We seem to be a good match

Xiao Yuan sat behind Lin Jin and wiped his hair gently, as if treating some kind of treasure.

"It's over, I can apply to know what this string of numbers means, what did you do today, how do you feel, will you come again next time, what's your answer?" Xiao Yuan spoke very fast, without letting Lin Jin interrupt at all. Opportunity.

"..." Lin Jin was in a daze with the question. He didn't know what to say for a long time, and finally said, "Don't come, get out!"

Xiao Yuan chuckled without saying a word, and continued to wipe Lin Jin's hair. Lin Jin half-closed his eyes and enjoyed Xiao Yuan's treatment very much.

"Okay, let it dry for a while." Xiao Yuan whispered into Lin Jin's ear.

"Ah."

After drying his hair, Xiao Yuan got out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash the towels and hang them up. When he came back to the bedroom, he saw Lin Jin leaning on the bed and reading a book.

Xiao Yuan walked into the room lightly, afraid of disturbing Lin Jin, Lin Jin only glanced at him when he climbed onto the bed and leaned against Lin Jin.After reading the book with Lin Jin, the bored Xiao Yuan nodded sleepily, knocking on Lin Jin's shoulder several times.

Lin Jin closed the book helplessly and said, "Go to sleep."

"It's okay...! Look at you!"

"I can't see you like this..." Lin Jin sighed.

Xiao Yuan snorted and moved his seat, "...then I'll sit farther away."

"..." Having said that, Lin Jin opened the book without arguing and continued to read.

Lin Jin was fascinated by reading it. "Looking straight into the scorching sun" was one of the few books he liked. Every time he was upset, he would read this book and it would calm him down.

Boom!

A loud noise pulled Lin Jin out of the book, and he turned his head to the side, watching Xiao Yuan who fell down, putting down the book in his hand with some dumbfounding.

"Don't read it, go to sleep."

"...Oh...oh, go to sleep." Xiao Yuan rubbed his aching forehead in confusion, and said in a daze.

Not long after turning off the light, Lin Jin heard Xiao Yuan's breathing in the darkness. He stared at the darkness with wide eyes, trying to catch something.He didn't know how long he watched, he listened to Xiao Yuan's breathing and his own rapid heartbeat in the dark.

Lin Jin was nervous, anxious, and irritable.He hasn't had a good night's sleep for a long time, except for the time when Xiao Yuan took him home, but today he suffered from insomnia again, his eyes felt dry and uncomfortable.

Lin Jin glanced at Xiao Yuan beside him, turned sideways to face him, reached out to touch his lips from his eyebrows, finally stopped on his lips, and leaned over to kiss him.

"Xiao Yuan..." Lin Jin called out tentatively, and was relieved to see that Xiao Yuan didn't feel it.

He plucked up his courage, and whispered against Xiao Yuan: "Actually, I'm very scared, I don't feel safe. I used to be alone. I want to thank God for allowing me to meet you..."

Lin Jin would glance at Xiao Yuan without saying a word, probably because he knew Xiao Yuan was asleep and spoke boldly.

"I have nothing to hide from you, I just don't want you to know how miserable I was in the past, and how miserable I am now." Lin Jin's voice was very soft, and he even closed his eyes at the end.

He talked a lot to the air and the sleeping Xiao Yuan at night, and he didn't stop until he was sleepy himself.

When Lin Jin was at the end, he whispered softly, "Wait for me..."

After finishing speaking, Lin Jin was about to turn around, but his hand was pulled. He raised his head in a panic, and saw Xiao Yuan's eyes opened at some point. Thinking of what he said just now, Lin Jin was sweating nervously.

"You...are you awake?" Lin Jin's voice trembled.

"I'm not asleep."

"..."

When Lin Jin heard this, he immediately got up and turned on the light. The two of them subconsciously closed their eyes because of the glare, and when they opened Lin Jin again, they saw Xiao Yuan's face approaching their own.

"I didn't sleep, I heard everything you said."

"You play me!?" Lin Jin didn't dare to answer.

Xiao Yuan rubbed his nose, "I was really sleepy at first, as soon as you lay on the bed next to me, I just wanted to do this and that, and the sleepiness disappeared."

"Then why didn't you say yes when I called you?"

"I just want to know what will happen next, in case you molested me, oh... you did molested me too!"

Lin Jin: "..."

At this moment, Lin Jin wished he could knock Xiao Yuan out and make him forget what happened just now.

Xiao Yuan: "I didn't mean to listen. Who knew you could talk endlessly. I don't see you talking so well..."

"To shut up!!"

After yelling at Xiao Yuan, Lin Jin covered himself with a quilt in frustration, no matter what Xiao Yuan shouted or coaxed, the air became quiet, and Lin Jin wished he could beat Xiao Yuan to death in the bed.

"Whether you are in the past or now, you are you. Without the past, there would be no you now. I also want to thank you. I am grateful for the past experiences that made you who you are now. Otherwise, we would not meet, let alone fall in love."

Xiao Yuan's voice was hoarse and he spoke slowly, every word scratched Lin Jin's heart like a feather.

"As long as you say a word, I'll wait until you speak."

After listening to Xiao Yuan's words, Lin Jin couldn't regain his senses for a long time. After a while, he sat up and looked directly into Xiao Yuan's eyes.

