Balance beam

Even when Jiang Jiang was on vacation in previous years, he rarely slept until the afternoon. This time, he was obviously in a weak state of mind. He often slept until the afternoon, played games all afternoon with his disheveled hair, and then watched half-night dog blood series. Then sleep again.

Li Jia's mother asked Li Jia in private, "Jiang Jiang will enter a higher school next year, which school does he want to take? Why doesn't he review any homework? The child's condition is not very good, is there something wrong?"

Li Jia squeaked and murmured at the end of the explanation and only said, "Maybe it's because of too much pressure?"

Even the mother could see that her son had been hit, and Li Jia was even more uneasy sitting in front of Jiang Jiang.

The white rice in the Jiangjiang bowl is neat and sticky. After eating the rice for many years, the rice in my hometown feels even more delicious.

Use chopsticks to pick up the grains one by one, slowly draw them into your mouth, chew slowly, and you will have a fragrance of rice.

He didn't touch the vegetables and chicken that his father put into the bowl.It's not awkward, I don't want to eat at all.

Li Jia has a bad stomach and doesn't like to eat hard rice. Jiang Jiang will wash the rice and soak it every night, and then steam it the next morning.The rice in my hometown is of the best quality, which cannot be bought in the city where I live.Mailing is not cost-effective, so when they go back every year, both father and son haul a big bag.Both Jiang Jiang and his father are thin and thin, and a bag of more than one hundred catties of rice is not a small burden for the father and son, not to mention the various special products that grandma forced in.Jiang Jiang never complained, never said a word of trouble, but smiled cheerfully, "It's delicious again."

In fact, he eats the most pasta and leaves the rice for his father.

After Dabao came back, he took part in an English tutoring class and asked him if he wanted to go to the tutoring class together, but Jiang Jiang refused.

He also knew that it was time to study, but when the textbook was spread out in front of him, his eyes became dizzy and he didn't want to do anything.

Even if he didn't watch TV, he would just sit there lazily and be in a daze for the whole afternoon.

Jiang Jiang didn't know what was wrong with him, but the current state was obviously wrong.No one taught him how to deal with it, not in the textbook, and never heard of such a thing among his classmates.

Just like a person on earth who has been hijacked by aliens, even if he disappears for a moment in front of others, it will be a long interstellar journey for him. He has encountered unprecedented shocks, is lonely and lonely, longs to be rescued, and does not know Who to turn to for help.

Even if he was playing games, as long as his father was not in the house, he would panic and feel insecure.

When I was young, my father was like a god, and he was my eternal backer.

I remember that when I was young, I would pick up a stone every day and go home. Grandma often found all kinds of stones in his pocket or trouser pocket. The pockets are worn off."

And his father would ask him, "Jiang Jiang, why did you bring them back? Do you think they are special?"

Jiang Jiang cried and wiped his face with his dirty little hands, "I think it looks like a kitten."

Although it felt that the stone was not like a kitten, but more like cotton candy.

Since then, Jiang Jiang has been allowed to pick up a stone that he thinks is the most special every day.

Watching my father brush the stone clean and put it in the fish tank for preservation.

Faced with grandma's dissatisfaction, my father would even explain with a smile, "Actually, when I was young, I also thought they were very special. I always wanted to pick them up, but when I thought of being hand-banged, I had to give up."

One day he picked up a cobblestone that Heli could layer like a cake, but when he returned home, the stone leaked out through the hole in his trouser pocket, Jiang Jiang was very sad.

He was morose all night.

The adults didn't know why he was worried and why he cried. Grandpa even wore a Monkey King mask and held a rattle in his hand, dancing in front of him, showing his true face from time to time and yelling "meow~", as if he was playing blind touch with him.Did he think he was a little kid in the cradle? He was so naive, Jiang couldn't help but burst into tears!

It was his father who took his hand and squatted in front of him, "Jiang Jiang, why are you crying? Why didn't you bring back the stone today? Is your stone missing?"

Jiang Jiang was aggrieved and choked up, gesturing to the shape of the stone, crying even more sadly.

Father's gentle voice comforted, "It's really a pity to lose it, so let's go out and find a special stone and bring it back, shall we?"

When I was young, my grandma often said that my father spoiled him too much, and he would never grow up by his side.But it was his father who told him to be self-reliant, and it was his father who told him that it was okay to be bullied by others, but he couldn't just endure it.

When he changed from a child who would cry when seeing others fight to a big boy who now uses words as knives to hurt others.

When he was praised by the neighbors around him, and was appraised by the teacher as a good monitor with good studies and good popularity, his father's doting seemed to be getting farther and farther away.

Jiang Jiang couldn't remember when the tall father's image became a weak man, and he needed to support the family with his shoulders.In fact, he is not strong enough to bear everything, he still wants his father's care and his father's love.

