Balance beam

Perin closed his eyes and pressed his forehead against the door. Whether Li Jia was there or not, he was in a state of vacillation. For a moment, words of persuasion came to his lips. He hoped that Li Jia would not leave, but he was not sure that he would stay.

Hurting Li Jia hurts him, and it hurts even more in my heart.When I came back with Li Jia yesterday, Palin thought about it for a long time, but couldn't give a reasonable explanation. Could it be that I really didn't think about it? I hope you don't mind?

It seems that the more Li Jia endures, the more he proves that he loves himself.In fact, when Li Jia first said that he loved him, Palin was not used to it, and now he doesn't fully believe it, but he has subconsciously regarded this sentence as a life-saving straw, hoping that Li Jia can willingly bear it because of this word of love.

Palin could almost imagine his furious reproach, "Don't you love me? That's how you love me, and you get cold feet, Li Jia, you're kidding me." It seemed that that was the fact that would happen soon.

Li Jia was physically and mentally exhausted, and reluctantly poured milk, his temples were pounding with his hands resting on the table.

When he heard the sound of the door lock, he thought it was an auditory hallucination. At this time, Palin should be in the company.

He leaned his ears on the door panel and listened carefully. The sound of the key poking the keyhole was so clear. Li Jia nervously held the doorknob and mustered up his courage before opening the door.

Palin was startled, not because Li Jiapeng was dirty, but because this man was still there.

Palin's eyes were bright, his surprise was covered up in an instant, and his anger was steaming. He hugged Li Jia and put it on his shoulders, and then fell on the big bed in the room. At that moment, Li Jia could clearly feel his anger.Palin folded his hands at the waistband of his trousers and huffed, "Where are you going?"

Li Jia was thrown into a daze, and Palin leaned halfway above him, with his palms propped up on the soft mattress, trapping Li Jia between his arms, his expression so horrifying that one could feel that his hair was standing on end, "What do I ask you?" ,where are you going?"

Li Jia gasped in shock with his mouth open, and quietly touched Palin's face with his hands, sympathetically comforting him, "Palin, I'm not going anywhere."

Palin's flame was instantly extinguished, he slowly lowered his head, and then buried his face on Li Jia's shoulder, "Why don't you go, why don't you go?"

There was a repeated murmur in Li Jia's eyes, with despair in his eyes, he wrapped his arms around the back of Palin's neck, moved slowly but finally clenched his wrists, encircled Palin tightly, and gently rubbed his cheek against Palin's. On Lin's face, Li Jia wept, "Why do you want me to go?"

"Where do you want me to go again?"

Palin's hatred, Palin's despair, Palin's helplessness, Palin's every emotional change made him worry, Palin's every forbearance made him feel distressed, he is no longer Li Jia back then, now Li Jia, Helplessness was seen through Perrin's indifference.

Palin's hands planted pieces of fire on Li Jia's body. One knee was pressed on the mattress, and the other leg was squeezed between Li Jia's legs. So overwhelming.Palin repeated morbidly, "Li Jia, why don't you go? Why don't you go?"

Li Jia had no choice but to answer in a murmur, "Because I love you, I love you."

Palin's movements paused for an instant, "Li Jia, what are you talking about?" He met Li Jia's eyes, put his arms around his neck and pulled Li Jia into his arms, the force made Li Jia almost suffocate.Palin kissed Li Jia's cheeks, eyelashes, bridge of nose, corners of mouth, as if nothing was enough.

In fact, after the passion, the doubts are deeper.How is this possible?Ricardo what?The man who used to avoid at every turn, is now bold and always talks about love.While not believing it, let him repeat over and over again, "Say, who do you love and what do you love about me?"

Li Jia was tortured enough yesterday, but today's enthusiasm is beyond his ability. While resisting the fiery claws, he racked his brains to sum up all the advantages of Palin.There must be some reason for liking a person, even a side face, even a movement, even a bad character, that is the only thing he left for you.

And even if Qian Peilin didn't admit that he was the kind of person who was bitten by a snake for ten years and was afraid of well ropes, he still had to look sideways at Li Jia's praise. He learned to be so snobbish?If money can tie him down, why not?

