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"What's the matter?" Having gained a certain understanding of Jiang He, knowing that he is a person who is easily emotional, Zhang Huai is as careful as a hair, and Jiang He's every little move can attract his attention. He just sighed.

Unknowingly, only the sound of the air conditioner and TV was left. Jiang He turned his head and smiled at Zhang Huai. He thought he answered it was all right, but in fact he didn't say anything.

Jiang He really can't hide things in his heart, but some things depend on how long he can hold them back.

Feeling sad and depressed Take a few deep breaths and tell yourself that everything will be fine, or write a self-encouraging Weibo that only you can see, just do nothing and let yourself be depressed for a few days Wait for the weather to clear up and do a thorough cleaning.

It was a coincidence that Zhang Yunde would chat with him whenever he was depressed, so a large part of his worries were relieved when he confide in Zhang Yunde.He doesn't have Zhang Yunde now, and the source of his troubles doesn't seem to be himself, but he feels heavy and urgent for no reason, and he feels flustered.

There are less than eight hours to go home alone. He hopes that the snow will fall harder and the train will not arrive on time tomorrow. He can spend more time with Zhang Huai, but he is worried that the snow will be too heavy and the train will be too late. Excessive time palpitation and pain.

Less than eight hours to go...

"What should I do..." I said unconsciously.

Just as Zhang Huai was about to ask him, he pushed the root of the problem to Zhang Huai: "It's all your fault! Why are you being nice to me..."

Zhang Huai was stunned for a moment, probably knowing that this was his last and only chance, so he looked straight into his eyes and asked, "Little Eighth Uncle also treats you well, do you feel this way?"

Usually Jiang He's mind was very flexible, but at this time he was on the verge of being irritable, and he said angrily, "What does it have to do with Lao Zhang, and I don't like him!"

Zhang Huai smiled in relief, his eyes were bent like a rising crescent, and the soft light in his eyes was affectionate and intoxicating.

"What are you laughing at?" It was superfluous to usually look like someone owed him money, but he actually laughed at this time.Jiang He was even more unhappy. He pushed Zhang Huai, but he firmly grasped his wrist. He lost to Zhang Huai in a fight of strength. He didn't know what kind of medicine was in his gourd, so he just stared at him with wide eyes.

"I'm very satisfied." After only saying these four words, Zhang Huai let go of his hand. He wanted to touch his face lightly, but Jiang He swung him away.

"Can't you ask for more? Maybe if you tell me, I...maybe I will satisfy you even more?" Jiang He was furious.

As Jiang He's words fell to the ground, Zhang Huai's ears were stained with crimson. Seeing Jiang He pushed him again, he blushed, "What are you thinking..."

Everyone has seven emotions and six desires, whether it is Zhang Huai's wishful thinking, or Jiang He's own thinking, anyway, he thinks that Zhang Huai must have had the kind of thoughts he thinks. After all, he once wanted to kiss him, and he himself was in a dream. Molested Zhang Huai...

It's not that he didn't want to give it. He always felt that the name was not right and wrong, and he didn't give Zhang Huai a chance to make it clear. Now he suddenly wakes up and realizes that there is so little time to be together. Instead of thinking about it and causing insomnia, It's better to indulge once completely and repay his true love.

But what to do?He has no experience.

Go straight over and hook his shoulders, and then put your lips on it...

He said that Zhang Huai must have that kind of thought, otherwise how could he bite his lip?

But...better than imagined, Zhang Huai's lips and tongue were soft, and his strength was neither light nor heavy. He didn't know when he was hugging his legs...it felt a little embarrassing.

Lie on his shoulder panting, feeling the heartbeats with similar frequencies, a cheer came from his ears: "Okay, come again!"

Jiang He grabbed the clothes on the chair and threw them on the clapping ferret, covered it tightly, and shouted, "Don't look!"

Zhang Huai: "..."

Jiang He sat back on his lap again, and said, "Continue."

After rubbing their hands together for a while, Jiang He still wanted to continue, Zhang Huai grabbed his hand, shook his head and said, "Don't do that."

During the kiss, Zhang Huai took away his glasses, and Jiang He looked at him with blurred eyes, the shyness in his eyes had not faded away.

"I hope you will be happy in the future."

He thought Zhang Huai would say something like "You still have to take the train tomorrow", but he didn't expect it to be such nonsense. What is the relationship between the two?

"Marry a wife and have children, from one to the end."

He used the calm tone he was used to, and he used the usual soft eyes, but every word he said was like an ice pick piercing into the bottom of his heart, carrying a biting cold, and his flesh and blood flew in an instant.

"Then why didn't you push me away just now? What did you kiss me for?" Jiang He stared for a while with his eyes wide open, his hands began to tremble violently, not wanting to hear any explanation from him, he turned around and buried himself in the quilt, tears bursting uncontrollably And down.

Zhang Huai wanted to comfort him, but he seemed to be able to see his movements from behind, so he yelled first, "Don't touch me!" The more it accumulates, the consequence of rapid expansion is to vent uncontrollably after bursting.

Yes, he is gay. He was born in a family that valued patriarchy over females and valued the succession of heirs. The two contradicted themselves, and he struggled repeatedly, but who said that he would definitely marry a wife and have children?He's already sorry to his parents, sorry to Zhang Huai, is he going to be made to bear the false and cruel sinful marriage to a girl again?

He didn't know whether Zhang Huai really didn't know what he was thinking in his heart or was trying to find out on purpose. In fact, there had always been problems between them. Because of the relationship between their personalities, the first thing they thought of when encountering things was to give each other space and the right to choose. It never occurred to me to talk about the true thoughts in each other's hearts.

