[Thin Sakura Ghost] Tongqi

I didn't sleep all night, and the knife given by Senior Ishikawa was placed next to my pillow. The scene where Rakshasa met my eyes, almost face to face, kept appearing in my mind. I was covered in cold sweat.

Hijikata Toshizo's blouse was also beside him, exuding his unique pleasant smell, a faint refreshing smell, like the gentle but sunny smell of the moonlight shining on his body.

Putting the knife and the blouse together, I curled up and hugged my knees.

Terrible.

Yes, it's scary.

Whether it's like water or Rakshasa, it's really scary.

Thinking of the big words that I vowed to clear up obstacles for Ryoma and reverse his fate before, I feel even weaker and weaker.I took out the pocket watch from my pocket. It was well maintained by me, and it was still as new, but the smell of dragon and horse that had stayed on it had long since disappeared.

Probably the history correction force wants to clean up a guy like me who is overwhelmed. I squeezed the pocket watch in my hand tightly and thought about it. The texture of the metal was deeply embedded in the flesh, and there was a slight pain.

I can't save myself, let alone Ryoma.Let go of the hand holding the pocket watch, let the exquisite pocket watch get entangled with my hair that has grown a lot, my eyes are very moist, the unstoppable heat flows through my temples, and drips into the black hair , into the pillow.

The next day, the sun was shining for three poles, and I slowly finished dressing.When passing by the yard, I saw a large group of people gathered there and doing their own things, such as Saito Kazu who was washing clothes, Okita Souji who was wiping knives, and Nagata who was shirtless and took a shower with well water. Cang Xinba.

"It's so late, it seems that I slept well." Yongcang Shinpachi saw me first, smiled and waved at me.

"Well, it's good." I pulled out a smile feebly, I was exhausted by my wild thoughts last night.Unknowingly, his eyes shifted to the right, and he stopped at the side of Nagakura Shinpachi - Todo Heisuke who was standing aside and desperately washing his hands with well water.

I saw him looking lonely, his hands were soaked in the wooden basin overflowing with well water, rubbing, rubbing, rubbing, and even digging out red marks with his fingertips.

But the water is still crystal clear.

There was helplessness and hesitation in his eyes, like a deer being forced to go astray, helpless and restless.

I can probably guess the ending of the Rakshasa last night, and cast a look at Nagakura Shinpachi as if asking for proof. He lowered his head and looked worriedly at Todo Heisuke, who kept repeating his movements, and nodded silently.

The complex emotions in my heart suddenly exploded. Looking at Hirasuke like that, my mood that was finally calmed down last night fluctuated again, my nose was sore, and my eyes were swollen as if they were about to shed tears at any time.

"Hey, Tong." Okita Souji's voice came from the top of my head. I don't know when he has come to my side. I turned my back to him in shock, and at the same time patted my cheeks to hold back my tears. The voice returned to the past, "What?"

"Next, you may have to hand over your swordsmanship learning to Mr. Hijikata." Director Okita said slowly, "I didn't expect Mr. Hijikata to accept this tricky task. Well, it really has to work hard for him."

As Okita Souji was speaking, I saw Hijikata Toshizo walking towards the well from a distance, he stood not far away, and his eyes locked on me.

"You, come with me."

"Yes." As if I had grasped a life-saving straw, I fled away from the place where everyone gathered together, and followed Hijikata Toshisan to his house.

He didn't talk to me on the way, but when I couldn't keep up, he slowed down intentionally or unintentionally. When he arrived at the room, he motioned for me to sit down and pointed to the tea set on the table for me to help myself.

"No need." I shook my hand.

Tufang Suisan glanced at me and said coldly, "Your eyes are so swollen, how dare you come out to meet people."

I stretched out my hand to caress my cheek, remembering that I cried heartily last night, it was not surprising, so I shook my head and said, "I was scared last night, and cried all night."

Hijikata Toshisan didn't speak, I was surprised, so I looked up at him, and saw him holding a teacup and looking quietly to the side of the room, wondering what he was thinking.When I saw him like this, I didn't speak, and just sat there quietly.

After drinking a cup of tea, he said slowly, "From today onwards, you will follow along to patrol the streets."

As he spoke, he took out a light onion-colored haori from the side and threw it to me.I took the haori and caressed it for a while. The clothes were the uniforms of the Ronshi team. They were very bright colors, and they didn't suit my current state of mind at all.

Without even looking up, I immediately refused, "I won't go."

"This is an order."

I looked up at him, his expression was stern, as if I couldn't choose at all.I was frightened from the bottom of my heart, but I was still lucky, and it was selfish to say it. I held the idea that he would take care of me, and felt that if I persisted, he would not persecute me.

"I'm not going." I reiterated.

"Let's leave the Ronshi group then." Hijikata Toshizo stood up and looked down at me, "Whether you go to Ryoma Sakamoto or Ishikawa, you will always have a place to go. If you can't, go back to the test guard hall."

I bit my lip and looked at him, the originally suppressed tears poured out like a flood, from the cheeks down and gathered on the jaw.

I am afraid, I am hesitating, I am wandering, I am doubting myself, I am denying myself, so can you give me support at this time instead of pushing me out!I squinted at Toshizo Hijikata, can't you give me a reason why I can't leave, so I have to stick to it, have to stay in Kyoto?

Suddenly being hugged into a hug, I leaned against Hijikata Toshisan's neck, tears still couldn't stop and kept falling.He hugged me tighter.

"This place is too dangerous. I need you to guarantee my life." Hijikata Toshisan whispered in my ear, his gentle voice fell like a cherry blossom in my heart, "I don't want to, and I can't let you You're in that dangerous situation."

His body was cool and exuded the same smell as the blouse, which was reassuring.

***

Strangely enough, after crying in Hijikata Toshizo's arms for a while, all the negative emotions seemed to be temporarily far away from me. Cang Xinba reported there.

"Why is it getting more and more swollen? Have you been taught a lesson?" Yongcang Shinpachi came over and patted himself on the shoulder, "Come to me if you want to cry in the future, and I will lend you your shoulder."

I burst out laughing, put on my haori and said, "If I don't tell you, I will slip my head."

"This is my charm, why didn't you discover it?" Nagakura Shinpachi showed off his muscles, "The gentleness that Sanosuke said is trivial, and the real ability is to make women laugh."

The author has something to say:

Emma, ​​I'm here to cheat the corpse, how are you guys doing recently?

I really miss you guys~~ But the exam is not over yet, so I'm just cheating~~ Meh!