mark of the rain gl

It has been raining for several days in a row.

Outside the Times Building, a clothing advertisement of the well-known brand PRADA was broadcast on the big screen.

The model in the picture is wearing the latest full-set black suit with a waist that was launched this autumn and winter, holding a rivet organ bag in her hand. She is constantly changing poses sideways, and her long wine-red hair makes her skin whiter. The whole person exudes a distinctive temperament, and every frame presented by the lens is comparable to the quality of a movie.

The rain fell from the clouds, and the intersection in the city center was sparsely populated. Qiu Zixin was holding a black umbrella, standing tall and tall at the crosswalk, quietly waiting for the red light to turn on.

The vehicle drove away in front of her, and the accumulated water on the road was splashed. She narrowed her eyes slightly, took a step back, and raised her hand to press the mask.

After the advertisement was broadcast, the pictures on the screen were transformed into the highlights of the shooting, which was a short interview, "Thank you very much for accepting our invitation this time, this is really a wonderful cooperation!"

"Well, as a spokesperson, do you have any dressing skills to share with us? For example, this wool coat from PRADA, would you choose to wear a sweater or..."

The pedestrian lights are green, and Qiu Zixin is wearing a dark gray coat today. She walks across the sidewalk in short heels, and several young people with white and dark skin pass by her on the opposite street. I looked at her several times.

"Hey, I think she looks familiar..."

"What? The big beauty you met at the bar last night?"

"No..." The yellow-haired man looked up, his expression slightly startled, and he pointed to the screen in the building and said, "Is that her...! That woman just now seems to be new!"

With the sound of rain, Qiu Zi summoned a new Grab, and the action of closing the umbrella and stepping into the seat was done in one go, neat and elegant.

In the year after resuming work, apart from holding concerts, Qiu Zixin kept forcing herself to take over jobs. She even attended several episodes of reality shows that she didn’t like before. The manager arranged a full schedule for her. Rest days are few and far between.

Qiu Zixin is not short of money, nor is she afraid of being forgotten by the public. One of the reasons for her taking up jobs is to fill her free time.

Qiu Zixin discovered that ever since Xiao Yu left, she would fall into incomprehensible thoughts day and night.

She had to find something to do to fill the empty part of her heart.

There is another reason, because Qiu Zixin knows that as long as she shows up on the screen, Xiao Yu can learn about her from the media.

Even if they haven't been in touch for a long time, Xiao Yu can at least understand her recent situation and don't have to worry about her situation.

Qiu Zixin pulled down his mask, leaned against the car window, and the scenery along the way kept receding.

Looking at this familiar and nostalgic city, Qiu Zixin silently pursed the corners of her lips and smiled faintly.

I haven't seen her for a whole year, and Qiu Zixin misses her very much.

During these twelve months, Missing hid in Qiu Zixin's body as if there was an incubation period, and she would go mad from time to time, and every time she had an attack, she would be in great pain.

She thought that time could dilute her feelings, but God was unwilling to forgive her, and made her suffer from mutual torment of pain and love.

Instead of looking further and further open, on the contrary, it got deeper and deeper.

She fell in love with a man of the same sex who was 15 years younger than herself.

This is a fact that cannot be destroyed.

She fell in love with Xiao Yu.

So, this is the catastrophe she should face in her life.

A while ago, Xiao Yu posted a group of photos in Moments, and took many photos of hanging out with friends.Qiu Zixin feels that she has grown up a lot, her facial features have expanded a lot, and she has become more three-dimensional and exquisite.

The girl is full of youth and vigor, envious of others.

Of course Qiu Zixin saw Xiao Yu's personal photo, so she hesitated for a long time, and finally stopped before liking it.

"Miss, where are you going?" The driver in the front seat turned the steering wheel and looked at Qiu Zixin through the reversing mirror.

Qiu Zixin raised her eyebrows, and replied softly: "Go to Boston University, thank you..."

"Have you lived here for a long time? I can see your accent..." The driver smiled and chatted with the passengers naturally as usual.

"Well...I lived here for a while..."

The gloomy sunlight fell on Qiu Zixin's delicate skin, making her wine-red hair even more beautiful.

