perfect life

He Zihan's hand holding the cup trembled slightly, but it still did not escape Chen Zeyu's sharp eyes.

At that time, there was an idea in his mind, Chen Zeyu said: "I forgot to bring the wedding invitation, but those things are also superfluous. Remember to come when the time comes, this is his wedding, I think it is worth you to attend."

"Oh? Why is it worth it? He's not worth it for me to see him get married. If you're here for this matter, I don't think we need to talk any further."

He Zihan kept his head down as he spoke, Chen Zeyu couldn't see the expression on his face clearly.However, having learned a lot of psychological knowledge since he was a child, he still said confidently: "He Zihan, you are duplicity."

"Is there?"

He Zihan raised his eyebrows as he spoke, and Chen Zeyu's heartbeat was a little confused when he glanced at it - that kind of expression, any normal person would want to push He Zihan under him, but it's a pity that he is a SUB...

Although he was sour in his heart, Chen Zeyu didn't show it at all on the surface.He Zihan's no, he had seen it many years ago.

This person made Chen Qiran give him all his heart and soul, but even if he was with someone else, no one would blame him. After all, Chen Qiran disappeared at the most important moment in his life .

Pretending to change the subject, Chen Zeyu asked very relaxedly: "Let's not talk about that. How is Lu Senyang treating you? Are you happy with him?"

He Zihan wanted to laugh out loud after hearing his question.Why did everyone think he came with Lu Senyang?Not long ago, Xia Mingyuan had an expression of complete disbelief, but now Chen Zeyu was fine, and came directly to the company to question him.

These people's absurd and ridiculous behavior made He Zihan a little angry. Why did all these people around him pay attention to him after Chen Qiran pretended to have forgotten him and actually showed no affection for him?

If this person was not Chen Zeyu, He Zihan knew that it would be difficult for him to control his emotions, and he would have the urge to drive him away.However, he can't do that. No matter what, the visitor is a guest. Chen also has several cooperation projects in City B. It seems that he wants to talk to Lu. Although there is no prospect yet, he can't ruin the possible business.

After stabilizing his emotions, He Zihan also said very easily: "What do you think?"

"I think it's okay, at least Lu Senyang seems to care about you and care about you very much. You are given warm water, and you are not allowed to drink tea because you are afraid that you will have indigestion if you drink tea immediately after lunch. Loving someone probably That's it, isn't it?"

These words left He Zihan speechless.

"Is he acting obvious?"

"Nonsense, even a dull person like me can see it, why can't others see it. Don't you want Lu Senyang's love for you to be known by everyone?"

"No, it's not..."

"Not what?"

He Zihan wanted to say "it's not what you think, I have nothing to do with Lu Senyang", but this sentence was stuck in his chest, and he couldn't say it no matter what.

What Chen Zeyu meant was very clear. Lu Senyang's concern for him was definitely not an ordinary friend, but another kind of affection that Chen Qiran once gave him.Although I tried my best to enlighten him before, telling him not to waste time on me, Lu Senyang also agreed at that time.

It's not that He Zihan didn't see Lu Senyang's kindness to him recently.He also used to feel flustered and afraid of temptation. He was afraid that he would be too lonely and unable to bear Lu Senyang's kindness to him.What was it if he returned affection out of gratitude?

Insulting Lu Senyang's friendship with him will also make him completely despise himself.

I always thought that Lu Senyang was really just a simple friendship with me, thinking that I finally had someone who could turn to him for help at any time in the most difficult times.But that person is not even a friend? !He still has such feelings for himself, everyone can see it, but he doesn't know it...

He Zihan suddenly hated himself, why was he so dull, why did he believe what Lu Senyang said? !

After so many years, how much has it grown?It's still so easy to trust others, even if Lu Senyang's feelings for him are not malicious, but if he knows that he still has such thoughts, he will definitely not agree to work in Lu's.

Now it seems that I have completely jumped into the fire pit, and because of my ignorance, it seems even more ridiculous.

After glancing at Chen Zeyu, He Zihan had already made up his mind.

"It's nothing, me and him, as you think, that's it."

"How?"

