The life of a vegetative cup

【"...Why, you still blame me for being too close to Su Qixuan? Jian Mingxi, what qualifications do you have to manage me if you don't take care of yourself first? Okay, you can't see it, you can't stand it, can you? Then That's great, you come with me, let's throw everyone and everything away together and leave here, let's go together, then no one will have to forcefully accommodate anyone!"

"Hehe, you can't delay work, huh? Jian Mingxi, when will you put me in front of your precious job? You go away with a project and stay in a big city for two or three years, okay, I'll change with you I stayed with you after work, and next time I will go to the plateau to do infrastructure construction. The desert is not popular at all, and I can’t even chase after it! Long-distance buses are fucking impassable! How do you want me to think about you? Ah How many years has it been, Jian Mingxi, how many more years do you have to work to realize your broken ideals and leave all your time to me? I am fucking forced by you, but if you know that you have received a project in a first- and second-tier city, you will be crazy happy We are not young anymore Jian Mingxi! I am not homeless like you! I follow you all over the country every day, do you know how much pressure my parents put on me? I just thought about it A stable and happy life! I wish I could earn more fucking money, and I can stop those bastards from gossiping about me, do you understand it!"

"Or... are you really like what they said, and you have been staying in the supervision circle all this time just to get to know the big boss at the top? Heh, this time I finally got you, and you finally tricked me by pretending to be noble and upright. Someone who appreciates you! Zhao Juntong is so kind to you, he is afraid that you will be cold or that you will be hot, and how much welfare he will send you to the construction site every day, much better than me, right! He has plenty of money to do projects for you, Let you climb up without suffering or getting tired! This is finally what you want! How difficult it is for you to wrong yourself for so many years! Of course you can’t let go of the bad work he gave you Come with me!"

"Jian Mingxi, you are so fucking hypocritical. Is there anyone more selfish than you in this world..."

……

"I just want him to never bother you again! Minxi, I can do whatever he can't understand you! Give me a chance, okay? I'll pay you back the money, Mingxi, your work and ideals, I will help you realize whatever you want, as long as you give me a chance..."

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"Jian Mingxi, since the bottom line has been broken once, it will be much easier the second time. Come on, you slowly kneel down and crawl over on your knees. When you come to my side, I will turn off the power and disconnect the wires, and put you The acupuncture on your back that hurts you to death has been pulled out, okay? Look, there is a lot of hot milk spilled on the ground here. You can crawl over and lick it, and you can put something in your convulsive stomach and sleep well. Once you wake up, you’re in so much pain that you haven’t closed your eyes for seven or eight days. How uncomfortable and painful, why insist on it? As long as you crawl over on your knees and lick the milk on the ground, I’ll give you the warmest quilt, Hold you gently and let you sleep comfortably, okay? Don't worry, no matter how disgusting you are, I will accept you without reservation and give you love..."

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"Jian Mingxi, you are a fucking dirty bitch! Don't let me see you again!"

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"Mingxi, where are you? Tell me, okay? Let me pick you up, okay?"

"Mingxi, I will pull you out, I will definitely be able to pull you out, I will help you find whatever you want, no matter what you lost, I will find it for you! You believe in me, okay? Okay? You come back, let me do anything, I just ask you to come back to me..."]

The rare good weather in winter brings bursts of warm sun, so warm that people can't help but feel in a daze and don't know what night it is.

A gentle touch adheres to the cheeks.

"Did you dream, Ashi?"

I raised my hand and rubbed my forehead, I gave a soft "hmm", looked around and found that I was lying on a lounger on the balcony of the hotel, so I asked in a nasal voice that was not yet fully awake: "What time is it?"

Zhao Juntong knelt on top of me and stroked my face: "It's ten minutes away, don't worry, the bid opening won't start until two o'clock, if you're sleepy, you can sleep a little longer."

I grabbed Zhao Juntong and pushed him down on the recliner, and hugged him sideways: "I'm about to wake up...Give me a few minutes first..."

Zhao Juntong embraced me, held my hand and rubbed it lightly: "Okay."

I half-opened my eyes and slowly woke up. I felt that Zhao Juntong rubbed my fingers a little reluctantly, so I couldn't help but move a little...

Zhao Juntong stopped moving, and I was completely awake. I raised my arms and looked over, then turned to look at him again.