"Are you going to pick up your sister at the university?" The driver saw that the rain was getting heavier, so he increased the grade of the wipers and muttered, "It's been raining recently... It's become difficult to attract customers."

The phone in his pocket vibrated suddenly, Qiu Zixin shook his head, and said softly, "It's not my sister..."

"Just a...girl I'd really like to meet..."

After more than ten consecutive months, Qiu Zixin was tired of hiding. Whenever Xiao Yu sent her a message, she had to restrain her desire to care about the girl, close her eyes, and cruelly delete the dialog box. .

Qiu Zixin came to Boston only because she couldn't bear it anymore.

She longed to see her little friend.

Take a sneak peek.

Not greedy.

Just one glance is all it takes...

Leave after watching her.

But......

Qiu Zixin didn't expect it at all.

Xiao Yu would call her suddenly today.

Qiu Zixin took out her mobile phone and stared blankly at the contacts displayed on the screen. For a moment, she even thought that she was thinking too much and had visual illusions.

Many months ago, this phone number also rang in the middle of the night. Qiu Zixin was sitting in the side hall of his home, watching the screen from bright to gradually dim, until it was completely black.

The girl's missed call became a very glaring notification, Qiu Zixin bit her lips tightly, clutching the phone, and pressed the girl's sincere love on her suffocating chest.

In the middle of the night, Qiu Zixin broke down in tears.

But the next day, she pretended nothing happened, and faced Xiao Yu calmly, as if the girl's every move had no effect on her.

She kept persuading herself to let go, and tried hard to cover up her wavering thoughts with work.

She kept saying to herself, she could, she would definitely persevere until the day Xiao Yu gave up on her.

As long as they survive until that day, everyone will be relieved, and the best ending will be ushered in between them...

best ending ever...

...What exactly is it.

Qiu Zixin's fingertips trembled slightly, and she took deep breaths repeatedly, worrying for a long, long time whether to answer or not.

Today, she chose to answer the girl's call.

Qiu Zixin didn't expect Xiao Yu to call her, and Xiao Yu also couldn't believe that Qiu Zixin would be willing to answer her phone.

The moment the call was connected, both parties were silent in surprise.

It's been a long, long time since they talked on each other, they haven't heard each other's voice, they haven't looked into each other's eyes, they haven't touched each other's body...

The moment Qiu Zixin called out Xiao Yu's name, mixed feelings of disappointment flooded their bodies and minds.

Just as Xiao Yu was about to speak, she realized that her voice had become hoarse...

in the end.She still loves Qiu Zixin too much.

That's why... there is such a heavy love and obsession.

It was so heavy that it was far beyond Qiu Zixin's acceptance range.

"Sister Qiu...are...are you busy...?" The girl's tone was very slow, full of cautious temptation.

Qiu Zixin paused, then lowered her head, "...No..." There was a little worry in her eyes.

"Really... That's good." Xiao Yu's dry smile came from the phone.

After the sound, the two fell silent again. Frost flowers slowly condensed in the air. Qiu Zixin frowned, "Look for me...what's the matter..."

There was still silence on the other end of the call.

Qiu Zixin's heart sank and sank, and she began to suspect that she should not have answered the phone.

Just when Qiu Zixin was about to speak to break the silence, the other party finally let out a deep breath, Xiao Yu's hoarse voice seemed to be preparing to make a formal farewell to all the unbearable memories of the past.

Xiao Yu raised her head, the gray sky enveloped her, the sadness that had been suppressed for a long time in her heart flowed out bit by bit from the gap between her injured heart and spleen.

"Qiu Zixin..."

"I'm...an adult now..."

The moment Xiao Yu opened her mouth with difficulty, her throat felt uncomfortable, congested and stinging as if it was stuffed with gravel.

"But don't worry..."

"I already...don't love you."

"I'm sorry...for my ignorance before, for all my childish, impulsive behaviors..."

The girl's emotions had been accumulated and suppressed for too long, causing her voice to tremble violently when she said these words, Xiao Yu covered her mouth, she deeply remembered, how did she take one step during countless times of repeated disappointment and heartbreak? Step by step, he tore open his scabbed wound, and then applied a medical patch on himself.

After Xiao Yu left, she realized that without her own Qiu Zixin, she would only live better.

