All your life is gentle

It took almost half a month for Zi Shi to take medicine as a meal before slowly adding a small amount of normal food to the liquid diet.Changsheng came back on time every day, had dinner with him, took a walk, and talked with him.Sometimes seeing that he was in good spirits, I would write two notes to "Zheng Ya" for him.

The first time I wrote it, Zi Shi took a look at it and laughed.

Laughing so that someone blushes shyly, embarrassed: "If you think it's ugly, just say it..." And then thinks guiltyly: Could it be that there are white characters?It shouldn't be...

That one quickly explained: "It's not ugly, it's not ugly—at least it's a pen and ink practiced by Li's disciples, how could it be ugly?" He said with a smile, "You have never written such small characters, you are not used to it, you are a little nervous, and your strokes are sharp , each of them looks like eight-legged spiders cocooning themselves. In contrast, Zigui’s writing is full of spider eggs, ha!..." The more he talked, the happier he was, lying on the table and unable to get up.

Chang Sheng took it over and looked at it. At first he thought it was quite neat, but with his analogy, the paper was full of spiders and spider eggs, no matter how it looked, it was suddenly horrible.On the second day, he refused to write anything, and waited until he spoke softly and lingered on him, and then happily continued to be enslaved.

The weather is gradually getting cooler, entering August, and the nights suddenly become cold.Chang Sheng put his arms around Zi Shi every night, massaged until he fell asleep, then added two points of internal energy to run for him for a week.He specially consulted two famous doctors, pondered carefully, and tried carefully. After practicing a few times, he felt that the person in his arms slept more peacefully, and his body was not as scary as when he was seriously ill.

The issue is--

When he fell asleep, he hugged him tightly, and occasionally moved...

Is it tolerable, which is unbearable?Every time he endured until midnight, Chang Sheng couldn't bear it anymore, so he just got up and meditated to practice.

Recalling Tan Ziyu's words: "Unless you find a quiet and comfortable place where you can cultivate your morality, avoid idle people, ignore labor and common affairs, and live in peace and stability for ten or eight years, you may be able to get rid of the root cause of the disease." !"

Everything else is easy to say, this...pure heart and few desires...pure heart and few desires...

Sober minded...

In the morning, Li Zhang waited for the young master to get up, wash, eat, drink medicine, even if Xiaoge Xiaoqu helped him, he was a bit too busy.

"Where's Ah Wen?" After Zi Shi asked, he remembered that it seemed difficult to see Wen Wen and Wen Zhang at the same time recently.Thinking back this time, I realized that even Zigui was rare, and he came to visit him from time to time every day before leaving, leaving all the food and drink to Lu Changgeng.

"What are you busy with these days, Miss?"

Li Zhang stopped what he was doing, stood up straight, and said solemnly: "Master, it is like this, the young lady has entered the palace—those who surrendered are now living in the palace. His Highness said that after August [-] , it is time to set off back to Shunjing. The princes and nobles in Xijing City, officials above the fifth rank will definitely leave, but their family members, as well as so many concubines and maids in the original palace, cannot all follow. How can these many women and children be settled? It's very tricky. So, the lady was invited by the military advisor..."

Zi Shi nodded to express his understanding.Junshi Zhuang was kind enough to engulf Her Royal Highness into King Jingbei's great cause of founding the country in this way, shining brightly.In any case, Zigui is a woman after all. The so-called princess is just an honorary title, and the external moral pressure is relatively light.Also because of the gender relationship, the inner toughness and flexibility are also stronger.What Zizhou can't face, Zigui is working hard to persevere.

Li Zhang continued: "As for Awen, Master Fu, the magistrate, asked him to ask some questions. Master Fu is not like Mr. Zhuang, who dares to trouble Miss. He knows that Awen and I are locals, and he is familiar with the situation in the city. , what's the matter, it's more time to ask the two of us..."

Zi Shi said: "Didn't he have some former officials to help him? Could it be that the two of you are more useful?"

"I must ask everyone, but—" Li Zhang expressed a little satisfaction, "I think Mr. Fu is pretending to be very modest, but I am afraid that he doesn't really trust those lords, but he would rather trust Ah Wen and me. A servant."

"What's wrong with my servant?" Zi Shi sneered slightly, "I think, if you two really become officials, you might be better than many lords."

