Swimmer of Rebirth

Yao Ye's drunken confession made his life completely chaotic. He couldn't accept it but didn't want to hurt the other party, so he kept struggling in a dilemma.

But at that time, Yao Ye was no longer an enthusiastic senior or a close teammate in his eyes, but a man, another man whom a man viewed from an emotional perspective.

Of course, he knew many secrets that Yao Ye deliberately hid before this, but unfortunately he didn't seize the opportunity to escape from this vortex of immorality, or it could be said that the arrangement of fate brought them together again, in a foreign country, in an unfamiliar environment Here, the cohabitation life under the same roof, those warm life details, what he longed for.

Wants a family with people who love him and people he loves.

He is just an ordinary person. When he was in love, he also had a crush on the school girl in the school. He was eager to hunt for a vigorous love among a group of hungry little wolves, or he fell in love with a young and beautiful woman. Looking forward to a romantic encounter.

It's a pity that it's all in the past. Today, as a man who is almost 35 years old, compared with these youthful and frivolous fantasies, he just wants a home.

Yao Ye's appearance was silent, and before he knew it, he used non-aggressive water droplets to fall on the same spot day after day, and then quietly penetrated through the cohabitation life he didn't expect, even if he woke up instantly powerless.

Because that drop of tears has been integrated into the depths of his heart, deeply ingrained, and cannot be removed.

He didn't know if he should resent Yao Ye for dragging him into this dark world, which made him panic all the time, afraid of the eyes of others.

That's not what he needs.

A female lover can walk in the sun with her arms around her waist and accept the life blessed by everyone.

But the tears that dripped into my heart have already changed qualitatively, creating a violent storm inside, and I can't see the end of the storm, only those eyes full of tears are left, and the sentence...don't go...

Then he was dragged into a strange world as if possessed, where the dead bones were covered with flowers, and angels and demons coexisted.

The man named Yao Ye stood in front of him, the sun shining on his body through the gaps in the dark clouds, and he was surrounded by fine golden halos, showing a faint smile.

The breeze lifted up the corner of his clothes, his eyes were filled with deep affection, and he slowly stretched out his hand to him.

The emotion of fear was still lingering in his mind, but in the eyes of the other party who was gradually disappointed, he took the long-awaited hand.

then……

Get caught.

The interlocking fingers communicate the same heartbeat.

pounding heartbeat.

In this life, on this road that he never thought of, he met a love like a poppy flower.

Behind the beautiful flowers is a dangerous future.

But the fragrance of love filled the whole heart.

Therefore, even though the boulder on his chest weighed more than a thousand catties, he was still reluctant to let go of this hand.

He told himself that he would try his best to hold this hand and move forward. The two supported each other and gave each other strength, cared for the seeds of love in the midst of suffering, and looked forward to the day when a strong tree would grow up.

"External training has improved so much?"

Xu Han's words awakened Liu Yang, and the momentary confusion made him stunned for a moment, and he gave a confused hum, seeing Xu Han put on an expression of waiting for the next article, so he explained, "There must be some reasons, foreign countries We mainly focus on technical training, and we are indeed a bit short in this area. What? Brother Xu also has the same meaning?"

Xu Han was silent for a while, then nodded, "The Olympic Games will be held in Atlanta in two years. The team has put in a lot of effort for this Olympic Games, and decided to transfer the players who are likely to participate to the United States for training in batches. Familiar with the climate and water regime in the United States."

"So good!?" Liu Yang looked envious, "It seems that Brother Xu has already made an appointment, how many people are there?"

"The first batch of arrangements was only me, and some athletes who returned to China after the Asian Games, about 10 people."

"Athletes returning to China?" Liu Yang frowned, thinking for a while, "Where's Yao Ye?"

"Yao Ye is also in there. A total of 4 batches will be arranged. Yao Ye is confirmed to participate in the first and fourth rounds. The team has high hopes for him this time, so there are a lot of training camps arranged. If it is not for some large-scale competitions that must Participate, he should stay in the United States for a longer time." Xu Han rarely spoke out in detail, which shows how excited he is about the foreign training quota he won this time.

Xu Han was excited but did not infect Liu Yang. Instead, the news hit him hard like a slap in the face.