No one is pessimistic from birth, and the number of times he takes the initiative to speak is rejected too much, and gradually he gets used to waiting and watching.If there is a fixed hundred steps between people, and if others don't walk towards him first, then the distance between him and others will always be a negative number.Jiang He knew in his heart that perhaps Zhang Huai was braver than he looked, but he also had a negative attitude. He believed that Jiang He would definitely leave, so he never tried to hold him back.

"Marry a wife and have children, from one to the end", anyone can say that sentence to him, and he can also laugh it off, but after Zhang Huai said that sentence, all his feelings finally converged into a river of despair, It is no longer allowed for him to struggle and call for help, and he is always facing disaster.

What he is reluctant to part with, what makes him sad, is he doomed to face any difficulties alone in the future, or is it his love for Zhang Huai?

The sound insulation in the room was not good, and worried that his crying would attract the attention of others, Jiang He still needed to restrain himself to calm down, telling himself that it was no big deal, and holding back the pain in his heart, he said to Zhang Huai, "Okay, I also hope You can get out of the haze of the past, don’t indulge in the past, love when you should love, and when you meet a fool who suddenly breaks into your life and is devoted to you, you must hold him firmly.”

It should be love.In silence, that person has become an indispensable part of his life.

The so-called insincere is just like him. He doesn't want Zhang Huai to forget himself at all, and even wants Zhang Huai to die alone like himself.

He is such a person, cowardly, narrow-minded, selfish... useless, what good is liking him?You see, no one else likes him.

I cried in the middle of the night, and I didn't know when I was tired and fell asleep. I was woken up by Zhang Huai in the morning. I didn't need to look in the mirror to know that the double eyelid must have become a single eyelid. Fortunately, he still has glasses to cover it.

At 05:30, Jiang He entered the waiting room alone. There were not too many people inside. He found a seat at the nearest ticket gate and sat down. When it was almost six o'clock, he watched helplessly as the word "punctual ticket check" jumped into late, and the broadcast also I am saying that because of the weather, I hope passengers will understand and wait patiently.

There is no direct train from G city to Jiang He's hometown. He needs to go to the provincial capital first, and then take the train to H city.The previous ticket was bought at the transfer point, and he didn't plan to make any further stops on the way. If the train was not late at other stations from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-], he could still catch the transfer train.

However, the closer the ticket check time was, the more people in the train station. Not only was this train late, but the train in front did not leave on time, and more and more trains were waiting outside the station.Just at 07:30, the words on the screen jumped again, and it changed to start at eleven o'clock.

Jiang He went to the toilet once, but he couldn't find a place to sit when he came back. He randomly found a place with few people near the wall, put a piece of paper on the floor, and planned to rest for a while with his backpack in his arms.

Less than 5 minutes after closing his eyes, a familiar call sounded in his ears: "Xiaohe."

It was Zhang Huai, who also came into the station, holding things in both hands, frowning and sweating from his brow.

Jiang He put on his glasses and asked him, "Why are you here?"

Zhang Huai breathed a sigh of relief: "I saw that your train was always late, so I came in to see you." He bought breakfast outside, potato cake soup powder, steamed buns, and a cup of hot soybean milk.

"Is it cold?" He was still sweating, and he could feel whether it was cold or not.

The temperature in the waiting room wasn't low, but the heater wasn't turned on either. Jiang He huddled and hugged his arms in a place far away from the crowd, and was almost ignored by him again. I ran to the hot one because I was worried that I couldn't find him.

Jiang He took small sips of the hot soybean milk, shook his head and said, "It's not cold."

He is really not cold, his heart is like ashes, there is no other feeling that can compare to this kind of coldness.

"How did you get in? Where's Snowball?"

"Da da~ I'm here."

Xueqiu poked its head out of Zhang Huai's clothes, its mouth curled up like a smile, it glanced around casually, said goodbye to Jiang He, and retracted its head again.After all, there are too many people, and the train station is not the place where it should come. It is so round, and I don't know how it avoided the security check.

"I bought a platform ticket and will take you directly to the train later."

He was afraid that his tears would betray him by saying something against his will, so he didn't say anything.Zhang Huai sat down next to him, and let him rest on his shoulders after he finished eating. Jiang He felt that it was meaningless to sit without talking. At this time, he didn't care about other people's eyes, anyway, no one knew them. Zhang Huai Huai loves to do whatever she wants.

"Don't be angry, can you? I will visit you wherever you go in the future. "

"Ah."

"Second idiot, I want to take it back."

"casual."

"In a few years, I will go to your city to open a store."

"No cats."

"it is good."

A dialogue between reality and dreams, promises are beautiful, so what if you believe it or not?

The train will be late, but it cannot stay in the station all the time.

Everyone was waiting impatiently, and they were still sighing and sighing when they got into the car and walked to their seats.

"Remember to call me when you get home, and be careful on the way." After helping Jiang He and the female college students next to their seats to pack their luggage, Zhang Huai left. Relatives and friends who were standing left quickly.

The train shook violently, then drove slowly and evenly to the outside of the station.

"Young man, why are you crying? You are a college student, aren't you reluctant to have a girlfriend after the holiday?"

First, the few female college students pointed and whispered to him, and then the aunt on the opposite side handed him a tissue.

"A man never flicks his tears lightly. Today's boys are as delicate as a girl, and they cry at every turn. College students are just so promising..."

It should be the aunt's husband, who snorted disdainfully.

"What's wrong with being delicate, what's wrong with being a girl, even if you are half delicate, your son won't be able to find a wife until now. The young man is showing his true feelings. You think everyone is as wolf-hearted as you."

As soon as the words were finished, the people nearby laughed. The couple probably said something else, but Jiang He didn't even bother to listen.

He only knew that more than half of his world had collapsed, and it could never return to the way it was before.