All your life is gentle

In the evening, Zi Shi came out of Jixian Pavilion, followed by Li Wen, Li Zhang and Ni Jian.

He usually chooses this time to come and pick up the books.After the dismissal, the officials of Jixian Pavilion returned home from get off work and were replaced by servants in the palace.

Changsheng went to Chuzhou for inspection, and Ni Jian basically waited in the palace day and night.Zi Shi wants to go out of the middle palace to Jixian Pavilion, so he must follow him closely.

"Brother Ni didn't say that he wanted to go to Chuzhou to see Brother Yue?" Zi Shi asked casually.

"In other words...how can I leave when His Majesty is not here?" Thinking that the other party was worried about the emperor's safety, he comforted him, "You know, those who followed His Majesty to Chuzhou were all reliable people.

"Ah, I'm just asking casually. I haven't seen Brother Yue for a long time, and I really miss him."

Ni Jianxin said that you miss Xiaoyue so much, I think he is pretty much the same.

My head suddenly hit "I... think... Xiaoyue...?!

Shaking his head, it's been a long time, it's normal to think about it. These years, each has a heavy responsibility, and it's rare to get together a few times, and I'm used to it. Last year, I heard that he was almost assassinated, and I was inexplicably worried for several days.This time when His Majesty went to Chuzhou, he would undoubtedly stay behind.But, it seems, as if, as if, vaguely, a little afraid to go...

Shake your head again.Of course I'd like to go, but I just can't get away.

"According to the news sent back by Fu Gan, if there is no change, His Majesty has already left Chuzhou. There are several counties and counties on the road that plan to stop for a while. After about ten days, it is time to arrive in the capital."

"It's the [-]th of June today?"

"Master, it's June 28th." Li Wen replied later, knowing that the young master is living a muddled life, he added, "Your Majesty left on May [-]th."

"Oh……"

Standing on the steps in front of the gate of Jixian Pavilion, Zi Shi stopped and looked up when he heard a few birdsong.

Under the setting sun, the palace is gorgeous.

The golden sun shines heavily from the glazed tile roof, and the vermilion-colored palace gate beams and white marble corridor railings all turn into deep and shallow yellows, reflecting bright and clear luster.The smooth mirror-like blue brick floor received the pouring sunlight, as if melting purple gold all over the floor.

Zi Shi couldn't help raising his hand to cover his forehead, and closed his eyes.The light of the setting sun penetrates through the thin eyelids, occupying all vision.Bathed in the golden afterglow, I seemed to become part of the warm air, forgetting everything for a while.

He didn't move his legs, and the others behind him were of course standing.

He looks at the sunset, and the people behind him look at him.

The sun shone on him, reflecting a halo, and the whole person suddenly became distant and dazzling.It seems that the traces of Buddha and fairy that accidentally appeared in the golden light of the sea of ​​clouds will disappear in a blink of an eye and disappear into the nine heavens.

Li Wen and Li Zhang had the urge to reach out and pull him, but they didn't dare to make a sound for no reason, and stood behind blankly.

The eyes gradually turned from gold to red, and the light gradually faded.Zi Shi opened his eyes, the setting sun had already shrunk into a flaming pill, fixed on the purple jade plate, it seemed within reach, but the pill eventually disappeared together with the jade plate.The previously brilliant and dazzling palace suddenly became a large shadow, high and low, lost and deep.

The surroundings were cold and desolate, and the atmosphere suddenly changed.

The coldness seemed to come out from every door and every window, seep from every step and every pillar, making Zi Shi shiver for no reason.Subconsciously want to move, raise your legs and walk forward.I forgot that I was standing on the steps, and this foot stepped on the air.

Although the three people behind were also in a daze, they just looked at him in a daze.Ni Jian came to the front in a flash, and the book in Li Wen and Li Zhang's hands fell to the ground with a "crash", and he rushed to hold it while exclaiming.

"Master!"

Zi Shi stood firm, rubbed his forehead, and smiled apologetically: "It's okay, it's a bit dazzling..."

