what is the relationship between us

Until Meng Xinci was about to leave, Wan Junxiu still hadn't recovered from his sad mood.

Perhaps because he was too emotional before, he also had convulsions. At first, his hands and feet trembled slightly, but later it developed into violent shaking.

The originally limp feet kept kicking against the quilt as if they had been wound up.Meng Xinci didn't know that such a thing would happen, so he sat up and helped him press his legs, and kept massaging him, calming down for a while.

Wan Junxiu blinked his eyes in a dazed way, panting with his mouth slightly open.

Meng Xinci felt very sad, he never thought that Wan Junxiu would be so scared and nervous because of his unintentional words.

This time even he was quite frightened, the corners of his eyes turned red.

Wan Junxiu would definitely lose control after the spasms, and Meng Xinci's hands were shaking when he helped him clean up.Probably only he himself knows how much he regrets what he said today.

Meng Xinci's tears poured out from his eye sockets, slid down the bridge of his straight nose, and dripped on Wan Junxiu's smooth and fair skin.

"I'm sorry, Wan Junxiu, I'm sorry, Wan Junxiu, don't be afraid, nothing you worry about will happen, we still have a long time, we...we won't, we won't be separated. You will Stay with me for a long time, and I will stay with you for a long time. What you are worried about is not true, I was wrong, and I scared you."

Those tears seemed to turn into small, deep imprints, each drop was so hot that Meng Xinci couldn't even speak.

Wan Junxiu knew that Meng Xinci was right in front of him, and also knew that he was cleaning himself up.

But he was lying like this, most of his eyes were covered, and he didn't know what Meng Xinci was doing.

He felt extremely powerless, and there was endless despair in his heart.

In this world, life and death are the only major issues. No one can avoid life or death, and no one can truly fearless death.

Wan Junxiu felt that he was just an ordinary person, a typical petty bourgeois in this world.

He likes money, and feels that he can't make enough money. He is reluctant to rest 360 days a year, except for the day when he is really sick and the Spring Festival.

Sometimes he likes to be greedy for petty gains. He always has to wait until the vegetable market is almost closed before going to buy vegetables. He often visits the supermarket shelves when they are in stock. Anyway, it is shampoo, washing powder and other things, even if the expiration date is exceeded. It's okay for a few days.

His tenderness depends on the object. In his heart, not all tenderness comes from the heart.

Tenderness to strangers is actually a sign of weakness.As the saying goes, if you don’t reach out and hit a smiling person, if he smiles better and speaks more humbly, then others will not embarrass him when they see that he is a disabled person who can’t use his hands.

Only for Meng Xinci, his gentleness is really gentle, so gentle that he can get rid of his bad habit of loving money like his life and taking advantage of everything.

He felt that a layman like him deserved to be treated with sincerity by a young man for many years.

It is precisely because of Meng Xinci that he wants to live longer.

In the past, I wanted to live a long time because I wanted to watch Meng Xinci get married and start a career.Now I want to live longer, because I want to spend more time with Meng Xinci. The two of them don't want to be rich and powerful, but just live a few years of ordinary life.

Age is a gap that cannot be bridged, and so is the body.

At this moment, Wan Junxiu was suddenly very reluctant to let Meng Xinci leave him.He never stopped Meng Xinci from resigning to pursue a better one, but at this moment he wanted Meng Xinci to stay by his side and not go anywhere.

Wan Junxiu slowly raised his arm until it touched Meng Xinci. He said to Meng Xinci softly, "Don't go? Stay with me for a while, just for a while?"

This kind of reason can't be refused by Xinci, and he doesn't want to refuse. He originally wanted to support Wan Junxiu's body to sit him up and hug him, but he was worried that Wan Junxiu had convulsions, so he hugged him rashly. will make him uncomfortable.

He had no choice but to lie down again and take Wan Junxiu into his arms.

He sniffed and said with a smile on his face: "What's the matter? Are you really so scared? It's okay, don't be afraid, I will definitely be with you. You are only in your thirties, why are you so scared? Like a little old man?"

When he was held in his arms, Wan Junxiu's arms were completely curled up on his chest, and now his limp hands didn't need to make any effort, as long as he lifted them up a little, he could touch Meng Xinci's face.

He reached out and touched Meng Xinci's face back and forth, from the brow bone to the bridge of the nose, to the cheeks and chin.

At this moment, Wan Junxiu felt that he was surrounded by love, but he didn't know how to face the strong love.

If, if he was as old as Meng Xinci, or if his body was not disabled to this extent, he would be braver.

It is not extravagant to expect him to occupy both, but only to occupy both.

He had an idea in his mind, from germination to rapid growth, it only took 1 minute.

The strangle marks on Wan Junxiu's face hadn't dissipated yet, so he also grinned, "Xin Ci, have you ever met someone who likes you in Shanghai?"

"No, your child is a boring boring pot. No one likes it. Only you can be a treasure." Meng Xinci didn't know why Wan Junxiu would suddenly ask this question, but he always answered Wan Junxiu's questions. , which would also be truthful.