Li Zhang shook his hands repeatedly: "That's not going to happen, the young master is embarrassing us..." While cleaning up the dishes, he smacked and touched, and then said, "Not to mention, I have copied books with the young master in the past few years, and my knowledge has improved rapidly. Go to Lantai When the secretary was helping, several Hanlin praised us...Hey! Haven't you heard, young master? "The lackeys of the Lantai sect, and the candidates on the gold list" are talking about our Li family..." The master and servant had a quarrel After the fight, Li Zhang was even more at ease in front of the young master, not to mention his heart.

Zi Shi laughed: ""The running dogs of the Lantai sect, but the people on the gold list"? What kind of person is full of food..." He thought, this rumor is good, it is better than others, how did I hear it.

Seriously said: "Although the magistrate is not ashamed to ask, but he is definitely not blind, which proves that you two have real talents. A man has the ambition to be self-improving. Let me mention it again. This is a good opportunity to stay and benefit the local people. Moisturize the side..."

Li Zhang was silent for a while, then slowly said: "Young Master, His Highness also asked us." He looked up at Zi Shi, "There are many capable people who love to be officials in the world, and there is no shortage of us. But the Young Master and Your Highness is going to Shunjing, even if His Highness... No matter how affectionate he is, he is a person who does big things, so how can he care about many small details? Young master, you are patient in everything, how can you not have someone around you who you can order around?"

Zi Shi was moved.It turns out that everyone around them is supporting themselves unreservedly with the persistence and persistence unique to this era and the world, and in the way they can each do.

Deliberately teasing: "I thought, with the double monthly money issued by King Jingbei, you were sent around by his subordinates one by one. You have long forgotten who you are your own."

Li Zhang stomped his feet: "Master!" Then he gave up and muttered angrily, "I've never been like a master... If you are not a king, then you will be a minister or not, it depends on who you will rely on in the future!"

Backing to the door with the tray in hand, he suddenly remembered something and stopped: "There is something, young master, do you know—"

"Oh?"

"That's right...on July and a half, His Highness asked Ah Wen to lead the way to the Martyr's Shrine."

Zi Shi was surprised and couldn't help being taken aback.

"I heard from Awen that His Royal Highness originally planned to take a few guards to go quietly. But when Mr. Zhuang returned home when he went out, he decided to invite the young lady, and directly invited the Taoist priests who were dipped in Furongzhong to the southern suburbs. That's it... His Highness kowtowed three times to the tablet of the master in front of everyone."

In the evening, Li Wen and Li Zhang took out the Four Treasures of the Study and put them on the table.Zi Shi shook his head: "Work is off today."

Chang Sheng was in high spirits and asked, "Why?"

"If you strike, you will strike, for whatever reason."

"Oh……"

King Jingbei looked deflated, so he didn’t want to read it, and the two of them quickly cleaned up, served soup and medicine, and disappeared silently.

Chang Sheng moved to him with the medicine bowl in his hand, and glanced up and down worriedly: "I don't want to stop on weekdays, why did you stop working today?"

"Yeah," Zi Shi bowed his head, "I want to have a good talk."

"When can't you talk properly? As for this..."

Because he lowered his head, Chang Sheng felt as if the person in front of him was smiling, but he could only trace the stretched brows through the loose hair on his forehead.Just about to lean over to take a closer look, he tilted his head again, clasped his hands, and put on a pensive look.

"Some things...should have been said earlier. If I had said it earlier, maybe...but...I don't know..."

Yujie's white ears and slender fingers with twisted fingers showed a sculptural luster, which was the scene that Changsheng was most afraid of.

He put down the bowl, grasped all ten fingers in the palm of one hand, and supported his head with the other hand.

"Longevity..."

Seems to know what he wants to say, but not sure what he will say.Some kind of deja vu feeling rose up, and Chang Sheng was afraid and looking forward to it.When his name leaked from his lips like a sigh, he was instantly lost in those deep and deep eyes, and he replied in a daze: "I am here..."

"You know... just like there are some things you can't say to me... I am the same, there are some things that should be said...but you didn't say it. Because of hesitation, because of timidity, because...you can't say it. As a result..."

When Chang Sheng heard this, he woke himself up with an ice brick snowball and realized what he was talking about.

——This matter, between the two, will sooner or later have to be discussed face to face.

I wanted to wait until he was in better health until the eve of departure, since he chose now, then, it should be now.

