only in this mountain

The moment the door opened, Jiang He stood up from the chair, twisted his clothes with his fingers, and looked at Zhang Huai with some helplessness.

"Grandpa's bed is relatively narrow, and the two thick quilts can't fit. You can squeeze me in tonight, okay?"

The background sound of the computer was a very loud variety show, and Jiang He clicked on any of them. At this moment, he didn't even care about what he was talking about. After he nodded dully, he followed Zhang Huai out to wash up.

But Jiang He had never gone to bed so early before, so Zhang Huai, who knew his schedule, asked him, "Will you still watch the video?" Although he didn't want to sleep, he didn't want to stay in the same room with Zhang Huai and stare at the The computer screen, it felt so suffocating.

Seeing him shaking his head, Zhang Huai began to take off his clothes and prepared to go to bed. He pulled the hem of the sweater with both hands to the top of his head and took it off in one go. Countless little red hearts flew over from Jianghe.

Jiang He blushed shamefully, and even felt his heart sway when he saw the skin revealed at the moment when the sweater was pulled up and his shirt was pulled up. Zhang Huai should have abdominal muscles, as you can imagine by looking at the muscles on his arms. After all, he If he doesn't sit still like himself, the mermaid thread must be very beautiful, take it off, why don't you continue to take it off, he will definitely observe it with pure appreciation, and never touch it with his hands!

"You're drooling." Zhang Huai put his hand on the belt buckle around his waist and didn't move any further. Seeing Jiang He frantically wiping away the nonexistent drool, he smiled softly.

He didn't know what was wrong, but when he saw Jiang He staring at him just now, he was really like the second idiot who was usually made to jump up and down by Jiang He's dog biscuits and couldn't eat it.

And maybe it's because he doesn't pay much attention to his appearance, and usually has a sullen face. Now that he has relieved the exhaustion of the day, he is in the most relaxed state, and the smile from the heart is like March. With the spring breeze, the people he watched suddenly felt warm and drunk.

"Zhang Huai, you look so pretty when you smile." It doesn't matter what kind of mood Zhang Huai said just now, anyway, he is now completely immersed in that fleeting smile, crawled to the opposite side of the bed, approached him and said My own truth.

Zhang Huai didn't speak, but suddenly smiled and stretched out his hands to pinch Jiang He's upturned tender face.Before Jiang He exploded, he quickly took off his pants and got under the quilt, leaving Jiang He howling with exclamation marks all over his head. This was the first time he knew that Zhang Huai had such a bad side.

Standing for a long time and his feet were frozen stiff, he didn't want to make things difficult for him, he told himself that nothing happened just now, but until Zhang Huai turned off the light, the heat on Jiang He's face where he pinched it still hadn't dissipated. Even hotter and hotter in the confined space under the quilt.Jiang He held his face in both hands, hoping that his cold hands would cool down the skin on his face.

He had never gone to bed so early before. Jiang He spent most of his energy during this period of time. At nine o'clock in the evening, there was no roar of cars, no noise of people, and all outside noises were discarded. His world was only Putting down the paintbrush and paper, even now, one picture after another keeps popping up in his mind, but he hastily disappeared because he didn't have a pen to record it.

Usually, when he is restless and unable to fall asleep, he will keep turning over. As soon as he turned twice, the people around him asked him, "Can't sleep?"

Jiang He hummed, it's not that he hasn't slept with the same sex before, but today is Zhang Huai next to him, so a strange feeling keeps churning in his heart.Covered by the quilt, he didn't know whether Zhang Huai heard or not, so he got out again: "It's too early, I'm not sleepy at all."

"Then what do you want to do?"

"I don't know. It would be nice if people don't sleep, so that they won't be troubled by not being able to sleep."

"You just can't get up during the day because you don't sleep at night. How can a normal person's routine be the same as yours? If this goes on for a long time, your body will not be able to bear it. Don't just ignore it just because you are young now."

"I used to form a habit when I was studying, and I skipped a lot of classes to sleep. Now that I think about it, I don't think it's worthwhile. If I study hard in college, maybe I won't be such a waste. When I was in S City, I also Similarly, sometimes it’s two or three o’clock when I’m sitting and sitting, and I can hear the sound of cleaners sweeping the floor after sitting for a while. Once on the National Day of the National Day, I stayed in the house by myself and only went out once a day. I didn’t sleep at night. I only got up in the afternoon during the day, and when I went out for dinner, I was surrounded by people and voices everywhere, but I couldn’t hear anything. After I came back, I drank a glass of sugar water to get over it. I told myself that I couldn’t go on like this, but it would still be like this next time .”

