Did Lowes succeed today? [Comprehensive British and American]

After returning from New York, Rogers has officially joined S.H.I.E.L.D.Not long after putting down the luggage, I received a new task, and almost turned around and left.

After dealing with Rogers, who was particularly annoying because he was going away for a while, Erce went to pick Shane home the next day.

After paying the foster care fee and preparing to leave, the staff looked at him and hesitated to speak.

"What's wrong?" Urs asked looking at her.Although Xia En has a peculiar personality, generally speaking, there is nothing particularly distressing.

"Xia En is fine." The woman in the light pink uniform glanced at the big dog standing quietly beside Erth's leg, and lowered her voice, "But, Mr. Luo, he is old."

Erce paused, unable to process the meaning of the words for a moment.He looked down at Shane, who also looked up and rubbed against his knee.

"The age of a medium-sized dog is about 15 years old," the staff paused, "Xia En should have been injured in his early years, and he was seriously ill. Judging from the bone age, he is already 25 years old, which is considered a miracle."

so--"

"I see. Thanks for reminding me." Erce interrupted her, "Is there anything I need to pay attention to?"

Seeing that his face seemed calm, the staff breathed a sigh of relief, "If he starts refusing to eat or drink, don't force him. Follow his physical strength when walking and spend more time with him."

"I see." Erth didn't ask Shane how long it would be.

Walking out of the foster care, Erce didn't get back into the car, but led Shane slowly along the road for a while.Passing by a small park on the corner of the street, he found a bench and sat down.

Sean squatted at his feet, quietly.

Erce and him looked at the children, lovers and old people running on the lawn together, for a long while, "I never thought you would be as old as me."

He suddenly remembered Rogers' subtle hesitation when Shane was dealt with and sent to him.At that time, did he know Xia En's age?

Xia En raised his head, rubbed his wet nose against his ankle, and whined a few times, as if talking.

Erce patted his belly with his foot, "You lived in the wilderness, got on a helicopter, and lived the most extravagant life. I took you to the Himalayas.

I've seen it, I've been through a lot.I think that since I met you, I have never been stingy with you for what I can give. "

Sean lay on his forelegs and looked at him quietly, and Ess lowered his head, "I think it's okay, so are you going to leave?"

Xia En groaned, stuck out his tongue and licked him lightly.

"But I don't want to." Ess said in a low voice.

Sean lifted his forelegs over his knees, arching his stomach.Although he climbed onto the bench and put his head on his lap, Wu Liuliu's eyes didn't know when it became foggy.

Erce pushed his head away and gritted his teeth, "You are obviously fierce, smart, and stubborn, why don't you want to live anymore? Normally, when I met you, you were almost dead, right?

After struggling for so long, why stop here? "

Sean was pushed away and put his paw on his leg again.Push it off and put it on again, push it off and put it on again.

Erce pursed his lips, and finally did not push them away, unwilling to reconcile, "Do you want to live?" If so, he will find a way.

Xia En tilted his head, his eyes soft.That look is like an old man looking at a naughty child.

Erce watched him for a long time, bent down and buried his face slowly in the thin fur on his back without making a sound.Just as he had finally determined that Rogers had disappeared.

Just for a long time, unwilling to speak out, unwilling to see, unwilling to hear, unwilling to exist by itself.

It's just that Xia En was quietly accompanying him at the time.In the future, where should all the things that I don't want to be seen be piled up.

"I don't like you anymore." Erce said softly.So, it doesn't matter if you go.

Xia En grunted, as if agreeing.

Rogers walked away for half a month, and when he came back, he found that the doctor ignored him.

It's not that I don't care about myself, to be precise, I should ignore everyone.

Calls were not answered, knocks on the door were not answered, and no one could be seen from the window.

When I went to the research institute, I realized that he hadn't shown up for a long time, and all the work was handled by his deputy.

A little flustered, Rogers turned around a few times, barely remembering Tony before breaking in.

"Don't answer the call? Can't find anyone?" Tony threw the wrench in his hand when he received the call, his eyes widened slightly, "Are you sure? Where's the dog?!"

