what is the relationship between us

The following plot will be filmed in a film and television city near Shanghai. This is Meng Xinci's last night in City Y. There are not many remaining scenes. Xu Chunye and most of the actors have already returned to Shanghai ahead of schedule.

It stands to reason that Meng Xinci should also leave.

At least for the past 80 days or so, Wan Junxiu's attitude has become obvious.Then no matter how long you stay, it will be useless.

Meng Xinci can't say that Wan Junxiu doesn't love him, that would be too much.But he also knew that Wan Junxiu didn't love himself as much as he imagined, because he couldn't overcome the fear in his heart.

If so, Meng Xinci doesn't know whether Wan Junxiu loves Meng Xinci too much, or really doesn't love Meng Xinci that much.

It used to be the eyes of others, but now it is age and health.

Meng Xinci can't cover other people's mouths, and he can't grow up several years out of thin air.

I can only watch Wan Junxiu throw him away again and again because of these fears.

On the last night, the last batch of crew members also left the film and television city, and Meng Xinci was the only one left in the hotel.

Another screenwriter who accompanied the group asked him if he wanted to go together. He shook his head feebly, saying that he still had some work to do and wanted to stay for another day.

The screenwriter for the group was from Manager Liang's side, and he had nothing to do with Meng Xinci before.After so many days on the set, my impression of this colleague is that Meng Xinci seems to be unhappy at any time. Apart from his working ability, he has no good impression of him.The look of pulling a face at any time is almost carved out of the same mold as Xu Chunye, really worthy of being a master and apprentice.

She said some polite words, seeing that Meng Xinci really had no intention of leaving, she didn't say anything more, and left without looking back with her suitcase.

When all the staff had left, Meng Xinci was like a deflated ball, slumped on the sofa and didn't know what he was thinking.

Just like two years ago, I was inexplicably abandoned again.

He sneered and sat up straight, picked up the cigarette on the table and lit one.

In the smog, Meng Xinci murmured like self-deprecating: "Meng Xinci, you said how unlucky you are? Why is it always you that no one wants?"

No one answered him, and no one will answer him.

Love is always passing, no one loves him all the time, but Meng Xinci loves Wan Junxiu forever without any future.

I like the timeliness, but the hotness of Meng Xinci has a long shelf life.

Now that he has grown up, he wants to present his love to Wan Junxiu without reservation, and ask him to see his heart that beats only for him.

Taking advantage of the expiration date, Meng Xinci wanted to try again, at least not to disappoint himself.

He took out his mobile phone and called Wan Junxiu again, thinking he was worthless.

He laughed silently several times before the call was connected.

Wan Junxiu, you can coax me quickly, just once, as long as you coax me, I will still be your cutest and obedient child.

If you are still like this this time and don't want me, then don't bother me again.

After the call was connected, Meng Xinci didn't know what to say anymore, and stared at Wan Junxiu's name on the phone in a daze.

Wan Junxiu was the same, he didn't know what to say, but he had a lot to say.

After a while, he finally spoke: "Isn't Xinci busy today?"

The voice was still as gentle as before, like a pot of warm water pouring over Meng Xinci.

This sentence, on the contrary, gave the impression that Meng Xinci was too busy, so Wan Junxiu didn't call.

It was not Meng Xinci who was the one, but Wan Junxiu was considerate and sensible.

He was speechless, and could only answer dryly: "We're going to transfer groups, and they're all back to Shanghai."

"What about you? Why didn't you go back with them?"

Wan Junxiu hunched over, with almost his entire upper body lying on the dining table.

Since Meng Xinci left angrily more than two months ago, his heart has not been at peace.

The first is fear, fear of growing old quickly, fear of being an upright youth, but it seems that there is not much time left.

This fear is not unfounded, but accumulated over time.He himself knew exactly what his body was like. When he was first paralyzed, he was very weak, and he could hardly recover and take care of himself.

Later, I can take care of myself, and relying on my young age, I don’t want to bother others, so many things are obviously not good, but I keep trying to be brave.Especially after bringing the child home, Wan Junxiu couldn't care less about his body.

After being ill that time, Wan Junxiu obviously felt that his body was not as good as before. It seemed that the age of 30 was a hurdle, and he could still be brave at the other end. After crossing this hurdle, he could only accept his fate.

After being paralyzed for a long time, he will develop osteoporosis, and the number of books on his lap has become much less than before, so he can only carry it two more times.

The number of convulsions was much less than before, but this proved that his muscles had almost shrunk, his body no longer struggled, and he voluntarily gave up Wan Junxiu.

In this way, it takes more effort to raise the arm, and the more effort it takes, the easier it is to tire.