Let go of your hand, and whispered: "Then drink the medicine first, okay? Lie down and talk slowly."

"Ah."

After drinking the medicine and laying on his lap as a pillow, Zi Shi was so comfortable that his whole body went limp.However, it was really not a good posture to speak, so he hesitated, gritted his teeth, got up, and sat cross-legged across from him.

Changsheng looked at him: "You look like this... I feel guilty."

"What are you guilty of?"

"Zi Shi..."

After these few days, I regretted to death, became anxious, and figured it out.

Changsheng put his hands on his sides, and met his eyes straightly: "Zi Shi, I... I was wrong. In the middle of the night on the third day of July, then... that Fu Chuqing sneaked out to spy on me, I should have told you at that time. I shouldn't have kept it secret. Looking at you, you should not be suspicious, blindly evade, self-righteous, and recklessly kill. So that the villain can take advantage of it, stir up trouble, and almost cause a catastrophe, which is irreparable..."

Thinking of all the suffering he suffered because of this, all the despair and regret came back to his heart, and every word he uttered was like cutting his own flesh with a knife.

"Zi Shi, I know I was wrong. I didn't really take what you said to me to heart. Only now do I realize how stupid I am. I don't want to ask about those things, and I don't want you to say them either. I thought I was protecting you, but the one who was afraid of the pain... was myself... I became a coward, and I thought you were acting bravely unnecessarily. I was too selfish and conceited. I hated him for hurting you and being betrayed The grievances blinded the eyes, and I still couldn't see clearly. From the beginning to the end, the person who has hurt you, the person who can hurt you, is me...it is me..."

Chang Sheng was about to cry bitterly, when he suddenly heard his voice icy cold: "You also know that you hurt me..."

As soon as the voice fell, a pillow was thrown over his head and face, making a "whirling" sound.Zi Shi didn't even intend to make a fuss about the teacher, but a certain person was too guilty, so he confessed directly.This confession brought out many dark thoughts that I hadn't thought of before.Seeing him bowing his head and admitting his mistake, the more he watched, the more angry he became.

"You bastard..." panting while whipping him, gnashing his teeth and cursing.The word "bastard" was about to be brought out in the back, and suddenly realized what a narrow-minded and cheapskate this guy was, so he swallowed it back abruptly.

"It's in vain that I spent all my time thinking about you, wasting so much brains! You kept telling me to believe you—believe you?! All my efforts were wasted, and how many innocent people were buried with me? Almost took my own life, cough! Cough!..." A few words were rushed, throwing the pillow aside, clutching his chest and coughing fiercely.

"Zi Shi!" Chang Sheng hugged him in fright, "Don't be angry, don't be angry, beat me and scold me, it's easy to deal with, don't make yourself angry..." I'm afraid he will spit out the medicine he just drank again , Gently rubbing Shun Qi between the chest and abdomen, "It's just a little bit, don't do it again, if you do it again, I will die of fear if I don't..."

Zi Shi sat there in a daze, allowing him to serve him attentively.After a long while, he murmured to himself, "Do you know that at that time, when I came out of the Lantai Secretary's library, my body... melted like ice and scattered like a pile of sand. I thought that this Back, really...dead..."

Tears rolled down quietly, and the lights shone like stars.

"When you want to die, you are not allowed to die; when you don't want to die, you are not allowed to live—oh, God, don't you just love doing this kind of thing?"

"Zi Shi, I won't let you die! I won't let you die!" Chang Sheng hugged him tightly, "I won't let you die...Did you forget? You can only die unless I die. As long as I If you are alive, who dares to let you die?——I want to be the emperor, I am the son of heaven, and I don’t care what God thinks!"

Zi Shi raised the corner of his mouth to laugh at him.

"Don't cry. Don't cry..."

"How can I..." I raised my hand to wipe it, and it was wet with tears.

"I'm sorry, Zi Shi, I'm sorry..." Chang Sheng confessed while kissing him, repeating only three words.

"Actually... even if you told me early on, so what? Even if I can guess something, it's probably beyond my reach, and it may not be able to change the final outcome." Zi Shi leaned into his arms, calming his emotions, Think back to what you were going to say in the first place.