Without her, Qiu Zixin would no longer have to feel embarrassed, entangled, and painful about the things between them.

She really realized that it turned out that...

Her existence will only bring a burden to Qiu Zixin.

Her love will only make Qiu Zixin feel pressured.

She wanted love, but she didn't take into account Qiu Zixin's true thoughts and feelings.

It's like, she held her sincere and hot heart in front of Qiu Zixin, but didn't ask Qiu Zixin in advance whether she wanted it or not.

Qiu Zixin is a female star who is sought after by thousands of people. She is so mature and dazzling on the stage, but she is just a child who is still struggling and growing up stubbornly... ....

What can she use to have a romantic relationship with Qiu Zixin?

Xiao Yu knows very well that her love for Qiu Zixin is really too deep.

And Qiu Zixin didn't need to accompany her to continue this farce.

She is stupid.

Misunderstanding that as long as you treat them sincerely, you will get the same response from the other party.

In fact, Xiao Yu should have recognized this fact long ago.

Even if she and Qiu Zixin like each other, it is impossible for them to be together.

After all, there are too many unspeakable obstacles between them.

She can't take Qiu Zi's new life as a victim of her selfish love.

"I'm sorry...Qiu Zixin, for the troubles I've caused you for so long..."

"I'm overthinking my abilities...I'm wishful thinking...I'm sorry...I'm really sorry..."

As Xiao Yu spoke, her throat became choked and hot, and tears overflowed uncontrollably.

Looking back now, she used to wantonly hug her, even kiss her without Qiu Zixin's permission...

These kinds of behaviors...

Really annoying.

This time it's true...

Xiao Yu realized the reality.

If Qiu Zixin really loved her, then she wouldn't hurt her again and again.

The feeling of being left behind, abandoned, and pushed away again and again is really uncomfortable.How many days of heartbreak, Xiao Yu has endured and carried it alone.

If her love can only make her lover feel bored and sad.

Then she would rather not love.

Yes......

She is afraid of pain.

She conceded.

In the huge park, Xiao Yu burst into tears looking at the fountain.In the past, whenever she missed Qiu Zixin very much, she would come here alone and stay alone for several hours.

Xiao Yu knows that she has grown up, she is not alone, she has family, friends, dreams of a true love, achievements that make her proud, she is already quite outstanding...

She's just not lucky... After working hard for so long, she still can't shake Qiu Zixin at all...

If Xiao Yu hadn't been crying too excitedly, she would have heard Qiu Zixin's sobs on the other side again and again.

Qiu Zixin's eye sockets were already scarlet, the girl's words were like sharp objects, each knife was sharper than each knife, constantly cutting open her internal organs, and then penetrated into her bone marrow.

Let her heart ache.

A very heavy bell sounded from the other end of the call, Xiao Yu was sobbing, although the voice was vague, the woman could still understand, "Qiu Zixin... let me ask you one last question... ..."

"The last one... Really the last one..." Xiao Yu's voice was very weak, she wiped away a line of tears on her cheeks, but was filled back by another line of tears.

"Qiu Zixin, let me ask you..."

"If you don't love me..."

"Why... put my name on the will...?"

that day.

The day when Xiao Yu cleaned up Qiu Zi's new room.

The stack of documents that Xiao Yu accidentally knocked down made her unexpectedly discover so many paths that Qiu Zixin had paved for her behind her back.

The study fund of hundreds of thousands of knives after adulthood, the ownership of several overseas villas and real estate since the age of 21, all the profits from trust funds, savings banks, and stock investments, all belong to Xiao Yu immediately.

Once Qiu Zixin passed away, 80% of the inheritance would be automatically transferred to Xiao Yu's name.

Qiu Zixin was stunned on the spot, she never expected that Xiao Yu would find out...

"Answer me...Qiu Zixin...I know you're listening..." Xiao Yu held her trembling lips and tried her best to hold back her crying.

She just wanted to hear Qiu Zixin admit it...Even if they really can't be together, Xiao Yu really wanted to hear Qiu Zixin's truth...

Even one sentence is enough to make her have no regrets in this life.

For things that cannot be accomplished in this life, Xiao Yu is willing to wait until the next life.

In her next life, she will be the same age as Qiu Zixin.

