The sun and the moon are affectionate
Chapter 52 The Struggling Heart
Stinky Tofu kept wiping Ling Xue's face and hands with a towel. Ling Xue, who was suffering from a high fever, moaned from time to time because of the pain in the wound, coupled with nightmares, she kept talking in her sleep intermittently.
"City Lord be careful...you don't have to worry...it won't...Yingying will protect you...Ling Xue will also...don't..."
The tears of stinky tofu had already burst, he covered his mouth and tried to restrain himself, shouting in his heart: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! It's all my fault! I'm not a lucky star, I'm your disaster star..."
Stinky Tofu wiped away his tears, held Ling Xue's hand in his palm, and recalled every detail of his acquaintance with Ling Xue till now.Lingxue is not as strong as Yingying, she is a faint woman, and there are only scattered fragments left for Stinky Tofu.
"I really don't know what big brother likes Leng Yue." Ling Xue said with a pouted mouth.
"Ling Xue really doesn't understand what love is." Ling Xue said with her head down.
"Ling Xue only wants everyone to be happy, even if she is only the shadow of Princess Yingying for the rest of her life, Ling Xue will have no complaints or regrets." Ling Xue said sincerely.
"City Lord, Princess Yingying must not want to see you unhappy, right?" Ling Xue said empathetically.
"So, the city master should be happy, because only when the city master is happy can Princess Yingying in the sky be happy too, huh?" Ling Xue said playfully.
Every word, every sentence made him cry.
Non-vegetation, ruthless Practice makes perfect?Yingying's position in Stinky Tofu's heart is unique, but this does not mean that he will never lose his right to love and be loved throughout his life.Especially when there is such a woman beside him who loves him without complaint or regret, silently sacrifices for him, and is even willing to sacrifice her life for him, how can he be completely indifferent?
In the past, Ling Xue desperately longed for love and attention.She has always hoped that there will be someone she can rely on for life. For the person she likes, she is sad and jealous.But I don't know when, that jealous Ling Xue grew up quietly.She paid her hard work carefully and dedicated her sincerity.Knowing that he loves Yingying in his heart, he is willing to be Yingying's shadow, and no longer tells his thoughts to stinky tofu, and no longer mentions whether he loves or not.Everything he said and everything he did was just to share his worries and make him happy.
She said these are what she should do.But Stinky Tofu knew in his heart that this was not the case at all.
"Actually, why don't I know your heart? Although you don't say it, I'm not stupid. I know everything in my heart. But I'm really scared. How many people died because of my family, and how many people were hurt or even killed because of me. Died. I am an ominous person, I can't even protect Yingying, watching her die for me, I am really useless...I am so scared..." Stinky Tofu's voice was desolate, this kind of desolation , It comes out from the bone.
It's not that stinky tofu doesn't love, but he doesn't dare to love. He doesn't want the people around him to be hurt a little bit.Yingying's death broke his heart and made him close his heart tightly.He didn't dare to think about the word "love", let alone talk about it, for fear that someone would be hurt in any way, or even die like Yingying.
However, when it comes to emotional matters, how can rationality have the final say?He and Ling Xue respected each other as guests, neither of them dared to cross the threshold.I thought that as long as we were not together, she would not be involved, but I never thought that Ling Xue would become what she is now because of him.
"City Lord..." Ling Xue frowned, calling him with difficulty.
"Ling Xue, I'm here." Stinky Tofu grabbed Ling Xue's hand and said.
Ling Xue slowly opened her eyes and forced a smile with difficulty.Stinky Tofu frowned, his eyes full of distress.
"I'm very happy." Ling Xue said, "Sister Yingying can protect the city lord, so can Ling Xue."
The tears of stinky tofu dripped on the back of Ling Xue's hands, and he said tremblingly, "Ling Xue, stop talking, it's all my fault."
"City Lord, are your tears shed for me?" Ling Xue asked.
Stinky Tofu struggled to control his emotions and nodded repeatedly.
Ling Xue smiled happily: "That's great, the main city's tears are because of me."
Stinky Tofu wiped away his tears, and said softly: "Lingxue, please stop talking and rest well."
Ling Xue shook her head lightly: "I'm afraid if I don't say it now, I won't have a chance to say it again."
"No, no," said Stinky Tofu, "Brother said that your injury will heal in a few days, and you will be fine."
Ling Xue ignored Stinky Tofu's words, and said to herself, "Ling Xue is very happy to die for the city lord."
"I am very happy to die for you."----Yingying once said the same thing.
"What nonsense, you won't die, the elder brother has already saved your life, you will be fine." Stinky Tofu smiled and said softly.
