Uncle, you are not good

My name is Yancheng. I come from a noble family, and my family is clean. There is a lot of money in my family, and there are many servants.

However, one day, all of these disappeared, because my family fell into ruin overnight, my father was forced to commit suicide by huge debts, and my mother remarried with others.

I have no home, my brothers and sisters have fled, and I am all alone.

I wander among the friends who used to be friends with me once, but friends will always be friends and cannot be together forever.

I'm lonely, I'm alone.

Perhaps, after I had sex with a man, I felt that the body temperature of the man was warm, and I felt very comfortable. It seemed that I was not alone, because there was someone by my side.

I thought, if I stay with me more, I won't be alone, and I won't feel lonely.

I am afraid of the night alone, under the huge night sky, under the endless sky, I am alone, I am afraid that I will be swallowed up by such a terrible night, I am so afraid, I am so afraid that I hide and cry every day, because The night is always so terrible, it will take all the good things away in one night.

I was terrified that when I was a teenager, my family disappeared overnight.

Then, every night, I dare not close my eyes, I am very scared, afraid to open my eyes, everything is gone, every night when there is no one, I will open my eyes, the long night is like this slowly passed.

Day by day, year by year, my eyes have changed, because I have been staring wide-eyed in the dark, my eyes are used to life at night, and I can see things clearly in the dark.

However, when I see things, I still feel scared, the coming of night.

Because I interact with many people, I think that as long as I have someone to accompany me, it’s all right, but they all have a lot of constraints and requirements, and I don’t like it very much, because what they do is not what I want.

I want a pair of warm arms, a broad chest, a strong heartbeat, to warm my body temperature, and to spend quietly with me in the long dark night.

That way, I won't be alone anymore, I won't be alone anymore.

I live this kind of life repeatedly, accomplishing nothing. My friends advised me to find a job to support my family. What if I can’t live alone in the future? But is there a future for people like me?I have to support my family, I can't even support myself, and I am afraid of people at night, how can they take care of other people?

I have been living alone like this for several years, I am almost an adult, but I have no purpose at all, I am very dazed and numb.

One day I heard about such a establishment, a place for those rich and powerful to splurge.

There are all kinds of people there, colorful, and they are all places that men like.

My family affairs are very clean. Ordinary people don't go to places that are so rude to say the least.

The red light district in the black market.

I wondered if the house was restored, and whether the previous ones were also restored.

When a family is together, there is no need to be separated, no longer alone, no longer alone, and no longer lonely.

Maybe there are more rich people now, they like to play something new and different, and women are tired of playing it, now it is popular to play boys.

They all like to play with boys, young and very small children, like the kind of skinny little ones with slender bones.

Maybe I am the kind they like, and I am more liked by them. It is actually very simple for me to sleep with them. One is to satisfy myself, because I am afraid of being alone. They have no constraints here, and neither do I. I think It's very comfortable, I can hug someone to sleep every day, I feel like I'm not alone.

When friends are together, they have a lot of rules and regulations. This is not allowed and that is not allowed. They can't stay together every day, but they can't stay together every day. There will be nights every day. I am afraid of nights. People, so I didn't abide by their constraints, they scolded me, despised me, looked down on me, I didn't care, this is my life.

I can't live without nights without people and I'm afraid I'll be alone again.

During the days with them, I collected some information, because my attitude is very indifferent, I don’t care, my indifference, in fact, I am lazy to care about them, because it’s just one night, and everyone will say goodbye at dawn tomorrow Is it necessary to act as a souvenir?

In the eyes of their customers, my attitude has become aloof, and it has become the capital of being cool. I don’t know why, but in fact I am just handsome, but more and more people are looking for me, I don’t care about it , I only care about not being alone tonight, whether those people are useful to me, and whether I can benefit from them.

Those people are very generous and will give me a lot of money. I used a lot of business secrets and stole a lot of useful information. Gradually, I became rich. After I became rich, the money increased in price. Money More and more, but I am getting more and more lonely.

