The life of a vegetative cup

With the cold temperature and the heavy dark clouds oppressing the sky, even the mood was infected with a kind of boredom and irritability.

The second-hand car bought from the old car market, in order to save the cost of the parking space in the community, it can only be parked on the side of the inconspicuous road, looking at the inexplicably many high-end cars next to it, and I have just dealt with my mother's clichéd phone calls, and I am exhausted. Tao frowned, took the backpack on the chair on the other side of the car and walked out.

The small advertisements posted everywhere in the corridors, the fallen walls, and the stairs with rounded corners, such old houses are beginning to have more and more heavy rents in this humble city.

It is undoubtedly very difficult for people like them who have worked for several years without a fixed place and no background to truly stand up and start their own careers independently.

The only thing that can be done is to live hard.

He took out the key and was about to open the door, but the door was suddenly opened from the inside.

"You're welcome, I'll just go downstairs by myself."

"How can you say that, let me see you off."

Jian Minxi smiled and said to the person behind him who was still in the room, when she turned her head, she saw him standing outside the door.

The other party was slightly surprised for a moment, then showed a gentle smile, and whispered: "You are back."

His smile is still as light and clear as ever, that kind of light smile that can dispel all the melancholy and stress, just like the most genial breeze in spring, always has the warm smell that can bring the fragrance of flowers into the breath.

It was just today, but it made him unable to respond to the other party no matter what.

Ji Tao gave a faint "um", glanced at Zhao Juntong who was silent beside Jian Minxi, walked into the bedroom with a cold face, and closed the door with a "bang" with his backhand.

Throwing himself on the bed, think about the way Zhao Juntong looked at him just now, that kind of indifference, as if silently looking down, as if looking at an insignificant little bug, indifferent and bored, not taken seriously at all.

The anger in his heart surged up, he was so angry that he threw the pillows on the bed with a wave of his arms, and even the books that Jian Mingxi put on the bedside table for reading before going to bed were all swept away by him.

Not long after, the bedroom door was opened.

"Ji Tao?"

Glancing at Jian Minxi who was bending over to pick up the pillow and books on the floor, he turned his back to the other person irritably.

Jian Mingxi was silent for a moment, came over and put down the things in his hands and climbed onto the bed, slowly stretched out his hands from behind to wrap his arms around him, and softly said against his back: "What's wrong with you? Why are you angry?"

He broke away the other's hand from his waist, pinched Jian Mingxi's wrist and turned around to press on the other side. Looking down at his pained expression, he asked with a sneer, "What is he doing here?"

Jian Mingxi was startled, and said strangely: "There is something wrong with the contractor, Jun Tong came here to ask."

"Jun Tong?" He smiled and sarcastically said, "You're so affectionate, you guys have such a good relationship, just the two of you stayed in the room for a long time, who knows what you did."

Jian Mingxi was silent for a while: "Ji Tao, don't make trouble for no reason."

"I made trouble for no reason? Heh, you want to say that it's really the contractor's problem? How can he, a big leader, take care of so many things on the construction site? He came in person? Huh? Jian Gong, you are so proud of yourself!"

"He's not that kind of person, Ji Tao, you misunderstood."

Jian Minxi pushed him hard to sit up, but he became even angrier, and pressed him down hard again.

"Not that kind of person? What is that kind of person?" He grabbed the struggling Jian Minxi, reached into his clothes and stroked back and forth, "That kind of person? How fucking funny! It seems that kind of person is just like you It’s okay! Aren’t you gay too! How dare you look down on that kind of person! You’re one of those kind of people too!”

"Ji Tao!" Jian Mingxi was also in a hurry, kicking and kicking him away, "Let go of me! If you have something to say, talk it out!"

The strength between them was originally evenly matched, and no one was able to gain the upper hand during the battle.