"City Lord, I want to hear the story between you and Sister Yingying, can you tell me?" Ling Xue asked.
"Okay, I'll tell you when your injury heals." Stinky Tofu said.
"I want to listen now." Ling Xue insisted.
Stinky Tofu wiped away his tears, nodded and said: "Okay, I'll tell you. Yingying and I met when we were chasing flower pickers. At that time..."
Ling Xue listened to the story and fell asleep in a daze.Stinky Tofu helped her tuck up the quilt, looked at Ling Xue's pale face, and suddenly wanted to touch her face.But before his fingertips touched Ling Xue's face, the outstretched hand retracted again.
"No, I can't do that." Stinky Tofu sighed.
Thunder and lightning, heavy rain torrential.
When the cold moon first appeared, it was the same weather and night.It's just that the state of mind at that time was completely different from now.
At that time, Leng Yue was excited, but now Leng Yue is full of helplessness.In the past few months, I have experienced too much helplessness.
In fact, Leng Yue is very afraid of this kind of lightning and thunderous weather, especially the white lightning, accompanied by the frightening thunder, it seems to split the whole sky and earth.A few months ago, it was also on such a night that she watched tomorrow night.The lightning that was as bright as day not only did not scare her, but made her feel very happy, because under the light of the silver-white lightning, tomorrow's gentle and delicate face added a bit of enchanting charm.
But now, a group of them are waiting in the Spring Breeze Palace, half a day to gain power, and the palace falls, all of this is actually brought about by Leng Yue.If she had withdrawn early, perhaps all this would not have happened.If she hadn't been so obsessed with the young master, had a stronger desire to die, and a firmer determination to say goodbye, perhaps Shi Qiuyan's incident would not have happened, let alone the half-day moon of today.
But now, everything is too late.Even if she dies now, at most Shi Qiuyan is missing.The Shenyue Sect has become a reality, the imperial palace has been lost, and the Golden Buddha of Bantianyue has also cultivated his indestructible body.Since it is not a day's cold to freeze three feet, if you want to thaw, how can you act too hastily?
So she is anxious, she hates, but she can't panic.
In order to persuade Shi Qiuyan to withdraw from Shenyue Sect, the emotional entanglement between her and Shi Qiuyan must be resolved first.Leng Yue has been doing this for more than a month. She doesn't want to do it because it hurts too much.She hated, she didn't want to forgive, neither him nor herself.I'm used to being criticized, I'm used to blaming myself, and I'm used to feeling pain when I think about it.For a long time, these have been part of her life and an important part of her love journey.
"No one is willing to do things that are not good for themselves. Behind all things, there will be some benefits, and the same is true for pain."
She needs this kind of pain, which is an incredible protection.With this criticism and this pain, she can stop looking for a new boyfriend, avoid hurting other people, and prevent herself from being hurt again.So all along, she has been unwilling to lose this problem. She really doesn't want to forgive, don't want to forgive, let alone say goodbye.She didn't want it to be over because it was her first love and the only boyfriend she'd ever had.
But now, she fell in love with tomorrow.Not maybe, but definite, unwavering love.
Then, Shi Qiuyan naturally jumped out.How could he not jump out?Shi Qiuyan is the only shadow in Leng Yue's emotional world.
If you want to escape, you can't escape after all.If you want to love someone thoroughly, you must first say goodbye to the other person thoroughly.Even if the former person brought her more pain, this kind of farewell is still uncomfortable.Because pain can also become a habit, and it is not always so easy to change the habit.
---- "I am for myself."
----"Very interesting excuse, you and I know it well."
Nongyue knew her well, knew the real reason why she stayed and the real reason why she forced herself to face the past.
But, what else could she do if she didn't?
Leng Yue turned her head and saw that tomorrow she had already fallen asleep beside Ouyang Feiying's bed.She walked over, took off her coat, and put it on tomorrow.
The rain outside was getting heavier, and the cold rain was carried in the wind, which wet and messed up Leng Yue's hair.
"Storm wind, torrential rain, torrential wind, torrential rain, don't be complacent, what's so great..." This line of lyrics is probably the most appropriate to describe Leng Yue's mood at this time.
Leng Yue smiled and let out a long breath.
What should come, will come after all.
The rumbling thunder, the heavy rain, the empty room, and the lonely moon.
"Poor child, will I be your mother?"
"Xing'er will always be the son's man."
"Today is suitable for drinking and chatting." ---- "Okay, let's be a drunken fairy in Yaotai."
"Sister will protect you."