Li Jia was frightened by the huge investment. This small apartment changed almost every day. Li Jia was tongue-tied and faced the furniture all over the floor. Palin took off his shoes and threw them aside, but only took his hand and kissed.Li Jia rubbed Palin's hair, his eyes were full of sadness, they had already gone back, everyone was holding back, what would happen if something broke out one day?

Calm as Qian Peilin, he never revealed anything about everything, but his recent behavior is very abnormal. The person who can affect him will not have a second choice except Li Jia. Fortunately or unfortunately, only self-knowledge.

Ordinary love can only make people proud, but Palin's love is destined to shock and anger.

Even when he sees a courier delivery guy in the elevator, Palin will make excuses, "Why did he come? Who is he? You just open the door for others so casually? What if it's a paparazzi? Read a book? What book? I don't need to see those things."

Torturing people like being angry, he would hug Li Jia afterwards and say, "I've been too sensitive recently, Sonia is always fighting with me, I'm so tired." Palin doesn't know when it started, and she is no longer used to saying sorry , as a superior person, sorry words will pour out like running water, and those three words will never be spit out as easily as when I was young.

Unrestrained indulgence is like a carnival at the end of the day, accompanied by the ear-piercing and even more irritating words "You look like this, has anyone else seen it? That Zhou Dazhi circles around you like a greedy cat, how much fishy smell does he have?" Haven't licked your fingers like this...haven't you licked your place like this?"

Li Jia hid his face in embarrassment, and the unstoppable reaction of his body pushed him to an even more excited peak. Perin clearly knew that they had nothing to do, but always provoked his nerves with such provocative words, and Li Jia wept in the climax.

Li Jia was so aggrieved that the corners of his eyes were red from crying. Palin used a towel to cover his lower body, grabbed his hair with one hand and kissed Li Jia over and over regretfully, "I'm out of control, I'm out of control."

Li Jia felt that Palin had changed. He became disgusted in an instant, and became extremely gentle in an instant. Every time, he seemed to be standing on the edge of a cliff, and he switched back to reason almost uncontrollably at the next moment. He was the one who forced him to Gotta go crazy?Why did he do this, Li Jia didn't know how to untie Palin's knot.

He thought that the wound would gradually heal with his hard work, but the crack was still there but faint.Since there has been a split, there is no hope that it will be restored to its original state. Like the best porcelain, no one will know that the plaster inside is grafted after being repaired. As long as they are still together, that's fine.

Li Jia never expected that the wound under Palin's skin was so hideous that it could be seen deep into the bones. How can we bring them back to the past?Palin's melancholy emanating from his bones broke Li Jia's heart. If time could be turned back, if time could be turned back, that would be great.

Perrin would not look at him expectantly like a lovelorn woman, nor would he show weakness and cry and mourn in front of him, pretending as if nothing had happened, but in fact the undercurrent was raging.

Those who are hurt are always calmer than those who hurt others. It is precisely because they owe something that they have the initiative.The ignorant lovers may take pleasure in holding the braids, and from time to time they take them out to show off.Palin just keeps his face, Li Jia will be more cautious, recalling the years of indulgence when he was young and ignorant, he feels that the past is so ridiculous that it is not worth mentioning.

Li Jia went out less and less. Although he signed up for the study class, he never went to the class except for the first time.No clubbing, no shopping, not even downstairs.When the secretary reported Li Jia's situation, Palin listened carefully with an indifferent expression.

Perrin tried to readjust his relationship with Li Jia, but couldn't help but keep looking at him, as long as he saw the lights on there, his heart warmed to go up.Every time the person facing him, behind that door, he unconsciously transformed into the one with a strong desire for control.

A fully committed fusion that feels like the ultimate indulgence every time. "Li Jia, I like you, I like you." Pressing that person against the door panel and rubbing him into his arms was not enough.Li Jia also seemed to be used to Palin's changes, trying his best to meet every request, and adapting with swings.Pressed against the tiles in the bathroom, with the cold decoration on his cheek, Li Jia would turn his head and kiss him, "Palin, I love you, I love you."