In her next life, she will have the same status as Qiu Zixin.

In her next life, she will still be a girl like Qiu Zixin.

The cold rain touched Xiao Yu's cheek. She waited for a long time, but the woman on the other end of the call never gave her an answer.

Xiao Yu couldn't help lowering her head and laughing, the smile was full of sadness.

That's it.

She shouldn't embarrass her Qiu Xiaoxin.

Tears flowed down Xiao Yu's dimples, she bent a bitter smile, "I'm sorry...Qiu Zixin, I will never pester you again..."

After finishing the last sentence, the girl hung up the call resolutely.

"Xiao Yu...!" Qiu Zixin came back to her senses in a daze, she abandoned all the calmness she had in the past, brushed her hair in a hurry, her chest continued to rise and fall violently, and she urgently called back.

It's a pity that I couldn't get through every next phone call.

"Sorry! The user you dialed is temporarily unavailable, please try again later."

"Hello! The phone you are calling is switched off."

"Hi! The number you dialed is empty, please check and dial again."

Qiu Zixin covered her face in despair, her shoulders began to tremble uncontrollably, and the sound of weeping seemed to pervade this strangely quiet space.

She is crying.

Weeping in despair.

The driver didn't understand what happened, so he just drove the car without saying a word. Fortunately, there was not much left. He parked the car on the street outside BU, "Miss... we have arrived... .”

The woman hurriedly handed him a card from the back seat, but the driver faltered and faltered too frightened to accept it, "This... this..."

Qiu Zixin didn't answer, she let go of the card, opened the car door to open the umbrella, and ran all the way to the BU gate in short heels.

The heavy rain was pouring, and the rumbling thunder was mixed with it.

The BU's bell tower sounded again, and Qiu Zixin was turned away by the administrator, saying that the school does not allow outsiders to come in and out at will. In addition to having an ID card, students in the college need to notify in advance before they are allowed to go.

"Sorry miss, this is the school's rule, we can't have exceptions..."

Qiu Zixin's red hair was wet from the rain, and her makeup was spent a lot. She clutched her phone tightly and took several steps backwards one after another.

At this moment, a sense of helpless resentment filled her heart.

She hates herself, why she is so cowardly, why she is so useless, why she even dare not face the person she loves.

"Suman, hurry up, it's raining heavily outside, and Xiao Yu hasn't come back yet, really, I'm so worried..."

"I know, didn't I just go to get the umbrella, hey, that kid, I don't know if I missed someone again..."

Ah Hang and Su Man walked down the stairs of the building quickly. When Su Man held two umbrellas and looked up at the gate, his expression froze for a moment, and his steps became more rapid. Just when Qiu Zixin was about to retreat, Suman swiped Kara to open the door immediately, and shouted in the rain: "Qiu Zixin!?"

In astonishment, Qiu Zixin turned her head, and her soft and fragile expression immediately stopped, "Suman...?"

Qiu Zixin took a few steps forward with unsteady steps, "Suman..." Her hand holding the umbrella handle began to tremble again, her lips were already bitten to the point of bleeding, "I... ....I'm here to..."

"Looking for Xiao Yu?" Su Man asked with a frown.

Qiu Zixin closed the corners of her lips, lowered her eyes, and nodded silently.

Suman took a deep breath, "She should be at XX Park outside our school. She went out this morning and hasn't come back yet."

"Every time she is in a bad mood, she will run there."

Su Man lowered his voice and looked at Qiu Zixin coldly, "She always thought you would come to her..."

"But you didn't. You lied to her again."

Qiu Zixin clenched her teeth, and the bitter taste of blood melted away in her mouth. She shook her head sadly, "I'm...I'm going to find her now..."

Seeing the woman's downcast expression, Suman couldn't help feeling uncomfortable, she kept silent, and Qiu Zixin had already left, leaving Ah Hang who had just chased up from behind, "Why are you running so fast again all of a sudden. ...!"

Ah Hang picked up the umbrella that Suman left behind, "Who was that woman just now? Do you know each other?"

Su Man shook his head and then nodded, "I know...she came to find Xiaoyu..."

"Looking for Xiao Yu? That's fine, shall we go with her?" Ah Hang just wanted to open the door to go out, but was held by Su Man, "No..."