In Nongyue's life, there were very few moments of warmth, and the people who had been with him also left him one by one.In today's Spring Breeze Palace, things have changed.There is no Palace Master Wuyou, no Xing'er, only him, alone.
My brother has Shangguan Yan, and tomorrow there will be a cold moon, but what is there to enjoy the moon?Just some memories.
----"This time...you come back...don't think about...sacrificing yourself...preserving...then who..., it's better to work together...unity...hiccup!..."
"That's all? Nothing else?"
"This...is very important! You...promise..."
----"Young master, are you... drunk..."
Before the words were finished, Ming Ri's lips were already tightly attached to Leng Yue's lips.
----"Ha! Could it be that you like me?"
"Is it not possible? Hmm?" Nongyue handed the jade hairpin in front of Leng Yue.
"I think you gave the poisoned red fragrant flowers to Miss Shangguan back then, and you didn't have any admiration for her. In the same way, just because you send me flowers doesn't mean you are interested in me."
----"Why is this happening? Since all these are stories, why did the person who wrote the story kill my whole family? Why did he arrange such a miserable life for me? Why was the life of Nong Yue being manipulated like this ?Why?"
"Since everything happened, it's useless to think too much. I shouldn't tell you these things to make you sad. I'm sorry. It's all my sister's fault. It's all my fault. Good brother, don't scare me, don't do stupid things, promise me , okay?"
Leng Yue patted Nongyue's back tenderly: "My good brother, I have my sister here, my sister will protect you, you and your brother will never be hurt again. Good brother, don't be sad, okay?"
----"You said all this because you want to match me with tomorrow. In fact, my sister thinks that you and Sai Huatuo are very suitable."
"Looking at the moon is not a hobby of Longyang."
"In fact, the friendship between men is sometimes more precious than the relationship between men and women."
"Sister, don't make fun of me, otherwise, Nongyue won't help you."
----"Nongyue, you are extremely smart, but this lack of thoughtfulness is the most worrying thing. Now you are the owner of the Spring Breeze Palace, and the city lord and seniors are here. If you have an idea, you must discuss it with the city lord and seniors. Discuss with us. We cannot afford to lose, and if we are not absolutely certain of winning, we must not act rashly. This is not only self-protection, but also a strategy, and it has to take into account the overall situation."
Nongyue recovered from the past, the corners of her mouth curled up beautifully, as chic as usual.
"What else am I not satisfied with? Warmth, just a little bit is enough."
"City Lord be careful...you don't have to worry...it won't...Yingying will protect you...Ling Xue will also...don't..."
The tears of stinky tofu had already burst, he covered his mouth and tried to restrain himself, shouting in his heart: "I'm sorry! I'm sorry! It's all my fault! I'm not a lucky star, I'm your disaster star..."
Stinky Tofu wiped away his tears, held Ling Xue's hand in his palm, and recalled every detail of his acquaintance with Ling Xue till now.Lingxue is not as strong as Yingying, she is a faint woman, and there are only scattered fragments left for Stinky Tofu.
"I really don't know what big brother likes Leng Yue." Ling Xue said with a pouted mouth.
"Ling Xue really doesn't understand what love is." Ling Xue said with her head down.
"Ling Xue only wants everyone to be happy, even if she is only the shadow of Princess Yingying for the rest of her life, Ling Xue will have no complaints or regrets." Ling Xue said sincerely.
"City Lord, Princess Yingying must not want to see you unhappy, right?" Ling Xue said empathetically.
"So, the city master should be happy, because only when the city master is happy can Princess Yingying in the sky be happy too, huh?" Ling Xue said playfully.
Every word, every sentence made him cry.
Non-vegetation, ruthless Practice makes perfect?Yingying's position in Stinky Tofu's heart is unique, but this does not mean that he will never lose his right to love and be loved throughout his life.Especially when there is such a woman beside him who loves him without complaint or regret, silently sacrifices for him, and is even willing to sacrifice her life for him, how can he be completely indifferent?
In the past, Ling Xue desperately longed for love and attention.She has always hoped that there will be someone she can rely on for life. For the person she likes, she is sad and jealous.But I don't know when, that jealous Ling Xue grew up quietly.She paid her hard work carefully and dedicated her sincerity.Knowing that he loves Yingying in his heart, he is willing to be Yingying's shadow, and no longer tells his thoughts to stinky tofu, and no longer mentions whether he loves or not.Everything he said and everything he did was just to share his worries and make him happy.
She said these are what she should do.But Stinky Tofu knew in his heart that this was not the case at all.