When the vows were blurted out without a pause, as natural and smooth as eating and drinking, something was broken between them, neither of them wanted to find out what it was, and let their relationship slip into such an unknown direction .

Li Jia accepted Palin silently. Palin refused to return home unless he was allowed to go home, and refused to answer the school's phone calls if he was not allowed to.The constant "harassment" by the teachers in the cram school even became Palin's excuse for "punishment" at certain times. The different fun games were so devoted to the performance that Li Jia even consciously didn't dare to look at others more.Most of the time, Li Jia would sit there quietly and look at Palin, his eyes full of pity.

Palin couldn't test Li Jia's bottom line, let him use his mouth with his mouth, let him use his hands with his hands, let him lie on his back with his clothes off, and Li Jia took off his clothes and put his mouth on his back. Holding Perrin's stuff in his mouth, and holding the pouch in his hands and gently massaging with his fingertips, with that face and that expression, even if he tried his best to control the desire under him, he would collapse at the last moment.

The cold and hard lines on Palin's face made Li Jia uneasy. If Palin couldn't even bring pleasure in this aspect, what should they do?Maybe it's not far from breaking up.

Seeing that person nervously fawning over him, Perrin's heart was extremely empty, and the more he did it intensely, the more uneasy he became.The original Li Jia is like a bubble, and even the illusory shadow no longer exists. The current relationship is not what he wants, and it should not be what Li Jia wants. What do you want to save? Seeing himself, the never-spoken word of love danced and flickered in his eyes.

Palin expanded his anger, facing Palin who looked like a transformed monster. Everyone around was panicked, but no one was spared. Palin launched an attack on Baili and swaggered at Sonia.

Sonia said I couldn't stand it, and Bai Li said I couldn't stand it either.Sonia told Bai Li that he was in love, and Bai Li was stunned, "This love is too terrible." Indeed, Palin's love is so terrible, like a volcanic eruption, if you don't move, you will die and suffer countless injuries.

It was the first time Sonia saw Palin drinking heavily, and it was the first time she saw Palin look helpless, "Palin, please don't do this." Sonia took his bottle away, and Palin looked up. The expression of her smile made her feel that the two of them were so sad, how lucky and how unfortunate. In the past, they felt that their life was a disaster because they could not get the love of this man, but now as an outsider, they felt a little sympathetic to Li Jia. Not being in love with Qian Peilin for He Zhi is also a disaster, and it is the kind that is inevitable.

Sonia and Bai Li made an appointment to elope, and when they packed up their things and were about to go downstairs quietly, Song Song stood in the corridor with the little bear in his arms, and called out crisply, "Mom?"

Sonia shivered in fright, put the luggage by her feet and squatted down to kiss her son. The son's terrified eyes and the expression of staring at the suitcase scared her, but the future was more attractive, so she gritted her teeth and stomped her feet and finally became ruthless. Leaving, pulling away his son's hand, watching Songsong being dragged to the ground, he paused for a while and finally didn't try to help him up.

Songsong raised his head and cried loudly, only wailed a few times, and only shed a few tears, and saw his mother fleeing upstairs in a panic, "Shh, Song Song, don't tell your parents that you are going out."

From the open bedroom door, Songsong saw her mother put the luggage into the big wardrobe, then took off her clothes and put her pajamas on her body. She didn't have time to change the clothes if they were worn backwards, so she crawled into the room again. in the quilt.

Songsong hugged the little bear in a daze, stared blankly at the door, hesitating whether to go over and ask her mother if she was sick?The sound of pedaling footsteps was like an earthquake, and Dad came up.Perrin picked up his son and kissed him on the cheek, then shut him into his room, "Shut up, go to sleep, don't come out."

The door was locked, and Song Song scratched the door with his little paws. Although he couldn't open it, he was relieved, at least his mother would not be able to leave.He hugged the little bear to bed, hugged it tightly in his arms, kissed the little bear loosely on the face, and closed his eyes with peace of mind, "I can finally sleep."