Balance beam

Regarding his father's various abnormal behaviors, Jiang Jiang gradually accepted after being helpless, just like what his grandfather taught him, "there is no wrong parent in the world".Just because he is a close relative, Jiang Jiang did not accuse Li Jia of right and wrong as an elder, but directly skipped this "unimportant" link to find a solution, and naturally thought about how to face it.Fortunately, even though his father was weak, he was more thoughtful in dealing with things. Jiang Jiang also felt that although it was difficult, he could finally get it done.It's just cheating, the difference between a man and a woman is that it has a stronger impact on him.

Originally thought that Li Jia was going to say goodbye to his lover, who knew that he would never return, Jiang Jiang couldn't stand the excitement.

The first person who noticed Jiang Jiang's abnormality was Dabao. He found that Jiang Jiang always skipped classes and often hang out with bad students from lower grades and even from other schools. Seeing him, he had a panda eye and fell asleep at school the next day.Da Bao justly advised Jiang Jiang, but Jiang Jiang raised his eyebrows and looked at him, "It's just that his grades are poor, how can he become a bad student? I think they are all very good."

The head teacher talked to Jiang Jiang countless times, from the very beginning of patiently asking "Did something happen to you in your life recently?" Don’t do anything, be measured.” Then later, “If you continue like this, you have to consider whether you have the ability to take up this position again.” No matter what Jiang Jiang said, he always had a way to deal with it, and was finally dismissed by the class teacher. The dean, the dean, and even the principal agreed that it was a conflict.

Jiang Jiang still chose to skip unimportant classes and sleep during important classes.He will still sincerely confess to the teacher, "I know you are doing it for my own good, so I will change." He still insists on himself.

Dabao always followed him closely and asked, "What did you talk to you about again? What did you do again?"

"Jiang Jiang, I heard the dean tell your teachers that you are declaring war on the school and challenging the authority in disguise."

Jiang Jiang shook his head half-closed his eyes, then moved to the last row of the classroom, put several chairs together, and lay down to sleep.

"Your dad has been away for two months?" Jiang Jiang glared at Dabao, slapped his schoolbag hard, and angrily stuffed it under his head as a pillow.

"Jiang Jiang, don't you think about it?" Da Bao always escorted Jiang Jiang home obligatoryly.Jiang Jiang is also obedient, he doesn't go out when he gets home, he gets up to look at the phone records, rummaging from time to time, he would mistakenly think that Li Jia had called when he was in school, and once suspected that his landline was malfunctioning or hacked Invasion, otherwise why wouldn't there be even a string of numbers on that tiny screen?

Jiang Jiang was looking forward to his father's call, and his father always called to ask when he could hardly bear it. Occasionally, he hung up the phone after only asking a few words, and Jiang Jiang looked at the clock on his watch for luck.He just looks strong, but he is actually very fragile.If the phone is indifferent for a long time, and the phone is silent, Jiang Jiang will turn off the phone angrily, and then pull down the phone line.The last time he did this, his father couldn't get in touch with him, so he rushed back overnight in a hurry.

And now no matter how many times he played tricks, that man never appeared miraculously.On the contrary, Dabao ran up and slammed on the door, yelled his name late at night, and asked anxiously, "What's wrong with you? I was so anxious that I thought something would happen to you."

"What can happen to me?" Jiang Jiang replied lukewarmly, all the irrelevant big security came, and his dear father was still missing.

Jiang Jiang's test results were very bad, "No, Jiang Jiang, your grades are declining rapidly, I have to talk to your parents." As a result, Jiang Jiang answered the teacher's phone call to his home at night, "My dad is on a business trip. It's very important to talk about a project, and I'll be back in a few days. My mother? My mother has been divorced for many years, and she is not in the same city. Do you think it is necessary to find her? Or can you call again in a few days? "

The teacher has a heavy teaching task. After a few days of busy work, when she thinks about Jiang Jiang again, she calls the child over to ask about his father, "Oh, I haven't come back yet, soon."

"You won't have only one relative, what about your grandma? Let me tell you, silence can't solve any problems. If you continue like this..."