"Zi Shi..." Seeing that his face turned pale, Ni Jian must have been terrified himself.Feeling helpless, I can't wait to ask: How did you live such a big life? !The last time His Majesty told him to stay behind, but within two days, he was so frightened that his heart dropped out.This time the task was even more arduous, and after more than 20 days of trembling, I just felt at ease, Amitabha, please don't let anything happen.

So he said: "I asked them to carry the sedan chair."

Zi Shi refused: "No need, I want to take a walk." Then he said, "Walk for a while, so I can have an appetite to eat."

Ni Jian sighed and stopped insisting. General Ni suddenly felt that he sighed more in the past 20 days than in the past half of his life, and it must be because of being with someone like Li Zishi.

Zi Shi walked forward slowly with his head down, and those people followed each other step by step.

Laughing at myself in my heart: "How can I slip away to this point..."

After walking for a while, it became darker and darker. The sky was not dark, but the palace was empty and quiet. Once all the officials went down to disperse, it would be extremely deserted. On a hot day, as long as the sun sets, there will be a coolness everywhere, and the chill will come from the soles of the feet. The blue bricks come up in strands, along the meridians and bone marrow, pass through the dantian and enter the chest and abdomen.Zi Shi felt very carefully, but found that it was not cold.

It's not cold, it's much deeper than mere coldness.

--what is it?

Walking on the stone bridge beside the Dayugong Garden, I saw Polygonum flowers blooming red and Ling leaves knotted in the water, so I couldn't help but stop and admire.

He also seldom comes to the Imperial Garden, firstly because he has no time, and secondly because this is the territory of the harem women.The empress dowager and other concubines and concubines left by the late emperor often visited here to have fun, so of course he would not make footprints to meet them.Just like this kind of opportunity, take a look at it by the way. Besides, if you really want to see the scenery, 1 imperial gardens are not worth seeing, and there is no loss.

The corridors on both sides of the imperial garden lead to the east and west harem. Most of the rooms are empty now. When the current emperor was the prince, he did not care about marrying a concubine. He ascended the throne after the death of the former emperor. After that, a year and a half has passed now.The Yanfu Palace behind the Central Palace was originally a residence for the Empress, but it is also empty now.

Zi Shi can't think of these things at ordinary times, for some reason, standing on the stone bridge in the imperial garden with his hands behind his back, it seems that he is the only one in the whole palace.Instead, he obsessively thinks about other people living in this palace - those who have already lived here, and those who may live here in the future, other people.

He is very clear that this has nothing to do with whether he believes in longevity, but he is a little tired of thinking about certain dramas that will inevitably be staged in the future.

Yes.bored.

Even if he doesn't reveal anything, it's a pity that for him, only the unexpected doesn't exist, he pursed his lips and smiled silently, feeling a little sympathetic to him.

Li Wen, Li Zhang and Ni Jian stood by, not daring to show their air.

Ni Jianxin said, my ancestors, if you want to love each other, choose a safe place. It was on the steps before, but now it is on the bridge. Even if you don’t fall, if you slip and get a few drops of water, you may not be able to get out of bed for a few days.Both eyes stared at the prison bridge, for fear that a fish would suddenly jump out of the water and alarm Li Zishi.

The two of them silently looked at each other.The young master's appearance is so serious that people can't let go of it.His eyebrows frowned.The flowers and grass seemed to bow their heads.Pursing his lips and smiling, the stone rockery seemed to have opened its mouth completely.He stood alone in a daze, the trees, fish and birds all over the garden seemed to have a soul to understand, and he did not speak with him. (This is a hallucination in the eyes of the faithful servant...)

Zi Shi leaned on the railing, watching the red tassels of Polygonum flowers vertical to the water surface, making a series of shallow ripples.A few leaves rippled gently with the ripples, spread out, and gathered again, and one with a broken stem drifted away.

Thinking of the eve before departure, he said: "After this last big trouble, I will be happy from now on, and accompany me to practice double cultivation with one heart and one mind. If you can't do it, you are just lazy. Everything is difficult at the beginning. Get through this period." , your body is ready, you can do it wherever you like, no matter how many times you do it in one night, I promise to double it..."

The smile on his lips was even thicker, he always liked to talk about the future, if it wasn't for his insistence on running to the future, it would be on his own.Perhaps, everything has already ended before the eyes of countless people.