Wan Junxiu was a little disbelieving, and asked him with a frown: "How could it be? Xin Ci is so good-looking, has good grades, and is talented, why do you say that no one likes you?"

Meng Xinci pinched Wan Junxiu's face, wrinkled his nose and said, "Why am I lying to you, no one really likes me, let alone like me, I don't have many friends."

Wan Junxiu took a deep breath, looked at the child with slightly slender eyes, and asked him tremblingly: "Xin Ci, do you want to try to like others?"

Meng Xinci pushed Wan Junxiu away, and held his wrist tightly again, his smiling eyes just now changed into an unbelievable look.

"Wan Junxiu, can you say it again?"

Wan Junxiu has a few sensations on the inside of his wrist, and he can feel how hard Meng Xinci is holding his wrist now.

But his tone was still the same as before, trembling and hesitating, but there was no hint of a joke at all.

"Do you want to try to like others?"

——As long as I think that I can't be with you for too long, and I will leave you alone in the future, I feel very uncomfortable.It's because I can't accept the future, it's because I'm timid and cowardly.

Meng Xinci was about to vomit blood, he really didn't expect Wan Junxiu to dare to say it a second time.

He gritted his teeth and growled, "Wan Junxiu, what the hell are you talking about?"

Wan Junxiu was a little flustered, but it seemed that the idea in his heart was becoming more and more firm, he softly said: "Xin Ci, I am really too much older than you, I can't help it... I can't stay with you for too long, do you understand? You are only in your twenties this year, and I am already in my 30s. I don’t want you to worry about me when you are busy with your career, and think about whether my back hurts today and whether I can take care of myself. Will you have convulsions on rainy days? You shouldn’t have to take on these things as you get better and better, and the person you like, regardless of gender, should be someone who is as good as you.”

"But I fucking only like you! I was so obsessed with you when I was [-] or [-] years old, and I even thought of you when I was sleeping. It's you who came to Shanghai to find me , You said that no matter what happens in the future, you will be with me. Now? Because of a white hair, you are so scared to break up with me? Wan Junxiu, a few hours ago, we were still talking about the same as before, and you still Say welcome back!"

Meng Xinci couldn't help shouting out, what the hell is this?

Wan Junxiu also looked at him, speaking more excitedly and loudly: "But you clearly know that this is not just a matter of gray hair! You clearly know what I am worried about."

"I don't know! I only know that you are cowardly. Wan Junxiu, why are you so cowardly? You used to be afraid of other people's eyes, but now you are afraid of this white hair. Why do you always push me away because of fear? Wan Junxiu, May I beg you to cherish me a little? I can't wait for you every time, I... will be sad too. "

Meng Xinci scrambled to his feet, and he stood barefoot on the ground. In the end, he had changed from excitement to grievance.

It's really aggrieved, he finally went home, but why is it like this on the first day back home.

Meng Xinci opened and closed his mouth, and it took a long time before he said in a hoarse voice: "Do you know that I finally went home..."

Wan Junxiu propped himself up a little with his elbows, trying to sit up a little, and when he sat still with difficulty, he stretched out his hand to pull Meng Xinci.

But Meng Xinci took a step back, Wan Junxiu missed it, his arm fell heavily, and almost didn't pull himself off the bump.

"Xinci, you will always be my family, and this family will always be yours. It's just that I think...we can't be together..."

Meng Xinci suddenly laughed, he felt like a fool.All these years, first, he got into such a deep situation without Wan Junxiu knowing it, and then he waited until today with his sincerity.

Meng Xinci really thought that he and Wan Junxiu would finally go through this life without incident, and finally they could hold hands together in a fair manner.

But why did Wan Junxiu let him like others?

He felt like something was stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say anything, he couldn't even cry.

Only these few pale laughs were left to circle the room, making him look ridiculous and pitiful.

Meng Xinci felt sad that he was about to die

Meng Xinci was barefoot, and when he laughed, he couldn't stand still and staggered. The big wardrobe was behind him, so he didn't fall down by leaning against the wardrobe.

Sniffing, he continued: "Wan Junxiu, I don't want to continue this topic today, think about it for yourself, are you really willing to leave me again? If you are really willing, come and tell me , but this time I really really won't let you bother me again."

After saying this, Meng Xinci didn't dare to look at Wan Junxiu's expression anymore, picked up his shirt from the bedside, put it on his body and went out.

Wan Junxiu didn't make a sound, just watched him leave quietly, and then heard the loud sound of closing the door outside.

The author has something to say: Originally... this plot should not have happened, but suddenly I encountered some things myself, and decided to write it anyway, life and death and age, it seems that there is no way to avoid it in this article.If you want to see abuse, then add this paragraph and the following arrangements, it should be considered sweet abuse.

Apart from life and death, there are no major issues. Those who are not afraid of death are those who have nostalgia for this world.

Because of nostalgia, you will be afraid, afraid that I will leave, what should I do if I leave you alone?

哎，好难过，难过得快死了……感谢在2021-03-2307:50:59~2021-03-2407:38:55期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: give him one;

Thanks to the little angel of the irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of brother Agou from the WIFI team; thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!