"Actually, why don't I know your heart? Although you don't say it, I'm not stupid. I know everything in my heart. But I'm really scared. How many people died because of my family, and how many people were hurt or even killed because of me. Died. I am an ominous person, I can't even protect Yingying, watching her die for me, I am really useless...I am so scared..." Stinky Tofu's voice was desolate, this kind of desolation , It comes out from the bone.
It's not that stinky tofu doesn't love, but he doesn't dare to love. He doesn't want the people around him to be hurt a little bit.Yingying's death broke his heart and made him close his heart tightly.He didn't dare to think about the word "love", let alone talk about it, for fear that someone would be hurt in any way, or even die like Yingying.
However, when it comes to emotional matters, how can rationality have the final say?He and Ling Xue respected each other as guests, neither of them dared to cross the threshold.I thought that as long as we were not together, she would not be involved, but I never thought that Ling Xue would become what she is now because of him.
"City Lord..." Ling Xue frowned, calling him with difficulty.
"Ling Xue, I'm here." Stinky Tofu grabbed Ling Xue's hand and said.
Ling Xue slowly opened her eyes and forced a smile with difficulty.Stinky Tofu frowned, his eyes full of distress.
"I'm very happy." Ling Xue said, "Sister Yingying can protect the city lord, so can Ling Xue."
The tears of stinky tofu dripped on the back of Ling Xue's hands, and he said tremblingly, "Ling Xue, stop talking, it's all my fault."
"City Lord, are your tears shed for me?" Ling Xue asked.
Stinky Tofu struggled to control his emotions and nodded repeatedly.
Ling Xue smiled happily: "That's great, the main city's tears are because of me."
Stinky Tofu wiped away his tears, and said softly: "Lingxue, please stop talking and rest well."
Ling Xue shook her head lightly: "I'm afraid if I don't say it now, I won't have a chance to say it again."
"No, no," said Stinky Tofu, "Brother said that your injury will heal in a few days, and you will be fine."
Ling Xue ignored Stinky Tofu's words, and said to herself, "Ling Xue is very happy to die for the city lord."
"I am very happy to die for you."----Yingying once said the same thing.
"What nonsense, you won't die, the elder brother has already saved your life, you will be fine." Stinky Tofu smiled and said softly.
"City Lord, I want to hear the story between you and Sister Yingying, can you tell me?" Ling Xue asked.
"Okay, I'll tell you when your injury heals." Stinky Tofu said.
"I want to listen now." Ling Xue insisted.
Stinky Tofu wiped away his tears, nodded and said: "Okay, I'll tell you. Yingying and I met when we were chasing flower pickers. At that time..."
Ling Xue listened to the story and fell asleep in a daze.Stinky Tofu helped her tuck up the quilt, looked at Ling Xue's pale face, and suddenly wanted to touch her face.But before his fingertips touched Ling Xue's face, the outstretched hand retracted again.
"No, I can't do that." Stinky Tofu sighed.
Thunder and lightning, heavy rain torrential.
When the cold moon first appeared, it was the same weather and night.It's just that the state of mind at that time was completely different from now.
At that time, Leng Yue was excited, but now Leng Yue is full of helplessness.In the past few months, I have experienced too much helplessness.
In fact, Leng Yue is very afraid of this kind of lightning and thunderous weather, especially the white lightning, accompanied by the frightening thunder, it seems to split the whole sky and earth.A few months ago, it was also on such a night that she watched tomorrow night.The lightning that was as bright as day not only did not scare her, but made her feel very happy, because under the light of the silver-white lightning, tomorrow's gentle and delicate face added a bit of enchanting charm.
But now, a group of them are waiting in the Spring Breeze Palace, half a day to gain power, and the palace falls, all of this is actually brought about by Leng Yue.If she had withdrawn early, perhaps all this would not have happened.If she hadn't been so obsessed with the young master, had a stronger desire to die, and a firmer determination to say goodbye, perhaps Shi Qiuyan's incident would not have happened, let alone the half-day moon of today.
But now, everything is too late.Even if she dies now, at most Shi Qiuyan is missing.The Shenyue Sect has become a reality, the imperial palace has been lost, and the Golden Buddha of Bantianyue has also cultivated his indestructible body.Since it is not a day's cold to freeze three feet, if you want to thaw, how can you act too hastily?
So she is anxious, she hates, but she can't panic.
In order to persuade Shi Qiuyan to withdraw from Shenyue Sect, the emotional entanglement between her and Shi Qiuyan must be resolved first.Leng Yue has been doing this for more than a month. She doesn't want to do it because it hurts too much.She hated, she didn't want to forgive, neither him nor herself.I'm used to being criticized, I'm used to blaming myself, and I'm used to feeling pain when I think about it.For a long time, these have been part of her life and an important part of her love journey.
