Balance beam

Li Jia was slow-witted, always slow-witted, and looked at the opportunity that passed by him in vain and felt sad. Rather than saying that fate played with him, it was better to say that he was passively resisting.Like a snail passing by, it moves slowly, and it takes a long time before it knows who is knocking at the door.He is a fool.

Only Palin will look back and stand there after many years. This response and commitment is really unrequited.

Even if he smashed himself into powder and sprinkled it into the man's bone marrow, it would seem humble compared to Palin's efforts.

Li Jia sat on the steps of the wooden house and wept over and over again. The sun had not yet risen in the morning, and the man he loved the most sat gently beside him and handed him a tissue, "Why didn't I realize that you love to cry so much before?"

Li Jia laughed out loud.The two snuggled together, looked back at the thatched roof of the wooden house, and Li Jia sighed, "Why are there so many mosquitoes on the island?" Palin took a bite of the newly bitten bag on his arm, and laughed, "This is the same as Is the island we want very similar?"

There was once a voice that said, "We will also have this small island in the future, and we will also have such a place to retire." I once let myself fantasize about being too old, and they hid in a small dwelling in the South Pacific, and no one could find them. .The two trimmed the flowers and plants, sat on the chairs and basked in the sun, blowing the sea breeze from time to time, and cooking their favorite delicacies.There is an exquisite spiral staircase in the house, which leads directly to the roof.The exotic flowers planted in front of the house sway with the wind, and the person you love the most will accompany you to watch the sunrise and sunset together.

The unattainable fantasies that he once thought could not be realized were brought before Palin. Li Jia couldn't believe that all of this was true.

European-style pavilion chairs, oriental-style floor lamps, and Japanese-style wind chimes hanging in the corner, Li Jia's smile froze on his face, this man, always like this.Do it silently, bear it silently.

"Crying and laughing, you really, didn't you say you want to watch the sunrise?" Palin gently kissed the corner of Li Jia's lips over and over again.

"Palin." Li Jia's hair blew on Palin's face with the wind, Li Jia's eyes narrowed slightly, and he opened his mouth, wanting to make a promise to Palin.As long as he wanted, he could give him everything he had, Palin looked at him and smiled, all the promises couldn't compare to Li Jia's love for him.

They looked at each other without words, and the following words were drowned in the kiss of two people.

Palin and Li Jia sat down by the sea, with fine sand under their feet, and a quiet reef standing not far away.Like an isolated space, only the two of them are left in the world, and there is only each other in the vast universe.

The scorched yellow sun revealed his face little by little, the seabirds took off, and the lighthouse in the distance was hidden in the clouds and mist. When the sea water overflowed the waists of the two, the stacked people kissed and indulged in the blending of each other.

The sea water flooded his body close to his mouth and nose, Li Jia's stomach was full of pain, and he still wanted to, even if he felt the slightly stinging liquid poured in with Palin's insertion and withdrawal in his back acupoint, Li Jia's brain was still blank , only to hold Perrin tighter.

The two people on the beach were already drenched, and their whole bodies were dyed with a warm orange light.Soaked in the water, unable to touch the bottom under his feet, one wave of passion recedes and another wave rises again, clamoring and agitating, Perin holds Li Jia and floats side to side, like two dolphins huddling together, chuckling Making wild jokes "It's easy to have a life jacket! You can float on the sea XXOO."

Li Jia closed his eyes tightly, wrapped his arms around Palin's neck, and pressed his cheek against Palin's.Soaked in water, it is naturally cold at first, but after soaking for a long time, it feels lukewarm.

Swimming to the shore, Palin threw off the pants that were tied to his legs, and took off the T-shirt that was attached to his body. Li Jia covered his forehead with one arm and gasped. In terms of solid skin, it can be compared to the statue of David.

Li Jiawu groaned softly, and his lower body became hardened under Palin's gaze.Palin stripped off his clothes, turned Li Jia upside down, put his hands on his stomach, and pushed himself back. , Li Jia propped his knees on the ground, the fine sand made his knees ache, his swollen avatar hung there and swayed back and forth with the sway of his movements, his eye sockets were flushed with the desire that couldn't be released quickly, because of the person behind him It was Palin, but he felt that all this was happiness.

The distance between heart and heart, even if it is only one millimeter, is too far away.It is a rare blessing to be closely connected without any suspicion. From then on, I only have you in my eyes, and you only have me in your heart. There is nothing else in this world to care about and be attached to each other. Only each other is the only one for each other.