It's just that he didn't admit it, not all these things were caused by Meng Xinci's discovery that the white hair started to break out.

It's like the back pain today, and it's not because I fell down because I was restless recently.

It has been a common occurrence for him to wrestle because of lack of physical strength these years, so why is he restless?

From fear to guilt, I felt guilty about why I went to Shanghai to tease Meng Xinci, and told him that I would be together forever.

The word forever is so ironic, he doesn't know how long he can live, so how dare he say that he will be with Meng Xinci forever.

I said it, but I couldn't do it, and I deserved to die.

But in Wan Junxiu's heart, Meng Xinci was really too good, so good that Wan Junxiu felt that being with him was unworthy.

His body is not worthy of Meng Xinci's robustness.

His age is not worthy of Meng Xinci's youth.

His cowardice is not worthy of Meng Xinci's bravery.

If they are really together, Meng Xinci is doomed to work hard and pay more in the future.

Wan Junxiu Meng Xinci will one day become famous, and others know that his partner is actually a disabled person.

He didn't even want to ask Meng Xinci to give up his bright future and come to serve him by the bedside when he was really old, or lingering on the sick bed, and could no longer move.

The last thing I want to see is for the two of them to live together for a few short years, and finally ask Meng Xinci to collect his body, and then Meng Xinci will spend the rest of his life alone.

Wan Junxiu couldn't accept any of the above items, and every one of them was too cruel to Meng Xinci.

Meng Xinci ignored Wan Junxiu and asked him with a frown: "Do you want me to leave so fast? I have returned to Shanghai, and I won't be back for a long, long time. I have to go to school, and I still have work to do." .”

Counting the days, it turned out to be 82 days. Before the original 82 days, Meng Xinci still thought that at least they would be together for no less than [-] hours.

Unexpectedly, it took less than four hours to finally land on the ground.

How could Meng Xinci be reconciled?

Wan Junxiu was really in pain and couldn't help gasping.He stretched his arms on the dining table and struggled vigorously, but his body only moved slightly in response.

He said: "It's still...it's important to go to school, anyway, you have to go back. Is your school... all open?"

"Is that all you want to say? Is there anything else you want to say?" Meng Xinci couldn't help Wan Junxiu, what he wanted to hear was not such an elder-like exhortation at all.

Wan Junxiu was really uncomfortable. He thought it would be better if he lay down for a while, but he didn't expect to feel more and more uncomfortable. He would not speak now. Probably half of it was because he didn't know how to answer Meng Xinci, and the other half was because he really didn't have the strength say.

Time passed by every minute and every second, Meng Xinci couldn't wait any longer, he felt that this phone call was a waste of his time, except for the sound of Wan Junxiu's breathing on the opposite side, he didn't hear a single word at all. what he wanted to hear.

"Wan Junxiu...you still think about it? Are you still determined to be so cowardly?"

When he said these words, Meng Xinci seemed to be more nervous and excited than ever before, and even his voice was trembling.

He couldn't help clenching his fists tightly, and even choked on the smoke because he was too nervous.

However, on the other end of the phone, there was no sound again, only the sound of uneven breathing remained.

Meng Xinci was choked by the smoke, and he would speak with a burning throat, "Wan Junxiu, do you want to say something? Are you together, should we be together, should we be together bravely? You don't talk like this , will make me look like a fool, you know?"

It was not silence at last, Wan Junxiu finally spoke, but Meng Xinci heard what he said, and did not feel very happy.

He said, "I don't know..."

"Why don't you know? Don't you like me? Didn't you say that, did you already like me?"

"Of course I like you, Xinci I like you..."

Meng Xinci felt that he was so sad that he was dying, he laughed again, the burning pain in his throat did not subside at all: "Look, you are lying to me again, you said you like me."

Speaking of this sentence, Meng Xinci really felt wronged.

According to the script, the scene filmed the day before yesterday was the last scene.It is a scene in which the two protagonists go around for the last time, and finally meet at the place where they first met. The two look at each other and smile, and embrace each other with tears in their eyes.

It was Meng Xinci's imagination that he and Wan Junxiu could have the same ending.

However, the reality is that Wan Junxiu doesn't want him anymore.

Meng Xinci couldn't help crying. Adults don't have too many tears. At most, they just feel sore nose and full eyes, just a little crying.

"But you don't want me every time."

Wan Junxiu is most afraid of Meng Xinci crying. When Meng Xinci cried since he was a child, he has no principles at all. Anything can satisfy Meng Xinci, as long as he can stop the tears.

"I didn't want you... I just thought that if you were the only one left in the future, it would be too cruel, you know Xinci, I thought that we have lived for many years, and then I will leave this world earlier than you, leaving you alone People, I will feel sorry for you, I will feel worthless for you."