Jiang Jiang finally looked at the teacher, "Don't look for it anymore, are you tired? My parents have been divorced for a long time, and my mother has her own family and children, so she doesn't care about me. My grandma is not in good health, so don't put her Scared, my dad will come back in a few days. It’s not that he didn’t tell you his mobile phone number. He went out of town and left his mobile phone at home for me to use. He used a local number. Their company’s project is very important , if you interfere with him now, who will bear the loss of hundreds of millions? I know what you want to say. If the teacher has nothing to do, I will go back to class. Now I am very nervous about studying. I have to make up for a few hours at night when I miss a class. Don't delay my study because of you."

The teacher was so annoyed by Jiang Jiang that she almost lost her temper, and started looking through Jiang Jiang's files. She must find Li Jia and have a good talk about the child.Before she could talk about it, something happened to Jiang Jiang.

Jiang Jiang went to the swimming pool to play, but fell into the water.The water in the school’s indoor swimming pool is only changed once a year at this time. “It’s all cleared up, and I don’t know how he walked in. When the administrator found him, he was soaking in the water face down, with air coming out and no air in. I found that the child is not in the right mood and in the right state. He acts like a fool and doesn’t take anything seriously. His academic performance has also deteriorated rapidly. It can be described as a plummet. The relationship with his classmates is also very tense, especially in the past few days. The two are good, and it reflects that his temperament has changed drastically. As a father, you don’t care enough about your child, and you don’t communicate with the school in time. We don’t know about your business trip. You leave him alone for a long time before the child reaches the legal age. At home, I heard from your neighbors that you haven’t been back for several months? I couldn’t see you during the home visit, and your son answered the phone number I left,…”

Li Jia held Jiang Jiang's report card in his hand and was sweating while reviewing it. Jiang Jiang had no talent for swimming, and he was still a landlubber after learning for many years. The year before last, he took him out to play like a big girl. He didn't dare to get in the water with a swimming ring on. How could he have the courage to face down to practice "Gone with the Wind" and still be so neatly dressed.

Li Jia had to believe what Da Bao said

"Uncle Li, Jiang Jiang definitely committed suicide."

"At that time, I found a suicide note in his schoolbag, and I didn't dare to show it to the teacher. When I asked Jiang Jiang what happened, he tore it up." Dabao only remembered a few words above, but it was "Life is boring." There are also negative and extreme extreme thoughts "It would be great if the earth was destroyed at this moment."

Dabao's retelling ability is not strong, and Li Jia was hit just as hard.

"Fortunately, he was rescued in time and nothing happened. What if this happens? Uncle Li, you are just such a son. If I say something out of bounds, you are not like my father. You are not as good as my father. "

The switch between the two worlds is so realistic and absolute. In that city, Li Jia only had Qian Peilin in his eyes and his heart. He couldn't see his son, family, parents, and career.As soon as he returned to Changxia, all the problems seemed to emerge from the ground, and they appeared in front of him in an instant. Li Jiang sat decadently on the side of the hospital bed and looked at his son lovingly. He almost lost his family for love.

Jiang Jiang became taciturn and didn't like talking, especially with Li Jia.But when Li Jia was not around, he would become irritable again. Even if he was going to fetch water or cook food, Jiang Jiang would flip through the magazines and books that were put aside.

Jiang Jiang's bed was next to the door, and when he was free, he faced the wall and scratched at the top of the wall.Such a son makes Li Jia feel distressed. When Jiang Jiang picked up the paint on the door when he was young, his mother always said that he was not sensible, but Li found that his son would only do this when he was nervous.Facing Jiang Jiang who was like a wandering soul, Li Jia waited cautiously, and often asked ten questions and probably would not answer a single one. Fortunately, when the doctor checked the bed, he would gently say two complete sentences.Others thought he was an introverted child, but only Li Jia knew how lively and lovely his son used to be, so clever that people liked him.

