Desire on the other side of blood

I woke up when the crisp birdsong sounded outside the window.

The goal is a faint morning light sprinkled on the bed, the white curtains are swaying in the breeze, and a faint earthy fragrance can be vaguely smelled from the window.

I had already put on clean pajamas, and I sat on the bed alone, staring blankly at this strange room.

This is... Pegdana Castle?

The hazy mind gradually became clear, and I remembered that I had come to Hermons.I met Philion, got drunk at the welcome dinner, and last night... last night...

Some blurred and broken pictures flashed before my eyes.

The bursting passion, the tight body entanglement, the possessive kiss, and the powerful rhythm, everything is like a dream.But that dream was so real, I even remember the feeling of pain and joy coexisting when the deepest part of my body was filled and possessed by roots.

Is that really a dream?

I took off my pajamas and looked at myself in the mirror.The young man in the mirror has golden soft long hair and eyes exuding a faint breath of decadence. His lips are a little red and swollen, but his body is clean, and there is no trace of passion left on his white chest.

That dream...is it really just a dream of mine?

I smiled self-deprecatingly, remembered what I was going to do today, and started to put on my clothes.

Something fell out of the neatly folded stack of laundry.

A chain of necklaces.

The silver chain is carved with fine patterns, and the fang pendant inlaid with golden willow leaves.

The Houndstooth Necklace I gave to Firian.

My mind was blank for a long time.I don't remember what I did, or said, during that blank time.When I came to my senses, I was holding on to the dog-tooth necklace and standing at the door of Felian's bedroom, when a maid stopped in front of me with a very embarrassed expression.

"Sorry, Your Highness Chris, His Majesty has said that he doesn't want to see anyone now." The maid said with a smile.

"I have something important to ask His Majesty Fei Lian, please inform me." As soon as I finished speaking, there was a loud noise in the bedroom, as if the sound of a glass bottle falling to the ground.

"No, Your Majesty, he doesn't want to see anyone." The well-trained maid still refused.

"Trouble you, I really have something very important to see His Majesty Felian, he..."

"Let him in." Felian's voice came from inside.

The maid opened the door and let me in.As soon as I entered the door, I was so surprised by the scene inside that I was speechless for a while.

The room, which was always clean and tidy in my impression, was in a mess at this moment, the floor was full of broken wine bottles, and the priceless liquor was spilled all over the floor.The bookcase was crooked, and the books on it were thrown on the ground in a mess.There were some bottles and jars on the cabinet next to the big golden bed, which looked like women's cosmetics, but they were thrown there in an unsteady manner.

Felian was sitting on the sofa, propping his head on one hand, looking very tired, when he heard me come in, he stood up.

"Sorry, it's really rude for you to see this," he said with a smile.

"Your Majesty, are you..." I asked worriedly.He doesn't look really good.

"It's okay, I'm just looking for something," he said.

I clenched the necklace in my hand, using a force that made me feel painful, "Really, what are you looking for?"

He looked at me for a while, moved his lips, but made no sound.

"I'm looking for a necklace." After a moment of silence, he said, "That necklace is a token of love between Sabrina and me. It is very important to me, but now it's gone."

"Really?" I lowered my eyes and smiled. "That necklace is very beautiful. It would be a pity if I couldn't find it. Miss Swift will be very sad."

I sniffled and pocketed the houndstooth necklace.

Fei Lian looked at me with a frown, raised his hand, but clenched his fist and retracted it.

"You haven't been to Hermons for a long time. It's very different now than it was 50 years ago. Let me show you around this afternoon." He said lightly.

He is standing very close to me now, less than one meter away, I can hear every word he said clearly, and I can even smell his body mixed with wine and women's perfume .

He is so close to me, yet so far away, as if... no matter how hard I run, I can't touch him, even if it's just a piece of his clothes.

"Okay, thank you, Your Majesty Fei Li'an." I nodded and said in a daze.