At this moment, they have no family, no children, no parents, only lovers.

On the way back, when two people sit in one place, their fingers will be entangled quietly, one by two, grasped and separated, and then touched lightly. The straw hats placed between the two seats are like parasols on the beach Cover this pink ambiguity, but it becomes fuller because of the concealment.

Jiang Jiang found out that his father had changed. After returning from the small island, his whole person was different, brighter?Get radiant?No matter how you describe it, it doesn't look like him anyway.Like an alien invaded by a virus, he has abandoned every characteristic of his father he knew before.

The father who lived with him for many years is like a false image, like a soulless skin, so the current father is more like a living person.Although I always lose things, even though I am still confused, I either forget the key when I go out, or I go to pay the phone bill, but I pay the electricity bill, or I become more vivid inexplicably.Even if it's just a simple conversation, anyone can see the change in him, and he is in high spirits.

Although I don't want to admit it, the father I knew before was indeed unhappy.The current Li Jia, even though he was wielding a shovel to fry vegetables and made his body smell like fish, he was still happy.This joyful emotion infected everyone around, including Da Bao who came upstairs to visit Jiang Jiang, and would whisper, "Why did you fail the exam, your father is happier than you?"

Jiang Jiang glanced at Dabao, his father is not normal now, since that man often came in and out of their house, his father has become abnormal.

In fact, on the plane, Jiang Jiang turned around from time to time, and his father's nonchalant smile made him suspicious, and now his doubts are even deeper.Jiang Jiang was very tangled in his heart.

Song Song returned home and threw the small backpack on the sofa. Sonia smiled and put down the educational magazine in her hand, "Have you had a good trip?"

Songsong hummed "It's okay," he said, "It's okay," he still likes to entertain his friends in the yard of his home. The city lacks everything, small, remote, strange, and has a bad-tempered brother.

Nesting loosely on the sofa, she chose the most comfortable position and curled up into a ball. Sonia teased her son's chin and asked Palin, "Did things go well?"

"Of course it went well, how about you?" Sonia suffered from acute pneumonia and healed quickly, but the woman was always depressed as if she had been hollowed out. Perrin suspected that she hadn't fully recovered. Although she wanted to worry about it, she didn't have time to take care of it. He and Li Jia are in the period of passionate love, and every second of separation feels uncomfortable.

Palin found an excuse to go to Li Jia's house and was obviously rejected by Jiang Jiang. At first, he muttered in a low voice, and then he teased with meaning. Any adult would feel embarrassed after hearing it, but Palin didn't seem to hear it. Normally, Li Jia pulled his son into the room and comforted him softly, "It's not convenient for him to go back after such a long journey. He will only stay at our house for one night. Can I borrow your room?"

Jiang Jiang was quite dissatisfied, "He is so rich, why doesn't he sleep in a hotel, let him take a taxi. I will call him a taxi." Li Jia pressed the phone, and seeing his father's persistent eyes, Jiang Jiang couldn't bear to compromise.

Palin, who was sitting outside, listened to Jiang Jiang's high-pitched protest sound like an accompaniment, stared at the international news channel in a happy mood, and peeled off the fruit with his hands skillfully.After cutting a piece and delivering it to his mouth, with a smile on his face, he finally had a reason to sleep here aboveboard.

There was an unaccustomed bed assistant in another room, but as long as it was Li Jia's place, even if he was only given a camp bed, he would be happy.

Jiang Jiang and his father huddled together on the same bed, tossing and turning, unable to sleep, sometimes suspicious that the door was not closed tightly, and sometimes worried about the safety of the window. Breathing as if falling asleep, I feel a little relieved.

With Jiang Jiang around, it is impossible for them to sleep in the same room, and their favorite person is sleeping next door, and they really want to snatch him away, even if they don't do anything, just hugging each other is enough warmth.

Perrin took off his coat and sat on the edge of the bed with his elbows on his legs, staring at the wall with his eyes protruding from his palms.At the same time, on the other side of the wall, Li Jia was lying on his side with his arm pillowed, back to back with Jiang Jiang.With slightly opened eyes, their eyes were always fixed on a certain point on the wall, and they just stared at the "other party" quietly.