Liu Yang was silent for a long time, his head was in a mess, the excitement of breaking the record was overwhelmed by the sudden news, and finally he asked in a hoarse voice, "When was it decided? When is the departure?"

"I don't know, but let's go after this competition." Xu Han noticed Liu Yang's depressed mood, and after thinking about it for a while, he couldn't help but add, "Looking at your performance today, you should have a great chance of getting a spot. ,do not worry."

"Yao Ye knows too?" Liu Yang turned his head to look at him, his eyes were bloodshot, and Yao Ye's upcoming long trip completely occupied his brain compared to whether he won the quota or not.

The relationship with Yao Ye has just started and is about to be separated. This kind of depression is painful in the chest, and I don't even understand why it is not from Yao Ye's mouth, but through others.

Xu Han nodded.

Liu Yang exhaled vaguely, turned his head to look at Yao Ye who was watching the game below with his hands on the railing, then squeezed out a smile and patted Xu Han on the shoulder with a happy expression, "That is, based on the results of the game just now I definitely have a chance for the results, but I don’t know which batch I will be in.”

There was a faint smile in Xu Han's eyes, and he rubbed Liu Yang's head with his backhand, "I missed your celebration with them, but I have something to ask you, you and Yao Ye have been getting close, recently you found out that he has Is there any problem?"

Liu Yang's heart skipped a beat, looking at the expression Xu Han made, he wondered repeatedly in his heart if Xu Han had noticed something.

"Forget it, it's useless to ask you." Xu Han pushed his hand on Liu Yang's head, indicating that Liu Yang can leave after talking.

Liu Yang followed Xu Han's strength and stood up. Seeing Xu Han's usual expression, he couldn't help but sit back again, "What's wrong with Yao Ye?"

"He asked for a team change."

"Change team?" Liu Yang's eyes lit up, his mood suddenly improved, and he stepped forward a few minutes, "How is it? Have you changed?"

"The coach disagrees."

"Why don't you agree?"

"The game is not easy to arrange."

Liu Yang let out a disappointment, "So he will still go with you when we go back this time?"

"He asked to give up the opportunity for the first training camp."

"Eh!?" Liu Yang was startled, and couldn't help looking at Yao Ye again. Yao Ye looked at him as if he had sensed it, and then smiled.

Liu Yang withdrew his gaze and couldn't help pressing his temples. Too many things happened in a short period of time, and the frequent changes in emotions made his brain unable to find its rhythm, and it became a mess.

He knew the reason why Yao Ye would refuse. Not only was he reluctant to part at this time, Yao Ye was also reluctant.

He should have been happy at first, happy for the nostalgic relationship between the two of them, but compared to these, the idea of ​​holding this person back suddenly appeared in his mind, and he was even a little angry. He didn't understand Yao Why did Ye make such a choice, give up the rare opportunity to improve his swimming performance, and treat the upcoming Olympic competition like a child's play, the dream stage of all athletes.

Is it because you can't bear it or can't believe it?Don't trust the relationship between them?Don't believe it can stand the test of time?Or rather, don't trust him.

Finally Liu Yang couldn't help standing up and walking towards Yao Ye.

He thought his expression must be very bad now, because he saw Yao Ye's suddenly stiff smile, with doubts and inquiries in his eyes.

The gaze from Yao Ye punched him hard in the chest.

Pain suddenly.

Liu Yang stood still, looked at Yao Ye from a distance, and smiled helplessly.

The answer, finally found.

Everything in the past two days was connected by silk thread and threaded into a string, the cause and effect were extremely transparent.

It turned out that Yao Ye didn't lack self-confidence when facing their love, but really didn't trust him, and didn't trust his feelings.

The pain in the chest continued, expanded infinitely, spread to the whole body, and there was a buzzing sound in the head.

Liu Yang really couldn't figure it out, he had already reached this point, fell in love with a man, didn't care about the eyes of the world, and was with him even when he couldn't even carry on the family line.

Why doesn't this man believe him yet?

The pain in the chest could not be healed, and finally turned into deep disappointment, and the stopped steps moved forward again.

He walked up to Yao Ye and looked at him, the disappointment in his heart conveyed to his face.

Yao Ye moved his lips, but hesitated to speak.

He didn't know what to say.