Seeing Jian Minxi wanting to escape from him time and time again, the anger in his heart surged up and down. He used all the strength that erupted from his whole body to restrain the person who was trying to escape, and even more vicious words With the head dazzled by anger, he said everything: "Does he know that you are gay? Jian Mingxi, do you still want to admit it? You are also a fucking filthy and disgusting gay!"

Jian Mingxi's body shook violently.

Taking advantage of the other party's slack at this moment, he tore off the clothes on him with all his strength, reached out to caress the most sensitive part of the other party, and used various methods to make Jian Mingxi succumb. He sneered: "Does he know you? Will you be excited under the hands of a man? Look at you? Do you feel it? Look at what you look like now!"

"Jian Mingxi, you have such a good capital, you really didn't want to seduce him? Huh? Look, how interesting he is to you, and you can't see it if you pretend to be noble!"

He suppressed the angry Jian Minxi, ignoring the fist he swung and the scars on his body caused by the other party, while Jian Minxi was panting in pain, he rubbed the most vulnerable place of the other party, embedding himself stiffly. went in.

"Or are you afraid that he will know that you are gay?" His anger has burned all his rational thinking, and he only knows how to question fiercely over and over again, making the other person tremble and forced to make a chaotic sound full of pain and joy, "Briefly Xi, are you afraid that he will know? Are you afraid that he will look down on you too? Look at you now, who the hell can look down on you except me? "

He knew that Jian Minxi had always been afraid of being known about her sexual orientation.

Afraid of being discriminated against, afraid of being shamed, the person who proudly owns his own ideals always hides himself carefully, and never tells anyone about himself except very close friends.

Jian Minxi also never wears their rings on her hands.

Hiding any visible evidence, hiding his relationship with himself, as if he and Jian Mingxi were just ordinary friends who shared a house.

Never just ordinary friends.

I originally took advantage of Jian Mingxi's psychological fragility to break into the other party's life, because of the position in the other party's heart gained by the other party's emotional breakdown at that time, he had nothing in his hands that could restrain Jian Mingxi, nothing Any capital and conditions to keep the other party by your side forever.

He is afraid, afraid.

A person as outstanding as Jian Minxi will always have a strong attraction, just as he was deeply attracted to him at the beginning. Today is Zhao Juntong, and tomorrow may be another person with a higher position.

He doesn't have any capital and ability to fight against those who can trample him under his feet from afar.

He was completely at a loss, and he had no means to keep Jian Minxi from being taken away forever.

Even if he chased Jian Minxi all over the world and tried his best to give everything he could.

What's more, Jian Mingxi is not purely gay.

It is entirely the result of his own entanglement that he will become what he is now, and it is entirely possible that he himself will be abandoned by the other party. The reason is simply that the other party wants to live a normal life.

A simple reason that he could never refute.

I don't know how long it took, after the passion had passed, he hugged the pale-faced Jian Mingxi tightly in his arms, and kissed her sweaty forehead.

"Mingxi, I love you, don't leave me."

"You forgive me."

On that day, Jian Minxi just glanced at him, then closed his eyes wearily, and let him say something, but never opened his mouth again.

The two of them seemed to have gradually developed a estrangement since that day.

In fact, he didn't want men to be disappointed and distressed by him. He just wanted to change, to become stronger, so that anyone could face up to himself and have strength, so that no one could point fingers at him anymore.

It can also make Jian Mingxi never have to look at other people's faces, and don't have to be petty to go against her own beliefs, so that the other party can truly realize her ideals.

As long as he can become strong, climb to the top and have money, he can shield all the heavy burdens on him, and pursue the life he and his loved ones want most.

He hoped that they could all be happy.

Meeting Su Qixuan is hardly a coincidence.

Jian Minxi often has meetings in Zhao Juntong's company, because he is in a cold war with the other party and wants to take the initiative to reconcile, so he always waits under that company that he deeply hates.

Maybe it's because they appear too frequently, once or twice, you can always meet the girl named Bai Chang who often comes to this company to look for Zhao Juntong, and Su Qixuan who is always by her side.

"I always see you, are you also an employee here?"