"I can't do it well, but guess wrong; or, there are other extra branches. Changsheng, I have thought about it. If I were you, I would not be able to speak at that time and place. As for...you don't allow me to say those things , but I have to say, after all... Who is it to make it hurt more? I only know that I have to say it, and I have to say it sooner or later. However, I haven't thought about how to tell you better—selfish, I am also conceited, so why am I not?" Hugging him with his backhand, "So, don't say sorry again."

Changsheng lay down with his arms around him: "You are not selfish or conceited at all. Don't say that about yourself."

"Really? Whatever you say is what you say." Zi Shi wrapped his arms around his waist and curled up in his arms.

"Although the incident in Xijing didn't achieve the best results this time, it was still very good. In terms of the overall situation, except for the death of 10,000+ soldiers and the loss of an emperor, the rest is not much different from what was expected. —— However, do you know why I hope to force Zhao Ju to surrender voluntarily?"

"I know." Chang Sheng paused and added, "Know a little bit."

"The emperor and the princes all opened the door and surrendered. The effect is very different from the emperor's coercion and the prince's surrender. However, this can only be regarded as a small regret. As for the bigger regret——

"All the history books tell us: the general trend of the world, when divided for a long time, must be united, and when united for a long time, it must be divided; the ups and downs, the cycle of chaos, personnel and affairs, and the destiny. The history books have written very clearly about the fate of heaven: for the superior , remove the element of luck, what is left is the hearts of the people. If you do a good job and win the hearts of the people, you will continue to do it. If you do not do well, if you lose the hearts of the people, you will change people. It makes sense, but it is a pity that those in power enjoy the blessings and enjoy themselves so much that they forget what they are doing. I don’t remember when I’m doing it. Because people have inherent weaknesses, we can’t expect anyone to do a good job forever. Where there is a beginning, there will be an end, and where there is victory, there will be decline. The so-called cycle of chaos, there is no possibility of avoiding it yet.

"But I think that those who did not do well are defeated and should be allowed to surrender. It has always been the habit of the Great Xia Kingdom to change dynasties, either you die or I perish. People are never allowed to surrender. Because they are not allowed to surrender, they often fight to the end Every time troubled times come, no matter how wise and benevolent the monarch who unified the world is, it will inevitably lead to a sharp drop in population, consumption of resources, waste of wealth, the entire country is depressed for several years, and civilization stagnates or even regresses.

"The defeated party is desperate to fight and resist; the victorious party will kill them all without leaving any room. Because under the tradition and environment that does not allow surrender, no one dares to stop or surrender until one party dies completely. With huge collective sacrifice and immeasurable The price is to be buried with the losers. Those winners in the past were either lacking in ability, or lack of stamina, or more, neither, so don’t even think about it. When you say you want to be emperor, I think, maybe... You can do it. At least, set an example for future generations and let them know that this is not impossible..."

Only then did Changsheng realize where he was wrong.

——I underestimated him, and underestimated myself even more.

It's not that he doesn't trust me, it's that I don't trust him enough.

The sky is selfless, the earth is selfless, the sun and the moon are selfless, and the sage is selfless.

The great benefit of the world is the righteousness of the world.

Follow the way of heaven, keep your conscience, broaden the benefits of the best, and seek eternal righteousness.

He has already given standards and expectations.It was me who failed him.

Zi Shi turned over, rested his pillow on his arm, and sighed on his back: "Ah... what is it to say that people are not as good as heaven? Probably... it's still not time..."

Unprecedented remorse, self-blame, and shame made Chang Sheng wish to slap himself twice.

It turned out that it seemed that we had reached the same height, but I was still on the top of the mountain and he was in the clouds.

Sometimes frustrated, sometimes full of grievances.

Hold him with both arms and move around, and in a blink of an eye, the person has already reached the top, and his elbows are propped up so as not to press him down.

"Zi Shi, why didn't you tell me earlier?——When I don't understand, you should tell me!"

"We... have been too busy all this time, so we didn't have time to talk about it, and then we lost the opportunity." Zi Shi stretched out his hand and slowly pulled him down.

The one above is half-pushed and half-said: "Shen..."

"It's better to sink..."

In the end, he didn't dare to press it all down, and only put three points of weight on him.

"Huh!" Zi Shi let out a long breath, clasping both hands on his back, as if he was very satisfied with the heavy and thick oppressive feeling.