Zhao Juntong pursed his lips: "What? It hurts..."

I sighed, and said: "No, I just think the ring is a bit too big, and it's always easy to get stuck during activities, and it's not suitable to wear it now." After speaking, I planned to take off the ring on my left hand.

Zhao Jun grabbed it together: "No, I... just couldn't hold back for a while, I won't do it next time, don't worry about it."

I smiled: "Okay, evil animal, people have to look forward, right, have been entangled in the past, are you trying to make me never get out?"

Taking off the ring, I sat up and planned to find a place to put it away: "Besides, you are here," I whispered, "I won't be afraid anymore."

"There are still so many good days in the future. I want to enjoy it with you. I will remember everything you promised me. If you miss anything, I will come to you to settle the score." .”

Zhao Juntong hugged me tightly from behind, buried his face on my shoulder, and muffled, "Okay."

Dragging him to put the ring away, I stretched my waist: "Get ready to clean up, let's leave early."

Just as Zhao Juntong was about to nod, the cell phone in his pocket rang suddenly.

He glanced to see: "...it's Bai Chang." Then he raised his head and said, "Maybe the discipline inspection has already started..."

"..."

As soon as Zhao Juntong pressed the button to reject the answer, he vibrated loudly again. After several attempts, he muted the volume by himself, then turned his head and said, "I have to call my friend over there to inquire about the situation. Don't miss the news when you come back. Xiang Zhanxuan jumped over the wall in a hurry."

Seeing that I didn't respond, Zhao Jun called out together: "Axi..."

I recovered from my daze, said "ah", and said, "It's okay, if you are busy, do it first, this matter is also very important, I can wait for you at the bid opening site by myself."

Zhao Juntong frowned, I stepped forward and rubbed it away for him, and said with a smile: "Why, why don't you worry about it, your husband and I are so fragile? We are all grasshoppers after autumn, and you are still afraid of Xiang Zhanxuan Can you really eat me?"

After a pause, I walked to the door, took the coat on the wall and began to put it on: "I... also want to see him for the last time, see his results, and give myself... a break."

Zhao Juntong gently stroked my back: "Then be careful, I'll go find you right away after I've dealt with the matter."

"Ah," I replied lazily, letting him straighten my thick scarf, and said with a smile, "Don't worry, we are tenacious pests."

Zhao Juntong smiled when he heard the words, raised his hand and gently wiped my forehead, and sent me out the door. He watched the elevator close, and then separated his sight on me.

When I came out, I was surprised to find that Han Jingyun was sitting in the reception area of ​​the lobby on the first floor. When she saw me coming, she waved her hand: "Ah Xi, do you want to go there first?"

"Juntong still has something to do," I walked over and asked, "Why are you here alone? Su Hangwen isn't here?"

Han Jingyun smiled and said, "He still has to assist the police with some work, and he doesn't have time to accompany me."

I nodded and smiled when I heard the words, and was thinking about what I could say to get closer to her while the grandson was away, so I heard Han Jingyun say: "Ah Xi, I bought too much garlic in Laba today, you all come back early, help me." I peel the garlic to make laba vinegar."

Seeing me startled, she blinked and smiled and said, "I'll make Laba porridge for you as a reward, how about it?"

"...It's all Laba," I smiled with an inexplicable warmth in my heart, "Why, you also bought a house here to invest? Can you still cook?"

"No," Han Jingyun replied domineeringly: "But as long as you give me the money, can I borrow some hotel's kitchen for a little use?"

"..." Well, this is the thinking habit of rich people!I'm so fucking jealous!

……

For meeting Xiang Zhanxuan alone, it was almost a very common situation for me some time ago.

Wei Bin came here a few days ago with an implementation plan, a large number of credit certificates, and bank insurance policies. I changed a few pages and bound them into a book. , which is the date when the final results start to be published.

Except for Wei Bin who will follow the bidding team to the past and will not go with us now, we will all sit on the spot for a while and listen to the evaluation opinions of the evaluation experts, ready to clarify the problem at any time, but the project scale of the characteristic town is too large. The process shouldn't be too complicated.

And everything will finally come to an end today.

I don't want Duan Yilong to get involved in these messy right and wrong, so I also gave him the right to take a vacation, so that he can have a good look at the unique cultural landscape in this fastest-growing metropolis, and have the opportunity Meet a few beautiful and fashionable girls and play happily for a few days to expand your social circle.