"Leave them alone together first..."

The wind was howling outside and the rain was pouring.

Qiu Zixin hurriedly ran to the park holding a black umbrella, her wet short heels stepped on the puddles, splashing water all over the road.

The continuous sound of quick steps came from a distance, Qiu Zixin ran for a long time, and finally slowed down gradually at this moment, and stopped hesitantly.

Tears welled up in her eyes, and the picture in her vision became blurred.

And that small figure was right in front of him.

The bell of the academy rang again, and a thunderstorm shook the sky.

At the same time as Xiao Yu turned around, the flocks of pigeons behind her suddenly fluttered and spread their wings, all flying to the sky.

When she saw the woman in front of her, the girl's pupils trembled deeply, she opened her eyes in disbelief, her lips fluttered slightly, but she still couldn't make a sound, couldn't spit out half a word.

A cold dampness wrapped between them.

The wet red hair was draped over Qiu Zixin's shoulders, she held her breath, her eyes fell on Xiao Yu's body pitifully.The woman hesitated for a moment, but finally chose to walk forward with heavy steps.

But every time she took a step forward, the girl took a step back.

"No...don't come here..." The girl subconsciously grabbed the corner of her clothes tightly, like a frightened little animal, she shrank her shoulders and dared not look up at the woman.

Qiu Zixin was stunned, and her heart began to burst into bursts of pain.

Her girl is afraid of her...

In the foggy and rainy day, the girl's small figure was pitifully desolate. She stood in the distance, not daring to touch the woman again. The tension and anxiety crushed her body and mind. She kept tugging and tugging at her The corner of the clothes seemed to be about to tear off his windbreaker.

Xiao Yu bit her lip tremblingly, her voice was visibly trembling.

She asked the woman aggrievedly.

"Why are you here..."

"You obviously...don't you want me...?"

Qiu Zixin was stunned again, the girl's words hurt her heart deeply, and her eye sockets became hot and sore again.

It's not that she doesn't love her, she just can't, can't...

She didn't have the courage to pull Xiao Yu down the abyss.

"You know...Xiao Yu..."

"It's definitely not easier between us..." Qiu Zixin's brows were wavy, and she held her arm and squeezed it hard.

"You are still young...you are not sensible...I don't want you to regret making this decision..."

"You may not understand...you may not be able to tell whether your liking for me is worship or dependence..."

Tears frantically rolled in Qiu Zixin's red eyes, but the girl suddenly shouted at this moment, "Enough!"

"Why!?" The girl's tearing voice was mixed with heartbreaking cries.

"Why do you still think I'm just a kid!?"

"How old do I have to be to grow up!?"

"How sensible do I have to be to be considered sensible!?"

"How mature do I have to be...to squeeze into your adults' circle...!?"

The umbrella fell to the ground, Xiao Yu hugged her shoulders tremblingly, her lips were frighteningly white, "Qiu Zixin...I have worked very hard..."

"I don't keep looking for you like I used to..."

"I even... have already given up on you..."

Her heart ached one after another, and for a moment, Xiao Yu felt as if she was about to suffocate to death at this painful moment.

"Qiu Zixin... If you don't love me, please...don't give me false hope, okay..."

Xiao Yu covered her face and cried, her small shoulders were slack, and she was shaking with her sobs, the emotions that had been suppressed for a long time collapsed at this moment, "Qiu Zixin..."

"It was you who ignored me first...you kicked me out first...you told me to leave you..."

"Now your goal has been achieved... You must be very happy, right..." The girl wept bitterly, the corners of her mouth forcefully raised filled with sadness.

Under the edge of the umbrella, countless lines of tears had already covered the woman's cheeks, thunder bursts in the gray sky, and the rain washed Qiu Zixin's mind, and the pinched arm was already numb with pain.

How could she be so deeply loved by such a girl?

Qiu Zixin raised her head, looking at the gloomy rainy sky, the fragments in her heart kept climbing back, and slowly, gradually, gathered again.

It is she who is stupid, keeping the one she loves out of her heart again and again.

It was because she was dissatisfied, being liked by a girl should have been the luckiest gift in her life.

