If honesty is a disease

Geng Zhi never expected to meet his mother when he arrived in Vancouver with his father, but the man beside his mother was indeed a foreigner.He didn't want to ask why he left home in the first place, nor did he want to ask where the man had gone.Seeing that very old foreigner hugging his mother's waist, his honest stomach churns.

He really hated his mother, especially because his mother's departure caused a sudden change in the family, all of which were the reasons for his separation from Mo Fang.

He has thought about this question too many times, from the time he first left the motherland until now, he thinks about it many times every day.

His documents were confiscated, and he had very little money on him. In addition to the fixed expenses, he had to make money for his father.After Geng's father came out, he also knew that going abroad was not what he thought, but he couldn't get out anyway.

He messed up his son's study, and seeing his son working non-stop to make money for a living, he felt guilty and hated himself, but then he thought of his wife, so he put all the responsibility on her, and Mo Fang, yes, brought his son out because he couldn't let his son become a disgusting homosexual.That's it.

So no matter what, it is for the good of my son.

But after all, he still lied to himself.

The days abroad were extremely boring. Father Geng also secretly went out to find a part-time job, but he couldn’t speak English, he was old and had a bad temper. The money on his body was looted.

When I got home, my mood could only get worse. When Geng Zhi saw his father's appearance, he could only rejoice that he was fine.

Geng's father started drinking, and Geng Zhi didn't take it seriously at first. He usually bought some wine to drink when he was at home, but he just didn't expect that drinking would turn into alcoholism.

Once a person is in a bad mood and life is unsatisfactory, bad habits will follow.Many times, Geng Zhi also feels that life is so difficult. The problems that he never thought about in China at the beginning can be encountered in foreign countries.

He had called Mo Fang, but the cost of international calls was too expensive, and the phone booths on the side of the road often broke down, and they obviously didn't get through, but they still skipped money.

I want to ask others to borrow my home phone, but most of them will not agree to make international calls.Rent and living expenses and his father's expenses, he often can't afford to make a phone call.

When I was working in a coffee shop, I used the computer in the shop to send an e-mail to Mo Fang. The foreign computer could not access QQ, so he had to register a new foreign mailbox. After the e-mail was sent, he went there almost every day. Check the computer to see if Mo Fang has replied.But until he lost that job, he did not receive a reply from Mo Fang.

Embarrassed.

Apart from embarrassment, Geng Zhi couldn't find other words to describe himself at that time.

It can be said that seeing my mother in Vancouver was the last straw that overwhelmed Geng's father. Geng's father was arrested for drinking and making trouble. Although he was released on bail, he was blacklisted and restricted from leaving the country.

The upright mother came to him once, gave him some money, and asked him to take his father and leave quickly.Geng Zhi is not lofty, he needs money too much, but he also knows that his mother is in the past tense, and the fantasies he had about his mother before have all turned into bubbles.

It's okay, I'm an adult, it's okay.

After smuggling out of the country, Geng Zhi took his father back to the United States. The desolation and displacement of the past few years made him used to working part-time, getting used to avoiding people, and getting used to loneliness.

Mo Fang is a pure land in his heart, the sacred one can only be imagined.Maybe he had to make a phone call before if he wanted to make money, but after that, he didn't dare to think about it.

Drunk, gambled, owed money.Geng's father was so irresponsible to push Geng Zhi's life to a desperate situation. Geng Zhi touched his father for the first time, and at a moment of guilt in his heart, he was cut off by the stick in Geng's father's hand.

His father ended up in prison for domestic violence and would be deported after serving his sentence.

Geng Zhi didn't think about helping him again, even though his father yelled when he was taken away.

poor

hungry

pain

Being robbed and beaten by gangs is not scary

Terrible

will be disabled...

"Frank? Straightforward!"

Geng Zhi opened his eyes and saw Mo Fang turn on the bedside lamp, looking at himself anxiously, he closed his eyes and took a deep breath, opened them again, and smiled at Mo Fang: "I might be dreaming again. "

Mo Fang touched his forehead: "What did you dream about? It's the same as last time? You're sweating, aren't you feeling well?"

Geng Zhi stared at Mo Fang for a long time, he dreamed about the past again, his wrist was healed a long time ago, but in the dream, he could still clearly remember the pain of the broken bone, it was really scary.

He looked at Mo Fang, and touched Mo Fang's leg under the blanket with his hand. It was warm and smooth to the touch. He couldn't help pinching it. Mo Fang clicked his tongue and took his hand away.

Pulling Mo Fang into his arms, he hugged him tightly.Buried his head in the crescent of his neck, rubbing against it non-stop.Mo Fang could only hug him back.