It was so hard for him to come here once, and he didn't have any capital to brag about when he returned.

As for myself, I can't always be a weak person who drags others back and can only hide behind others and receive protection in everything.

I want to be a brand new me, the one I've been longing to be before, who can leave no regrets when I get old, smile and close my eyes.

After paying the bill, I got out of the car and looked at the towering glass curtain wall building. I took a deep breath and stepped up the stairs.

No longer crawling and begging indifferently, no longer ignorantly flattering me with a smile, I am standing here, relying on my own legs, completely driven by my own will, step by step, choosing my own life.

Follow the signs to find the bidding hall, the bidding teams of five or six companies have already arrived, waiting for the meeting to start very quietly, even if there is communication, it is only whispered.

And there is Ding Ji in it.

Xiang Zhanxuan.

I glanced at the handsome man who was frowning at the back of the crowd and flipped through the documents, walked over and said with a smile, "Why, I'm already here, and I'm still so busy? Is it useful to hold Buddha's feet?"

The person on the opposite side paused for a moment after hearing this, looked up at me, the exhaustion and anger on his face disappeared in an instant, he seemed relieved, and complained, "Where have you been these few days, I'm looking for you I haven't been able to find it all the time, do you know how worried I am about you? And in case there are still questions to ask..."

I glanced at the messy materials and papers in his hand, took off my coat and put it aside: "Haven't you been working with the above all the time? Are you afraid that you won't be able to grab this sign?"

Xiang Zhanxuan frowned: "It always feels weird this time, Director Bai hasn't given me a letter yet..."

Before he could finish his sentence, he was interrupted by a sudden incoming phone call.

Xiang Zhanxuan was taken aback, lowered his head and took out his mobile phone to connect, when I pressed his wrist.

Facing his suspicious gaze, I said: "Answering the phone here will affect others, let's go out first."

Nodding to Zhanxuan: "Okay."

Walking to the corner of the floor, Xiang Zhanxuan walked a few steps in and stood in a more secluded place to answer the phone. I waited aside, leaning against the window sill, drinking drinking water, and watching the busy traffic outside. Passing by the staff of the bidding management supervision station, they saw me and reminded: "The expert team has arrived, and the opening of bids will start soon. Which unit did you bid for? Why don't you go in soon?"

I smiled and said, "I'm sorry, I'm afraid Dingji won't be able to participate in the bid opening this time." I looked at Xiang Zhanxuan and walked over, "Something happened to the company, and the leader probably won't be able to get away for a few days. Sorry to delay your work."

The person opposite nodded: "You're welcome." Then he turned and left.

Xiang Zhanxuan, who has been acting very close recently, has completely changed when he walked over now. He put on his unique proud elegance again, and looked at me slightly: "It's all... ...did you do it?"

I tilted my head and smiled: "Surprise~"

Xiang Zhanxuan looked at me gloomyly: "You came here to find me just to frame me?"

"How can it be here? In the first two years, I really didn't remember you at all. I made up my mind to face you again, and I made the decision before returning to China this time."

I lowered my eyes and laughed in a low voice: "After all, Mr. Xiang is very charming. People can't help recalling it, and it's quite annoying."

Xiang Zhanxuan was taken aback when he heard this, and then unexpectedly burst out laughing.

"I might not believe it if someone else said it," he looked at me and smiled faintly, "but if you said it, it must be true."

I smiled and said, "Oh?"

"Isn't it?" Xiang Zhanxuan came over, raised his hand and lightly pressed the back of my hand holding the paper cup, rubbed it, and looked at me with a half-smile, "I'm afraid the memory I gave you is not something you can just forget. Forget it, if you don’t want to remember it, you can’t remember it.”

I withdrew my hand and put the cup down on the window sill, looked up at him, and didn't speak.

Xiang Zhanxuan laughed again, raised his cold fingertips, and gently touched my cheek, I frowned and hid, and saw him smiling again, with a trace of coldness in his voice: " At this time, do you still want to pretend?"

He sighed as he spoke, and grabbed my hand before I could speak.

"Do you really think I didn't notice that every time I touch you, your body is trembling with fear."

Xiang Zhanxuan looked at me with sharp eyes: "Every time I look at you, even if you force yourself to be calm, you dare not look me in the eye for a long time."