When feeding Jiang Jiang, Jiang Jiang would go on a hunger strike to protest, but when his father was so anxious that he was about to cry, he comforted him with a maturity that shouldn't be there at this age, "Dad, why are you suffering? I didn't seek death, it was just an accident. I I have a sore throat and can't eat." Jiang Jiang didn't talk to his fellow patients, and there was constant noise in the ward, and the father and son were peaceful and comfortable.One was lying there, the other was sitting by the bed, and when they looked at each other occasionally, Jiang Jiang sighed, and then turned his eyes to look up at the ceiling.

It's not the peak season for medical treatment, Li Jia, the bed assistant next to him, would fall asleep at night, and sometimes squeezed into the same bed with Jiang Jiang.He hugged his son tightly behind him, and whispered "Jiangjiang, Jiangjiang." Jiangjiang didn't fall asleep, of course he could hear the pain in his father's voice, it sounded so sad to him.Jiang Jiang hesitated and didn't know how to respond. He wanted to turn around and hug his father, and also wanted to tearfully accuse him, but he was afraid that after the relationship was healed, his father would disappear from his life again.

Jiang Jiang walked in front, and Li Jia walked aimlessly behind his son, or the two sat on a bench and basked in the sun with half-closed eyes, these are the scenes that are often seen in hospitals recently.

Scenes of what happened when he was young flashed before his eyes. Jiang Jiang felt that since he was sensible, this family was composed of father and son, both of whom were the pillars and indispensable.Although he was young, he puffed up his chest and acted like a good little housekeeper, taking care of the big and small things in the family. Although he was still a child, his father would always listen to his opinions seriously.His father supports him in everything he does, never puts pressure on him, and does whatever he wants.But what happened in the end?Father gave him up!

Originally thought that without his father, half the sky would collapse, but after he was admitted to the hospital, he realized that even when he was irresponsible, his father could take good care of the two of them.If he had shown weakness like this earlier, would he have been protected all the time?Jiang Jiang suddenly wanted to cry, regretting why he was so strong in the first place.

Jiang Jiang's tears fell from the corners of his eyes, over and over again, Li Jia gently wiped his son's face, changing paper towels one after another.

"Dad~" Jiang Jiang finally called Li Jia, "I want to suspend school."

Li Jia was stunned, "Okay~"

At that moment, Jiang Jiang breathed a sigh of relief and leaned on his father. From then on, he will rely on his father wholeheartedly.

Li Jia left in a hurry and simply packed his luggage. When Palin received the call and sent someone to pick it up, it was already too late.Li Jia left just like that, coming and going in a hurry, the room seemed to have nothing missing except for one person.But Perrin felt that no matter where he looked, it felt empty.

In the past, no matter how tired and exhausted he was, he had to resist. After Li Jia came, even if there was a gap between the two, even if Palin disagreed with him, as long as he was still by his side, he felt that those irritability and depression were shared by others.Comfortable and comfortable, like gentle poetry, it seems ordinary, but in fact, there is something interesting in the simplicity.

Palin sat silently in the apartment, the room was filled with smoke, like an old mansion hidden in a golden house, hidden and secret.Li Jia's side face loomed faintly, and when Palin stretched out his hand to touch it, it turned into smoke and dissipated as soon as it was touched. When the cigarette butt was extinguished, that face also disappeared in the space.

When I was with Li Jia, there was always an illusion of whether they would go their separate ways before dawn.In Palin's self-confidence, he always had a premonition that Li Jia would leave, sooner or later, so Palin became even more nervous.Now that Li Jia has really left, Palin is distressed that he doesn't "let him go" as he thought before.

"Li Jia, I really miss you."

"Perlin, I can't get away. I'll be back later."

Li Jia used the word go back.

Why didn't Palin want to let go of himself and Li Jia, just let it go and don't ask, don't look at each other, it seems that they have never appeared in each other's lives.

But how can you not pay attention, even if you pretend to be ruthless, your heart is hanging on that person, and even the city where that person lives becomes special.Whether it's someone else's speech, a word in the news, or a map that appears in a weather forecast, you will always glance at it inadvertently, and always catch it with your ears pricked up.