This is not the first time that this kind of thing has happened. Mo Fang didn't have to ask Geng Zhizhi what he dreamed about. He also heard Geng Zhi talk about it when he was abroad, but it was just a few words after all. What he said was more detailed, and the honesty was vague.

However, Geng Zhi couldn't sleep well at night.Mo Fang even wanted to find him a psychiatrist.

The two were silent with each other's concerns. After a while, Geng Zhi remembered a scene in his dream and asked, "Have you received the email I sent you?"

Mo Fang looked at him in surprise: "When?"

"Didn't you get it?" Geng Zhi breathed a sigh of relief, "It's fine if you don't get it."

"What do you mean? What do you mean if you don't receive it?" Mo Fang shook him, "Please explain clearly." After finishing speaking, Mo Fang tore off the blanket, jumped out of bed with bare legs and rushed into the study to turn on the computer.

Geng Zhi got up and chased him in: "I... I had a dream just now, and I dreamed that you replied to my email and said you would break up with me."

"Hehe, it seems that you were the one who broke up at the beginning." When it started up, Mo Fang patted the table anxiously, "Is this computer out of configuration? Why is it so slow?"

"This is already the latest highest configuration."

"Still slow!"

"Then buy another one tomorrow."

Mo Fang glanced at him, holding the mouse and logged into his e-mail: "When was it sent and why didn't I receive it? Do you think you can still find it now?"

When Geng Zhi is dreaming, the first half of the dream is the real thing, which is repeated constantly, and the latter part is half-truth and half-false, often changing according to the different things he thinks during the day, but in the end it is the ending that he can't stand.

"It's been many years. I didn't receive it at that time. Where can I receive it now?"

"Which email address did you send it from? Huh? I'm going to sue them!"

Geng Zhi pulled Mo Fang up, sat on a chair by himself, and then let Mo Fang sit on his lap, hugged him and looked at the mailbox together: "The lawsuit, not only the mailbox, but also the foreign phone, what a crap, It’s so expensive to make a phone call, and it’s time for me to have a meal, so I never get through.”

Mo Fang turned around and asked, "You were dreaming just now, did you dream that you couldn't get through on the phone?"

"Yes."

"That's not a dream. I've called you many times, but nothing works."

Geng Zhi hugged him and kissed him: "I'm sorry."

"If you want to sue, the domestic communication is simply too bad!" Mo Fang asked again, "Why is your QQ not available?"

"K."

Mo Fang nodded: "To sue together, what a piece of crap."

After searching around, but still couldn't find it, Mo Fang was very disappointed, extremely disappointed.He leaned on Geng Zhi's shoulder, unable to cheer up.

Geng Zhi thought for a while, entered a website, entered an e-mail in a foreign country, clicked on a column, there were many e-mails in it, clicked on one at random, and entered an e-mail address, Mo Fang saw that it was his own, and those The email was written to himself honestly.

"What are you doing?"

"Send you one."

"You are sick, I can't see it myself."

"Use a computer to send it. If you can't receive it tomorrow, send them a lawyer's letter."

"Hahaha," Mo Fang grabbed the mouse and clicked to open the letter, "You are crazy."

"Well, look for yourself, I'll go to sleep." Geng Zhi was embarrassed, the contents of those letters were too nasty, and many of them were written when his life was very bad.

Mo Fang's buttocks did not move: "You are not allowed to walk while sitting, or you will be fined to read to me."

"Don't, don't," Geng Zhi put his head against Mo Fang's back, "Look slowly, but don't make a sound, don't say anything, close it after reading it, okay? I don't want to discuss it with you."

"What about shyness?"

Mo Fang looked at the emails one by one, and was slowly infected by the emotions inside. Those despair, sadness, even if there were happy things, they were too small. He saved enough for one treatment and ate a full meal. , got back the documents, found a stable temporary worker, met an old man with a bad temper when he was treating his hand, and his father died in prison...

"upright……"

"Don't say anything." Geng Zhi covered Mo Fang's mouth.

Mo Fang kissed him distressedly on the palm of his hand: "I really hate you very much."

He opened the drawer under the cabinet, took out a handcuff from inside, and handcuffed one of Geng Zhi's hands to the chair, of course it was the hand that was handcuffed well.

"Sit here, I'm going to sleep." Mo Fang left directly.

Gengzhi usually punishes him with obedience, and Mo Fang has resentment in his heart, and Gengzhi will let him vent for a lifetime.but now……

"Honey, let me go to the bathroom first!"

"Hold on!" Mo Fang had already climbed onto the bed and covered himself with a quilt.

Geng Zhi stood up and dragged the chair to go into the toilet, but the chair was too wide to get in.

"Momo, can you bring me a bottle?"

"no!"

"Don't do that."

"To shut up!"

"Momo!"

……