Liu Yang's emotional change made him puzzled, but he could clearly see the disappointment on his face.

The fears of these days are finally present.

Liu Yang took a breath, looked at Yao Ye, tried hard to control the negative emotions in his heart, and said calmly, "I want to talk to you after the game, and I will go back to find you at night."

Yao Ye squeezed out a smile, "Okay." He responded softly, turned around, and moved his gaze into the swimming pool, but couldn't see anything.

talk about...

What to talk about?

Yao Ye didn't dare to think about it.

He didn't even understand the reason for Liu Yang's disappointed expression.

No reasonable explanation could be found, and everything seemed to be moving in the direction he was afraid of.

A picture is constantly playing back in front of my eyes.

That was the source of his fear.

Liu Yang stood in front of him with an apologetic expression, "I'm sorry, can you pretend that these days never happened?"

The picture of the heart being woven by hand draws bloody marks one after another, and the pain is so painful that it is impossible to breathe.

He should trust Liu Yang, and believe that this person made a decision after careful consideration.

But damn it, he couldn't believe it.

I can't believe why Liu Yang likes himself, why he is willing to step into this world spurned by the world.

Are you curious?Young teenagers' curiosity about novelty?

Yes, this person is really just a child. Even if he is not as childish as his peers, even if he handles things more maturely than him, he is still a child. Age is like an ironclad evidence that he cannot ignore.

He kept telling himself, constantly covering the bloody heart with layers of armor.

He said that Liu Yang was still young, still a child.

If all this happens, don't be angry, don't be miserable, he said.

He said that having this good memory is enough, really, enough.

He turned his head to look at Liu Yang who was talking with Ye Shuwen.

There is a cheerful smile on the young face, which is his favorite smile.

He had kissed the lips that kept opening and closing, and the touch that made him ecstatic still remained in his mind.

There is also the satisfaction of holding the whole person in his arms, the smoothness of his fingers touching that piece of skin, even the weight that belongs to Liu Yang pressing on his body, the smell of his body...

Everything, everything is deeply engraved in the mind.

What would happen to him without this person, this person who almost took away all his mind?

He thinks that he will still work hard to live, train hard, compete hard, and complete every set goal hard.

It's just that his life will no longer have miracles...

This day is Liu Yang's lucky day, but also his disaster day.

Yao Ye's long journey made him sad, Yao Ye's giving up made him feel sorry, similarly, Yao Ye's distrust made him disappointed.

Too many negative emotions made him unable to adjust his mood in a short time, and missed the final of the 80-meter butterfly with a score of 1'100 seconds in the semi-final.

This kind of performance caused all the eyes that were still focused on Liu Yang to look away gloatingly, and agreed that his explosion in the 100-meter freestyle competition was only temporary.

The coaches in the team showed a tolerant smile and asked him to take a good rest in the afternoon and not to put too much pressure on himself.

Ye Shuwen, who entered the final, anxiously asked him what went wrong as soon as he finished the match, and why his score suddenly dropped so much.

Wang Yaxin shut his mouth for a rare moment, and sat silently beside Liu Yang, one on the left and one on the right like Yao Ye.

Yao Ye wanted to comfort Liu Yang like he did before, and said a lot of truth, but the same troubled heart made him unable to speak.

It's a pity that Liu Yang's mood is not so depressing, just like 100 is sure of victory when he enters the water, he also has the expectation of failure for 100 discs.

I was thinking wildly during the warm-up, and I had no motivation during the game. I wanted to let the time quickly turn to the evening, and have a good talk with Yao Ye. Thoroughly, untie all the knots in my heart, so that the two of them will stop guessing like this.

He believed that this was a misunderstanding. The two of them got together too suddenly and the time was too short. The unspeakable same-sex relationship made them try to avoid such sensitive topics as much as possible.

This is the sadness of a few love affairs. They can't find a reference, and there is no place to buffer and untie their knots.

Liu Yang found a knot in his heart, but he couldn't untie it alone. He needed Yao Ye, and he needed Yao Ye to untie the knot between the two of them together.

I like Yao Ye.

Hold onto this person and don't want to let go.

Even if there is a knot in his heart, even if he is so disappointed in his heart, he still wants to increase the strength in his hand again.