All your life is gentle

Changsheng said with the most ambiguous gesture: "Put it here." Seeing the two loyal servants bring the bucket in, they stood still and said, "Other things, just leave it to me."

Li Wen and Li Zhang looked at each other.

Li Wen stared at Zi Shi's back, hesitated for a moment, and said: "Master, Master Mi and the others don't know about the situation of the young master, they are very worried... Just now, Master Nie found us and asked about the young master..."

Chang Sheng raised his head immediately: "Who is Master Nie you are talking about? This courtyard is heavily guarded, how could he get in?"

"This...Master Nie found our room, asked a few words, and left quickly. We don't know how he got in..."

Chang Sheng's heart moved: "Master Nie, is that the one who stood next to your young master yesterday, wearing a tall black gauze hat?"

"……Yes."

"It turned out to be a master." Changsheng raised his voice and shouted: "Ni Jian!"

General Ni appeared at the door with a "whoosh": "Your Highness?"

"There is a military officer in the envoy. His surname is Nie. He is a leader. He is very good at martial arts. You can do it quietly. He just visited our commander-in-chief's residence."

"Ah! Is there such a thing?"

"It's a side courtyard. It's expected that he wouldn't dare to approach the main house."

"The subordinate is dereliction of duty."

"I found out the details of his kung fu yesterday, but I forgot to tell you."

General Ni disappeared in the blink of an eye.

The two of them were terrified, Li Wen made up his mind to ask the young master for an answer, so he bit the bullet and spoke again: "Master, Master Nie asked..."

Suddenly the young master said slowly: "You go and tell them that I am not acclimatized, flustered, chest tight, short of breath, and unable to get out of bed. The military doctor is watching, and I will recover in two days." Pause for a while, as if thinking What, continued, "Master Fanmi sent someone to send back the letter of greetings, and said—"Northern may be willing to move, and the peace talks are hopeful". Everything else will be discussed after I am ready."

"Master..."

"Go... I have my own score, and I will explain it to you in detail later."

"Yes." The two loyal servants looked at each other again, and finally retreated.

The two remaining people in the room leaned against each other, without making a sound for a long time.

With this interruption, the grievances and resentments between the two accidentally returned to family hatred and national hatred, and various practical problems were placed in front of them again.

Changsheng thought: It's really... troublesome.Looking for something to say: "You two bookboys, it's too easy to fool... It turns out that the servant is the master..."

no response.

The water in the bucket was steaming, and he said in a low voice, "Will you wash it now? It's so sticky, isn't it uncomfortable?" He brushed up his hair, and the back of his neck was cool and wet.Surprised: "Why are you sweating so much again? Where is it uncomfortable?" He straightened his body, but saw that his face was pale, his eyes were dull, and his breathing gradually became short.

"Zi Shi, what's the matter? Do you feel uncomfortable?" Wanting to loosen his collar for him, he stretched out his hand to unbutton it.As soon as the two pills were removed, the person in his arms suddenly became stiff in his shoulders and trembled all over his body, which became more and more severe, until he couldn't help himself, even his lips trembled.

Chang Sheng took a closer look, his blank expression was as if he didn't know himself.

Panicked: "Zi Shi!" Immediately put his palm on Yintang Shenting, inject a ray of inner breath to protect Yuanshen, and quickly replay what happened just now: what went wrong and made him lose control like this.

Leng Buding remembered that before the two of them entered the door, his brain seemed to heat up and his throat loosened, and he asked the question that was always entangled in his heart and forced himself to suppress it, in the worst way...

How to do?

"Zi Shi, don't be angry, I'm talking nonsense, as long as I see you, as long as you are by my side, you know..."

"Longevity..."

The call was too weak, like a sigh from a bottomless abyss.The fleeting ending was like a broken string, and a blood spattered thread popped out in my heart.

"I'm here, here..." Changsheng hugged him tightly, trying to call back the distant consciousness with repeated comfort, and calm down the sudden abnormal situation.

"Changsheng..." He immediately recognized the person in front of him, his emotions quickly stabilized, and his whole body collapsed in his arms.

"Zi Shi." Let him look into his eyes, Chang Sheng was cruel, and asked: "Zi Shi, tell me, why?"

——Who is it and what is it that makes you so sad?