"It's not just because I didn't have time—before that, you were afraid, and I was also afraid. Some things have never been explained. It's like a pot of paste that hasn't been boiled. It's stirred together, but it hasn't reached the heat yet, and the transparency is not good. High, toughness is not strong, stickiness is not enough..."

Hearing this, Chang Sheng was overwhelmed with shock, guilt, seriousness, and seriousness. He was discouraged with a "puchi" and fell on him.

"Ouch!"

Taking advantage of the situation, she hugged him and rolled lightly, put herself under it, and then pulled the quilt over to cover it up.

Zi Shi made a false alarm and bit his chest hard.Then, like a little civet cat cub, she obediently lay on him.My mind became confused, and I was a little lazy to say the following words.A voice from the bottom of my heart unexpectedly came out: "Don't be lazy! Li Zishi, don't be lazy!"

Is it?Don't be lazy.Where else can I hide?Can't be lazy.

"Changsheng, I probably know what you are afraid of. Do you know what I am afraid of?"

Changsheng didn't speak, just hugged him tighter, stroking his hair with one hand.

"In the second year in Xijing, I thought that you might have died. I was so scared that I couldn't even think about it. Later... I found out that Fu Chuqing was still alive, and I wished I could just die. Halfway through Huangquan Road, I didn't find you. , I fought back and forth twice, but I didn’t dare to die after all. If I couldn’t die, I had no choice but to live on...

"No matter what he does to me, I've never been willing to do it. Even though I don't want to, that's all. If you don't come, I think most of them will continue to live as before, until... the day when I can't go on.

"I used to think that for Fu Chuqing, it was resentment, disgust, and helplessness. It took a long time to realize that, in fact, I was still afraid. It was because of fear that I allowed it to become a numb habit. What I was afraid of was not this person , but the whole thing, the encounter itself, is invisible... impermanent fate...

Trembling slightly as if I had lingering fears in my heart: "So, seeing you at Xianlang Pass, do you know how scared I am? I'm so scared that my soul is about to disperse. The more you insist, the more scared I will be. The more scared I am, the more persistent you will be." .I really...have nothing to do with you."

"Zi Shi..." Chang Sheng's "I'm sorry" came to his lips, and he swallowed it again.Silently tightening his arms, he slowly rubbed him into his body, giving him the strongest barrier and the strictest protection.

"Knowing that it is useless to be afraid, I always feel that God is calculating with my eyes closed. No matter which path I choose, there must be a conspiracy trap waiting for me somewhere, waiting for me to fall when I am least prepared...

"On the ninth day of the lunar new year, you left in the middle of the night and went to the south to intercept Zhao Ju. Of course I knew there was no need to worry, but I was so scared that I couldn't close my eyes. When I heard from you, Fu Chuqing had already been here. Thinking of his revenge, thinking of him running away again, I still can't die, I didn't burn my book—"

The whole person shrank into a ball, as if he had to draw strength from Changsheng's heart before he could finish his sentence: "Why won't he burn my books? Will he cherish these scraps of paper? Will he cherish my hard work? Is it really dead end? What is more important than running for your life? How can you be so calm and considerate when you really love to hate? He is telling me that he has not given up. Keeping those books is to make you and me feel uncomfortable—show me kindness, and even more I protest. Hmph! He thought I'd appreciate—"

The more you speak, the more ruthless you are, but the person shrinks more and more.Chang Sheng suddenly turned over and covered him completely under his body, and landed continuous light kisses on his face: "Zi Shi, don't be afraid. I'm here, don't be afraid of anything!"

Zi Shi closed his eyes, his long eyelashes trembling: "He won the bet. I really... must be grateful to him."

Changsheng suddenly said: "I would rather believe that he can't bear it. He must know that it is your life. Burning the book is tantamount to killing you. He can't do it." He thought coldly in his heart: No matter what, Just for this, I might as well reward you with a whole corpse.

"So what? God let him run away. After seeing you, I thought, maybe, it really doesn't matter. However, the situation in Xijing will end up like this. Seeing that the water in Chuzhou is likely to Being confused by him—this person has to be killed. I just hate that I can't kill him for a while, I can't ask you to kill him regardless, and he dares to threaten me with a library full of books...you call me , how can you not be afraid?"

"Zi Shi!" Chang Sheng put his right hand on his chest, put it to his ear, and uttered each word in a deep and forceful voice: "I swear, I will kill him with my own hands!" After a pause, "Don't worry, take care of everything. Never fool around."