I was a lazy person... After working so hard, so painful and tired, I followed him so far.Looking back, I feel incredible.

Very happy and satisfied.

Happiness is enough to stop there, and contentment is too weak to continue to struggle.

Going to Chuzhou to solve the last big trouble among the problems left over from history, and what will come up again will be new challenges of the new era.

The younger sister is married, the younger brother is back, and each has a good destination.

At this moment, so lonely.

And...so easy.

Suddenly felt light and shadow flickering, when I looked up, the sky was dark and the scenery was blurry, two strings of palace lanterns were approaching like dragons, the chief servant of Longfu Palace led his men to find them.

The two of Wenwen handed over the book to them, took the lantern, and realized that the young master had forgotten the time today, and if they stayed outside for too long, it might be a bit bad.

Looking at the countless faces in the glowing lights, familiar yet unfamiliar, Zi Shi was in a trance for a while: Why am I here?

Birds return to the forest, flowers follow the water, the sun sinks to the west, and the mountains to the east at the beginning of the month.

...why am I... still here?

Zi Shi was embraced by a large group of people and returned to the bedroom, his expression remained numb.

Li Wendao: "Master, hurry up and eat."

no response.

Li Zhangdao: "Drink some hot soup first to warm your stomach."

Still no response.

Li Wen stood in front of him and raised his voice: "Master!"

Zi Shi was startled: "Ah? What's the matter..."

Li Zhang glared at Li Wen, and criticized in a low voice: "You can't be more gentle!"

Zi Shi woke up, saw the maids passing the meal, shook his head: "You eat yours. I'm a little sleepy, sleep for a while." He said and walked inside.

Compared with other places in the imperial palace, the rules of Longfu Palace are very loose. If the people below are allowed to eat first, they all salute and leave to eat.

The two of them went in and made the bed. In the summer of June, a thin blanket is enough.Taking advantage of changing clothes, Li Zhang touched the young master's fingertips and felt as cold as ice.Immediately call the shots and change to a thicker quilt.Li Wen turned around and went out, calling for the imperial physician.

When Yuan Shanggu came in, Zi Shi was already asleep.

After taking the pulse and listening to the process, Imperial Physician Yuan frowned deeply: "I caught a cold on a hot day, and I was frightened and depressed, too bad...why are you so careless?"

Li Wen and Li Zhang didn't think it was very serious at first, and suddenly panicked.In the past year, I saw that the young master was almost the same as when he was in Xijing before, and the tight strings gradually relaxed a lot compared to before and after the serious illness and serious injury.I blame myself endlessly.

"Decoct the medicine first and send it down, and we'll see the situation in the middle of the night."

However, without waiting for midnight, Zi Shi was woken up to drink the medicine, and just about to lie down after drinking, he vomited it all up.Straightforwardly, a good night's sleep would be enough, Mimi stared and shivered under the quilt.The two of them took turns to watch over the night. Seeing that they didn't have a fever or cough, they prayed that if the young master predicted it, they would be fine after a good night's sleep.In the morning, he drank the medicine again, vomited again, and sank into a semi-comatose state, so he hurriedly sent someone to the Tai Hospital.Jiang Qingchi came here with Yuan Shanggu.Feel it, both faces are black.

Imperial Physician Yuan hesitated and said: "The cold is the cold, this... is... dizzy, and the pulse is weak and closed, it can't be... I bumped into something unclean in the palace at night, right?"

Jiang Qingchi stomped his feet: "Could it be that the imperial doctor doesn't work, but the godly witch does?! What about the prescription? Give it to me! You have to drink it even if you vomit it, and you have to drink it every time you drink it. The soup and medicine are not good. There are also acupuncture and moxibustion, which will be dragged until His Majesty comes back!" "

Last year, Changsheng got the elixir of snow lotus from Jiang Taiyi, and consulted him about Zishi's illness.When Jiang Qingchi officially entered the palace, Jiang Qingchi was the supervisor of the imperial hospital, so he was in charge of court medicine, and Yuan Shanggu had treated Zi Shi's doctor for many years, so he was familiar with the cause and effect, and the two had to cooperate.

