perfect life

Neither Xia Mingyuan nor Fan Getian showed up in class the next day.

He Zihan found it strange that Chen Qiran called both of them, but both of them were turned off.

Suddenly there was a bad premonition, not knowing what happened to these two people.

Fan Getian stood in front of Xia Mingyuan's apartment, holding the message that Xia Mingyuan had posted on the door in his hand. He was stunned for a long time, but he couldn't move.

A few lines of Xia Mingyuan's vigorous and flamboyant words were written on the piece of paper:

"Baby, I'm leaving.

The destination was some small country I'd never heard of, never noticed on a map, and I didn't know if I'd ever return.

Don't come to me, don't wait for me.

What happened two years ago has nothing to do with other people, it is my own inability to accept you.

Go back to Paris, where you belong. "

The matter that Fan Getian asked Chen Shu to investigate had long since come to fruition. Fan Getian had already confirmed what Fan Wenhuilin had said to Xia Mingyuan about the incident two years ago, but it was impossible to verify the specifics.

He knew Fan Wenhuilin's methods. This woman who was his mother must have said something bad to make Xia Mingyuan change so much.

He was ready to resist. Although he didn't have much power in the Fan family, Chen Qiran's family could give him the greatest support. He could stay and finish high school with Xia Mingyuan.Everything else is unimportant, nothing is more important than Xia Mingyuan's future.

However, Xia Mingyuan left.

Two days before Fan Wenhuilin set a one-month deadline for Fan Getian, she called Xia Mingyuan again.

She said a lot, these days almost every move of Fan Getian and Xia Mingyuan was under her surveillance.For the first time, Xia Mingyuan felt that this woman was terrifying. Although she was an elder, the fear of this person in his heart really couldn't dissipate.

Xia Mingyuan can't remember exactly what she said on the phone. The faint female voice came from far away Paris through radio waves at around 4 o'clock in the morning. The room was pitch black, and Xia Mingyuan couldn't help shaking.

In the end, Xia Mingyuan didn't even know when Fan Wenhuilin hung up the phone.He was just holding on to the receiver in a daze, and after realizing what the other party meant, he let go of the hand that was holding on to the phone...

She said, "Xia Mingyuan, are you still worthy of Xiaotian?"

Only Xia Mingyuan himself knew what she meant by that sentence.

After Fan Getian left that year, he had been depressed for a long time, and he had to rely on drugs all day long to barely maintain his mental smoothness. If he stopped the drugs, he would definitely fall into self-loathing and panic, unable to extricate himself.

During that time, Chen Qiran's mother was not in good health, and he put most of his energy at home and had no time to take care of him.

After Fan Getian was hurt so badly by his words, he left Paris, and it was impossible for him to forgive himself.

It's always cold alone at night, Xia Mingyuan always likes to turn off all the light sources and immerse himself in the darkness alone.

I've been used to this from a very young age.Dad was busy all day long, and he was the only one in the huge old Xia family house. The servants were all boring and expressionless all day long. As the only child in the family, he never felt more of a sense of existence.

I have never seen what my mother looks like, and I never know why I came to this world.

Everything is meaningless, only when he is swallowed by darkness, will he have a sense of belonging - he belongs to this darkness originally, and everything that is bright and beautiful outside has nothing to do with him.

He was the most ordinary child, but he was branded as a sinner because his mother died of dystocia at the moment of birth.

In the past two years, Xia Mingyuan almost split his personality, or it can be said that he has split his personality once.

Because the normal personality can't find the meaning of existence, and the potentially dark personality becomes stronger because of what happened to him.It is common for one self to be taught by another self.

Xia Mingyuan hid in his rented apartment, sitting barefoot on the floor next to the sofa, his eyes always lingering on the blue sky.

"Xiaotian, I miss you so much..." He buried his head in his knees and muttered to himself.

"What do you want him to do?! Didn't you reject him?! Do you think he will forgive you?!" Suddenly another voice rang in his ears, Xia Mingyuan looked up and saw another self!