It hurt so deeply because I cared about that relationship and that person.If there is happiness in the relationship between them, the only way is to learn to forget, forget the past hurt, forget the past betrayal, and only remember the days when they loved each other.Meet and get acquainted again like first love, and then promise to stay together for a lifetime, not only don’t mention the past and only look at the future, but also erase that period of truth from the bottom of my heart, so that I won’t think of myself in the dead of night. A man who has reached this point either has a forgiving heart, or has suffered from amnesia.

Tangle, pain, and memories, Palin almost drove himself crazy, and had to admit the fact that the word Li Jia had penetrated deeply into his bone marrow.He seems to live only for this one person, without him, everything is meaningless.Palin decided to go to Eversummer.

Palin found a doctor to inquire about Jiang Jiang's condition first, and finally met Zhou Dazhi who also came to visit him. Palin squinted his eyes to see the gaudy man holding the gaudy flowers in the pot, and his toothache was slightly painful.

Zhou Dazhi had newly cut his hair, dressed neatly and cleanly, looked at the gift in his hand with joy, and laughed while walking. When he saw Pei Yao, he froze for a moment, and blinked in disbelief, "Mr. Qian? Ah!"

Perrin nodded at him as a greeting.

"You also came to see Jiang Jiang?" Zhou Dazhi finally found his voice.

Zhou Dazhi knew a little about them, but he was not very clear about the specifics. He imagined that he was lying outside the door and eavesdropping on the sound inside, and the imaginative scene was activated, but the people inside were replaced by himself and Li Jia.

Seeing Zhou Dazhi's face flushed, Palin felt unwell for no reason, and suddenly remembered Li Jia's business, so he asked Zhou Dazhi, "Is your company's business expanding smoothly?"

"It's okay, I'm barely alive, I have to ask for money to take care of me!" Zhou Dazhi's occupational disease broke out, Qian Peilin stood in front of him like a gold ingot, and Zhou Dazhi inevitably had to talk about business wooing.

Palin laughed, "Why do you still need us to take care of you? Your tentacles are so long!" These words were very meaningful, obviously there was something special in it, Zhou Dazhi didn't want to be swallowed when he was a small fish, "Why? Will it? Our company has only received one business in a few months, barely making a living. You also know that business is not easy these days. Let’s talk about the people on the construction site. If the scaffolding is dismantled to the bottom, one can fall to death. Where to go to reason?"

Palin didn't take it seriously, this trivial matter is nothing, it would be a miracle if there were no accidents at the construction site, it would be so miraculous that one wonders if there might be a bigger accident waiting somewhere.It’s just that what Zhou Dazhi said was not quite the same as what Li Jia said, and Palin also felt that there seemed to be something wrong with the investigation, “Does your company also run business with technology? How much is the commission?”

Zhou Dazhi laughed, "Mr. Qian really knows how to tell jokes. Our company's technology is all stupid. Even if the director asks him to take over the project, it is still a denominator for others."

"Then, what is Li Jia responsible for now?"

"Li Jia? He resigned last year."

Perrin's pupils shrank suddenly.Palin remembers that when he went to Zhou Dazhi's company, he saw the regulations on the wall, one of which was "dismiss if you ask for more than five days of leave every month." Yes, all the people who come to work in our company are our own people, and it is inevitable that there will be times when we need to accommodate, this rule is a bit useless, but it is put on display to look better."

So when Li Jia said that he was on a business trip, Palin only thought that the company sent him out to win this opportunity, and even discussed that it would be beneficial to join Xiaobai in the company.And that man actually told him in all seriousness what kind of reimbursement policy the company had and the standard of accommodation, and even made up a XX president of the company with whom he had business dealings. Palin's headache was splitting. It never occurred to him to check.

It can be seen from many details that Li Jia is not on a business trip, but he has never thought about it, even if it is a vacation, which private company will give such a long vacation?Zhou Dazhi was still talking to himself, "Li Jia once told me to keep it secret, so when I met Jiang Jiang, I didn't tell him that his father was unemployed for so long. I didn't expect such a thing to happen to Jiang Jiang." Only then did Palin find out How long has it been since I paid attention to Li Jia? Perhaps when we meet again, Li Jia has put all his thoughts into it, and he is just perfunctory.