All your life is gentle

In his dream, Zi Shi heard the girl whimpering and sobbing. He looked around and saw that Zi Gui was nowhere to be seen. He was anxious.The crying sound fluctuated, sometimes far away, sometimes near, and just became clearer and then became blurred.Looking around, it was so dark that I couldn't see anything.Extremely anxious, he called out his sister's name aloud, but his chest seemed to be pressed against a mountain, he opened his mouth, but couldn't utter a word.Instantly broke out in a cold sweat.woke up.

"Zigui...Brother is going to be drowned in your tears." There was a small head lying on his chest, and his shoulders kept shrugging.I wanted to raise my hand to touch her head, but my whole body was sore, sore and soft, and I couldn't move for a moment.

The girl straightened up quickly, with two peach-like eyes, she was full of surprises: "Brother! I thought... I thought..." She retracted her nose twice, let go of her voice and cried loudly.

Zi Shi looked at his younger sister's crying face, feeling sorry for her.Zigui is straightforward, bright and sensitive, innocent and cute, this incident may leave a lifetime shadow.

Turning his head slowly, Gu Changsheng sat behind, expressionless.

And let Zigui cry there, and ask, "What time is it?"

"It's not the end of the hour." Seeing that he was a little confused, he added, "October [-]th."

It turned out that two days had passed, no wonder Zi Gui was so frightened.He didn't see his younger brother, so he asked again, "Where's Zi Zhou?"

"Next door. I stayed here for a long time, and I told him not to worry, so I went back to the house." Changsheng stayed in the middle room to take care of Zishi, and placed the two children on the left and right sides, so he could detect any movement in time .

Zi Shi thought for a moment, then suddenly said: "Gu Changsheng, it's not the first time you've killed someone like this?" His voice was weak and his tone was flat.

"I have killed thieves outside the pass, and Tongcheng has killed Xibing soldiers." Long expected to have this question, Chang Sheng looked directly at him, and answered two selective truths.

"I think... please go and see Zizhou."

Um?The continuation of the topic was unexpected, and Chang Sheng asked him with his eyes.

"This kid," twitching the corners of his mouth, smiled, "He is tough on the outside but soft on the inside. He is strict with others and even more strict with himself. It's the first time he kills someone, and I'm afraid that he won't be able to pass his own test. So... Please help me understand Release him."

Changsheng turned and went out.

"Wait!" Zi Shi stopped him, "Other things...don't tell him."

Chang Sheng froze, and said, "Okay."

Zigui heard the conversation between the two brothers, and slowly stopped talking.It turns out that this is how Zi Zhou and I made my elder brother worry about it.Really shouldn't.The heavy guilt, grievance, and horror that have been stuck in my heart are finally no longer uncontrollable.Stand up and go to the outer compartment, wash your face.When he came back, he looked refreshed.

"Brother, are you hungry? Brother Changsheng asked them to cook porridge and warm it in the kitchen."

Zi Shi shook his head: "What about you? Have you eaten yet?"

"Yeah." Suddenly he sat upright, imitating Zi Shi's usual storytelling manner, and told his eldest brother his experience after going down the mountain: how he rode a horse in the dark, the mountain road was bumpy, and almost fell several times; Zizhou practiced the art of controlling horses.When it comes to dangerous places, I am amazed repeatedly.Then he talked about how he entered the town and found the inn; how prestige Changsheng brother was, how he frightened the staff... After a while, he started to giggle.

Hearing Gu Changsheng's heroic deeds, Zi Shi couldn't help but smile.However, the whole matter cannot be exposed at this point. It is necessary to cut the sores and pull out the pus, and release the serum toxin, otherwise it will become an internal injury that will follow her for the rest of her life.He suppressed his smile and said softly: "Zigui, I don't know what happened afterwards. Have the female family members of the Wei family been rescued?"

The silver bell-like laughter stopped abruptly, the little face collapsed little by little, and the two big clear eyes were full of fear and pain.

Zi Shi tried his best to stretch out his arms and held his sister's hand in his palm.

"That Miss Wei... was helped out by me. She... was seriously injured. And... Mrs. Wei, when we were leaving, she bumped into a pillar suddenly. I don't know if she is still alive..."