"Jian Mingxi, I am a very special existence to you. It is impossible for you to completely remove my influence from you." Xiang Zhanxuan was silent for a while, and gently clasped my hands together. It's not easy to notice, the trembling hand is very subtle, the gentleness full of temptation in the memory has been brought out in the voice, "We, do we have to fight with me to the death?"

"We don't have any deep hatred, Jian Mingxi, I am the one who accepts you from the person who abandoned you," Xiang Zhanxuan raised a smile, "You will never forget the warmth I gave you, you promise I will think about it I thought about it, but it's not the answer I want."

I raised my eyebrows, looking at my own hand that was held by him, trembling impulsively, viciously, and madly.

After returning from the reservoir last time, the deep-rooted fear has completely disappeared. Instead, the strong killing intent that is deeply suppressed in the bottom of my heart every time can always face the person in front of me with the utmost courage. Breaking through his own will in a frenzied posture, he screamed fiercely.

Just like in the first memory, whether it is the other party's death or his own death, there is such a deep and urgent desire that seems to come from the soul.

Even the sedatives can hardly suppress the desire.

"That's right, Mr. Xiang always likes to destroy all the hopes of people to nothing, and then after pushing others into the abyss of despair, he appears as the only savior, using those word games and psychological hints to make people feel more hopeless." Others will always be at your feet," I smiled in a trance, "Your method of robbing people is much better than Zhao Juntong."

"But I will never believe it again."

"Your words can't fool me any more."

I pulled out my hand, stood up straight, and said with a calm smile: "If you have regained your most important thing, then your heart will never be shaken by the devil's bewitching again."

"And I'm sorry, leading you is not included in my list of important things."

Xiang Zhanxuan looked at me silently, and the air seemed to be stagnant because of this silence.

I turned my head and looked out of the window to the side, where there were tall buildings rising from the ground, viaducts, subway stations, and the continuous flow of vehicles and people under the high-rise buildings.

Busy, never-ending, struggling for my dreams and future.

Looking at it, I couldn't help but said: "Xiang Zhanxuan, do you know the beliefs that scholars should have?"

Xiang Zhanxuan didn't answer, but I looked at the scene outside the window and spoke softly.

"Zhang Zai of the Northern Song Dynasty once said something," I closed my eyes, said it lightly between my lips and teeth, then opened my eyelids and looked at the sky outside the window and said, "Yes, it is the famous four sentences of Hengqu."

Xiang Zhanxuan chuckled suddenly from behind, and I laughed too.

"Look, even you are familiar with it, right? But you think it's childish? It's ridiculous?" I turned around, leaned against the window sill behind me, looked at his handsome face full of sarcasm, and said lightly, "But this That’s why I’m able to get to where I am today.”

"Because of you, I almost forgot all these beliefs that I kept in the second grade when I was young, but now, I have been able to regain them all."

"If a person doesn't even have his own belief, that's the saddest thing, because you can't even recognize the path you're going to take."

"Even if my dignity is gone, even if my ideals are shattered, even if I am no longer the same person I used to be, no one can erase this belief from my bones and blood." I looked at him and smiled: "So, Now you know what it is that you haven't been able to dig out of me?"

Xiang Zhanxuan laughed so hard that he couldn't help but bend down: "Jian Mingxi, are you trying to laugh me to death when you say these words?"

"You think you are noble? Huh? Very upright? Very idealistic and far-sighted? Do you think you can despise me like this?"

"Didn't you ever steal public money? Didn't you transfer the public money from the company's account to your own bank card for your own self-interest, in order to use it as a sacrificial weight to restore Ji Tao? "

"Do you have the right to look at me proudly!" Xiang Zhanxuan grabbed me by the collar and slammed me against the wall fiercely, roaring, "You were not able to go to jail because of Zhao Juntong helping you recover in time, Do you have the right to despise me!"

"People always have to pay for their mistakes," I said lightly, "I will not deny the wrong things I have done just because I have experienced some unforgettable encounters, nor will I be guilty of any motive and reason for stealing money in the first place." Sophistry to deny any purpose, doing wrong, doing wrong."

"It's just that I'm willing to pay for my own mistakes."

I stroked my aching left waist, lowered my eyes, and smiled: "No matter what the ending will be, I will never run away again. So..."