He really wanted his father to squat down and ask him what happened to Jiang Jiang?He really wanted to lie on Li Jia's body and let his father pat him on the back and say comforting words.Instead of looking at him with worried and sad eyes like now.

Occasionally, I heard my father talking on the phone, "Yes, yes. I'm not very busy, I know." He whispered softly, and that expression was never shown to him or to others.

Jiang Jiang grabbed the door frame with one hand and picked it up bit by bit, until the paint on the door fell off one piece after another.

When he was young, his father liked to take him to the park, play on swings and play games. For a while, his father always liked to hug him, and then looked blankly into the distance, not knowing what he was thinking.Now I remember it deeply, probably because the sadness on his father at that time gave him too strong an impression.

Jiang Jiang remembers things relatively early. He still remembers the fact that he didn't want to be called grandma when he was three years old because he had a fight with his grandma.I even remember that grandma gave the newly bought bananas to the children next door in order to anger him, "You call me grandma, thank me, and I will give you bananas." Occasionally mentioning this incident, grandma only remembers the first half but not In the second half, he would still say with a smile, "Little poor boy, I really hold a grudge."

At that time, he didn't remember why he went to the park with his father every day. He only remembered that the sky changed from blue to red and then black.

It seems that the weather is always good, and the clouds are beautiful and mysterious, like a distant dream.

Now my father is by my side, but like the clouds at that time, drifting away gradually.

Li Jia put down the phone and saw his son digging with his fingernails intently, and laughed, "When you were young, because you always picked the wall, grandma often hit your hands."

"Really?" He had a little impression. Grandma said that he was like a puppy who loves to chew on the wall. area has been continuously expanded.

What were you doing at that time?Because of loneliness?boring?But what was my father thinking at that time?Is it also because of loneliness?Still missing?

Dabao enthusiastically asks Jiangjiang to go skating, but Jiangjiang doesn't want to go.

"What's the matter? Didn't you always say you want to learn to skate?"

Jiang Jiang rolled his eyes, "Then take my dad along."

Dabao's tone was very reserved, "Is your dad going too?"

"You don't want to?" Jiang Jiang was dissatisfied.

"It's not that he doesn't want to. Can he play with us? It's a bit awkward to have elders present, right?"

"Do you think my dad is as rigid as your dad? My dad is the most approachable. Besides, I don't worry about throwing him home alone."

"How can you be alone at home? Okay! Okay! You can do whatever you say."

Although Li Jia also encouraged his son to play, he was somewhat embarrassed in the face of the enthusiastic lobbying of the two children. He is a person who can rollerblade and wrestle.

Jiang Jiang took his father out together, playing games and skating, having a great time.Seeing his innocent and lively son, Li Jiaxuan's heart was hanging for several days before he gradually let go.After all, he is still his own child, and he just wants to love him better.

During the winter month, Li Jia was very busy, during which time he met his ex-wife once.

Because the ex-wife wanted to see her son, she made an appointment to meet at a restaurant outside after the year.

As soon as they met, grandma pulled Jiang Jiang into her arms and cried bitterly, "Poor child, your father took you so far away, I can't even see you, I miss you so much, grandma."

The impression of these two women, Jiang Jiang, is already blurred, and he wants to get close but can't.Especially when I heard the old lady say, "Your father, even a big man, can't take care of children. Look at Jiang Jiang starving us like dried tofu. It's really pitiful."

Jiang Jiang didn't feel that he was pitiful. Although he knew that the old man loved him, he felt wronged for his father.In fact, for a big man like him, it was really not easy to stretch himself to such a big size.

The meal was not pleasant, and in order not to irritate his son, he didn't talk too much in front of Jiang Jiang.While the child was going to the toilet, the atmosphere between Li Jia and his ex-wife suddenly became tense.

The ex-wife complained to Li Jia with tears in her eyes, "Do you know how much my mother misses Jiang Jiang? I am a mother. Even if I don't ask, you will take the initiative to bring your children to see me? I don't know how to come during the Chinese New Year." Happy New Year, just make a phone call? Do you want your son to break away from me? Don't forget, he was born and raised by me. "

"I don't know what he eats, what he wears, what he uses. You never let him take the initiative to call me, do you think it's fair to me? I miss him so much, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night, thinking that I still have My son is in Changxia, but I don't know any news about him, and I often break out in cold sweat. Li Jia, you are too ruthless, you are taking revenge on me, aren't you?"

Their relationship went from enjoying the sweetness at the very beginning to the disgust period when they broke up. Li Jia found that all the good temper of his ex-wife was used on others, and all the meanness was reserved for himself.

I used to think it was an honor, but now it is a bit difficult to accept.

It turned out that I fell in love with such a woman with a great contrast between the outside and the inside.As the years passed, the woman's figure became swollen, and the meanness spread from the corners of her eyes and brows, even if she didn't speak, there was a sharpness in her face.