"I didn't do it on purpose...Xiaotian, everything I did was for Xiaotian's good. He shouldn't be with me, we won't have a future. I trembled and said my reasons, but only in another own I saw mocking in my eyes.

"Are you doing it for his own good?! In fact, it's because you are afraid of being hurt?! You are afraid that Fan Getian will not be able to withstand the temptation and persecution of his family and choose marriage in the future, and you are afraid that he will abandon you in the end!!"

"No...it's not like this...I'm just doing it for Xiaotian's sake. Xiaotian, where are you..." Xia Mingyuan explained feebly, his voice was faintly crying.

"Where does he need to ask?! Of course he is in Paris! That Murong Lingzhi also went to Paris! They will definitely get married and have children in the future, what are you?! Fan Getian doesn't have the word Xia Mingyuan in his life!!"

"No... Xia Mingyuan?"

"Nonsense! How can a cowardly person like you deserve him?! You don't know how to fight for it!"

"I don't want to fight, I can't help it... If Xiaotian can live a normal life, why should I pester him?!"

"Stop quibbling, you coward!"

"I didn't quibble!!"

"..."

"..."

Such conversations are repeated every day, interfering with Xia Mingyuan's normal life day and night.Sometimes he can't tell which is the real self...

When the Xia family's housekeeper came to look for him, he found that he was as thin as a stick, his face was as pale as paper, and his whole body was trembling for unknown reasons.In the end, after Xia Mingyuan's father agreed, Xia Steward sent Xia Mingyuan to a mental hospital.

The dialogue only claimed that he was sent to training, even Chen Qiran didn't know Xia Mingyuan's real whereabouts.

Xia Mingyuan can't remember clearly the days there.

He only knew the endless white in the hospital, and what kept appearing in front of his eyes were the constantly shaking white curtains.

White sheets, white hospital beds, white chairs, everything is white.

That frightening whiteness that lasts until nightfall—everything is dyed black.

Xia Mingyuan received treatment there for more than half a year, and suddenly one day his mind returned to normal.

The attending doctor conducted multiple tests on him and found that his mental state was completely fine. After observing for a few days, the hospital approved him to be discharged.

Everyone in the Xia family felt strange about this mentally ill young master.

He used to be a very gentle person, playing with the young masters and ladies of the Fan family and the Chen family every day, learning etiquette and ethics, and he was a very good business heir.

I don't know when it started, but after he got home, he was silent, and the servants at home couldn't remember when they heard Xia Mingyuan speak for the last time.

Until the day he moved out, the servants of the Xia family never heard him utter a single syllable.

It was later heard that he was sent to a mental hospital and was discharged after half a year.But he never went back to the Xia family's old house again, and seemed to have left the Xia family - but Housekeeper Xia still sent money to his card every month as usual.

Xia Mingyuan knew the meaning of Fan Wenhuilin's words.

He has a history of mental illness, and this kind of illness may relapse at any time.In the past two years, apart from being mentally ill, his personality has also undergone a very big change.

After being released from the mental hospital, the whole person began to be careless, without the previous elegant behavior.Eating is also very casual, and the use of tableware does not even conform to the rules of dining in the upper class.

Drinking soup will make a loud noise, and when eating Western food with a knife and fork, the tableware will collide, making a unique crisp metal collision sound...

At this time, people around would frown, but Xia Mingyuan remained indifferent and continued to eat carelessly.

He started to get close to the girls, making some harmless but somewhat dirty jokes.

Very good at swearing, always saying "fuck you", "fuck me" and so on, with a very bold look, which made those boys who thought he was a bit unattainable suddenly think that this person is actually quite interesting .

Without the elegant airs of the past, Xia Mingyuan, who has stepped down from the altar, is now very approachable among the boys.But he often has some ambiguous actions, such as nose to nose with a certain boy...

Say something like "You are so cute, I like you so much" to a boy.

He has transformed himself beyond recognition.

After losing Fan Getian, Xia Mingyuan also had no meaning of existence.

So, he chose to self-destruct.

While destroying himself, he never expected that Fan Getian would come back to find him...