"I told you at the beginning that the pulse condition has long been ruined, and it is barely sustained by external force. What kind of tonic, internal strength, a year is a year, who knows when it will be? You should tell your majesty at the beginning Clear! Look, what should we do now?" Jiang Qingchi complained while looking at Fangzi.

The two people in the article listened with miserable expressions.

"Yes... oh, that's not... oh..." Yuan Shanggu rubbed his hands and walked back and forth.

When Zi Shi entered the palace, Physician Jiang took the pulse for the first time, and when he returned, he asked Imperial Physician Yuan to ask about his past medical records.Yuan Shanggu told what he had done, and what he heard from Tan Ziyu. Jiang Qingchi was silent for a long time, and finally cupped his hands at him: "I admire you two, you are so amazing. You have saved them all after going around the gate of hell so many times. return."

Yuan Shanggu shook his head and sighed: "What's even more powerful is the emperor, and this Mr. Li himself, who has no intention of changing his fate against the sky, long ago..."

The two discussed it, and Jiang Qingchi was persuaded by Yuan Shanggu. Anyway, the emperor took the main responsibility by himself, and those ominous prophecies were left alone. Who would have thought that they would suddenly explode at this moment when no one was in charge.

Ni Jian got the notification, came in to take a look, and immediately decided to send someone to deliver a letter to Changsheng.

By June 23, Zi Shi was completely unconscious and couldn't drink anything anymore. Li Wen and Li Zhang stayed by the bed all night without closing their eyes, no longer in the mood to cry.Jiang and Yuan mobilized everyone in the big hospital to read ancient books and come up with ideas. Ni Jian kept circling Longfu Palace every day, and the number of guards doubled.When the emperor was on tour, the imperial physicians came and went in the central palace, and the long-guessed facts surfaced. In two days, a person who had been invisible for more than two years shocked the palace.

On June 25, Changsheng returned to the palace.

When Ni Jian saw His Majesty, he galloped straight into the palace gate with more than a dozen people on horseback. It was impossible for the messengers to deliver the letter so quickly. He was afraid that he would go lightly on his way from Chuzhou and leave the large group of people behind.While thinking that it would be too prudent and risky, while thanking God in his heart, he went up to meet him and said without waiting for a question: "Your Majesty, Zi Shi is ill."

Changsheng paused.

"It's been five days, and I hope His Majesty will come back soon..." Ni Jian raised his head, and there were only a group of guards left in front of him.

The maids and servants knelt down to salute one by one, but Chang Sheng ignored them, rushed straight to the bed, and stopped suddenly.

Such a strong anxiety, I thought it was caused by longing, but it turned out not to be.

I don't remember how many times I have faced such a sudden blow, and every panic and suffering has accumulated, crushing my heart like a stone.

Changsheng thought: Zi Shi, why are you sick again?Tell you not to get sick, always disobedient.I'm not telling you, it's as white as a wall, and it doesn't look good at all.I promise you to come back on time--I came back early, why don't you look at me and smile?Look at me and smile...

He wanted to bend down to hug him, but his will could not direct his body.So he just stood there like a stone, motionless.

On the contrary, it was Li Wen and Li Zhang, who had been struggling for a long time, and the backbone finally came back. They were going to kneel down and salute, but they fell down and sat on the ground because they were relaxed.

Seeing that Li Zhang was worse off than himself, Li Wen reported, "Your Majesty, young master... came out of Jixian Pavilion on June [-]th, and seemed... a little unhappy. Take a walk back to the palace in the imperial garden, don't worry about it." Suffering from the cold... For the first two days, I vomited as soon as I took the medicine, and on the third day... I tried everything I could, but I couldn't wake up... Today... is the fifth day..."

Changsheng thought: Zi Shi, why are you unhappy?Because I didn't come back?I refuse to go, you want me to go.You promised me that you would wait obediently, so I went, why did you lie to me?I'm back now, why are you still awake?I know you can hear me, don't go to sleep, wake up and look at me, give me a smile, okay?

He wanted to squat down and touch him, but his legs were already numb.An old voice sounded from behind: "Your Majesty!" Chang Sheng was taken aback and found himself propped up on the bedpost.

Yuan Shanggu knelt behind the emperor and raised his head: "Your Majesty, take care!"

