White dove

This period of time is strange and vague, as if countless things have happened, time flies but seems to stand still, a new chapter of life is slowly opening, and everything in the old days is fading away like quicksand.

The defense will be held tomorrow, and Tong Tong received a call from the central hospital today, telling her to go and get the complete medical report.

The little nurse at the front desk of the medical examination center still remembers him. When Tong Tong came last time, the little nurse laughed like a winter jasmine when she saw him. She was coaxed and mustered up the courage to ask Tong Tong's contact information. I don't know how to see him today. There was something wrong with her expression, the smile was a smile, but she was extremely reluctant, pulling the corner of her mouth abruptly, Tong Tong greeted her gently, and asked, "Where can I get the medical examination report?"

Normally, you can take it away after registering at the front desk, but the little nurse pointed to the director's office at the top of the corridor, pouted and said, "At Director Meng's place, he asked you to go find him."

oh?Tong Tong was a little strange.

Director Meng is out of the clinic today, and there is no one else in the office, as if he was waiting for Tong Tong, Tong Tong probed into the half-hidden door and knocked on the door.

"Come in." Director Meng said.Tong Tong also had a face-to-face meeting with him when he came back for the physical examination. Because it is a special occupation, Director Meng also talked with Tong Tong about the precautions for some projects.

Tong Tong greeted politely, Director Meng pointed to the stool next to the desk, "Sit."

With the atmosphere of the hospital, Tong Tong was inexplicably a little nervous.

"Director Meng, is there anything wrong with my medical report?" Tong Tong asked.

Director Meng pushed his glasses and did not answer, but asked: "Does anyone in your family have a special physical condition or have a strange disease? For example, it was fine at first, and then gradually began to lose coordination with the limbs?"

Tong Tong thought about it, and it seemed to be okay. He didn't see many relatives on Tong Shining's side. It was a huge but indifferent family. He hadn't heard of anyone with a strange disease. On Yu Xing's side... he suddenly thought The figure of my aunt appeared. When my aunt had a mad attack, she was tied to the bed by her family, and she kept struggling until she was deformed. The problem, when she was a child, her family said she was crazy."

"How crazy?" Director Meng asked again.

"I didn't see her many times. When I was very young, my family said she was crazy. She often danced and couldn't stop, and couldn't control herself at all. She died within a few years."

Director Meng kept staring at Tong Tong, who was a little scared, "What's wrong?" He asked.

There was a stack of test reports on the desk, Director Meng took out one from it, handed it to Tong Tong and said, "This is a blood gene test, I'm afraid your aunt is not crazy, but chorea, this disease...is usually inherited , carried in the genes."

Tongtong buzzed in his head, looking at the capitalized "HD" on the test sheet, he didn't understand what it was, and habitually took out his mobile phone to check it online. Director Meng watched him type in the search bar opposite him. After a few words, he opened his mouth to explain something to him, but in the end he didn't say anything, after reading it, Tongtong realized that the serious doctor was nearby, and he patted his head: "I'm confused. But he found out, and suddenly understood many things in his heart. He understood the strange behavior of his aunt, chorea...he asked: "Is this... hereditary? Why didn't my mother inherit it?"

"It should be said that she is relatively lucky. She has not yet developed a disease. Maybe she will, or there is a very small chance that she will not. Many things about this disease are not very clear now, including how to prevent it and how to treat it. effective way."

"You mean my mother's side, including me, all carry this mutant gene, it just depends on when it occurs?"

"Yes." Director Meng's voice was gentle, as if comforting Tong Tong.

But it didn’t work. Tong Tong suddenly realized that there were many problems, all of which followed the discovery of this hidden “demon” HD. The shipping company will receive another medical report soon, and it is estimated that they will call in a few days Termination of the contract, as well as Yu Xing, Tong Tong suddenly wanted to ask Yu Xing face to face, whether she knew that her family had a genetic disease, and whether this disease had anything to do with her swallowing her anger in her marriage for more than ten years and choosing the scumbag Ren Jikai.

He wanted to ask too many questions, and he also wanted to ask Tong Shining if he knew it, and if he knew, why did he still sneer at Yu Xing for so many years?What did he think of his wife?

Tong Tong asked: "If it hasn't happened yet, is there any medicine that can suppress... or delay the attack?"

Director Meng shook his head with a very unbearable expression: "Unfortunately, no."

"Okay, I got it, thank you, Director Meng." For the first time, Tong Tong felt the will of fate. At any time in the past, he felt that he had a choice. When his parents divorced, he chose to be with Yu Xing or Tong Shining, whether to go to Beijing for the college entrance examination or Liu Yijiang, he chose to do academics or make money after graduating from university... But at this time, the real hand of fate hit his head and face, and he knew what it meant to be powerless.

Sooner or later, he will become like my aunt, who for no reason will start crying, dancing, unable to understand other people's words, and unable to express at all, tied to the bed, struggling desperately without meaning.

Director Meng told him some precautions, and also gave him a list of several domestic hospitals with the most advanced treatment technology for this disease, which may be useful in the future.

Tong Tong walked out of the hospital with a large file bag of medical examination results in his arms. The sky was bright and bright at the end of May, and his mind was a little dazed, as if pushed by an intuition, he jumped on the bus heading for Yu Xing's house.

It was already evening when I got home, Yu Xing had just left work, and hadn't had time to change clothes and start cooking.

Tong Tong took a look, and found that Ren Jikai was not at home, Yu Xing said: "A friend asked him to drink with him, so he probably won't be back until later."

Normally, Tong Tong couldn't help ridiculing that this kind of person even has friends, but today he is in no mood, staring at Yu Xing closely, as if thousands of emotions whizzed past in his heart.