"I don't know." Rogers was standing at Erth's door. "If he gets sick, won't Shane find someone? Should I break in?"

"Break in immediately!" Tony hurriedly put on his clothes, "I'll be right there." Why is this movement so similar to the time when Ess left for two years! !

Don't be empty of the four elements again, go and play some practice!This ancestor!

Tony hissed, isn't he having a hot fight with the captain now? ?

Hearing Tony's tone that something had happened, Rogers pulled the door of Erce's house down instantly with his hands.

The door was moved aside, and the room was dark.

"Doctor?" He turned around anxiously. "He's not at home. Where's he going?"

Tony cursed, "Again!"

"What's going on?" Rogers forced himself to calm down, quickly checked the kitchen and bathroom, and determined that the doctor should still be at home in the last two days.

"He was like this before." Tony had a headache. "I don't know what happened. He has been gone for two years. Except for the dog, he didn't bring anything else. He didn't hear from him, and he didn't say a word when he came back.

I couldn't pry his mouth open. "

Rogers frowned, and when he was about to walk out the door, he paused and looked back into the house, inexplicably feeling that something was wrong.

Where is it?

The doctor loves cleanliness, everything is neatly placed, almost unpopular at first glance.

But Sean's things will be messed up... Sean, there are no toys of Sean's in the room.

Rogers had a strange premonition in his heart, and he hurried around a few rooms.When I reached the entrance, I opened the drawer, and it was empty inside.

He closed the drawer and closed his eyes.

He figured that Erce would walk the dog every morning and evening, and meet by chance.And every time the doctor puts Xia En on a dog leash at the porch.Now, the contents of the drawer are gone.

"Tony—" Rogers rubbed his eyebrows.

Tony, who was locating Erce's phone, hummed casually.

"Is Shane very old?" For some reason, Rogers had such an illogical consciousness.

Tony was working hard with the idea that he would never find anyone again. After realizing that he had really located Erth, he was still a little confused, "...he is in the cemetery."

Rogers felt distressed instantly, "Which cemetery is it in?"

Tony reported the location, Rogers said thank you, and hung up the phone in a hurry.

The cemetery was only half an hour's drive away, and it didn't take long for Rogers to find the doctor standing alone in front of a monument.

He swallowed dryly, just looking at the doctor standing there, he regretted his absence some time ago.

Erce heard footsteps and didn't look back.

As Rogers approached, he saw the words 'SHINE' on the tablet without accident.Light gold words are engraved on the pure black marble tablet.There is no date of birth and death, and no epitaph.

Rogers just walked up to him, didn't speak, breathing carefully.

Close enough that he could see the light hoarfrost on the doctor's hair and feel the chill on him.

"I asked him if he wanted to survive, but he refused." Erce poked the soil in front of the stele with his foot, his voice full of hoarseness and embarrassment that he hadn't spoken for a long time.

Rogers looked down and saw the deep footprints. How long has the doctor been standing here?

"I told him that I didn't like him anymore. Then it seemed that suddenly, he died." Ess pursed his lips, and looked from the monument to the vast front.

"I always feel that if I don't say anything, he will last for a while."

Rogers didn't know what to do to make the doctor feel better, there was no way.

His heart hurt badly, and the soreness caused by the constriction of his throat made him almost want to replace the doctor to shed all the tears that could not be shed.

The sky in the cemetery is always foggy, and the cold air is pervasive, like the inseparable sadness and confusion.

"Steve, my Shane is dead." Erce turned his head suddenly, and whispered the fact.

Rogers' lips quivered, and his eyes turned red.He reached out and pulled the man with dark eyes into his arms, patted his back, and stroked his hair.

He didn't want to say that Xia En was living a contented life, and he didn't want to say that he must have walked away peacefully.He didn't want to say anything.

He was just silent, quietly hugging the doctor who was cold and full of wind and frost, like a dying traveler who was left alone on the wasteland.He didn't know how to make him not sad, or how to make him deal with such sadness.

Everyone has a bell in their hearts. All the behaviors of relatives, lovers, friends, strangers, and enemies will strike some syllables on the bell, send out some shocks, and transmit them like waves in the spirit, dissipate quickly or slowly, leaving behind The aftertaste that can't be heard or forgotten or can't be forgotten.