"Your Majesty, if it's okay, I'll leave first. Excuse me." After I finished speaking, I turned around and left, but when I reached the door, I stopped suddenly.

"Your Majesty, maybe this question is very abrupt, but I still want to ask." I turned my back to him and buried my head low, "Where were you last night?"

I know I should pretend to ask this question casually, but I still can't help myself.My voice trembled.My voice trembled with my emotions at the moment.

There was a brief silence behind him.

"I'm with Sabrina," I heard him say, "right here."

I saw a door in my life, the red paint on the door had peeled off, revealing the rotten black wood inside, where termites lived happily.

That door is fragile.It swayed helplessly in the wind.

Open, close, open, close, open... close.

"knock" sound

The door is locked.

The door can't be opened.

……

My door is locked.The key was thrown by Felian.

I should probably cry, yes, cry, let the tears soak the wood, let the termites swim in the tears.

But my heart was numb without any sense of reality, and the tear glands did not grow on my body.

Suddenly feel like laughing.

I am not a woman.right? !

I'm doing fine now too.right? !

So, lock it, lock it.

……

In the afternoon Richard came to see me in my room.

"God, Chris, why are you like this?" He pulled me out of the chair and slapped my face hard.

"What's wrong?" I smiled and pulled his hand away.His face hurts from being slapped.

"How long have you been here?" He took a leaf from my hair.I sat in front of the window, the window was wide open, and a few fallen leaves were blown in and out of the room by the wind, and one of them happened to fall on my head.

I shook my head.I don't remember how long I've been sitting here, it seems like I've been sitting here since my door was closed.

"Let's go, His Majesty Philian said to take us around today. I haven't been to Hermons for hundreds of years." He straightened my clothes and pulled me out.

Filian and Lilith were already waiting there, but Sabrina was not there.

"Sorry we're late." I greeted.

Ferrian nodded to us.

"How about we go to the Milton Opera House first?" Lilith suggested. "There is a very good opera to be performed today."

"Of course. Seeing the opera, a nice note." I said with a smile.

Felian's gaze flicked to me, and then he turned away immediately.He didn't speak.

Richard gave me a weird look, "Chris, don't you hate watching this the most?" He whispered in my ear.

"But I want to see it now." I still smiled.

We arrived at the Milton Opera House in two carriages.The Milton Opera House has been expanded on the original basis. It is still a huge circular building. It is so conspicuous among the buildings surrounded by spiers that it can be seen from afar.

I remember the first time I came here with Felian, the Opera House was performing "Salome". It was obviously a brilliant opera, but I fell asleep watching it. Ann never brought me here again, and now I am standing at the door of the Milton Opera House.

I saw a poster on the publicity window at the entrance of the opera house.This time it was "Gorgon Medusa", and I saw Sabrina playing Medusa in the poster at a glance.

"Today is the premiere of this play. Sabrina has put in a lot of effort to perform well in this play. She would be so happy if she knew that we came to see her premiere." Lilith laughed.

I entered the theater and took a seat, and Philian sat on my right.

After a few minutes, the lights in the auditorium were cut off, and all the light was cast on the stage.

When the music sounded, Ferian and Lilith said a few words, then turned their heads to me, "Your Highness Chris, if you don't like to watch opera, you can sleep for a while."

He didn't speak loudly, and his voice could easily be overwhelmed by the music, but I still heard his words clearly through the mixed voices.

I nodded in a daze, and turned my gaze to the stage.

The beautiful maiden Medusa appeared.She was deprived of her beauty by Athena because she was more beautiful than Athena, the goddess of wisdom.Her hair turned into a poisonous snake, and she has become a hideous monster ever since.

Medusa has become ugly, but Sabrina on the stage is still beautiful and radiant.

Philian didn't talk to me anymore, he kept looking at the stage with a slight smile on his face.

And I didn't fall asleep, Philion's words had the opposite effect on me.

It's the first time I've watched an opera in its entirety.