only in this mountain

After half a year, Jiang He was in the bustling market again. Unlike his previous rented house, the sound insulation and lighting of the hotel were very good, so he was not woken up by the sound of traffic outside the window, but was gently warmed by the warm sunlight. It was awakened bit by bit by hitting the face.

He was a little dazed at first when he opened his eyes. The bright environment almost made him think he was sleeping until noon again. He touched his phone and looked at it, and he was relieved.

The bed next door was empty, and the quilt was spread evenly on it, and there was no sign that someone had slept on it at all.

"Where did you go? Why didn't you wake me up?"

Of course he still shared a room with Zhang Huai in the end, after all, the room price for two people with two big beds was half the price.Thinking of the joke he made at the front desk of the hotel last night because of lack of common sense, he blushed and buried himself under the quilt again.

When he was drowsy again under the sun, Zhang Huai opened the door and came in: "Haven't you slept well yet?"

"Get up! Immediately!" I have to go to the book city later!

"My sister came here just now. I went to have breakfast with her and brought you two eggs. If it's not enough, go out and buy something."

"It's okay, I usually don't eat anything in the morning, and I ate a lot yesterday, so I'm not hungry. But why didn't you tell me earlier that your sister will come to see you?" He also wanted to see what Zhang Huai's sister looked like.

Zhang Huai fiddled with the delicate pink box on the table. After opening it, he glanced at it and seemed to smile slightly: "She didn't come to see me. Breakfast is still necessary. My sister brought some homemade snacks. You Want to try it?"

"What is it? It looks so beautiful!" After washing, he couldn't wait to take a small bread dipped in almond chocolate. He bit off the cream that squeezed his face, and he didn't realize it. The sweet taste spread in his mouth, and he squinted. He raised his eyes and praised again and again: "It's delicious!"

"Probably puffs, haven't you eaten it before?" He reached out to help him wipe the cream on his face, and the soft cream slid towards his mouth uncontrollably. Perhaps because he didn't want to waste it, he opened his mouth and ate the cream.

"No, I rarely buy these. It's easier to gain weight. I don't want to gain weight. I know this, it's pudding... The cakes are so delicate. Is your sister a pastry chef?"

Zhang Huai was still a little dazed, and shook his head after a while: "No."

"It's really delicious, your sister is amazing! My sister can only soak radishes." Just now he said that he didn't want to gain weight, he had already eaten two puffs and a strawberry cake, and the pudding was about to bottom out. Huai kept staring at him, and he began to feel embarrassed that he ate too much, "I'm sorry I couldn't help it, I stopped eating...you still have to take it back to your dad and your grandpa..."

"It's for you, as long as you don't eat it all in one sitting. You won't grow much meat with this little sugar, and you're not fat."

"Wherever you are not fat, your face is full of meat." Don't you always pinch it, it must be more fleshy to pinch.His face is small and sensual, and he looks young. He used to be asked where he went to school when he was at work, but he didn't think it was someone complimenting him. The thin and handsome Zhang Huai he liked the most.

"Why keep staring at me?" Is there something dirty on your face, cake crumbs or cream?

"May I kiss you?" Taohua's eyes were full of affection, and her soft voice was deep and magnetic. The seemingly unexpected words had actually been brewing in her heart for a long time.

It was Jiang He's turn to be stunned. Under the winter sun, it seemed that the roots of his ears would turn red and his whole body would become hot. He was completely unprepared, his heart started beating wildly, and his mind went blank.

What's going on.

No confession, no revealing of each other's feelings, too many steps at once... Even if it's a relationship between the opposite sex, it can't be so straightforward, right?

Or did he never explicitly reject Zhang Huai, and Zhang Huai had already acquiesced in the relationship between the two of them?But he didn't clearly express his liking... Which link went wrong?

His face was so red that he was about to bleed, he pushed the dessert box towards Zhang Huai, his voice trembling with anxiety: "Here, I won't eat, okay?"

Just like the little mouse who was caught stealing cat food in front of the cat and thought that handing over the cat food would save his life, before the cat made a move, he most likely still had a chance.

In all fairness, he doesn't hate Zhang Huai, nor does he resist contact with him. Shyness is one aspect, and another aspect is that there is always a mountain in his heart, which comes from his inherent timidity and contradictions. , has been like this since childhood, as long as there is a little bit of worry, you will think of longer-term troubles.

A kiss is nothing, he will not lose a piece of meat to be discovered by his parents, but people are not easy to be satisfied, he can't guarantee whether he will want more.

Without solving his worries, he can't enjoy the present moment at all.

Zhang Huai grabbed his shoulders to stop him from running away in a hurry, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I was rude. I never thought of exchanging things for you in return. Don't get me wrong."

Because of this little episode, the two of them didn't communicate much in the book city until noon.While reading a book, Jiang He searched for the titles on the Internet on his mobile phone. After adding all of them to the shopping cart, he didn't buy a single book on the spot.Zhang Huai was a little surprised, but he could understand that books in physical bookstores were generally more expensive than those available online.

Zhang Yunde had promised Zhang Yunde to take Jiang He for a stroll before, and after leaving the bookstore, the atmosphere between the two of them never returned to the natural state before this morning, and it seemed that they could not be fulfilled.Annoyance was greater than regret, Jiang He was really scared that morning.

"Go back?" In fact, Jiang He has been looking for opportunities to relieve the embarrassment. Although Zhang Huai is as usual, he seems a little panicked in his eyes. After reflection, he feels that he has always been the one who has problems, and Zhang Huai has never done anything wrong. , he shouldn't be so cruel and unfeeling to him.

Zhang Huai's eyes were full of light, or maybe it was already there but it was slightly dim before: "It's still early, where do you want to go?"