With no light and no need to look at people, Jiang He accidentally opened up the most helpless place in his heart to people.

"I never understood why we talked and laughed happily when we were together, and it doesn't matter who we are when we separate."

"Where are your parents?"

"The same goes for my parents. They feel that giving birth to me is a gift from God to them and me, but they don't even know what my previous job is."

"No siblings?"

"Yes, there are many. I am the fourth child in my family and the third child in our big family. I have five older sisters, two older brothers and two younger brothers."

"Is your relationship good?"

"Well, I didn't kiss when I was young, and I felt that there was a gap with them. When I grew up, I each had my own circle of life. When my grandma was still there, we would get together on her birthday. Later, it was difficult for everyone to eat together."

"Not during Chinese New Year?"

"Sometimes, sometimes I eat at my own home when I'm in a bad mood after a quarrel, and it's annoying to eat together. Everyone talks about their own things, and no one really cares whether the other party is willing to listen."

"Didn't you fit in when you were a kid?"

"Why do you ask? I think I was quite popular when I was a child. When I was in elementary school, I was recommended to be a cultural and entertainment committee member. If others don't want to teach songs, everyone asks me to sing."

"What can you sing?"

"At that time Karen Mok's songs were more popular, and I could sing "The Fruit of Midsummer"."

"Now, will it still be?"

"Now, maybe I can still do it, but maybe I can string words and get out of tune. What about you, what songs did you sing when you were young?"

"I don't know how to sing popular songs. My teacher used to teach folk songs. When I was in middle school, my deskmate said that I scared her by singing, and I never opened my mouth to sing again."

Jiang He couldn't imagine how singing would frighten people. Besides, Zhang Huai's voice is not very high now, so it shouldn't be difficult to hear his singing voice at that time.Although he thought so, he still covered his mouth and laughed.

"Hahaha, after talking so much, I want to ask you a question, were you born in May or June?"

As soon as he asked Zhang Huai, he guessed what he meant, so he replied: "It's similar to what you think, but we both celebrate the lunar calendar. My sister was born in March, when my mother named my sister Willow Just sprouted, she loved it, and I was April, and my mom wanted me to be strong so I could help my sister."

"What a coincidence, I was also born in April of the lunar calendar! But I thought that the pagoda tree bloomed just when you were born. Your sister is a willow leaf, and you are a pagoda tree..." I couldn't help but covered my mouth and laughed again, "I like Sophora japonica. The dewy Sophora japonica in the morning is sweet and fragrant. When I was in school, I would often pick a handful and bring it to school to eat."

He himself didn't realize that he was teasing Zhang Huai a little bit, it looked delicious or something, but in fact, what can be eaten and what can't be eaten are not the same kind - no matter in which sense.

Zhang Huai quietly listened to him continue talking.

"But the name really doesn't mean anything. Before I was born, my mother chose the name for me. She didn't study for a few years, and she didn't want my grandparents to give us that kind of vulgar name, so My eldest sister’s name is Jiang Ruoxue, my second sister’s name is Jiang Ruomeng, my third sister’s name is Jiang Ruolin, and I should be called Jiang Ruoshi. After I was born, the fortune-teller said that my horoscope was short of water. I already had a surname of Jiang and I was still short of water. Grandma waved her hand and asked someone to write the word "Jiang He" on the household registration booklet. But I'm still very glad that my name is not Jiang Ruoshi, because it feels so embarrassing."

"Where are your brothers?"

"One is called Jiang Hai and the other is called Jiang Yang. My grandma knew they were a family when she heard them."

"Then your cousin is called Jianghu or Jiangxi?"

"Why did you say it right away? Why isn't it Jiang Tao Jiang Bo or something? It sounds like they are all a family? You will never know what my youngest cousin's name is. In terms of a grandma who is named casually, our family's station is second. First, I won’t complain about my dad’s and uncle’s names. After all, they are in line with the trend of the times. At that time, my little cousin was too miserable. When he was born, the master said that there was still a lack of water. My grandma said that if this is the case, it is called River water."

He purposely said it seriously, but actually wanted Zhang Huai to laugh, but Zhang Huai also showed him face and smiled slightly.

After a brief silence, Jiang He's sigh caught Zhang Huai's attention: "What's wrong?"

Jiang He had actually been hunched over for a while, but he had been talking to Zhang Huai so he deliberately ignored it. At this time, his stomach hurts unbearably, and it was an unprecedented pain. Probably what Zhang Huai said just now came true. Eat and rest regularly, the body has already been in trouble, but it has not been revealed.

"Do you have a stomachache? Did you only have one meal today?" Zhang Huai put his hand into the quilt on his side and gently rubbed his stomach without waiting for a response after asking.