"But I don't care! I don't care, do you understand? Wan Junxiu, I'm not afraid of this at all, I just want to be with you." Meng Xinci's nasal voice was so strong that his voice was already slurred, but he still yelled loudly .

……

"But I care, I care..."

This time even Wan Junxiu spoke in a nasal voice, as if his whole body was exhausted, and he said this sentence exhausted.

Meng Xinci no longer remembered who hung up the phone later.He only remembered that no one responded to his hysteria afterwards, leaving him alone in the room crying and shouting, but there was no response from the other end of the phone.

There was no response at all, all his cries and grievances were lost.

He seemed to have said something, he remembered that in the end he lost his energy, lying on the carpet like a defeated player, and said to the other end of the phone: "Then from now on, don't bother me."

The waiter pushed the dining cart back to the back kitchen, and the executive chef saw her walking over with her arms crossed.Looking down, as expected, the milk was drunk cleanly, and the meal bag was eaten.Only the hot spring egg that was ready was left, and even the vegetables and salmon covered by the hot spring egg remained untouched.

Mr. Chef sighed, and asked the waiter very displeased: "Didhe ndbackthedishagain" ("Did he return the dish again?")

The waiter also had a headache, and said with his forehead: "Yep." ("Yes.")

Mr. Chef was very puzzled, and angrily knocked on the tabletop: "Forhavinggg shot didn'tsayaworda wave utinc dew dingegg color arlier." ("Is the reason this time still because of eggs? Damn, the one who determined the menu earlier didn't say But he doesn’t eat eggs.”)

All the guests of this film festival stayed in this hotel, and the menu was confirmed by him and every guest team one by one.

At that time, he didn't say that the director didn't eat eggs, and now returning food every day gives him a headache.Five-star hotels are particular about the ingredients. Generally, after the menu is set, the ingredients are purchased according to the order.

He returned the dishes like this, the chef couldn't think of what else to do.

The hotel waiter spread her hands, and she was also helpless.

When she knew that the guest room he was in charge of was a handsome Asian guy, the pink bubbles in her heart were about to overflow, but soon all the pink bubbles were popped.Because in the early morning of the next day, the first guest room complaint she received was his request to return the food.The handsome guy doesn't eat eggs, and the handsome guy doesn't touch eggs at all.

She raised her hand to look at the watch on her wrist, counted the time, and urged: "LivewiththankGodthisisthelastmealonhistrip." (Hurry up, it's the last meal of this trip anyway.)

Meng Xinci checked his outfit in front of the floor-to-ceiling mirror. Originally, the team came to participate in the film festival this time to provide stylists for him and the main creative team.

But he really doesn't like strangers to touch him, so he gave up the main creative team to the actors, and he will be ready to set off with them in the hotel.

Meng Xinci is only 23 years old this year. He has long hands and long legs. He is quite tall and straight with smooth muscles. He looks good in anything, let alone this kind of tailor-made high-end suit.

His eyebrows and nose bridge are high, his eye sockets are deep, and his mandible line looks like it has been cut by a knife. Even without makeup, he can't find any faults in his face.

There are quite a few fans of him on the Internet. It is really amazing that a director has fans. In the final analysis, it is because of his face.According to old fans, when he first joined the group when he was filming this drama, he was photographed a lot and caused a lot of discussion on the Internet. They thought he was a new treasure that the film and television company had dug up.

It is still the same now, and many people on the Internet say that it is really a pity that such a face is behind the scenes.

However, Meng Xinci doesn't rely on his appearance for a living, his talent is his greatest treasure.

In 2019, the niche-themed movie "Where Are You Settled" exploded, sweeping domestic and foreign film festivals, winning prizes and getting soft hands, and by the way, made the two protagonists in the movie popular.

This movie has been highly discussed on the Internet for a while. Some people say that any screenshot taken by the movie camera is a beautiful screensaver.Some people say that the plot is also perfect. It is clearly about the love between the same sex, but it can allude to a turbulent era through small things.

In short, no matter from which point of view this film is analyzed, it is ridiculously perfect, and it doesn't look like a newcomer's work at all.And the director of this movie is the newcomer director Meng Xinci.

Strictly speaking, "Where Are You Settled" is Meng Xinci's first work, but everyone knows that the era of this young man has just begun.

Meng Xinci slowly fastened his tie and buttoned his suit.

He is actually not used to dressing so formally until now, as if he has not fully adapted to such a precious self in his bones, as if a pair of off-brand sneakers that cost less than 100 yuan have to be worn until the mesh on the side is worn out before he is willing to throw them away. It was still yesterday.

Last night, the assistant called Meng Xinci, saying that there was an interview today.To ask about some creative inspirations for "Where Are You?", he hasn't figured out what to say until now.