In this way, everything that I have made up my mind not to ask anymore has to be asked, and I have to ask.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Chang Sheng carefully recalled the previous conversation, and suddenly said: "That Lord Mi...no, that Lord Nie...who is it?"

He read a blank in his face.

Changsheng pinched his heart to prevent it from bouncing around.With a calm tone, he said softly: "Zi Shi, tell me, who is he? Are you...are you, are you...with him? Are you?..."

Zi Shi shook his head slowly.After shaking it a few times, it stopped, and stared straight ahead with two empty eyes.

In an instant, Changsheng saw the boundless desolation.

The desolate broken walls, pools of fire and blood, golden beads, rubble, and beautiful sand reminded him of countless bleak scenes he had witnessed together, and he saw clearly the cruel content that was even more tragic but he was absent.

He saw him standing on the gorgeous ruins all over the ground, as beautiful and lonely as a glacier snow lotus, but he still couldn't escape.Even though the collapsed beams and pillars fell down, and the flying flames burned over, finally, the flowers were covered with cuts and bruises, and fell silently.

"Zi Shi, tell me..."

Chang Sheng held his face in his hands: "Zi Shi, tell me. I want you to tell me everything, tell me everything. No matter what it is, tell me everything. Tell me, and everything will be fine..."

After a long time, the dry voice broke the stagnant silence.

"...Zi Zhou..."

"Well, what happened to Zi Zhou?"

"That year...Zizhou...won the number one prize...I didn't want him to go, but...we had to be recruited...not long after, people found out about our background, so we had to become officials too. I...Zizhou and Zigui, The surname is not Li, but the surname should be Xie..." Zi Shi repeated in a daze, the words did not match the words, and the words were confused.

"I know, their surname is Xie. Then?"

"Then...Lantai Ling, I like it very much...But one day...in the middle of the night..." Zi Shi's eyes drifted in all directions, and he subconsciously jumped over, "People from the Hua Family and the Baisha Gang... unexpectedly arrived in Xijing... The grandson of Uncle Guo's family is entangled with Zigui, and the emperor wants to give him a marriage...so... Zigui ran to the border to fight..."

"Zi Shi!" Chang Sheng heard something strange, took his hand, and pinched it on the Hegu acupoint, "Tell me, what happened in the middle of the night?"

Zi Shi woke up from the spirit altar after being pinched by him, raised his head, looked at it for a while, and said slowly: "One day in the middle of the night, a person... broke into the house..."

"Who?!"

"This person...you recognize it too. You recognize it, Zigui recognizes it, but Zizhou doesn't. I...I should have recognized it, but I...forgot. When I met Chaozhong, I didn't take it to heart. Who I can imagine...a person who should have died a long time ago is still alive. Not only is he alive, but he has also transformed into a close friend of the country's uncle and a favorite of the emperor..."

There was a huge flash in Changsheng's mind, and the blood all over his body was frozen.

On the contrary, Zi Shi seemed to calm down: "That day... was the Double Ninth Festival, Zizhou and Zigui went to the grandfather's house, and I stayed at home by myself and went to bed very late. Then... and then... and then, I got sick... I thought I was going to die, but...but I didn't die..."

"Zi Shi! Don't say it! Don't say it!"

Changsheng didn't have the slightest strength to support himself anymore, he slid down little by little while holding his body, and knelt down on the ground: "Please...don't say it..."

"...preparing to become an official in the court, I was thinking, maybe... there will be news about you. I never expected that I would... meet... this person..."

Chang Sheng raised his head, choked with sobs and begged, "Zi Shi...don't...said..."

"At that time...it wasn't...that I couldn't hold on at all. But...I...didn't hold on...longevity, I was tired..."

Two lines of tears flowed down the face to the chin, condensed into a crystal clear one, fell suddenly, and dripped on the skirt of Changsheng's clothes.

Thousands of arrows gathered in the heart.

Once the tears are opened, they can no longer be stopped.They line up in rows, form lakes and seas, and set off huge waves, hoping to drown each other and the world.

What else can I do?After all the vicissitudes, I only look up at the vastness and cry.

Crying mountains and rivers broken.

Crying about the ups and downs of life experience.

Cry that the world is unkind.

Crying in the world of mortals has love.