Sonia tried her best to prove her innocence, and advised Palin not to take Songsong to that place again, on the grounds that Songsong fell ill as soon as she came back, even though it was a feigning game played by the mother and son in collusion.Sonia concealed her worries. Bai Li hadn't contacted her for a long time. Her fate seemed to be weighed by God on the scales. Every time she was close to happiness, she was always close In the slightest, it doesn't matter if you don't have a man, but you can't lose your son.

"I went to see your dad, and he was complaining again that you haven't seen him for a long time."

Sonia smiled, "I just went there last week, and he will be the first one I see after I'm done."

Perrin coughed lightly, "Then you have to take good care of him and don't make him worry. Let's have a good talk when I come back this time."

Sonia was slightly taken aback, then nodded slowly.I vaguely feel that Palin wants to let go of something. She can't hear people mentioning the word divorce now. Even if the domestic helper chats in private about irrelevant people and irrelevant topics, she will be interrupted by her cold face, "Did you Have things been done? Discuss right and wrong here?"

"Palin, I've been very tired recently, let's talk about it!" Sonia felt a little exhausted, "How are you and Li Jia?" .

"Sonia, are you having a problem?"

Sonia smiled wryly, wanted to complain but felt helpless, so she shook her head.

Palin said, "Reassure Billy that nothing will happen, and I won't bother him again."

Sonia laughed even harder.Since there is no trouble, what has he been up to lately?

The husband and wife visited the gold shop together, and Palin didn't tell her why he always ran here, but just picked a bracket.After the finishing touches, that gift can finally be given to that person.

Palin promised Li Jia to arrive at eleven o'clock in the evening, but he didn't. He told Li Jia not to wait for him.When he knocked on the door lightly, Li Jia was still watching the midnight show with his clothes on, "I didn't wait for you on purpose, there is soup in the pot, do you want to drink it?"

No matter when and where, as long as there is someone waiting for him, no matter how remote the city is, no matter how tired the body is, he will feel comfortable and find the sense of belonging in his hometown in a foreign land. It doesn't depend on the city, only because this man is here.More than a year ago, he was still a depressed man who drank snow clam stewed porridge on an empty stomach, but now he has swam to the other side of happiness, so "I'm not tired."

Li Jia stroked Palin's haggard face, "Don't work so hard."

"You have worked so hard."

If this is an eight o'clock romantic drama, Palin will feel chills all over his body, if this is his own romance, Palin will be intoxicated and say no matter how passionate he is, he will not feel sour.

Li Jia touched his face quietly, and heard a noise in the room, "I'm going to see Jiang Jiang." Leaving Palin behind, he turned back.After not seeing him for a long time, Palin groped quietly. Li Jia was patting Jiang Jiang's back lightly. The child's breathing was steady and he made a soft cry similar to that of cats.

The air in the room suddenly became ambiguous. The man's hand on his shoulder was warm and moist. Li Jia's other hand was placed behind Perrin's. Just holding hands like this, the two looked at each other in the dark.

When Palin asked him before, "My son is more important or me," Li Jia would not hesitate to be sure that Jiang Jiang was the most important, but why Palin didn't ask and didn't say anything, Li Jia felt that he could abandon everything Follow Palin, including responsibility, son, family, and life.Champelin is the center of gravity of all life, as long as he is there, no one can be seen.He didn't know until now.

Jiang Jiang didn't sleep well recently, and would break out in a cold sweat in the middle of the night.Since that incident a long time ago, Li Jia has been sleeping in the same room with his son.After coming out of the hospital this time, for the convenience of taking care of him, he didn't move any more. The father and son shared the same bed, even if Jiang Jiang was trapped by the nightmare and did not wake up, Li Jia was also alarmed.

In the first few days, I thought it was just an occasional poor sleep. After half a month, Jiang Jiang’s mental state was obviously not good. Unsurprisingly, he followed his mother's advice and put a pair of scissors under Jiang Jiang's pillow, and the situation improved.

It's just that his son frowned every day, and Li Jia couldn't help feeling anxious.I heard that people who have committed suicide will have symptoms of depression. He was very worried about his son's mental health, so Li Jia rushed to the hospital every three days.

Palin thoughtfully sent the medicine pillow. He told Li Jia that he was very busy today and only had 5 minutes to see each other. The two kissed passionately for two minutes. Palin rubbed Li Jia's cheek lightly with his thumb, and the two stared at each other. for 5 minutes.Then on the street in the early morning, there was a lone man holding a white pillow in his arms, looking at the distant taillights and laughing foolishly.