Su Qixuan's eyes are clear and clean, gentle and shy, sometimes reminding him of those days when he first met Jian Mingxi.

He can't remember when he started talking frequently, when he started to get acquainted, when he started talking about his ambitions with the other party.

At that time, I just felt that he was flattered and flattered to be friends with such an unassuming and coquettish young lady as an unknown little man.

Asked by the other party to act as a boyfriend to evade the political marriage arranged by the family, he hesitated a little, and agreed under the begging eyes of the other party.

In his heart, a girl with a clean smile like Jian Minxi should not be oppressed by her family to become a weight or a commodity for trading, to experience a loveless marriage.

It's like he has been insisting on his love for so many years and doesn't want to compromise with his parents.

Then, under the leadership of the other party, he saw what a real high society is.

The social circle began to widen, surrounded by all kinds of celebrities and businessmen, money, power, all wishes can be easily realized, it is a gorgeous and gorgeous world, let him like a moth chasing the fire, There is an irresistible temptation.

The other party asked his family to help him set up a company and establish contacts. After experiencing a lot of communication with Su Hangwen, he also gained a lot of knowledge, learned a lot, and began to understand how to live better in today's society. actual.

It's no longer just purely relying on a rush of enthusiasm, just delusional to pursue everything you want.

He took out all the savings he had saved for a long time, the money, even the money he and Jian Minxi worked hard for a long time to save, he wanted to find a quiet and peaceful city, buy a house of his own, and live happily Money for a lifetime.

He knows that if there is no contribution, there will be no return. He can't just shout slogans at home every day, and what he wants can be delivered to his door.

In return, he is also grateful to Su Qixuan who can give him a chance to change his destiny. After the other party jokingly asks for a thank you gift with an innocent smile on his face, he often gives the other party some small gifts.

Even when the other party came to him in the rain one day, crying about the ruthless demands of the other party's brother to her, he couldn't keep Su Qixuan out. After coaxing her for a long time, he sent the girl who finally burst into tears and laughed.

However, he didn't expect that when he went downstairs, he saw Jian Mingxi.

The other party had been standing quietly in the rain, the umbrella fell to his feet, and let the raindrops the size of peas hit his body, his clothes were soaked and stuck to his skin, looking into his eyes, there was also Feeling blank and empty.

Ji Tao's heart felt like being hit hard by a heavy hammer, and the surging pain almost made him dizzy. When he realized it, he had already walked over quickly and hugged Jian Mingxi tightly.

Going out early and returning late every day, even on weekends, I have to learn to socialize and socialize, drink, eat, and attend various meetings. After returning home, I can fall asleep when I touch the pillow all over the body tired, like a spinning top every day So much so that he suddenly realized now that it seemed that he hadn't chatted with Jian Minxi for a long time, nor had he nestled on the sofa with each other for a long time, playing and joking with each other.

He seemed to have forgotten Jian Mingxi for a long, long time.

It took him so long to see him at this moment that his heart would be in such severe pain.

At that moment, he had a deep realization that he had to work harder and be more serious. He didn't want to be as reckless and ignorant as before, and he didn't want to make Jian Mingxi sad because of his ugly jealousy.

He wants to earn a name so that everyone can't underestimate him, to have the strength he dreamed of to protect Jian Minxi, to prevent anyone from looking down on him, and not to let Jian Mingxi do it for anyone Wrong yourself, and then confess to him, with all the glory and money in your body, to fulfill everything he promised to Jian Mingxi.

At that time, Jian Minxi will leave this depressing and suffocating place with him to build their real home, because he also has the strength to realize the ideal for the other party, even if Jian Minxi will always put himself behind his career , he can also let go of his resentment, and never worry that the other party will part ways with him and completely leave him because of conflicts with him because of work and future development.

At that time, they will be able to live happily ever after.

Live happily forever.

For this, let him pay anything.

However, he did not expect that things that were going well would suddenly go off the rails like that.