All the restraint and consideration of the situation resulted in ordinary affairs being abandoned by others, Zi Shi clenched his fists, tears pouring down: "Gu Changsheng...why...why...didn't you come earlier?"

——Why, always I wait for you?

——Why, when I was waiting for you, I always waited for a catastrophe?

The criss-crossing tears boiled and rolled, like Lingxun's lava, poured Changsheng from head to toe, his body was completely rotted, his flesh and bones were corroded, and he couldn't find where his heart was.

"You asked me...to wait so long...cough!...cough! So...so...for a long time..." Zi Shi cried almost out of breath, "You...damn... bastard...I... ...Cough!...I..." I felt that my internal organs were coughed up, and I couldn't help myself. My limbs twitched and my chest felt numb. My body no longer belonged to me.

Changsheng stood up abruptly, wrapping his scarred body tightly in his arms.Knowing that no amount of heartache can repay him, no amount of tenderness can comfort him, but she can only keep kissing, stroking, and whispering: "Zi Shi, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry...it's my fault. ...I'm not good, I'm an asshole, I...I didn't stay by your side, and ran to worry about irrelevant people; People bullied... I was wrong, I was wrong, I won't do it in the future, I won't do it again... I won't do it again..."

I couldn't tell whose tears were between the two, so I completely melted in it.Changsheng couldn't care less about anger, no time for remorse, only one thought was very clear: Never see him cry like this again.

The thin shoulder blades trembled violently under his palms, like butterflies struggling painfully on a spider's web.The turbulent tears soaked the front of the front, penetrated deep into the wound, and directly conveyed the invisible pain to the bottom of my heart.

Changsheng was suddenly terrified.In a daze, he felt that the tears seemed to turn into bright red blood, and he used all his mental strength to cry bitterly.After crying, there is no more concern, and this is the forever farewell.

"Zi Shi, don't cry...don't cry..." Chang Sheng patted him on the back, "If you keep crying like this...I, I'm going crazy..."

He can't be allowed to vent like this.Changsheng forced himself to concentrate on resting his breath, lowered his head to hold his lips, forced a ray of true energy in, and returned to his meridians and veins for him.

Be careful and tentatively go through a week, and your emotions are no longer uncontrollable.He closed his eyes and leaned against his chest quietly, the tears did not stop, they kept gurgling out, like a silent undercurrent, converging and rising in the darkness, never crossing the rocky sandbar.

Such silence.It is more heart-wrenching than the stormy sea on the surface.

"Zi Shi, say a word, say a word, okay?...No matter what it is, open your eyes and talk to me..." Chang Sheng picked him up in his arms, brought him to the bed, and put his head on the bed. In the pocket of his shoulder—he used to like this the most, half lying on his body, leaning on the pocket of his shoulder and whispering in his ear, falling asleep unknowingly.

Feeling that his breath is on the side of the neck, slightly itchy and fell into the neck, and gradually calmed down.Wrapping his arms around his waist, stroking back and forth, he murmured: "Don't cry... What if I hurt my eyes when I cry? Where can I find such a bright star to compensate you? What if I hurt my throat when I cry? Where can I find such a star?" Give you the crisp crystal? Or—give me mine in exchange for you..."

"...Who, who wants your black charcoal ball, broken iron gong... Cough! Cough!..."

Oh, sure enough, my voice is hoarse.

Changsheng stood up halfway, reaching for the water glass by the bedside.

Only took two bites, and was about to continue feeding, but there was no movement.Looking down, he was just crooked in his arms, breathing heavily, and fell asleep completely.

Chang Sheng sat up and gently brushed away the hair stuck to his cheeks due to sweat and tears.

——It turns out that the real retribution...is waiting here!

The bones all over his body were so painful that their roots were broken, and an evil fire was ignited, and a prairie fire broke out and burned blazingly.I suddenly felt that no one in the world should die, who should not be killed?Even if thousands of villages and households are slaughtered, gods, ghosts and demons are burned, the five elements and three realms are destroyed, and the past and future lives are lost, it is impossible to offset the resentment in my heart.

Even if, even if...

Suddenly there was a tremor and he woke up.

It turns out that no matter what you do, it will never be possible to offset...

Nothing can offset it.

No matter how much resentment there is, in the end, he has no choice but to smash his teeth into pieces and eat his own heart for the rest of his life.

The person in his arms undulated slightly with his breathing.