"I'm not familiar with City G, where do you think is worth visiting?"

"There are not many things to see in winter, and there is not enough time to visit the ancient town and the zoo. The winter plums of G size are probably in bloom. Do you want to see them?"

"Is G University your alma mater? It's been a few years since you graduated. I don't know if the cat is still there. Let's go and see!"

They didn't go at the right time, the wintersweet was in bud, not many bloomed, but the stray cats and dogs in the school all gathered in different areas, under the afternoon sun, on the lawn on the steps, the cats and dogs were leisurely basking in the sun.

Jiang He watched a snow-white cat rolling around a young man's feet from a distance. He was too far away to be sure what it was. Do not move on the ground.When the man raised his head inadvertently, Jiang He felt that his eyes were familiar. He caught the young man's attention by taking a few more glances, and then shifted his gaze to this side.

It's him?That painter, Zhao Xiufeng?

"Zhang Huai, what a coincidence, I ran into you again." Zhao Xiufeng put down the cat and walked up to the two of them.He didn't notice Jiang He beside Zhang Huai at all yesterday, but he was a little surprised at the first sight today, and then ignored him. "You said that there is no chance to meet again, but today is the same. I heard that Tang Lin's second son has a full moon wine for a few days, do you want to go together?"

"I haven't contacted him for more than ten years. I didn't even know he was married. I may not be free by then."

I don't know if he was thinking too much, Jiang He always felt that Zhang Huai was a little impatient when facing Zhao Xiufeng, and his eyes didn't even want to fall on Zhao Xiufeng.Zhao Xiufeng said that they were classmates in high school, but why did they meet Zhang Huai on the university campus?It should be at least five years since Zhang Huai graduated. Is there anything that can make Zhang Huai, who thought that Mount Tai collapsed and never changed his expression, still brood on him until now?

"Is it true that no matter what I say, you will have this attitude?" Zhao Xiufeng may be the kind of person who is used to being honorable. His face instantly became gloomy.

"You think too much." Zhang Huai frowned slightly, and his eyes drifted to the teaching building in the distance.

"Zhang Huai, do you dare to look at me and say it? Do you still remember what happened back then? I was wrong at that time. I knew I was wrong, but you never gave me a chance to apologize. I know you don't I want to see me, so even if I get into the same school as you, I will go abroad immediately. After all these years, you still refuse to forgive me?"

"It's up to you what you want to think. You are the one who lives in the past, not me. I'm leaving, goodbye."

Jiang He glanced at Zhao Xiufeng delicately, Zhao Xiufeng felt his gaze, and let out a cold snort of disdain: "Don't look at me with that cheap sympathy, do you think he loves you? What are you? "

Jiang He felt that he was a little baffled, who would sympathize with him?I don't even know him... I don't know why I suddenly feel a little blocked, and I even start to feel confused with my expression.

"Zhang Huai! You coward! You just dare not admit that you don't like me! The gap between the two of us is just like your sister and your brother-in-law. No matter how much love is needed for an unequal relationship It can’t be filled! So you’re scared! You coward, pathetic! What’s the difference between a double and you, and you and me!”

Zhang Huai had already walked a long way with Jiang He, and Zhao Xiufeng suddenly roared like crazy, almost all the students around looked at Zhao Xiufeng, but he laughed wantonly as if he had fallen into madness.

"You will not be happy for long!"

The unprovoked curse was like a thunderbolt, which made people tremble all over. Jiang He stopped and looked back at Zhao Xiufeng, only to see that his eyes were red, and he was staring at Jiang He viciously as if he was looking at a piece of garbage.He lowered his head uncontrollably, almost buried in his chest, and his hands began to tremble.

Walking to the boulevard where there were not many people at the school gate, the palms of my hands were already covered with a thick layer of sweat.He would do this when he was extremely angry or sad, and tears rolled in his eyes as his heart beat wildly.As long as no one pays attention to him at this time, he will gradually get better on his own.

But Zhang Huai just stopped, the more he didn't want to look at Zhang Huai, Zhang Huai turned his body to him: "It's not like he said, I never liked him."

Hot tears rolled down his face uncontrollably. His loss of control made him feel ashamed. He wanted to break free from Zhang Huai's shackles, but he couldn't shake it. He could only shout: "I don't want to know, it has nothing to do with me!"

He can't think about Zhao Xiufeng's words rationally now, his mind is full of the gap between people, between him and Zhang Huai, between him and Zhao Xiufeng, he doesn't know how noble Zhao Xiufeng's identity is—no matter It's a chasm that can never be bridged.

The poor birth environment, the inherent lowliness, the inferiority complex engraved in the bones, and the current mediocrity, through the fermentation of tears, swelled countless times in an instant.

Those things that he subconsciously wanted to hide, and those that he deliberately forgot, rushed into his mind one after another, the father's hand, the mother's face, and the sad look in his little nephew's precocious eyes...he is here For a moment, I suddenly understood that the term "Sui Yue Jing Hao" was not originally created for people like them.

He is too selfish, unwilling to suffer more grievances and hardships, because his dream is too difficult to realize, hiding in a small village where no one knows him, escaping the reality and responsibilities he does not want to admit, his parents, his The family, including himself, was always looked down upon and ridiculed by others-he had never hated his own incompetence as much as now.

"Xiaohe..." Zhang Huai's voice was full of powerlessness and sadness, and he even changed his address, "Whether you believe it or not, I really like you, since I saw you..."

"Stop talking! I don't want to know at all!" There's no way the two of us can be together!If he was too heartless, he couldn't say it out. In front of the dripping reality, he was not as strong as Zhang Huai, and he was also more powerless than him.