Customer fraud, the sudden break of the capital chain, the bank's prosecution, the court's accountability, in order to repay the huge debt owed after borrowing usury, the threat and coercion of the gangsters, exhausted all efforts, the originally thriving company All of a sudden, he was on the verge of going bankrupt, and all the relationships he had worked so hard to manage before did not dare to have any involvement with him. All the results he had harvested were destroyed overnight, making him feel that the whole sky was about to collapse.

Every day, he used alcohol to drown his sorrows, and angrily accused everyone and everything around him.

All the facts are so cruelly placed in front of him, telling him plainly, laughing at him like a clown jumping on the beam, funny wanting to fight for things that don't belong to him.

He was so miserable that he couldn't even see the hope of life.

In fact, he just wanted them to live a better life, so that Jian Minxi would no longer have to give in and give up the other party's own ideals just to be with him.

He just wanted to live a happy life with Jian Mingxi as he promised at the beginning.

"Ji Tao?" In the dimness, that always gentle person came to his side, "What happened, can you tell me?"

He didn't know what he said in the drunken chaos that day. It might be the expectation for the future, or it might be what he wanted. A happy future, he grabbed the other person and said over and over again, eagerly saying everything he wanted.

He held Jian Minxi tightly, not daring to let go of his strength, and poured out everything to the other party.

Because of his world, only he is left.

"It will get better," Jian Minxi, who had been quietly listening to his cry, opened his mouth after an unknown amount of time. They lay hugging each other on the bed, and he heard the other party whispering softly in his ear, with a strong voice. Her tenderness, hugging him back, always gave him the strength to persevere as before.

"I... I'll figure it out, don't worry, Ji Tao, trust me, everything will be fine."

"You beast, we'll all be fine, but I'm still waiting for you to fulfill your promise to me."

They absorb each other's warmth, as if the whole world is no longer lonely and cold.

However, none of them thought that that night was the last night they slept together hugging each other tightly.

None of them thought that the future they were looking forward to was all destroyed in misunderstandings and lies.

The well-planned conspiracy, the mixing of several people's selfish desires, the once so firm commitment, such firm belief, such firm desire, and the happiness in the dream have all been destroyed.

In Su Qixuan's confession after helping him pay off the debt, he was at a loss, and the result of failing to refuse in time was a disaster that he could never have imagined.

"Ji Tao, give me the money." He watched Jian Minxi tightly grasping his arm, chasing him anxiously and nervously, "Give me the money quickly, I can't drag it on any longer."

The illusion of being told by someone with ulterior motives has tortured him for countless days and nights. The dizziness caused by insomnia every night made him eager to get rid of all the pain. go forward.

"Give me back the money, I beg you," Jian Minxi grabbed him helplessly, eyes full of pain, "Ji Tao, don't go, listen to me, I don't care about you and Su Qixuan , you can go wherever you want, just wake up, for the sake of us for so many years, as long as you give me the money, I..."

With a loud bang, the people who have become completely strangers, the malicious guesses that were questioned in the anger of the quarrel, unexpectedly became reality now, the unbelievable defeat, the sense of collapse of despair, the feeling of collapse after so many years He worked hard and devoted all his feelings. He had never felt seriously insulted like this moment. He couldn't suppress his resentment at all. He slapped Jian Minxi hard and fell on the ground. After being on the ground for a long time, I couldn't get up again.

"Jian Mingxi! How fucking shameless are you bitch! Don't even try to get a penny from me!" Even after saying this, he still couldn't understand his hatred, and he just wanted to vent the pain in his heart. , ignoring reason, stepped forward and kicked, watching the opponent curl up in pain.

"You treat yourself like a duck and don't ask me to sell you! Isn't Zhao Juntong rich! You fucking open your legs to him! Are you afraid that he won't give you money!"

When he finally let out a lot of anger, he calmed down and stopped his movements, but Jian Mingxi was still lying on the ground, his body convulsed pitifully, and his slightly long curly hair covered all the expressions of the other party.