He lowered his head, his voice trembling, "Why?"

"It's still the same sentence, there is no reason."

Lin Jin suddenly frantically pulled Xiao Yuan's clothes and shook him, "Why? Why?! Tell me why... If there is no reason... I don't feel at ease."

Speaking of Lin Jin's voice choked up later, Xiao Yuan thought for a while and said seriously, "Because I believe in you and love you."

Xiao Yuan's words made Lin Jin's nose sore, he let go of Xiao Yuan's collar, and his hands slipped from Xiao Yuan's shoulders, Lin Jin lowered his head and couldn't see clearly, and didn't speak or move.

Xiao Yuan hugged Lin Jin and patted him on the back, "One must look forward in life, clinging to the past is also a failure."

Lin Jin was stunned and choked up, "You don't understand...you don't understand at all..."

"I don't understand! I don't need to understand! I just want you to understand, no matter what happened in the past, you have to look forward, otherwise who are you living for?"

Lin Jin didn't speak, but bit Xiao Yuan's shoulder, the more he bit, the harder he bit, Xiao Yuan grunted several times.After tasting the bloody smell, Lin Jin let go of his mouth and gently licked the wound from the bite.

"Does it hurt?"

"pain."

Lin Jin gently touched Xiao Yuan's face, "How much does it hurt?"

"Tolerable pain." Xiao Yuan answered truthfully.

"Flesh wounds are temporary and can be healed. Heart wounds are eternal. It will only stop! Non-stop! It will tear your wounds endlessly! It will make you restless and unforgettable!"

Lin Jin's tone changed from gentle to ferocious, his face twisted, all the veins on his forehead and neck burst out, and he yelled at Xiao Yuan hoarsely, as if to vent.

"Then you are not alive?! Are you not moving forward?!" Xiao Yuan roared back.

"What's the use of me moving forward? Some people are born superior, and success is achieved by moving their fingers, while others work hard all their lives but have to be a stepping stone for him. Why? Why!?"

Xiao Yuan stared blankly at Lin Jin at this moment, his eyes were red, and his own blood was still at the corner of his mouth. He didn't know that Lin Jin thought so.

"Am I wrong? Winners always sneer at losers. If you lose once...you'll lose forever." Lin Jin said lightly and smiled.

"Why are you so paranoid? You..."

Xiao Yuan didn't say anything halfway through, he looked at Lin Jin who was in an awkward posture, and hugged him tightly again, this time Lin Jin didn't bite him again, but just quietly leaned against Xiao Yuan, leaning against him, his eyes widened. Hot, tears welling up uncontrollably.

Lin Jin cried very quietly, Xiao Yuan felt the burning heat on his clothes, he just hugged Lin Jin tighter without making a sound, wishing to carve him into his bones and bear everything in his heart and mind for him.

"Do you want to know?" Lin Jin asked suddenly.

Xiao Yuan was taken aback, "Huh? What..."

"That string of numbers."

Xiao Yuan was silent for a while and said, "Let's talk when you want to talk."

Lin Jin didn't speak. He pushed Xiao Yuan away from the bed and took out an iron box. He went back to the bed and opened the box. Inside were some tattered money and stationery.

Under Xiao Yuan's puzzled gaze, Lin Jin softly began to tell a long story.It was a story that began on a sunny spring day, a shy and introverted boy walked into that hellish family with a smile.Then one winter, the boy's temperament changed drastically, and his life became more and more paranoid. He began to hate the world and everything, the people who brought him misfortune, and the people who made him come into this world.

Lin Jin is like a storyteller, speaking calmly and calmly, as if talking about some innocuous things.But actually he didn't dare to look into Xiao Yuan's eyes, because he was scared and nervous.

After he finished speaking, he took a deep breath, "1216 is the day when I was half-dead from the cold outside, but they sneered at me indoors, and it was also the day when I decided to fight to the death with them."

Seeing that Xiao Yuan didn't speak, Lin Jin continued, "0620 is the day my grandfather passed away, and it was also the day my father wanted to cut off the father-son relationship with me. The reason is ridiculous. He thinks everything is because of me, so I hate him , I can't live well, and he can't live well either."

"0917 was the day when my grandma passed away, and that was the happiest thing in my life, because she died in front of me, and I watched her die, while my father could only beat me. ..Call me...bastard."

After Xiao Yuan listened quietly, he slapped Lin Jin without saying a word.

Lin Jin's mind was blank at the time, he looked at Xiao Yuan in disbelief, with mixed emotions in his heart, he gritted his teeth and said, "Why did you hit me?"

"This slap is to let you know that you are a lunatic."

Xiao Yuan's words were like a basin of cold water on Lin Jin's head. He opened his eyes wide, full of desolation, clearly... He clearly said that no matter what, he could accept it.

Lin Jin's distraught appearance caused Xiao Yuan's viscera to tear apart. He grabbed Lin Jin's hair and pulled his head back. Gag Lin Jin's mouth tightly.

Lin Jin struggled to push Xiao Yuan away, but was hugged even tighter. Xiao Yuan didn't let go of him until his tongue was bitten and blood flowed out from his saliva.

Xiao Yuan gasped and said, "I hit you to tell you that they don't deserve you to be crazy. Listen to me. I don't care what happened to you alone in the past. But from now on, you have me, no matter what happens What, I will carry it for you."

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