Like Love But Not

Xia Mingxiu hung up the phone, and he no longer felt that languid tiredness, his face became pale, and he swayed a little and fell down on the sofa.

At this moment, Luo Yuchen also came out of the bedroom.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"...Do you know that Xiao Heng is sick?"

On weekdays, Luo Yuchen would definitely say that his illness has nothing to do with me, but Xia Mingxiu's face was so scary that he was obviously frightened, so he could only shake his head blankly.

"S City Central Hospital called and said they found a suitable bone marrow..."

Xia Mingxiu looked up at Luo Yuchen, there was something deep in his eyes that I couldn't understand, and Luo Yuchen visibly trembled when he heard the words.

As a precious thing that saved Xia Mingxiu's life, both of them knew the meaning of bone marrow too well.

Xia Mingxiu looked at Luo Yuchen, and I also looked at Luo Yuchen, he was tongue-tied and his lips trembled slightly.Suddenly that layer of mature and cold shell disappeared, and he was at a loss like a child at the moment.

"You don't know..." Xia Mingxiu lowered his head, and suddenly laughed twice. This smile was very strange. It seemed to me that he was laughing at Luo Yuchen. Before I understood what was going on, he suddenly laughed Thinking about it again, he hurriedly grabbed Luo Yuchen's cell phone.

He called me and of course prompted to shut down.

Then he dialed Fang Shuyi again, but was cut off again and again.

It's understandable for Fang Shuyi to pinch Luo Yuchen's thread.

During this time, Luo Yuchen stood there like a fool, looking very worrying.Fortunately, he quickly regained his composure, and stopped Xia Mingxiu when he put on his clothes and was about to go out.

Xia Mingxiu is the one who makes me most nervous at this time. Although I am very grateful for his noble personality, I also find it ironic.

"Aren't you worried about Xiao Heng? I'm going to the company to ask Fang Shuyi..." Xia Mingxiu explained, and continued to put on his shoes and prepare to leave.

"It doesn't matter to him." Luo Yuchen pulled him and said.

Before I made a proper evaluation of his sentence "he's fine", Xia Mingxiu was already worried about the world.

"It's okay?" Xia Mingxiu broke away from him violently, took two steps back and looked at him like a monster.

"How do you know it's okay? What is bone marrow! Why does Xiao Heng want that kind of thing! Why did he leave suddenly, why did he write the company to Fang? You don't care here, do you have to wait until something happens to regret it?"

What Xia Mingxiu said made Luo Yuchen a little dazed, he stood stiffly and watched Xia Mingxiu slam the door and leave.

Then he just stood there stiffly, in a daze, for a long time.

I watched quietly from the side, and was surprised to find that Luo Yuchen's sculpted expression of no joy or sorrow began to gradually show a touch of fragile daze.

I have seen this expression before, long, long ago, when we were with Xia Mingxiu in the hospital, when we all thought he would not survive, Luo Yuchen had such an expression, which made people extremely heartbroken and at a loss , I thought I was covering it up very well, but in the eyes of others, it was completely shocking and I wanted to cry without tears.

Since he left the football team, he has gradually become a very forbearing person, with a always ruthless appearance, but now suddenly, like a gap in a glass mask, all his strength suddenly collapsed.

I know that Luo Yuchen has always been proud, even if he has a big grievance, he will appear with a strong face, and when he secretly licks his wounds, he will not be seen by others.

The only time he can grieve is when no one is around.If the highest state of acting in a movie is not crying or laughing, just standing there can make people feel that you are surrounded by a thick layer of sadness, then Luo Yuchen must have excellent acting skills, because he is so sad is so real.

Is it because of me?

It turns out that he still cares about me in private.Although he doesn't love me, or even hates me, he can't really be as indifferent as he has always shown.

that's enough.I am satisfied.

He still cares about me a little bit, which is a little redemption for me who has loved him all my life.

Xia Mingxiu came back quite late, his face was no longer as pale as when he went out, but his expression was still very gloomy.

I couldn't figure out why he was so nervous about me.If he was acting, he should have done enough, not to mention that Luo Yuchen didn't accept his favor at all.

Because of Luo Yuchen's relationship, Xia Mingxiu and I are also acquaintances, and we often go out drinking and singing together.Before I was alive, I was not very bad to him, but I was not very friendly either──My attitude was very clear, I took him to play just for Luo Yuchen's face, the position of "friend" definitely did not leave him a place for Xia Mingxiu .

Since Xia Mingxiu entered the door, Luo Yuchen had changed back to a cold and indifferent look. Xia Mingxiu didn't open his mouth, and he didn't take the initiative to ask, but the truth was that Luo Yuchen had obviously lost. Just watched Xia Mingxiu's every move secretly, as if he wanted to find out something from it.

From Xia Mingxiu's expression, it can be seen that he is not in the mood to play this kind of game with Luo Yuchen, but he is deliberately silent, and there is a bit of gloating in it.This gnashing of teeth made me very uneasy, and I was worried that Fang Shuyi had told him the whole truth.

I don't want Luo Yuchen to know that I'm dead.

I didn't want him to know before because I thought that his relationship with Xia Mingxiu might be hit because of a dead person lying in the middle; now I don't want him to know because I'm worried about him.

Although I didn't think that after I died, Luo Yuchen would look up to the sky and laugh three times and everyone would be happy from then on. I also thought that he would be more relaxed after finally losing a burden. I, a handsome guy in Luo, accidentally trampled on a blade of grass during his journey, feeling guilty for such a few seconds.

However, during the tens of minutes before Xia Mingxiu went out, I couldn't be sure.

Whether you say I'm pretentious or wishful thinking, I think Luo Yuchen cares about me a little more than I imagined.Regardless of whether that kind of care is disgust or resentment, I don't want to be unable to let go before I die, and disturb his mind after I die.

Both were waiting for the other to speak first.

In the end it was Xia Mingxiu who broke the calm.He dropped a glass, which should have been unintentional, but he acted as if he was taking advantage of it.

I very much hope that Xia Mingxiu can disappear suddenly now, I don't want to see Luo Yuchen's expression knowing that I'm dead.