"Mingxi?"

He called out tentatively, and bent down to grab Jian Minxi's arm.

Jian Minxi shook off his hand all of a sudden, propped herself up with trembling arms, and slowly got up.

The other party staggered a few steps forward with trembling legs, but fell to the ground the next moment.

Ji Tao stared blankly at the place where Jian Minxi fell, the glaring blood stained on the tiles, and the painful pain in his heart made him only know to follow his instinct and go forward to grab him.

"Mingxi..."

Jian Minxi shook off his hand again, swayed a few times, took a step and continued to stagger forward.

"Ji Tao, let's break up."

This sentence, like a file, rubbed against the most vulnerable part of his heart, pulling the suffocation in his muscles and bones, making him unable to say anything anymore.

The only thing he could see was the back of the other party trembling away silently.

At that time, he didn't understand at all, the person who has always hated from the heart, the person who always thought that he abandoned himself for money, the person who always thought that all the love of his life would be destroyed by him, all the attachments were actually only himself That's all.

For him, Jian Minxi embezzled public funds, because he had to go against the condemnation of conscience and lived every day in fear, and even for him, even gave up the ideals and principles that the other party had been working hard for.

In Jian Mingxi's heart, he finally surpassed all the pursuits of the other party once and took the first place.

And he, an idiot, still thought that the other party was the one who betrayed their feelings first.

He got money, status, and even the envious eyes of the people he has been yearning for.

No one dared to question or point fingers at him anymore, even his parents and relatives dared not gossip about him anymore, and the care and flattery that were just presented to him was overwhelming.

However, Jian Minxi was doomed because of the lies concealed by those loan sharks under Bai Chang's instruction. All the money he exchanged for his huge responsibilities and future life also went into the selfish and greedy appetites of the group. Keep others from knowing the truth.

Thanks to the help of the Su family to save the company, he misunderstood Jian Minxi's only begging for him in despair. Even Zhao Juntong, who claims to be smart, failed to discover this unexpected mistake in time. To remedy the harm Jian Mingxi suffered.

That person lost everything.

Health, sanity, dreams, life, all gone.

He watched helplessly as the man had a nervous breakdown and was with the person he hated the most like a child, doing those childish and ridiculous behaviors, punishing his heart unconsciously over and over again.

Let him always have to keep his eyes open to see that he has been deceived and fooled and made stupid mistakes that will never be redeemed.

Let him understand that it was he who turned such an excellent and proud Jian Mingxi into a disabled idiot.

He doesn't even remember being deeply hurt, a three-year-old idiot who is only obsessed with money.

"Ji Tao, do you know that he is so different, I can't help but fall into his temptation, he was stolen, no matter how angry and sad I am, I can't find him, every day I can only stay in this basement and miss the warmth he brought me."

"You said, what qualifications do you idiot have to question me? Do you know how many times he would read you every day when he was most frightened and collapsed? Even until the end, he would rather choose to be crazy than to be my pet and fall in love with me ...And as the one he has always loved and loved the most, what were you doing at that time?"

"You want to know what he went through? No problem, I will teach you the answer."

"Don't worry, I'm not Jian Mingxi, and I don't care for your love. I won't make you crazy either. If you really go crazy, wouldn't you have to bear all the pain and be completely liberated?"

Knowing all the truth, and even personally experiencing the hell that those two innocent girls in his eyes designed to make Jian Jian go through, all these nightmares made him fully aware that he no longer has any qualifications , to recover Jian Mingxi again.

In the ward, looking at the pale and emaciated man lying there quietly, all his dreams and promises to this man were destroyed, he was like an ignorant and ugly clown, being teased by everyone Playing, but struggling, unable to protect even what is most important to me.

On such a cold night, he only dared to hug each other gently when the other was asleep.

It was also the last time that he could hold Jian Minxi tightly in his arms.

For the last time, I tried my best to tell my past and present love to the unconscious person who pretended to be asleep after waking up and refused to face me.