However, the bell in some people's hearts is very big and heavy.The breeze can't move, and it's easy to make no sound.But once it is shaken, it will be a long, uninterrupted, long-lasting echo that cannot be calmed down and will never be forgotten.

Spreading back and forth, further and further away, always clear, not calm for a long time, not peaceful.

His doctor was such a person.He will not forget, so any nicks are brand new on him.

People will forget the gash they made on their hands a month ago, but doctors will always remember the pain at that time.

It's joy, it's sadness, joy, anger, sorrow, joy, everything in the world is too vivid on him, and it can't be wiped out.

For him, time is not a cure for everything, and he will even repeat the torture of yesterday.

Rogers hugged the thin man in his arms, feeling overwhelmed with sadness.It was as if someone gave him a heavy hammer in his heart, guilt, regret, and pain overwhelmed him.

Not only for the doctor who lost Xia En, but also for the long-term pain that I can't remember earlier, and can only feel in a trance now.

Rogers closed his eyes, bowed and buried his face in the doctor's neck.He suddenly realized that everything he had done to the doctor since he woke up was too abominable.

Not only hope he forgives himself, but even force him to respond to himself.

Giving the bold and crude oath without even considering how much courage and how fearless it would take him to face himself again.

"Rodgers," Erce said, looking up over his shoulder, "you are the one thing I want most and also the last thing I want. Do you understand?"

Rogers was confused, and his hands tightened.

"I won't keep a dog anymore." Erce blinked his eyes, and his eyes gradually became silent.

How to do?

He found that even if the doctor said so much, he still...doesn't want to let go.

Is it too nasty?

"Doctor," Rogers loosened his arms slightly, but said firmly in a low voice, "I like you so much. No matter what, I don't want to give up, I don't want to leave you.

I like it so much that I know it's me... I feel lucky and secretly happy that I will leave you with deep and visible wounds.To you, I am almost selfish, narrow-minded and paranoid. "

"I don't want to give up such an opportunity," Rogers' voice became lower and lower, "I really want to imprint a mark on your heart. I'm sorry, I can't let you go."

Erce was stuffed in his warm, almost hot embrace. Hearing the curse-like words, he felt a trembling feeling from the bottom of his heart.He stood stiffly.

After a while, he slowly raised his hand and hugged the waist of the person in front of him, "Steve Rogers, you are only so cruel to me."

Rogers trembled, hugged, and didn't let go.There is quite a bit of cowardice and cruelty caught in it at the same time.

The shallow, near nothing breathing gradually became longer, something was inhaled deeply, and something was spit out again.Heartbeat, temperature, smell, people with a strong sense of presence are wrapped up like a landslide and tsunami, and it is their own calamity after all.

The people who came and went around him left him with scars, layer after layer, like armor, which gradually made him numb.

Even so, it is inevitable that different people will suffer different injuries. Only whoever chooses to take on this role is the only one who can decide.

I couldn't be more satisfied with the person in front of me who was going to leave the deepest scars on me.

Erce sighed silently, and buried himself deeper in the warm place, "Then, that's it."

Rogers' heart pounded violently, "Doctor?"

"Huh?" Erce leaned on his chest and replied lazily.

"...You—you are..." Holding someone in his arms like a kidnapper swore, but the person in his arms suddenly put the weight on him, and Rogers panicked.

"I surrendered, surrendered, agreed, agreed." Ess made a little space, cupped his face with his hands, rubbed it lightly, and looked into his eyes, "Do you understand?"

Rogers... "..."

"Aren't you going to cry?" Erth was surprised.

"No..." Rogers buried his head in his neck, his face covered tightly.

Erce raised his hand to stroke the back of his neck to comfort him, and let a certain humanoid dog rub back and forth, arching and sticking.

He looked sideways at Shane's stele, blinked a few times, pulled the corners of his mouth, and leaned on Rogers' shoulder.

Yes, Sean, he is also very satisfied.

The author has something to say: ... This chapter is a little cruel, I can't turn around to catch the bug [Lying Corpse]

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