"No one is willing to do things that are not good for themselves. Behind all things, there will be some benefits, and the same is true for pain."
She needs this kind of pain, which is an incredible protection.With this criticism and this pain, she can stop looking for a new boyfriend, avoid hurting other people, and prevent herself from being hurt again.So all along, she has been unwilling to lose this problem. She really doesn't want to forgive, don't want to forgive, let alone say goodbye.She didn't want it to be over because it was her first love and the only boyfriend she'd ever had.
But now, she fell in love with tomorrow.Not maybe, but definite, unwavering love.
Then, Shi Qiuyan naturally jumped out.How could he not jump out?Shi Qiuyan is the only shadow in Leng Yue's emotional world.
If you want to escape, you can't escape after all.If you want to love someone thoroughly, you must first say goodbye to the other person thoroughly.Even if the former person brought her more pain, this kind of farewell is still uncomfortable.Because pain can also become a habit, and it is not always so easy to change the habit.
---- "I am for myself."
----"Very interesting excuse, you and I know it well."
Nongyue knew her well, knew the real reason why she stayed and the real reason why she forced herself to face the past.
But, what else could she do if she didn't?
Leng Yue turned her head and saw that tomorrow she had already fallen asleep beside Ouyang Feiying's bed.She walked over, took off her coat, and put it on tomorrow.
The rain outside was getting heavier, and the cold rain was carried in the wind, which wet and messed up Leng Yue's hair.
"Storm wind, torrential rain, torrential wind, torrential rain, don't be complacent, what's so great..." This line of lyrics is probably the most appropriate to describe Leng Yue's mood at this time.
Leng Yue smiled and let out a long breath.
What should come, will come after all.
The rumbling thunder, the heavy rain, the empty room, and the lonely moon.
"Poor child, will I be your mother?"
"Xing'er will always be the son's man."
"Today is suitable for drinking and chatting." ---- "Okay, let's be a drunken fairy in Yaotai."
"Sister will protect you."
In Nongyue's life, there were very few moments of warmth, and the people who had been with him also left him one by one.In today's Spring Breeze Palace, things have changed.There is no Palace Master Wuyou, no Xing'er, only him, alone.
My brother has Shangguan Yan, and tomorrow there will be a cold moon, but what is there to enjoy the moon?Just some memories.
----"This time...you come back...don't think about...sacrificing yourself...preserving...then who..., it's better to work together...unity...hiccup!..."
"That's all? Nothing else?"
"This...is very important! You...promise..."
----"Young master, are you... drunk..."
Before the words were finished, Ming Ri's lips were already tightly attached to Leng Yue's lips.
----"Ha! Could it be that you like me?"
"Is it not possible? Hmm?" Nongyue handed the jade hairpin in front of Leng Yue.
"I think you gave the poisoned red fragrant flowers to Miss Shangguan back then, and you didn't have any admiration for her. In the same way, just because you send me flowers doesn't mean you are interested in me."
----"Why is this happening? Since all these are stories, why did the person who wrote the story kill my whole family? Why did he arrange such a miserable life for me? Why was the life of Nong Yue being manipulated like this ?Why?"
"Since everything happened, it's useless to think too much. I shouldn't tell you these things to make you sad. I'm sorry. It's all my sister's fault. It's all my fault. Good brother, don't scare me, don't do stupid things, promise me , okay?"
Leng Yue patted Nongyue's back tenderly: "My good brother, I have my sister here, my sister will protect you, you and your brother will never be hurt again. Good brother, don't be sad, okay?"
----"You said all this because you want to match me with tomorrow. In fact, my sister thinks that you and Sai Huatuo are very suitable."
"Looking at the moon is not a hobby of Longyang."
"In fact, the friendship between men is sometimes more precious than the relationship between men and women."
"Sister, don't make fun of me, otherwise, Nongyue won't help you."
----"Nongyue, you are extremely smart, but this lack of thoughtfulness is the most worrying thing. Now you are the owner of the Spring Breeze Palace, and the city lord and seniors are here. If you have an idea, you must discuss it with the city lord and seniors. Discuss with us. We cannot afford to lose, and if we are not absolutely certain of winning, we must not act rashly. This is not only self-protection, but also a strategy, and it has to take into account the overall situation."
Nongyue recovered from the past, the corners of her mouth curled up beautifully, as chic as usual.
"What else am I not satisfied with? Warmth, just a little bit is enough."
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