fault tolerance

It has been 3 days since Tang Lou moved to Zhu Guangrong's house.

Not too long but not too short, he had the illusion that the days seemed like years.

He gave Zhou Yu his phone number, but the phone never rang.But the frequency of looking at the mobile phone has become higher and higher.

The first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is to check whether there are any missed calls on my phone.When get out of class is over, be sure to check your phone.Even before going to bed, make sure to cancel the sleep mode, for fear of missing calls.

He's kind of crazy.

I pushed Zhou Yu away by myself, told him not to do unnecessary things, and thought about him every day.

When class was over that day, he habitually went downstairs from the fire escape on the side of the teaching building, because the head of the department had blocked him for several days, and wanted him to complete the psychological treatment as soon as possible.

Sitting in Dr. Wu's consulting room, opening up and chatting for an hour, what effect can it have?

He understands, he understands everything.

A psychiatrist's favorite trick, ask, what was your childhood like?his childhood?That's a psychiatrist's paradise.

Countless lonely nights, a child who can only fall asleep in a closet.In order to show the so-called maternal love, his mother insisted on taking him away after divorce and raising him alone.But she is a love brain, she loves one when she sees one, and she goes crazy when she loves one.

When Tang Lou was young, the most common sentence he said was: "I love my mother the most." The most frequent response was: "But he doesn't love me!"

who is he?It was the men she had known by passing by, the men who coveted her beauty, the men who spied on her property, and the men who wanted to control her.

Tang Lou watched his mother fall in love again and again, broke down again and again, and finally he stopped saying he loved his mother.Because, he finally figured it out, what his mother needed was never his love.

He learned it well.Get up, go to school, eat the meal cooked by the nanny, hide in the study and read one difficult and obscure book after another.He's not a nerd, he just wants a world where he can breathe freely without needing to please.

Luckily for my mother, she still found her soul mate.He is a liberal, cheerful and enthusiastic, full of adventurous spirit.

So the two decided to spend the rest of their lives searching for the meaning of life while walking.The two decided to travel around the world in a caravan, and Tang Lou was thrown back to the Tang family.

"Xiaolou, welcome home." This was what his father Tang Dali said when he greeted him, but he didn't take it into his heart.

He lived in the furthest room of the Tang family.The room of the younger brother Ah Jun has a large terrace, a large round bathtub that can be used for swimming, and bookshelves full of expensive handicrafts and luxury items.He only has a simple shower and a small bay window.

"If you need anything, just tell me." That's what Sister Xin said to him.Sister Xin was only her father's assistant at the time, but she spoke like the mistress of the Tang family.She is not domineering or domineering, but considerate, as a matter of course.

This natural expression reminded him all the time that he was an outsider.

Misfits, uninvited outsiders.

Zhou Yu also lived with them.But he is a child star touted by the company, and his future is limitless.Everyone talked to him with great care and care.

Anyone Tang Lou wanted to get close to kept a three-point distance from him.After his mother left, he was probably completely healed by love. Looking back, he wanted to make up for his neglect, so sums of pocket money were put into his card.

She drew one sketch after another, showing the appearance of Tang Lou.She said, it would be nice if you were here.But Tang Lou thought, because I'm not here, that's why you miss me.

Father wants to make up for the 8 years of separation, but has lost the fulcrum of communication.He can make his son a star, but Tang Lou has no interest in watching movies, let alone acting in movies.

He tried his best to maintain the stubbornness in his heart, preventing people around him from finding out that he was inferior, cowardly, and timid, and pretended to be stubborn, confident, and omnipotent.

Zhou Yu is his weakness.

Perhaps, just because there is less blood relationship, there is less need to pretend to be friendly.It was easier for him to open up to him instead.

The boy who gave him a sweet bite the first time we met has always lived in my heart.

He wanted to be the first to share all his achievements with Zhou Yu, and he wanted to complain to Zhou Yu about all his lost emotions.Because he believed that Zhou Yu would be really happy for him, and would open his arms to hug him.

Tang Lou once really believed that Zhou Yu also loved him.

It wasn't until he confessed his love, but Zhou Yu kissed Ah Jun, that he realized that Zhou Yu wasn't his own either.

In this world, it seems that except for himself, everyone is not his.

He didn't need to see Dr. Wu, nor did he want to analyze his past and his feelings for Zhou Yu in front of him.

yes!He didn't get the love of his parents, and he didn't get a response to his first love, so he was a person who lacked love.

But what's the matter?

When he kneels and works in the mud of the excavation area, he doesn't need love, just tools and patience.

When he stayed up late writing his thesis, he didn't need love, just coffee and inspiration.

When he was attacked by gangsters, he didn't need love, only weapons and courage.

He's alive and well, isn't he?

Wasn't it just an accident during the inspection work?Troublesome people come out of poor mountains and bad waters, this sentence is applicable everywhere, even if you go abroad.

But he survived.

The injury has healed a long time ago, and when it doesn't rain, I basically don't feel it.

Why go to the doctor!

"Go to the doctor, Professor Tang." The crisp young voice came from behind.

It's Wu Di.

"I'm not going." Tang Lou turned his head, pulled himself out of his complicated thoughts, and responded, "The injury has healed."

"Stress and trauma also need treatment." Wu Di stared firmly into Tang Lou's eyes, "Uncle said you never looked for him."

"Is Wu Chuan too busy?" Tang Lou's voice raised a little, "I'm going back."

"Professor Tang, are you angry with me?"

"No."

Wu Di bit his lower lip and continued to ask, "You've been angry recently. Who are you angry with?"

Who are you mad at?

Tang Lou sighed.