I thought that the more people I follow, the more warmth I will get. As long as someone is with me every day, as long as I am no longer alone at night, I will not be lonely, but slowly I discovered that I was wrong , I became more and more lonely, I often sat quietly, several hours passed, thinking about nothing, doing nothing, time passed like this, my heart was desolate.

I feel that if I go on like this, one day, I will die alone.

I want to restore my family as soon as possible. I have money and material resources. It’s okay for those people to have a relationship with me. I bought back my father’s business and rebuilt the house. previous status quo.

I have done all the things, I informed all of them, my mother, my brothers and sisters, they are very happy, because I have a lot of money, the family has returned to the way it was before, but, I found The way they look at me is different, not the kind of love they used to have, they have all changed.

I heard them scolding me behind my back one by one, calling me cheap, shameless, and how dirty the money I got in exchange for my body was.

But they still smiled and stretched out their hands to ask me for money, enjoying themselves desperately, saying that I am so useful and can make money.

It turns out that once many things have changed, they will never come back.I gave them the money and went back to where I used to live.

I always feel that although those whore customers are laughing and cursing, it is because I am the only one who sells, because they gave me money and gave me useful information, but at home, I gave them money, and they still scold me, thinking After the change, the members of the family are not even as good as a prostitute.

Back there, I lived that life again.

Until one day, I met a man. To be honest, that man looked much younger than me, but he did things very spicy, without any age-appropriate symptoms.

He feels like a father to me, with decisive decisions and lightning-like actions.

He said to me "Come with me, this life is not for you."

So can you tell me that there is nothing suitable for me...

I don't know how to live anymore, maybe after that night, I never really lived again, I thought to myself.

The man's name is Lin Ruiyin. He traveled all over the world by himself, seemingly aimlessly, but I found that he gradually became stronger. He ran a small company. In my eyes, those things are not worth mentioning at all, because that small company doesn't even The money with interest is not enough for a client to give me money, and his company is developing very fast. I saw the trend of my father starting a business in those years.

I am going to help him, because I used to follow my father and know how to run a better model.

He gave me nothing, just because I saw that he misses someone very much, I know, I finally found myself, because he is like me, a lonely person, he has no one to accompany, sometimes He would spit out a sentence or two. He felt that he had said too much, but he didn't say anything, showing a very affectionate look. I knew he was missing someone.

It turns out that he is not alone, because he has someone waiting, but what about me?I have nothing, I am still alone, why do I have no one to miss, why am I always alone in everything I do?

I looked at this very indifferent man, absolutely indifferent and ruthless, cruel to everyone, but he showed a very obsessed and intoxicated look at the person he said in his mouth and missed in his heart, every time I thought of that People, he looks like he is alive, alive, and has human emotions. I thought that such a person has no emotions, but I saw that his emotions are deeper than anyone else, and he uses them deeper than anyone else. Who is the person I like? I am so happy and jealous. If I also have such a person who likes me, it would be great. I don’t think I will be alone at that time, because someone will show happy thoughts in my heart. wait for me.

At that moment, I had the idea of ​​wanting to replace the person in his mind. I think in his heart, and I only want to think of me in the future.

I told him about the pros and cons of his company. Although he is very talented and dares to do anything, but without the test of time and continuous training, many things cannot be obtained.

For example, how to make the company bigger, for example, want to earn more and more money.

Maybe, he will do all these, but it will take time, I can see that he is very anxious, he is very busy every day, but more time, he is busy because of missing.

Because waiting is a very painful thing.

I sold the business of my family, and I took back the money I gave to my family. My family cried and begged me to pay for alimony, but I refused.

I suddenly felt that the prostitutes are really much better than these people, the eyes are so annoying.

After working abroad for several years, he relied on his own ability to make the company bigger. Of course, there are many things he doesn't know, and I won't tell him.

Covering up may be much better than exposing. If I say, over the years, I have exchanged my body for countless business information, and I have used my body to help him set a lot of difficult customer orders. What will happen to him if my body is exchanged for some people who want to crush him to find relationships, etc.?

Such a proud person, he has his dignity, he has his self-confidence, if I say it, will he be broken into pieces?