perfect life

When He Zihan woke up the next day, Chen Qiran had disappeared.

The headache was splitting, and the whole body seemed to be falling apart.The refreshment in the body made He Zihan understand that Chen Qiran helped him take a bath yesterday.

Although he was drugged, after Chen Qiran took him out of that scary red room, because the fresh air kept entering his lungs, his metabolism would soon allow his body to dissolve the aphrodisiac automatically.

Therefore, He Zihan's mind is very clear, and so is his memory.

He remembered that it was Chen Qiran who brought him back, the terrible feeling in his body last night, thinking about it now, his scalp felt numb.

Having such a relationship with Chen Qiran, He Zihan didn't know how to face him in the future.

Obviously he hates homosexuals very much, why didn't he feel disgusted when Chen Qiran touched him and was finally entered last night? !

Is it just because the other party is Chen Qiran? !

If it were someone else, such as Xia Mingyuan, or that Fan Getian...

He Zihan felt his back go numb just thinking about it, and he absolutely couldn't accept that.

Thinking this way, he suddenly realized that Chen Qiran was a unique existence in his mind, and that in yesterday's situation, only Chen Qiran could help him.

If it were any other person, He Zihan couldn't imagine how he would face such an embarrassing situation today.

Struggling to sit up, I saw a note pressed with a pen on the bedside table.

As soon as his finger touched the piece of paper, he felt a bad premonition in his heart - He Zihan never knew where these strange premonitions came from, but every time he was surprisingly accurate.

"Sub-Han:

This house has been transferred to your name.This is not compensation, they are not worthy as compensation for what happened yesterday, it is just a wish.

I just hope you can have a good living environment.Someone will bring you lunch and dinner in the future, please don't refuse.

Sorry for not protecting you.

I will not appear in front of you again. "

There is no signature, but the flamboyant handwriting is clearly Chen Qiran's handwriting.

He Zihan stared blankly at the piece of paper, and it took a long time before he realized what it meant.

Chen Qiran left, left.

He is still alone.

He Zihan has never been willing to admit that he is actually a person who is afraid of silence.

Staying alone in a place where there is no sound, the deadly atmosphere will give him the illusion of returning to the time when his grandmother just passed away.

The person who was taking care of me disappeared completely in my life in an instant.

He didn’t dare to sleep at night, and he didn’t know what to do when he was hungry—he had no money at that time, and he couldn’t cook.

Until many years later, He Zihan didn't learn how to cook.

He would just put rice and water into the rice cooker in a similar ratio, plug it in, and wait for the rice to cook.

After my grandmother passed away, I stayed in this world without anyone to care and take care of me. I didn't have enough food or clothing to keep warm, and I always had all kinds of nightmares when I was sleeping.

In the nightmare, the ferocious face of a woman appeared repeatedly, shouting hysterically: "It's all because of you! You killed everyone!"

Every midnight when waking up from a nightmare, He Zihan huddled under the blanket alone, sweating and trembling, waiting for the dawn.

Yet life must go on.

Later, a well-meaning old lady saw that He Zihan was really pitiful, but she couldn't make ends meet, so she could only remind He Zihan that he could pick up some soda cans and sell them to make money.

So He Zihan began to look around for empty bottles and cans after school. I don't know how many times he was almost caught and beaten because he went to a strange place and took the bottle from someone in that area.

In the situation where he was always ready to escape, he practiced his feet well. As a child who had no training at all, He Zihan's running performance was considered fast in the whole school.

When the second year of school started, He Zihan almost couldn't pay the tuition fee.

The principal couldn't bear to see this homeless child with no relatives and no reason lose his eligibility to go to school, so he helped him submit an application for tuition reduction and exemption, so that He Zihan could continue to attend classes at school.

He Zihan himself didn't realize that all he grew up with was that simple hut and repeated nightmares.

During his growth process, no one guided him or educated him.

It is entirely a person who survived with a kind of tenacity, almost with the instinct of survival.

Many years later, he suddenly realized that at that time, as a seven-year-old child, he survived alone in this vast world. Tell yourself.

When being ridiculed as a wild child that no one wants, the most thing you do is to keep your eyes wide open and not let your tears flow out of your eyes.

These things have been suppressed in He Zihan's heart all the time, he doesn't want to look so pitiful, and he doesn't need anyone's sympathy.

He wouldn't fight them, and he wouldn't be able to stay in school that way.This is what the principal told him. The principal said He Zihan, you must study obediently, otherwise you will leave this school if you can't pay the tuition fees.

He cherishes the opportunity to learn, and this is the only thing that can change his destiny.

No friends, no playmates, every day after school is to go to every corner of the city to find empty bottles and waste paper-these can be sold for money.

Cartoon mechanical pencils were very popular at that time. He Zihan liked a Mickey-shaped mechanical pencil very much, but that pen cost 3 yuan. He Zihan could buy 6 catties of cabbage and eat a lot of meals...

I don’t know how many times I passed that stationery store, and every time my eyes stayed on that pen for a long time, until it was sold, until I couldn’t see it anymore...

He finally bought an ordinary mechanical pencil for 5 cents, because he cherished it and used it carefully, and he used that pen until he graduated from junior high school.

It's not that he doesn't want it, he just can't afford it.

He Zihan never expected that things that did not belong to him would suddenly become his own one day.

This is even more unbelievable than a fairy tale.

After getting along during this time, He Zihan has gradually accepted Xia Mingyuan and Fan Getian, they are very good friends.

As for Chen Qiran, because he already knew his feelings for him, the feeling for Chen Qiran in his heart was different from those of the other two.He is different from them.He Zihan has never understood the meaning of that kind of existence.

When he was young, he had no money to participate in the spring outing organized by the school, so he could only hide at home and watch "Grimm's Fairy Tales".

At that time, He Zihan felt that those stories were really silly.

Why did the prince and princess end up living happily in the castle forest and live happily ever after?

What is happiness?

Why does the prince have to be with the beautiful Cinderella or princess?

At that time, he was only eight or nine years old, and he already felt that such a story could not be true.

Now, the reality before him reminded him once again that He Zihan is just a very small existence in this world.

How could it be possible for someone like Chen Qiran to stay by his side forever?

He had already said that he didn't like him. A person as proud as Chen Qiran would not always like him as he said.

After Xia Mingyuan and Fan Getian disappeared completely one after another, life returned to its original calm.

The days when two people lived together in the same house were ordinary and warm, and He Zihan often felt that it would be good to live like this forever.

He has never experienced a normal family, and he doesn't know how ordinary people live.He thought that the life he lived with Chen Qiran was an ordinary life, although he vaguely felt that this kind of life was a bit unusual.

Materially speaking, Chen Qiran's home is impeccable.

Mentally speaking, in fact, He Zihan himself didn't know what was going on.

He knew that he had contradicted Chen Qiran many times, and planned to move out from here many times without thinking about the consequences. When doing these things, he relied on Chen Qiran's indulgence of himself.

However, he didn't quite understand why he knew that Chen Qiran would not hurt him.

He was very dull, his mind was not clear, he thought he had enough time to figure out what kind of feelings he had for Chen Qiran.

However, no one expected that Chen Qiran would also disappear before he understood all of this.