"We are together, Lu Senyang treats me very well, he loves me very much, and so do I."

After saying so much in one breath, He Zihan felt that a hole was opened in his heart in an instant, and everything inside had been emptied, and there was nothing left.

"Oh? Can I ask when you two were together?"

Chen Zeyu still asked unrelentingly, which gave He Zihan a little headache.After finally cheering up, he replied with the most beautiful expression: "Three years ago."

"Tsk, I understand. Then I'll take my leave. See you at the West Cathedral at ten o'clock in the morning this Saturday."

"Okay, I'll go."

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He Zihan disappeared after taking two days off from the company.

Although Lu Senyang repeatedly asked him to keep his phone connected wherever he went, and he could contact him at any time, He Zihan left the phone at home and went to a temple near City B alone.

He didn't do anything there, but asked for a relatively remote and quiet meditation room, paid two days' rent and some incense money, and lived in it.

Woke up in the morning to meditate with the masters. Although he didn't know how to recite sutras, he sat in the Buddhist hall, smelling the scent of incense candles, surrounded by reassuring chanting, and the impetuous things in his heart gradually dissipated.

The life in the temple is very leisurely. After finishing the morning class in the morning, it is lunch time. After taking a nap, I wake up and wander around the neighborhood. It will be dinner time soon.Then came the evening class, and then the master would give lectures to the disciples, and the pilgrims would go back to their bedrooms to rest.

The life of the past two days seems to be in a paradise, everything is floating clouds, and I am just a drop in the ocean in the universe, those feelings and love, hatred and resentment, miraculously disappeared here.

This temple is not famous, He Zihan just heard from Cao Jie a long time ago that he came here on a whim this time, and regretted that he hadn't come here sooner.

The unique smell of incense candles was so refreshing that He Zihan was a little intoxicated.

He didn't forget what Chen Zeyu said that day. Chen Qiran was getting married, and he didn't even forget to invite himself.

This kind of thing, I really don't know whether to laugh or cry.

The boy who said "I won't let go, I won't let you go, unless you don't love me anymore" has already passed away in time.Where in this world is there unchanging feelings and where is eternity?

Chen Qiran, who was so swearing at the beginning, will soon marry someone else.What personnel and events in this world can be trusted, and what can I predict?

What happened in the past few years, no matter how you look at it, looks like a fake youth movie, watching it just makes people sad.

However, as one of the protagonists of a similar movie, I am now in a temple in the wilderness, using the breath of incense to cleanse my surging heart.

When Chen Zeyu said the word "wedding", He Zihan clearly felt the emergence of dark thoughts deep in his heart.

Since everyone misunderstood that he had something to do with Lu Senyang, then he could just make a fake show and be with Lu Senyang—anyway, Lu Senyang, as Chen Zeyu said, should love him very much.After gaining Lu Senyang's trust and sympathy, he can use the Lu family to completely attack the Chen family, making Chen Qiran feel so much pain.

A love-hate revenge was formed in his mind, but when he thought that such behavior would hurt everyone including himself, He Zihan quickly dismissed this terrible idea.

There is a little Satan in his heart, Mei will come out to harass him when something particularly bad happens, even He Zihan himself can't restrain himself.

He also has a dark side, he would want to take revenge when he was let down by others, but he never thought that that person would be Chen Qiran.

He didn't want to see that in the future, the two of them would cause more harm to each other again and again because of such and such things.Since Chen Qiran could have a normal life, why did he want to obstruct it?

But he was really not reconciled in his heart, he just denied the past like that, and was about to enter the palace of marriage with another woman, such a fact was unacceptable.

This kind of contradictory thought constantly tormented He Zihan, so that he could not sleep for two consecutive days and nights.In the middle of the night, I suddenly remembered that there was such a place near City B, so I immediately decided to ask the company for a leave of absence, come here to relax, and sort out my mood by the way.

Two days passed in the blink of an eye, and He Zihan felt slightly saddened by the time flies in the temple.After leaving this place, I was about to face that person's wedding.

He's going to be someone else's husband, maybe have kids soon, and he's going to have a very happy life.

And in that happiness, there is no shadow of myself at all.