"

Tong Tong was silent for a few seconds, then turned back: "Out of control."

He didn't come back after being disobedient, and said after a while: "Fuck, such a stream of consciousness? Dude, I'm not good at this kind of thing."

Tong Tong sneered: "Then post a post and confess directly."

If you are not obedient, then reply: "Don't, I'm afraid of being provoked, yes, I will post it tomorrow night."

Tong Tong was cruel: "Whatever you want, I will post it in an hour."

Disobedient and a little flustered: "You are so... awesome."

The news broke here, Tong Tong hid in the drunkenness, as if hiding in a barrier that silenced the sound, the complaints and teasing of other roommates in the dormitory could not be heard, they made a noise, went to bed, turned off the lights, Only the computer screen was left glowing blue.

Tong Tong began to type: "out of control"

"Before everything happened, I couldn't imagine what it would be like if everything happened. I don't think there is any possibility of continuation of your life to me, and there is any part that can continue to intersect. We are two completely different Individuals have seemingly similar but completely different growth trajectories. If you recall carefully, you may be able to recall how these follow-ups came step by step, but those are just appearances.

How a person got into your heart is hard to trace.

I have always wanted to make a short film about you, stream-of-consciousness, chaotic, and unrealistic. Unfortunately, in the past so long, I have not left any fragmented images. All the images are in my mind. It will be automatically played at every happy or sad moment. When you are happy, there are a thousand of you laughing with me. When you are sad, there are 1 of you who squat down and ask me, what's wrong with you, why are you unhappy, everything will be fine.

You say, am I already crazy?

Suddenly one day I realized that I don’t remember anything else at all in my memory. The so-called growing up time was not very happy or peaceful. I wore a mask of a normal person, studying, going to class, finishing class, and living like you. Chatting sentence by sentence, I don't remember when some restlessness in my heart was awakened, is it you?

To me, you are not just as simple as I like you. You change me, make me more loyal to myself, and let me get rid of distracting thoughts. This is more meaning than love.

I watched a drama during the summer vacation. The male protagonist used to say wearaults. When encountering a situation that cannot be recovered by manpower, you must control yourself and accept it. Wearauduls. , I have no choice but to accept all of this, and to be calm. After accepting nothing, accept that you will leave. After accepting, you will live a life that has nothing to do with me in a more distant place. I accept it because I'madult.Suddenly angry, what kind of terrible adult world is this, if you are still young enough to be ignorant, you can willfully not accept all of this and nothing, even if it can't change the facts, but I don't accept it.But now, I have no choice but to accept, whatever you give me, accept it all.

Until one day, we are so far away that we will never see each other again. "

After typing the last word, Tong Tong didn't read the manuscript again, and clicked send directly, exactly at 1 o'clock in the morning.

The disobedient private message came again: "It's so fast! A man can't understand it so fast!"

Tong Tong laughed silently, but didn't reply, he went to sleep, and his head started to hurt.

Alcohol is not intoxicating, it only makes the unconscious more unconscious, and makes the sober more sober.