Zi Shi listened silently.

After a while, he shook his head: "That's not the case." Putting his arms around his neck, he smiled, "Stupid... I'm just talking. There is no reason for someone who should be the emperor to waste money on catching thieves."

Slowly put away his smile: "It is necessary to kill, but if you are convicted, you may not be able to execute it. This thief is now a loyal and loyal minister. I am afraid that he will become the leader of the rebel army sooner or later. Fu Chuqing is selfish and ruthless. Ingenious and contingency. Although short-sighted and narrow-minded, he is the best at taking advantage of the wind and fishing in troubled waters. Typical successes are insufficient, and failures are more than failures. The matter in Chuzhou is already 12 difficult to handle, and now..."

Chang Sheng kissed him: "Since it is necessary to kill, even if you are afraid of throwing rats, there is no other way, so you have to hit the vase together. Otherwise, if the rat becomes a spirit, wouldn't the vase become his magic weapon?"

"It's not that simple." Zi Shi rubbed his hands slightly and responded to him.

After a moment of silence, he spoke again, with an extremely gentle voice: "No matter how many opponents there are, they can be defeated and killed by a powerful monarch. But, Changsheng, that is hatred! —— Hatred will settle down and remain in people's hearts. In my heart, how much hatred has been created by Xirong's invasion of China by foreigners? How much hatred has accumulated in Chuzhou in these years? On the surface, the world is gradually becoming peaceful. However, from now on, the most important task for real long-term peace and stability is Stop creating new hatred and work hard to dissolve old hatred. This process requires a lot of patience, a long, long time-maybe far beyond our imagination.

"Fu Chuqing, I only regarded him as a bad person at first, but now... maybe he is close to a devil. Although this matter is not my fault, Changsheng, I cannot deny that I bear the responsibility that cannot be shirked. He is too good at destroying, once Get mixed up with the remnants of the rebel army such as the Baisha Gang, and use the guise of loyalty. With the power of hatred, its destructiveness may be infinitely magnified. It will not be the desired result. Therefore, the person who was sent to track down the assassin—”

Burying her head deeply on his chest: "At that time... I was really anxious... Changsheng, wolves, tigers and leopards are aggressive, and cockroaches, rats, flies and lice are hard to catch. Why don't you take it easy. This matter needs to be discussed in the long term."

After a long time, Chang Sheng finally replied: "I understand. Good."

Zi Shi sighed lightly: "I really hate him now. But I have to do everything possible to convince you, to convince myself to endure—you said, why is God so terrible?"

Clinging to his heart, the voice was so small that it was almost inaudible: "Do you know how scared I am? Every time I see you take a step forward, I get more scared. In these years, I never dared to tell anyone , I'm afraid. Even in my heart, I don't dare to think too much. It seems that as long as I say it, I will no longer have the courage and strength to hold on... You asked me to believe you—— idiot, besides trusting you, I also what's left..."

The soft breath pierced through his heart in an instant, and Chang Sheng couldn't help trembling all over his body.

"Zi Shi..."

He wanted to say to him: In addition to believing in me, you also have to believe in yourself.I never knew in the past, what is meant by fearful fate, since I met you, I understand everything.Because of this, you can't be afraid, you can't be afraid.

But he knew it wasn't what he wanted—what didn't he understand?

Sure enough, his voice came out faintly from his chest: "I'm... so scared... that I don't even dare to be afraid..."

Chang Sheng wrapped his arms under his body, put them close to his ears, and said only one sentence: "Zi Shi, from now on, I will not hide anything from you." Think about it, and add, "I don't When you understand, you have to tell me sooner."

"it is good."

"Zi Shi..."

"Changsheng, hug me."

"..."

"Changsheng, hug me."

"The doctor said..."

Slightly cool and slender fingers penetrated from the tight body, as if possessing the most superb hand-to-blade technique, slipped into the hem in the blink of an eye, wrapped around his limbs, and locked himself on him.Didn't move, just waited silently.

Before his brain was completely burnt out, Chang Sheng thought: What did the doctor say? ...

He bowed his head and kissed deeply.

Just remember his expectation, trust and attachment to himself, which transcends all fetters in the world.

His soul has never been so far away, nor has it been so close.

Looking at this flower that bloomed from my heart, climbing and blooming on my body, I was intoxicated for a long time.