The girl lowered her head, her body trembling: "Brother, I don't like them, I even... hate them. But they are really... so pitiful, so pitiful..."

"Zigui, in a few months, you and Zizhou will be 13 years old. Some girls must know, sooner or later. However, the elder brother did not expect that it would be such a cruel situation, such a painful way, let the You know. We are unlucky, we have no choice but to ask you to be stronger."

"I understand. If it wasn't for... Big Brother was not blocking me, I would... be like them..." The swollen eye circles hadn't subsided, and they were red again, "Brother, I hurt you, I hurt you... You..." Sad and sad, Xuanran wept.

Zi Shi raised his hand to help his younger sister wipe away her tears.I thought, in this world, this matter is really unreasonable, let's just accept it.Fate is so cruel, bloody and forceful to face the truth, and then bestow you with desperate wisdom, struggling to survive in the cracks.It was nothing.However, it was too early for the innocent girl in front of me.A moment of infinite sadness.

"Zigui, listen to me." Dadie spoke up.In any case, ideological work must be done.

"Heaven and earth give birth to man. Once they are adults, men and women love each other, and yin and yang have intercourse. It is a natural principle. It is both carnal and human relations. However, the whole world follows the sage's advice and determines that men are superior to women. In this matter, women are very Suffering. When it is unreasonable, it is always victimized by violent desires; when it is reasonable, it is victimized by human ethics. Often life is worse than death, and death is the same. Think about those women who were captured during the massacre of Xirong, There are also a few female family members of the Wei family... In this unreasonable and chaotic world, how many women have escaped the fate of being humiliated?..."

Hearing this, Zigui looked sad.

"Since I am the eldest brother, if there is a chance, I can't let my sister suffer such torture. If you were me, it would be the same, right? Zigui, you don't have to be sad. This time is really dangerous, if it weren't for God will take care of you, I'm afraid that Big Brother can't stop you if he wants to block it for you. Since it's blocked, it's our blessing."

"What's more——" Zi Shi snorted softly, "This matter is nothing at all. When encountering an irresistible violent attack, it is a crime made by God. Do you want to punish yourself with moral integrity? That would be self-inflicted. Remember, what Mrs. Wei did was compelled by human ethics. Although it is sympathetic, it is definitely not advisable."

After a pause, he raised the corner of his mouth and smiled again.Zigui stared blankly at his eldest brother, only to feel that this smile was full of momentum and extremely tough.

"Walking along the way, seeing, hearing, and thinking... how many people died? But we survived. We must know that the laws of heaven are impermanent, and people must strive for self-improvement. Even though the vicissitudes of life have gone through, it will eventually become a passing cloud. Such a chaotic place Now, being alive is already the greatest victory." Closing his eyes, he said leisurely, "Let us forget about this matter together. Don't go into details about Zi Zhou, lest he cause trouble for himself."

Zigui looked at his elder brother's calm and serene face, lowered his head and thought silently.

"Brother, I understand what you mean. But... I don't understand, that Miss Wei, why... did you do that... I always wanted to find a chance to save her, but she... why did she want to kill us..."

"She was just a young girl. She was terrified at the time, and it is only natural to drag someone to be buried with her in despair."

Suddenly a voice said coldly: "Zigui, you said just now, what did Miss Wei do?" It turned out that the two brothers and sisters were talking deeply, and they didn't notice that Gu Changsheng had come in.

"She..." Facing Shang Changsheng's sharp questioning eyes, Zigui blurted out: "The big villain caught her, and she told the big villain that I was also a girl, and the big villain came to arrest me, and then, then... the big brother... ..."

That's it!

Two balls of flames shot up in Changsheng's eyes, he turned around and walked out without saying a word.

"Gu Changsheng, stop!" Zi Shi slammed his hands and sat up on his side, "What are you doing?"

"This family must have arrived in the town by now." Chang Sheng turned his back to him, lowered his voice and uttered each word, and the room was suddenly icy cold.

"Zigui, you go back to your room first, brother Changsheng and I have something to talk about."

Zigui looked at this and then at that.Nodding his head, he exited slowly and closed the door behind him.