For no reason, Changsheng shed tears.

In any case, there is still the present and the future.That's good.

Slowly get out of bed, walk to the bucket, check the temperature of the water, it is already cold.Suddenly, he slammed his palm on the water, making a loud "crash", and the water splashed like silver bullets and ice picks, bursting out in all directions.Changsheng startled himself too - don't wake him up!Immediately raised his hand, as if the scattered liquid was controlled by some force, it condensed into countless transparent water lines, formed a pearl net curtain in mid-air, and gently fell back into the bucket without a sound.

Stretch your hands into the water, put your palms together to move your breath, and practice your profound skills silently. After a while, you will feel like an old monk entering into a trance, casting a stagnation.Only the water in the bucket swirled slowly with the invisible internal force, and after half an hour passed, the white steam came out again.

Close your eyes and keep your mind, and retreat from the work, but feel refreshed.I was a little surprised in my heart: in this situation of emotional agitation and internal and external injuries, the kung fu became smoother the more I practiced.I didn't have time to think about it, so I put aside the issue of practicing for the time being, picked up the person on the bed, and started to undress him.

After tossing for a long time, the two layers of gauze have already been soaked.Changsheng was in a hurry and almost tore it off.After thinking about it, I still unbuttoned the buttons one by one honestly.Even though he knew he might not be able to wake up, he still comforted him softly in his ear: "Zi Shi, it's me...it's Changsheng... let's go to bed after washing..."

He took off his clothes a few times, and carried him into the bucket.Remove the chest bandage, the incision is not wide, the surface has been closed.Putting him on his knees, raising his arms and moving them, it didn't seem to hurt much.Suddenly remembered something, and waved his hand back, only to hear a sound of "du", the door bolt was swung horizontally, and the lock was locked.

A thought flashed through: Kungfu advancement seems to be quite small, strange... However, the things in front of me are more important, let's talk about these later...

The next day, Li Wen and Li Zhang were invited to the main residence and chatted with His Highness King Jingbei for several hours.

The chat room is next door to the bedroom.The content of the chat began when the two first entered Li's mansion, and asked about everything one by one.From the food, clothing, housing and transportation of the young master to relatives and friends, from the daily home to the government office and court, the most important and most secret parts seem to have been known long ago, but they are chasing after the ambiguous details.After all the questions were asked, they often ended in a sad silence, like a wordless reproach, which made the person concerned panic and sweat.

Especially His Royal Highness's air of solidarity and solidarity made the two loyal servants feel pressured.The servants of the Li family have always been more independent and free, but this one in front of him is truly full of the demeanor of a master, far more majestic and terrifying than the young masters and ladies.

Talking until dusk, King Jingbei suddenly waved his hand to silence the two, stood up and walked into the bedroom.

The prince did not say that he could not follow up.Li Wen glanced at Li Zhang, and the latter nodded, and the two bravely entered the door.

"Hmm... hum..." Accompanied by shallow panting and moaning, the limbs of the person lying on the bed began to twitch unconsciously.

Li Zhang was quite familiar with this movement, it was the young master having a nightmare.Since the Anshen Tang was stopped, this situation happened almost every night.According to the young master's repeated emphasis, as long as you hear the sound, you must wake him up.Usually at home, because Li Zhang is more vigilant, he always gets up and knocks on the door immediately.

Just as he was about to speak, he saw His Royal Highness bent down, unable to see the movement from his back, and could only hear a soft voice like wind and rain, as soft as coaxing a child: "Zi Shi, don't be afraid, don't be afraid, it's me, Changsheng. Well, I'm here Here...it's okay, it's okay, it's okay...sleep..." After coaxing for a quarter of an hour, the person on the bed fell asleep again, and the prince's voice gradually became weaker, returning to silence.He stood up straight, bowed his head again, and watched silently for a while.

The two of them followed King Jingbei out of the bedroom, and they did not forget to close the door carefully amidst the shock.

Suddenly he heard the prince say: "Your young master——I have withheld it. It is impossible for him to return to Xijing again. What are your two plans?"

"what!"

"The two countries are at war, and the envoy will not be killed. No matter how the peace negotiation goes, the rest of the envoy will be sent back. You two are natives of Shuzhou, and I will not force you to stay."