Then hand him over to the person he has hated and envied all his life.

There is not much he can do for Jian Minxi.

A small person like him who will be teased and laughed at will, the power he can exert is actually not that great at all.

He can only do everything he can, bet all the power he can think of, give up everything, and get rid of the demon that has tortured Jian Mingxi deeply for Jian Mingxi.

Everything in him is false, Jian Mingxi, the only one who gave him the truth, no longer needs him, his life is meaningless, and he has finally learned to use his false lies to deceive him. woman's trust.

All he had left was his life, which he still held in his hands, the only thing he could fight for the opponent.

He didn't really want much.

He just had a little wish.

A humble one, he exhausted all his capital and all his efforts, begging God for his wish every day in his dreams.

In the next life, let him see Jian Mingxi again in the next life.

Let him be able to truly keep his promise.

Let him, in the next life, make up for his mistakes, and live a happy life with Jian Mingxi.

……

"Ji Tao? Ji Tao!" Dimly, Ji Tao felt that someone pushed his shoulder, "Wake up, it's time to hand in the paper."

A very familiar voice came from beside his ear, with a gentle smile. The memory engraved in his body made Ji Tao open his eyes and raise his head in doubt, but he saw that he was sitting in a seat next to him. The people around him were stunned.

Jian Minxi looked at his dull eyes and seemed to be a little puzzled, and raised her finger to the teacher who was walking over.

"The bell is ringing, we have to hand in the papers."

Ji Tao still couldn't react, Jian Minxi had no choice but to smile helplessly, took the test paper on his desk and handed it to the teacher beside him, and then left his seat to pack his schoolbag.

Everyone around started to walk out of the classroom, but suddenly a guy rushed over from behind him, making him groan and collapse on the desk again, his forehead hit the wood with a "bang" sound.

it hurts...

Wait, it hurts?

"Brother, why are you so stupid?" Cui Zhao laughed and looked at his embarrassment, "Have you been fascinated by the charm of our talented Jane? To be honest, how many questions did you copy just now? You have a plan, I think Did you sleep soundly..."

"Cui Zhao, stop playing," Jian Minxi had already walked over at this time, and helped them both with their schoolbags, "If you don't hurry to the cafeteria, you won't be able to squeeze in."

"Fate!" Cui Zhao cried, "I'm a social elite anyway, why can't this crappy school build a postgraduate canteen for us! This is simply a devastation for high-level talents in the 21st century!"

"It's Zhao Zefeng's grandson who is lucky. He can break his leg playing basketball. Not only did he escape the exam, but he also has a beautiful nurse in the hospital to take care of him, and he has a patient meal to strengthen his nutrition..." He said, and he came to Jian Jian On Xixi: "Little Xixi, come quickly, use your smile of the Virgin to soothe my fragile heart after the exam..."

"Okay, I'll return the door tomorrow afternoon, and I'll be free by then, just keep at it." Jian Mingxi persuaded with a smile, then turned to look at him again, slightly surprised, "Ji Tao? What's the matter?" ?”

Cui Zhao also turned back to look at him who was staring at Jian Minxi, paused, and went over to poke Jian Minxi: "I said, he was fooled by me just now, right?"

Jian Minxi glanced at Cui Zhao, pushed the other person off him, walked in front of her again, raised her hand and waved in front of his eyes: "Ji Tao, you're fine...uh!"

Ji Tao rushed over and hugged Jian Minxi tightly in his arms, even hitting him so that he stumbled and failed to stand still.

"Um... what's going on here?"

"how could I know?"

Jian Minxi carefully tilted her head in his arms, and all her warm breath sprayed on his neck.

"Ji Tao?"

Don't let go, whether it's a dream or a fantasy, whether it's God pitying him or wanting him to sink into hell forever in the next life.

This time, he will never make any mistakes again.

This time, he will keep his promise tightly and never let go.

This time, they will be happy.

(The principle of Inception or real rebirth before death, you can choose according to your personal preference...)