"The imperial doctor...please tell me if you have something to say."

Imperial Physician Yuan looked at Imperial Physician Jiang beside him.The patient was on the verge of dying and exhausted yesterday, and it was clear that he was exhausted, and he was hanging on his breath until the emperor came back before swallowing.But before the emperor left, he was a good person. After five days of work, is it worthless to raise a large group of imperial doctors?

"Your Majesty," Yuan Shanggu calmed down, "Young Master Li's body has been maintained by His Majesty's magical skills for the past two years, supported by medicine, and continued by His strong will. This time His Majesty left, although he had taken precautions in advance, However... that evening, when the yang is declining and the yin is rejoining, and I am in a place where the grass and trees are cold, and the mood is low, the mind is wandering, and I am most susceptible to evil, which damages the veins and hurts the organs. The so-called end of the crossbow..."

"Is it……"

Jiang Qingchi was so annoyed when he heard it, he burst out suddenly: "Your Majesty, some people...are not born to live long!"

As these words caught his ears, Chang Sheng felt a sharp pain in his heart. A mouthful of blood was sprayed on the gauze tent, and several drops were splashed on the bedpost curtain hook with gold leaf engraved with a golden dragon, which was eye-catching and gorgeous.

"Your Majesty!" Those who were kneeling on the ground got up one after another to help them look.

Changsheng was a little confused in his mind, and felt that it seemed good and comfortable to just stay in such a state of confusion, and it seemed that there was a voice that kept telling himself: Wake up!You wake up, he will wake up!

Close your eyes and tell yourself: Wake up!

"It doesn't matter." Slowly stood up straight and waved his hands, "You all go to rest, you are tired these days."

"His Majesty……"

"It's okay... let's all go down... I'm fine here."

A group of people quietly retreated one after another.

Changsheng thought he was sober, but in fact he was still confused.They didn't care that the two of them ordered the palace ladies to change the gauze curtains and wipe off the blood, nor did they care that Jiang and Yuan arranged for the medical officers to be on duty in shifts and wait for orders.He just stood in front of the bed, closed his eyes, focused, adjusted his breath, and lucked out.Over and over, and finally, slowly began to undress.

As Zi Shi walked, he thought, "Why am I here?"

The surroundings were gray and foggy, and I could vaguely see the road stretching forward under my feet, so I subconsciously walked along it.He didn't know where this road led, but he seemed very clear in his heart that that was his destination.

The fog is getting thicker and thicker, like reaching the river, there is a figure in the water vapor, the voice is gentle and friendly, like an old friend who hasn't seen for many years: "Here?"

"Well, here we come."

The man waved to the opposite side: "Transition."

A boat appeared without a sound, and someone asked in the dimness, "How many people?"

"One."

The one on the shore turned around, unable to see his movements clearly from his posture, but understood that he was signaling to him to get on the boat.After taking two steps, I always felt a little puzzled, so I stopped.

"wrong……"

"What's wrong?"

"Why one?"

"Aren't you alone?"

Zi Shi looked around, and sure enough he was alone.

But why am I alone?He lowered his head and muttered to himself: "A person...why? No...why...just me?..."

Looking at the shadow in front of him, he asked, "Why?"

"There is no reason, you are only one person."

Zi Shi thought about it, then shook his head: "No, I'm not alone." He thought it through. "More than one person, there should be him...I want to go back and find him."

The person opposite smiled vaguely: "You can't go back... You should know that Huangquan Road is a road of no return."

Zi Shi hurriedly turned his head, but the way he came from had disappeared. He stayed there for a while, then suddenly sat down on the spot.

"what are you doing?"

"I'm waiting for him here."

The person opposite sighed: "Then I don't know when."

Zi Shi remembered that he had said that he wanted me to wait for him.But why did I accidentally walk here?It doesn't matter, he will find me and pick me up.

Nodding her head, she paused word by word: "I'll wait here for him...waiting for him to pick me up and go back."

"Zi Shi."

"Um……"

"Zi Shi." Chang Sheng was afraid that the response was just his own imagination, and after calling his name in his ear for the second time, he immediately turned his head and stared at his face.