Yu Xing also noticed his strangeness, came over and pressed Tongtong's arm, and tried the temperature of his forehead again: "What's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"

Tong Tong shook his head, and he said, "Mom, tell me, how did my aunt die?"

Yu Xing's expression froze obviously, and Tong Tong said, "Sure enough, Mom, you know, and you're hiding it from me?"

Yu Xing wanted to explain: "Then you were too young, you didn't understand..."

"So," Tong Tong interrupted her: "You know that you may be like my aunt, and even I may be like this one day. Don't you?"

Yu Xing's face turned pale: "Little Tong, are you..." She spoke incoherently, pulling Tong Tong to look left and right, Tong Tong pulled his hand: "I'm not sick." After a pause, he added: "For the time being without."

"It's you." Tong Tong pressed Yu Xing on the sofa and pulled out the physical examination form: "I went for a physical examination and found out after the test. The doctor said that the high incidence period is 30-50 years old. Mom, do you think When something is wrong?"

Yu Xing was stunned, and shook his head: "I watched your aunt become what she was later step by step with my own eyes. I know what it was like from the beginning, and what it will be like gradually. I'm okay, but... haven't started yet."

This is a story with an ending already written.

"Does Tong Shining know?" Tong Tong stared at her mother.

Yu Xing shook his head again: "He doesn't know, he just thinks that our family members have mental problems, scolding me every day, sooner or later, I will also go crazy." Yu Xing sneered at himself: "He's not wrong, this disease It's like going crazy when you have a seizure."

"Is it because of this disease that you have endured him for so many years?"

"Part of the reason is that your aunt only started to get sick after I married him. He always looked down on me, and hated me even more after this kind of thing happened. He blamed me for bringing the madness gene into his house." Yu Xing looked at Tong Tong, Showing a gentle and self-deprecating smile: "He said that an old lunatic will only give birth to a little lunatic, Tong Tong, you sometimes have a bad temper, and when you lose your temper, I am really scared, and I blame myself for whether Tong Shining really hit the mark. It's all this mutated gene that makes you so bad-tempered."

"But the problem between me and him is much more serious than the discord simply caused by this hidden disease." Yu Xing looked at him: "Little Tong, never pin your hopes and expectations on another person .”

Tong Tong was very surprised, the mother in his eyes had been trapped in the deformed intimate relationship with Tong Shining and Ren Jikai, and he had no courage to get rid of it, but at this time he said such words, he couldn't help but widen his eyes.

Yu Xing looked at him with particularly calm eyes, Tong Tong realized for the first time that he might not understand his mother.

"Why?" Tong Tong asked.

Yu Xing said: "The relationship between people must go downhill. Of course, your father doesn't need to say anything to me, even if I treat him. Before I got married, I thought that as long as I can be with him, no matter what, I won't divorce. , can live on, poor or hard, it’s nothing, but you see, I’ve endured it for more than ten years and it’s over. Love is a luxury, a consumable, and it’s not a durable thing.”

Tong Tong was silent for a while: "If this is the case, why can't you live alone? Why do you have to be with Ren Jikai after leaving Tong Shining?"

Yu Xing was also silent, and started talking since entering the door in the evening, the two of them have been in the living room, it was completely dark now, Tong Tong turned on a floor lamp casually, in the dim, Yu Xing's face was uncertain, she said : "Your aunt was alone in the end. She was too young when she got sick, and she had never been in a relationship. Xiao Tong, my mother was also afraid. If I got to that point, there would be no one around me, and I would be unconscious again. I can't control myself, what should I do?"

Tong Tong burst into tears: "There is still me, Mom."

Yu Xing looked at him: "You have your own way to go, how can you stay by my side all the time because of this." She reached out to wipe the corners of Tong Tong's eyes: "I'm fine, don't be afraid."

"Ren Jikai knows?" Tong Tong asked.

He didn't believe that Xin Jikai would stay by Yu Xing's side if he knew about it, but Yu Xing nodded slowly: "He knows."

Tong Tong covered her face, feeling that the world has gone crazy, and the scumbag Ren Jikai has become a saint who will never leave?

He didn't believe it, and stared at Yu Xing desperately, until she said: "He and I are a half-way couple, and we don't have much relationship. We are together to get what we need. He has nothing. He needs money and a stable life. Although the money is not much, it is no problem to maintain a stable life at least, he promised to take care of me, if I get sick, he will take care of me until the day I leave, this is an agreement."

Tong Tong was stunned. His mother, who had been tortured by cold and violent marriage for more than ten years, now told him that the successor husband who was with him was obtained through an agreement. He could not accept it. He said: "Mom, You would rather believe that he will take care of you to the end than that I will take care of you?"

Yu Xing hugged Tongtong's shoulders: "I believe, but you can't live like this, you have your own life to live, Xiaotong, our family has such genes, it's God's will, but don't let it affect you , what to do, what to do, just do it, just don’t give up on yourself at any time, if one day the person you love leaves you because of this disease, don’t be sad, try to understand him, and you won’t So painful."

The person you love... Tong Tong leaned on Yu Xing's shoulder, until at this moment, the face and name of a person flooded into his brain after being disturbed by the sudden news of his illness for a day.

Border Town, the name filled Tong Tong's heart, filling her whole heart, ready to explode.

Tong Tong pressed his heart, he wanted to pluck out the name connected with blood and flesh from his heart, but every corner of it turned into a jagged outline, cutting inch by inch, it was too painful.

The author says:

The chapters of the past two days have been trembling...

I participated in an event of Changpei, and edited a song list about this article on NetEase Cloud. Basically, I listened to the songs repeatedly when I was writing the article. They are all nostalgic golden songs. The tone of this article is the same, old, gentle, Search "Tongtong and Border Town" on Netease Cloud, and the cover of the song list is the same as the cover of the novel.