What should I say?Say he is the prototype?Said he was the orphan who was raised by poor booksellers?Or is he just a poor boy who grew up in the market?

Please, help me!The persona his team set up for him is a literary and art director who grew up with a scholarly family and a lot of books, okay?

Thinking of this, Meng Xinci was a little annoyed.He took a deep breath, ignored the hairspray he had just sprayed, and fell down on the bed in a large font, staring blankly at the ceiling in a daze.

No matter how others set him up, he knows that he is poor, and he is the orphan Meng Xinci who was raised by paralytics selling second-hand books.

"Wan Junxiu... don't bother me anymore..." Meng Xinci closed his eyes, Wan Junxiu was in his mind, he grabbed a pillow and covered his head, and said in a low voice .

One night last summer, Meng Xinci went back to Shanghai overnight.

The fans opened Weibo the next day, and found that [your child] Weibo had become a string of garbled characters, and all the lingering confessions and worries in the past had been deleted.

This matter has been discussed on the Internet all morning, and everyone is guessing what happened to him.Some fans who were already craving cp exaggeratedly said that it could be be, right?If you can be like this, you really don’t believe in love anymore.

However, no one knows what happened in reality, and Meng Xinci himself did not mention it.It seemed that he was just unhappy and didn't want this Weibo anymore.

He was always silent, his face was smelly, and no one else could ask him anything.

Still go to class as usual, filming as usual, filming is the most important thing, he stays on the set most of the time, even if you don't even hope to find him.

Even if you found him, if you insisted on asking him, he would only say that he was fine, what could be wrong with him?

The only change is that he has some money and often appears in the public eye. His clothes are more expensive than before.

This is normal, it has come to this point, and I will definitely not be willing to change out a pair of canvas shoes in my early [-]s until they are worn out like before.

Even if he wanted to, the company would not agree.

Sure enough, people depend on their clothes. Now Meng Xinci looks better than before. Even Xu Kaici will open his mouth and praise that it's not bad when he sees it.

Then he shook his head and said: "Look at him, he looks like the whole world owes him money, and he doesn't know why his face is so smelly? Do you think those little girls on the Internet are blind? They can even praise him as an iceberg type Handsome guy, take it."

Xu Kaici also felt ironic, as if his father wanted to love Meng Xinci more.When the face is also smelly, Xu Chunye will scold Xu Kaici for being a filial piety for someone?But some people on the Internet said that Meng Xinci's face was stinky and his face was paralyzed, and Xu Chunye would explain it to him openly and secretly, saying that he was just not in a good state.

How can there be any bad state, no matter how bad the state is, can it last for nearly a year?

Look at him today, even the live broadcast of the award ceremony has a dead dad's expression on his face.

Meng Xinci was already trying his best not to think about Wan Junxiu. He deleted those Weibo accounts, thinking about even canceling his Weibo account.

At the beginning, because of Wan Junxiu's own addiction to smoking, he has been suppressing himself to quit for more than a year.In the past, eggs and milk were his unshakeable breakfast, and it continued the breakfast that Wan Junxiu would prepare for him every day when he was with Wan Junxiu.

But now, eggs and milk are the things he hates the most, and even bringing them in front of him will make him feel uncomfortable.

He was trying his best to avoid everything about Wan Junxiu, and even changed his phone number after he arrived in Shanghai.

But what's the use?Every night, when he closes his eyes, he still thinks about Wan Junxiu, thinking about Wan Junxiu coming all the way to Shanghai and saying that he wants to be with him forever, thinking about Wan Junxiu staying silent on the phone, tacitly not wanting him anymore.

And during the day? After the filming of "Where Are You Settled", I was editing nervously, then warmed up, then promoted, and then released.He personally participated in every little detail. He watched the story, which was originally just a file in his computer, and then turned into a picture on the big screen.

The picture of him and Wan Junxiu living, the picture of him and Wan Junxiu falling in love.

He has no retreat at all, and there is no way to avoid it.

There was no way to avoid it, no way to retreat, and in the end Meng Xinci felt that he was going crazy.

Then and now, the reporters are holding microphones and cameras in front of him, smiling gently and asking him about his creative inspiration.

Ask him why he can write this story so close to reality?

The author has something to say: the countdown is on, and I want to finish it on Sunday, so probably in these two days, there will be more words, or double updates.

The follow-up is over, it is estimated that it will be overhauled once, and some places still need to be revised. I have no experience in writing it for the first time. Thank you very much for your support.

感谢在2021-03-2423:06:47~2021-03-2606:25:16期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels who cast mines: 1 Agou brothers from the WIFI team;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles with the other side;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!