"Um……"

The sound came from the nasal cavity gently, and Changsheng caught the obvious air vibration.Such a faint sound seemed to directly blast a thunderbolt in his brain.

Hold your mind.Introduce the vague heat flow into the dantian, and then slowly bring it to all the extraordinary meridians.Once, twice, three times... You don't need to wake him up right away, it's best to follow him half-awake - at this time, he is the most obedient and obedient.

The body in his arms is so familiar, no matter the soul or the body, to some extent, Changsheng is much more familiar than its owner.After such a long and arduous exploration, he gradually knew the precise location of each sensitive point, understood the subtle changes in each stage, could read all the hidden information in the subconscious reaction, and could see the blood under the skin. The direction of circulation—he felt more and more that this body was truly becoming a part of himself.

Changsheng already knew very clearly where the most difficult obstacle to overcome was leading him to practice internal strength and double cultivation.

He is definitely not lacking in concentration—as long as he wants to, he can even reach unusually strong.but……

In the process of long-term intimate life together, Changsheng finally figured out that his concentration was at the cost of damaging his body.In other words, he has an ability to separate his body and mind at critical moments, and after being forced to use it countless times, it turned into some kind of instinctive reaction.If he had to be forced to practice qigong according to his own will, it is possible that his soul would leave his body and never come back.Corresponding to this is the extremely sensitive, fragile and uncontrollable body...

The basic premise of using mind to move Qi and mind to control desire is the unity of body and mind.However, Zishi was born deficient in this aspect and was slack the day after tomorrow. There is a very unique deep-seated reason for this, and Changsheng is of course impossible to guess.His conclusion is that this person is too smart and too lazy, and his brain and body are inversely proportional to each other.When Zi Shi was sober, Chang Sheng could only find ways to distract him, maintain the balance of his body and mind for him, and prevent him from withdrawing his will because the torment of his body was too unbearable, or simply yielding to his desires, indulging his body, and giving up. effort.In fact, this point has never been fully achieved, at most it is just trying to prolong the process of inseparability a little bit longer.

This is the fundamental reason why the two people's "double cultivation" progressed so slowly and was so easy to repeat.Changsheng had noticed it very early, until this time, facing him who was completely unconscious for three whole days, he tried his best to regain his consciousness, stimulate his instinct, and finally mastered it, regained his confidence, and even expressed his affection and sexuality. The reverse flow of life and death penetrates to a higher level.

Every quarter of an hour, he called his name.Twist the sound into a thin and soft strand, and send it directly to the heart.When he felt a gradual and steady tremor coming from the position close to his chest, Changsheng was so excited that he almost couldn't hold it back.I bowed my head and kissed, with mixed feelings; if it was a stupid one, I didn't know how hard it was to practice.Cleverness is misunderstood by cleverness, and it is just right to use it here.

At noon the next day, after walking for a week, Zi Shi suddenly opened his eyes.

"Longevity..."

"Ah."

Zi Shi looked at him blankly.All kinds of scenes in the dream quickly fell apart with the appearance of the face in front of him.After a while, the eyes slowly became clear: "You... are you back?"

"Ah."

After a while, she smiled as if embarrassed: "You are back, why did I fall asleep? Really... when did you come back?"

"just came back."

Zi Shi looked at him for a while: "Did you not sleep well on the way?"

"It's okay." Changsheng began to dress him.

Zi Shi saw that the two of them were sticking together naked, clearly in the posture of practicing kung fu.

"why……"

Changsheng didn't answer, he carefully put on his inner clothes, and then dressed himself properly.He picked up the fine down blanket on the bed, wrapped it up, picked it up and walked out.

During this process, Zi Shi has been at his mercy.I couldn't bear it any longer and asked, "Where are you going?"

Changsheng was silent for a moment, bowed his head and smiled: "Go home." He kissed him lightly on the forehead, "Let's go home, back to Meili."

"what……"

Zi Shi suddenly felt as if it were real and illusory, his whole body seemed to float up, thinking that he had stepped into another dream.It's just that this dream is much better than the previous ones, and I don't want to wake up.

"I'll take you home—let's go to Meili to look at the stars, go to Lake Eiger to catch swans, and go to Lingyun Mountain to pick snow lotus... shall we?"

"it is good……"