Jiang He didn't dare to speak out, nor did he dare to tell Zhang Huai that he actually ate twice.Zhang Huai's palm was very warm, like a ball of fire in his palm, at first he shrank nervously, afraid of Zhang Huai's touch, but as Zhang Huai's movements continued, he gradually relaxed his mind and body.

"I'll get you a cup of hot water." Feeling that Jiang He was not in so much pain, Zhang Huai was about to withdraw his hand, but was held back by Jiang He.Jiang He didn't speak, just pulled him quietly. In the darkness, neither of them could see each other's faces clearly, and they could almost hear each other's heartbeat in the silence.

Zhang Huai seemed to understand something, his palm slowly slid down, and he poked in from the edge of his trousers, Jiang He didn't stop him, he firmly grabbed the clothes on Zhang Huai's chest and buried his face into his chest.

On winter nights, the quilt was as hot as summer, and Zhang Huai's palms were covered with calluses, moving delicately in the most vulnerable parts of his body. He was not without shame, even full of guilt, but he decided to Follow your own heart and no longer live in a daze.

She obviously likes him, so why push him away?He always trapped himself in a problem and couldn't get out. Instead of being timid, it's better to let go and try.What is the world, what are the expectations of parents... Fuck their shit to start a family, but their shit is not normal... To hell with everything.

Thinking about it, he felt refreshed and comfortable, and slept until dawn.Because he went to bed early, he also woke up earlier than usual, but Zhang Huai was earlier than him, and he had long since disappeared from the bed.But he didn't want to get up a little bit, and there were traces of last night on his trousers. Although he was already very intimate, he was too embarrassed to wear Zhang Huai's clothes again.Fortunately, it didn't take long for Zhang Huai to open the door and come in, taking his clothes in by the way.

Originally, he thought Zhang Huai would say something, but he didn't react at all, but Jiang He was shy for nothing.

After leaving the room and walking into the yard, Grandpa Zhang, who was drying the quilt, saw Jiang He's resentful face at a glance, and asked jokingly, "What's the matter with Xiao He? Did you not sleep well at night? The little pursed mouth can Hang a bucket."

Compared with yesterday, today's weather is more than a little bit better, the sun is shining, there are no clouds in the sky, there are still birds in twos and threes on the branches outside the door, there is no wind, but you can smell the rice in the kitchen, everything becomes It's the beautiful look he likes, isn't it?But because of Zhang Huai, Jiang He felt that everything in front of him lost its color.No wonder people often say that people in love are the most unpredictable, and he is no exception.

"I have steamed eggs and pumpkin pancakes for breakfast. Let's wash your face and eat. If you haven't slept well, go back to sleep."

It's not the reason why I didn't sleep well at all. I can't tell Grandpa Zhang about this matter. Even if I tell Zhang Huai, he can't tell it. The warmest emotion expressed?

It's because he's too immodest...

Grandpa Zhang watched his expression change happily, and helped him pour the washing water by the way. Seeing this situation, he hurried forward to do it himself.

On the other side, Zhang Yunyuan stopped in the middle of chopping firewood, and called Zhang Huai to come over, hesitant to say: "You guys last night..."

Zhang Huai also sensed something was wrong with Jiang He, and turned his gaze away from Jiang He: "What happened last night?"

Zhang Yunyuan blushed: "You ask me, I don't know about you young people. Seeing him like this obviously has something to do with you. You didn't say anything to him last night, did you?"

Zhang Huai understood what his father meant, and his ears turned slightly red, but he didn't answer directly: "He couldn't sleep last night, I chatted with him until late, and I can't remember what time I went to bed afterwards."

Zhang Yunyuan lowered his voice and asked again: "Don't you like him, wasn't it a good opportunity last night..."

Zhang Huai interrupted him before he finished speaking: "Dad, don't say that, liking him is not forcing him."

Zhang Yunyuan hated iron but steel: "How do you know he's not happy?"

Zhang Huai was silent for a few seconds, then said flatly, "He will leave here sooner or later."

The light words swirled around in this small courtyard, and finally fell into Jiang He's ears. Jiang He trembled, and his whole body seemed to be poured down by a basin of cold water.

Yes, he was going to get away from here, and he was at a loss as to where to go.

"Didn't I have a stomachache last night?"

"You didn't tell me, did you not eat on time recently?"

It turned out to be just a dream. Since I knew that I would leave here sooner or later, why should I treat him well?

The resolution he finally made in the dream was easily broken by a single sentence in reality.

He really wanted to know, did the duckweed have no roots in the first place, or did it gradually lose itself in the drifting?

It turned out to be just a charming dream, he really was too unreserved.