"It's time for Mr. Xiang to make atonement for the mistakes you made." I raised my hand, grabbed the wrist of Xiang Zhanxuan's hand that grabbed my collar, pulled it away, and looked at the hurriedly Zhao Jun and them laughed and said, "You can't escape, Xiang Zhanxuan."

Xiang Zhanxuan suddenly grabbed my left hand: "Where is the ring!"

I was startled, turned to look at him, and Xiang Zhanxuan grabbed my finger that was staring at me viciously, and shouted: "Where is your ring! Jian Mingxi! Who did you take it off for!"

"Xiang Zhanxuan, let him go!" Zhao Juntong twisted Xiang Zhanxuan's arm, embraced me and pushed Xiang Zhanxuan away from me, then turned to ask me with concern, "Ah Xi, are you okay? "

"It's you..." Xiang Zhanxuan was stunned for a moment, and then laughed hysterically again, "So it's you...Zhao Juntong..."

"Honey, it's really timely. You said that if you were one step later and this pervert really attacked me, wouldn't you want to turn into a Tyrannosaurus again..."

As I was talking, I couldn't help but smile again, I stepped forward and grabbed Zhao Juntong by the collar, gave him a smack on the cheek, and looked triumphantly at Xiang Zhanxuan, whose expression was blank.

"Xiang Zong, I am different from you who have nothing now. We are not the same kind, and you will never have a chance to break into my life again."

As soon as I finished speaking, I heard Wei Bin's laughter: "Jian Mingxi, you raised your tail again, I knew you must drag us over, and then grab Jun Tong to show off."

"That's it," I was even more proud as I wrapped my arms around Zhao Juntong's shoulders, "Which one of you can still find such a talented and extraordinary wife?"

Wei Bin laughed out loud, Zhao Juntong only glanced at me, and smiled helplessly.

The staff of the bid opening meeting came out of the room again, frowned and said, "Keep your voice down, the bid opening is going on here!" After seeing the posture of the group of people in front of them, they couldn't help but be taken aback.

"I'm sorry, I have to deal with some business, and it will be over soon." Su Hangwen treated us and the people who were probing out of the bidding hall as the background, and said to the two uniformed people behind him, "To Sir, these two are from the criminal police brigade, about the death of my brother-in-law, your personal relationship with some officials, and the transfer of some important funds in Dingji's commercial and economic activities in recent years," he paused, Raising a unemotional smile, "They want to ask you for details."

"Hello, Mr. Xiang, please cooperate with our work."

Xiang Zhanxuan quietly closed his eyes, and opened them again after a long time.

With a polite smile, he tidied up the clothes that were somewhat messy due to the action just now, and nodded at the two people.

Watching the other party put a pair of cold handcuffs on his wrists, Xiang Zhanxuan just took two steps with those two people, but turned back to look at me, and said with a smile: "Jian Mingxi, does Zhao Juntong understand you?"

I was listening to the evil animal talking about the development of the matter they inquired about when they came over, and I looked up at him.

"Maybe you think you know yourself well enough, but you shouldn't forget how 'confessed' you were to me when you were mentally broken."

"You haven't noticed how different your mood today is compared to before."

"You think you are worthy of your conscience, so you can stand proudly in front of me," Xiang Zhanxuan reached out, took out a chain from his pocket, looked at me who put away his smile, raised the necklace and The slightly shaking pendant was shown to me, and I laughed maliciously, "But are you really worthy of your conscience?"

I looked at the pendant, it was obviously just a small circle as thick as a finger, but it made my body tremble uncontrollably.

Xiang Zhanxuan murmured softly: "In this world, only I know you best, and only we are the most suitable couple."

"I'm afraid Mr. Xiang is wrong." Zhao Juntong firmly held my cold hand, "It's just a ring."

Xiang Zhanxuan chuckled: "Is it really just a ring? Jian Mingxi, do you think it's just a ring?"

I pressed my lower lip tightly, then smiled: "Of course it's just a ring."

Xiang Zhanxuan smiled: "Really? Why did you scold me like crazy when I tore it off your body?"

"Jian Mingxi, do you really not love him anymore?"

He said with a sigh: "Even if you want to deceive yourself, you probably won't be able to deceive yourself. His death happened right in front of your eyes." He paused, then looked at me and smiled, "Ji Tao died because of you. "

"He was supposed to be the proud son of heaven, standing in the sun to accept everyone's admiration and admiration, but because of you, he had to suffer from the condemnation and guilt in his heart, and he was in constant anxiety all day long, and finally killed him." Isn't it you who killed him?"