"This..." Several thoughts flashed through Li Wen's mind, and he said, "My lord, to tell you the truth... Our young master was only temporarily arrested by the emperor and the grand master to serve as an envoy for this peace negotiation. In terms of status, he does not belong to the royal family." Dear, in terms of status, you are definitely not an important minister of the court. The prince detained the young master as a hostage, which will damage his reputation in vain, and I am afraid it will be useless..."

Changsheng smiled: "It's hard for you to still think about my reputation..."

"The villain is abrupt, the prince forgives the sin."

At this time, Li Zhang said bluntly: "If you take people as hostages, there will be robbery. Dare I ask the prince, how can I redeem my young master?"

Hearing what he said, Chang Sheng's expression turned cold: "Your Jinxia court asked for peace, and only sent a second-rank minister to shoot at the door. I don't believe it. I plan... I plan to send my military adviser and mission to Xijing to meet your emperor. , bring back an oath of peace with the emperor's jade seal on it. If you two go back, you might as well tell your second young master to ask him to be responsible for sending the oath and my military adviser back safely. I will consider whether to let him go or not. Big brother..." His eyes narrowed slightly, sharp as a knife, "And... that Mr. Fu... I also welcome you..."

Li Wen and Li Zhang felt a gust of cold wind pass through the bones, and immediately understood: This is not taking the young master as a hostage, it is obviously to be used as a bait.

The situation in front of him is really extraordinarily complicated and weird.What does the young master mean by himself?How will this peace talk end?What is King Jingbei's plan?How should the court respond? ... Zhongyi Bo Lantai ordered Li to avoid Lord Li's two personal long-term followers, who lived up to the name of Li's articles, and their experience and knowledge were far better than ordinary servants, so they naturally thought more about problems.Although so far, I haven't figured out a single one.

"It doesn't matter if you can't decide now, just let me know when you think about it later."

Li Wen and Li Zhang realized that what the prince asked this time had nothing to do with the young master, it was their plan.

From the first meeting to the present, knowing that the other party is an enemy and an enemy, it is always difficult to generate real hatred.After several exchanges, it wasn't until this moment that I suddenly realized: King Jingbei's way of speaking, compared with his own young master, is simply alike!

On June [-]th of the sixth year of Yongqian (ninth year of Tianyou), Emperor Huarong's imperial edict was sent to King Jingbei's camp in Xianlang Town, Shuzhou.

The imperial edict said: "Xia Zuo declined, and the land collapsed. The harsh government is troublesome, and the officials are invading. The life of the people is almost wiped out. I should follow the sky and obey the people. The government is clear and compliant, and the virtuous and virtuous are widely accepted; the people are benefited, and the world is virtuous. …

"However, there are still special customs outside the country. Mourning the people of Shu, who have not been transformed by the king. The three armies are given orders, and they are punished by heaven. The teacher of the king, there is no war. Benevolence is the foundation, and righteousness is the rule. Don't want to be militarized. , The real plan is to save the people from danger. However, the whole Shuzhou is colluding, and the evil is not relentless. It is determined to go its own way and stubbornly resist. Kill my prince and kill my warrior. How can this revenge be rewarded! How extreme is this hatred!  …

"However, the three armies cannot be without a commander for a day, and the great cause cannot be interrupted for a day. The king of Jingbei is majestic, wise and loyal. Wentao and martial arts, knowledge and knowledge. Gathering the fields and accumulating grain, comforting the people in peacetime; The land expanded the frontier. It was peaceful inside and outside, and the credit was the most prominent. When he was in danger, he was appointed, and everyone expected him. Now he is ordered to lead the three armies, and he will listen to the ruling on the matter of conquering Shu, and then he will hear about it.

"I am endowed with great grace and the virtue of forgiveness. But to make the Kyushu unified and the nations harmonious. I specially ordered King Jingbei to benefit first and then punish him. He likes to kill evil. He distinguishes loyal traitors and favors the innocent. Those who abandon the evil and obey, abandon the dark and turn to the light, testify Waiting for a reward..."

After receiving the emperor's edict, Junshi Zhuang immediately ran to the deputy envoy of the Jinxia Mission, who had been getting along so well these days, and said, our emperor's power of attorney has finally arrived, and you are making your lord recover from his illness. Let's negotiate.

Changsheng entered the room with a bowl.