No matter how surprised I feel now, I still have to admit that this is the woman I once liked.This is how a person treats another person when he no longer has feelings for him.Even if those words are said from the lungs and abdomen, it is really sad and abnormal, but to me, it is irrelevant, like a talking device talking about distress, and it is only annoying to hear it in the ear.

Li Jia was so shocked by his new discovery that he could not speak. He looked at his ex-wife with his mouth slightly open, and a thought lingered in his heart.

"Li Jia, don't always look stupid. How did you manage Jiang Jiang? He's as thin as bean sprouts. If you can't handle it well, leave it to me!"

"How do you know I can't bring it well?" Li Jia put the coffee on the table, "What did you do?"

After being married for many years, he never said a harsh word to his wife, never lost his temper once, even if they broke up, he just silently mourned and licked his wounds.

The ex-wife looked at him in surprise, hehe sneered, "Okay, I haven't seen you for many years, I've learned a lot."

Jiang Jiang could feel the indifference of father and mother talking across the table, no matter how far they stood.

When I was young, I wished that my parents were like other people's parents, but now I feel that the two of them are incompatible.

Some parents treat each other with respect and respect, even when they are old, they often date secretly, just like the parents of the junior who I make up for.Some parents are like Dabao’s parents, noisy every day, they can even laugh at each other’s shortcomings, keep swearing, the other’s code name is either stupid or 250, but when they encounter trouble, they will immediately stand in the other’s position Unanimously external, eat hard together and live a good life together.

No matter which situation, it is not suitable for his parents. It seems that his father and his mother should be separate individuals by nature. If they are put together, they are not a good match.In the past, they would still fantasize. After all, they gave birth to themselves, and they would have a tacit understanding. Today, they have a real understanding, and there are no more fantasies to speak of.

The holiday is almost over, and Li Jia and Jiang Jiang return to Changxia together.

"Dad, I washed all the clothes, you can hang them up!"

Jiang Jiang didn't mention the matter of letting Li Jia go back, and Li Jia was too embarrassed to bring it up.

Li Jia was very busy, and so was Palin. The relatives of his family and Suo's family, the courtesies in the business field, and mutual visits, soon came to an end in February.

"Why did you go back without even saying hello?"

"I'm here to see my son off."

"Okay, come back as soon as you make arrangements, I bought something good for you."

After a long vacation of more than half a month, the employees have already returned to work one after another, and Palin has also started to deploy new plans.I haven't seen Li Jia for a month, of course I miss him.

After meeting his ex-wife, Li Jia gained a new understanding of his future relationship with Palin. Although he was uneasy, he could only silently wait for that day to come.Although it was a bit tragic before the execution, I still hope that the day will be counted one day later.

Good thing Palin said, he wasn't expecting much.Palin had given him a lot of things, almost all the things in the residence were added by Palin.Palin changed everything from furniture to toiletries, and the clothes in the closet were also changed by Palin. The suit he wore today was also arranged by Palin, and the style was very suitable for him.

Da Bao was taken aback when he knocked on the door dragging his luggage, "Uncle Li is really, really handsome."

Jiang Jiang seemed dissatisfied and asked him, "My dad is very handsome, what are you doing here?"

"The old guys are fighting again, and this time they have already started to skimp."

"Then what are you doing at my house instead of staying at home to try and persuade the fight?"

"It's not that my parents don't know, the more you persuade me, the more fierce the beating. Have you seen my arm? It was hit by a big spoon."

Jiang Jiang held Dabao's arm and sighed, "Your father is really ruthless."

"It wasn't my father, my mother did it."

"Because of what?"

"It's not all the second guarantee."

"What happened to the second insurance?"

Da Bao was embarrassed, "Second Bao was blackmailed by his classmates, and he always asked for pocket money from the housekeeper."

"Blackmailed? Who did it?"

"A little bastard in their class."

"And then? Did your parents take care of the second insurance?"

"No, I taught that little bastard a lesson."

"... "

"Who knew he was so careless that he broke a bone."

"... "

"My father said that the child deserved a beating, and my mother said that my subordinates were not serious, and the beating cost thousands of dollars. Our family was reasonable, but our family was ignorant. It's just these messy things. It's nothing important, the two of them quarreled, and they got involved in the past, just when my dad was running the transportation, come on, don't mention them, it's annoying. Besides, they always make trouble, they always make excuses for nothing, and even more What's more, now, I'm here to hide from you for two days."

Jiang Jiang squinted at him, "I have no place in my house."

While the children were bickering and gossiping, Li Jia had already walked downstairs and got into a black car parked by the roadside.

The low-key color can't hide the luxury of the car, just take a closer look and you will be amazed by its logo.The sound of starting up the high-end car and the balanced chassis during operation all give people a different enjoyment.

After Li Jia came in, the car quickly closed the door, and then flew out smoothly and quickly, increasing its horsepower like an arrow off the string.