I heard that my body froze immediately, and even my heart seemed to be poured into pieces of solid ice. Every time I beat, I felt cold and bloody.

So much blood, so intense colors...

So over and over again, the voice full of despair...

Wei Bin sneered and said: "Xiang Zhanxuan, you really know how to turn black and white, how people die, you understand better than anyone else." He turned his head to look at me again, "Hey! Jian Mingxi, you fucking don't know Are you so stupid to believe what he says?"

Xiang Zhanxuan only smiled.

"Axi, don't worry about it," Zhao Juntong looked at me, raised his hand to caress my face, I looked at him blankly, and heard him whisper in a calm voice, "What he said is all lies, you knew."

I know, of course I fucking know, with you here, how could I be deceived by this bastard again.

It wasn't me who killed, even if the dead one had made some bullshit oath with me, even if he used to be stupid and wanted to show me his merits with his hard work, but now it has nothing to do with me...

I have already taken off the ring, and I want to put it all down...

But I am in pain.

Zhao Juntong, I'm still in pain.

That voice haunts you even in your dreams, it keeps screaming over and over again, it hurts me a lot.

Zhao Juntong looked at me, ignoring other people's gazes and the noise around him, he took me into his arms and hugged me tightly.

"Ash, that's not your fault."

"Believe me, all that is Ji Tao's own choice, it's really not your fault."

"Of course it's not my fault," I sneered, gritted my teeth tremblingly and said, "I've already torn him apart many years ago, that bastard Ji Tao...how...he asked for it no matter what he thinks , I can't even get in touch with me, I don't care about him...don't care about him...why accuse me for no reason..."

I firmly grasped Zhao Juntong's sleeve, and said tremblingly: "I just need to control you bastard, Zhao Juntong, I just need to control you now! I don't care about other people! "

Zhao Juntong: "...Axi..."

Su Hangwen frowned and looked at me who was leaning against Zhao Juntong's arms and started to breathe, then turned to the two criminal policemen, smiled politely and said, "If you are busy, go first, there are too many people here, and it will also affect you They act according to the law."

Those two people glanced at each other, and one of them stepped forward and pressed Xiang Zhanxuan's shoulder.

Xiang Zhanxuan followed them and turned around, then said "ah" as if remembering something, turned to look at me and said, "I almost forgot, when Ji Tao came to me, the first In a word, it is to question what I have done to you."

He looked at me looking up at him, and then raised a gentle smile: "I can't explain it, so I just let him try everything I did to you."

I was stunned for a while, and then I heard Xiang Zhanxuan continue to say viciously: "Also, you may still remember William who ate and slept with you in the same cage." He smiled, "You shouldn't forget, After all, the relationship between the two of you used to be so good, and you always snuggled up to each other for warmth."

"It's because I like you and can't bear it," he said after a slight pause, then sighed, "but I didn't care about Ji Tao."

Xiang Zhanxuan smiled at me and shook the necklace on his hand: "William, who drank the sweet soup, really likes Ji Tao."

The blood vessels in my brain exploded with a "hum", the blood all over my body screamed, and my nerves roared fiercely. I was swept away by the pain and screamed miserably.

I don't know how to break free from Zhao Juntong's arm who failed to defend in time, and I don't know where the strength came from to push Wei Bin and Su Hangwen away. I only feel that what is boiling in my chest is resentment and fear, and I can only see that line of sight in my red eyes. A lightly dangling, shining ring.

How can you!

How can you bastard! !

He is mine, how can you treat him like this! !How the hell can you treat him like this! ! !

You give him back to me!Give him back to me quickly! !

give me back! ! !

Angrily, I stepped forward to grab the ring in Xiang Zhanxuan's hand. As soon as my fingertips touched the coldness of the unique metal on the ring, my arm was suddenly firmly grasped.

I raised my eyes and turned to Xiang Zhanxuan in a daze, but I only saw a familiar pity, gentle and sad smile on the corner of his lips.

And, sharp condensed blades.

"Jian Mingxi, I said..."

He leaned close to my ear, murmuring in a low voice mixed with desperation.

"If one day I really have to leave you, then I will kill you instead of abandoning you."

"Ash!!!"