Zi Shi was leaning against the bed, a yellow silk was spread out on his lap, it was the emperor's edict that had just been delivered during the day.I lay in bed for several days and didn't really wake up until this morning.After listening to someone rambling for a long time, I finally handed over this letter.

While watching, he frowned and thought about it from time to time, and occasionally raised the corners of his mouth to smile silently.Changsheng stood on the ground, only then felt that it was a sneer, and it seemed to be relieved in a blink of an eye.My heart was full of anxiety, but I didn't dare to open my mouth to ask.

"Zi Shi, take a break. This... you have to try it."

Just as I was about to pass the bowl over, I felt that it was not hot enough, so I retracted and held it with both hands.After a while, a wisp of milk fragrance drifted around as the temperature rose, rich and sweet, mellow and attractive.

Zi Shi twisted his neck and stretched his head as if being drawn: "What is this?"

Every time I woke up, I vowed not to talk to him anymore, but I was always forgotten by myself because of one or another reason, such as now...

"It's cheese, made of goat's milk, melted... I don't know if you're used to it..." Chang Sheng looked nervous, scooped out half a spoonful and brought it to his mouth.

That eye didn't even blink, just smashed it and smacked its tongue: "It doesn't seem like candy—"

"It's not sugar, it's honey." Changsheng grinned unknowingly, "There are several large bags of rewards brought by the imperial envoy today. The kitchens in the army also have them, but they are not as delicious as this." He said, and sent another spoonful.

After taking two bites, Zi Shi directly took the bowl.At the same time, I did not forget to remind: "Move the imperial edict a little bit, it would be disrespectful to sprinkle it on your head..."

Chang Sheng said: "Don't talk while eating, be careful of choking."

He was delighted to see him eating down a bowl of cheese, and let out a long breath.It means it's all right now, I won't starve to death.

"Is it enough? There are plenty of this stuff...you just need to eat it if you like it, they are still not very willing to eat it..." Chang Sheng was talking about Xia Chen around him.It's okay to eat meat and drink with Xirong soldiers, except for dairy products.

"I'm a bit stretched..." Zi Shi rubbed his belly, leaned lazily, lowered his eyelids, and subconsciously stuck out his tongue to lick the corner of his mouth.

"Who told you that you can't sleep all day, you are almost turning into a piglet..." Changsheng complained, and pushed a pillow behind him.

Since the night of the fifteenth night, I have been crying so much that I have been in the dark, and I have been sleeping more often and less awake in the past few days.It seems that he specially wants to make up for the old debt of insomnia that he owed over the years. Even if he is awake, he is mostly in a daze, and falls asleep in his arms after a long time.At one time, he was so scared that his martial arts were unrivaled in the world. King Jingbei was very unconfident and called a doctor in the army, but said that he was just weak, and it would be better if he nourished and nourished.However, the objective conditions are limited, and how to make up has become a big problem.I tried to drink a little rice juice decoction every day, and finally remembered this best tonic.Seeing that he was not only willing to eat, but also liked it very much, a stone in Changsheng's heart finally fell to the ground.

"Don't move." The upper body suddenly leaned forward, with his hands on his sides, and his head moved towards him.

Zi Shi turned his head, not wary of being restrained by him and unable to move.

"Don't move... the few of them... are outside..."

Zi Shi was furious and almost ran away.I can't move anywhere else, my teeth are always fine, and I want to eat people when I open my mouth.

"Kiss... just a moment..." Intermittent words leaked out of the hard-pressed panting: "One moment... just, just one moment..."

Zi Shi didn't move.The fangs were open and sharp, and they forgot to close them.

Just when Zi Shi felt that this kiss had lost its starting point and would never end, Chang Sheng let him go, and fell down straight, lying on his lap, panting.After a long time, I sat up with my arms propped up: "Sooner or later... I will kill you... You are good... After so many days, once you fall asleep... I will... I will make you... I will die..."

Zi Shi hadn't recovered from the numbness yet, and he didn't even have the strength to speak, so he had to give him a "deserved" big white eye.

After a while, he could not breathe for a long time, and his face was serious: "You guys, wait outside, see you, okay?"

"Humph……"

Stretching out a finger to wipe off a smear of moist color on his lips: "Don't worry, you won't see it."

"Hmph... Whatever you want..."