He clearly said that he wanted to give the girl the best, but in the end, it was just an excuse to escape because of his timidity.Everything she did was contrary to her original intention.

Xiao Yu cried very sadly and desperately, she knelt down weakly while covering her wet and hot cheeks.

The rain fell drop by drop on her windbreaker, blooming countless withered and sad flowers.

"You just relied on the fact that I like you..."

"...Just hurt me again and again at will..."

Very light footsteps approached the girl slowly.

She finally came to Xiao Yu's body and stood there without saying a word.

The girl hugged her tightened shoulders, her whole body was soaked by the rain, and her body and heart were frequently painful and cold.

The warm liquid in the eye sockets carried the pain that the girl would never tell.

"Qiu Zixin...I hate you, I hate you..."

"But...I still..."

"...I love you," the woman said.

The moment the teardrops hit the ground and shattered, the raindrops from the sky suddenly couldn't hit Xiao Yu.

Qiu Zixin held an umbrella above her head.

The woman squatted down, and the top of the umbrella was lowered by more than half.

The distance between the two instantly narrowed in this space.

Xiao Yu lowered her head in a daze, she thought she had heard it wrong, and then Qiu Zi's new touch brought her back to reality, the woman lowered her body, and gently brushed aside the girl's hair with one hand.

Her cold fingertips touched Xiao Yu's hot ears.

Qiu Zixin lowered her eyebrows, and the sparkle in her eyes kept surging, Xiao Yu in her vision was as helpless as she was when she was a child and couldn't find anyone to turn to for help.

The woman caressed Xiao Yu's cheek, but the girl refused to look up, so Qiu Zixin leaned over to her ear, "I admit it...Xiao Yu..."

"...sorry......"

"I'm just a coward who... loves you..."

In fact, the one who should really apologize is her.

From the beginning to the end, Qiu Zixin was the only one who made mistakes, but she pushed the girl to the edge of the cliff step by step because of her own self-interest.

In this contest between love and reason.

Qiu Zixin conceded defeat.

She lost completely.

The woman hugged her whole world carefully, the temperature in her arms was so real that it made one's heart tremble, her lips fluttered slightly, and she kept whispering in the girl's ear in a thin muffled voice: "Don't leave me. .....Xiao Yu..."

Her lips were very close to the base of the girl's ear, as if she was holding the tip of the girl's ear and said: "Don't abandon me..."

Qiu Zixin felt the body of the girl in her arms tremble. Unable to bear it, she closed her eyes, leaned down, and gently stroked her little lover with her lips.

From the ear, all the way to the girl's cheek, she called the girl's name in an extremely gentle voice, "Xiao Yu..."

She kissed the girl's tear-soaked eyelashes, restrained and extended her distressed comfort, and kissed away the sad tears with her lips, "I love you..."

She kissed the girl's rosy and cold nose, jumped over Xiao Yu's lips, kissed her chin, and then swam to the girl's other cheek.

During the kiss, Qiu Zixin pressed the tip of his nose against the girl's cheek, and her voice became deeper and deeper, but without losing the original tenderness.

She kept repeating the words "I love you..." in her mouth, as if she wanted to engrave these three words deeply between her and Xiao Yu's hearts.

All the places that Qiu Zixin touched began to burn like fire, Xiao Yu's mind became dizzy, she tugged at the hem of Qiu Zixin's clothes, with unrealistic fear and concern in her heart.

Just as she was still hesitating and timidly daring to touch Qiu Zixin, the woman took a step ahead of her, grasped her delicate hand, pulled it over her waist, and continued to kiss her tears passionately.

"Don't cry...Xiao Yu...don't cry..."

"I promise you... I won't run away again...."

Qiu Zixin couldn't hold on anymore, she finally thought clearly...

She wants to love her girl.

Since, her little lover is willing to become brave for her.

So what reason does she have to back down?

In the world, no one's love will be easy.

Because love itself is a risk, a game between you and me.

And Qiu Zixin is willing to sacrifice everything for the girl, as a bargaining chip for the bet in this life.

The author has something to say: Thank you, everyone who accompanied them through this stage along the way.

Especially the readers who leave comments & irrigation nutrient solution are meaningful support and encouragement to me.

The nutrient solution of this chapter is put together in the next chapter: P