"You're going to kill someone, aren't you?"

"It should be killed."

"In broad daylight, in the crowd?"

"I'll do it clean."

"Even if we kill them all, so what?"

"If you don't kill, you won't be reconciled."

Zi Shi got angry: "Don't go!"

Changsheng raised his legs and walked forward.

Zi Shi seemed to beg, "Don't go."

Changsheng seemed to have never heard of it, and reached out to pull the door.

The opponent was so stubborn, Zi Shi was furious.A few words that I had made up my mind not to say blurted out: "Gu Changsheng, since you are so unwilling, why did you kill a few passers-by who were unable to fight back? Let me ask you, where did you go the day before yesterday? Why did you come back late? Why...why...didn't you come earlier?" When he said the last word, he felt bitter and desolate in his heart, and without any strength, his hands softened, and he fell on the bed, with golden stars dancing in front of his eyes.

This question hit the nail on the head, like enlightenment, a blow to the head, and Gu Changsheng was frozen on the spot.

——It turns out that no matter how many people you kill, you can't offset the self-blame, remorse, anger, and resentment in your heart... Such out-of-control emotions are not for other reasons, but because the heartache is unbearable and I don't know how to bear it.

"They have... been punished, why do you want to kill them again? Gu Changsheng, let them go, okay? I don't care, but if you insist on paying a few innocent lives for this, don't you force me to Engraved in my heart? I... am so tired, I just want to forget it... Please... forget it too..." Zi Shi closed his eyes and muttered to himself.I just feel that I am in a dark abyss, a boundless swamp, and let myself sink slowly until I have no top.

I vaguely heard "Okay...", full of heartache and deep-seated tenderness, and gradually sank down.

Suddenly there was warmth on his forehead, and a hand came up gently, feeling that his head was covered in cold sweat, cold and wet, and he took it away again.

After a while, there was a faint sound of opening and closing the door, and there were rustlings in the room.In a daze, he was about to fall asleep, his body lightened, and he leaned into an extremely warm embrace.

Chang Sheng hugged him and nodded to the guy behind him.The guy quickly changed the sheets and bedding, brought hot water towels to the bed, showed a flattering smile, and walked out with a bow.

He wiped his forehead carefully with a hot towel, seeing that he seemed to be falling asleep, Chang Sheng was relieved.Still taking a deep breath, he took off his clothes.Those dark and mottled marks have just faded away a little, making the whole body look like a piece of rain flower agate or bloodshot white jade.

After a while of daze, he sat on the head of the bed, picked him up, and let him lie on his lap.I wrung out the towel to wipe off the cold sweat on my body, and started to apply the medicine again.The people under him were still trembling with pain in a coma, and Chang Sheng's heart tightened accordingly.Persisting for less than half a stick of incense, the forehead is already sweating.By comparison, it was much easier to kill a nest of bandits.

After pulling the quilt and covering it, it was still cold.Simply lie down, hold the person in his arms, and warm the sea of ​​​​qi in the dantian.Put your palms on his back, silently mobilize your inner breath, and slowly walk between Shenshu and Mingmen.Not long after, I felt the person in my arms relax a little bit, finally stretched my brows, and fell into a dream peacefully.

As soon as the door rang, Changsheng woke up.The room was pitch black, and I didn't know how long I had slept.Carefully move Zi Shi away, get up and go outside, light on the lamp, straighten his clothes, and open the door.

It was still that shrewd guy: "Youngster, I'm taking the liberty to disturb you. There is a young master surnamed Wei who is looking for someone. Listen, little one, he seems to be looking for some heroes..."

Squeeze out a sentence between teeth: "No see!"

The clerk answered "Yes" and was about to leave when Chang Sheng called him back again, "Let Mr. Wei come in."

According to his own temper, these people must be killed to vent their anger, but Li Zishi refused to let him die.Right now, let's recognize the face again and give it a good beating.

Wei Shu had a respectful attitude, clasped his fists and bowed: "Here, Wei Shu, on behalf of the family, I thank the young hero for saving his life. I don't know what the young hero's name is?" He has completely returned to normal, polite and calm, unaware that he is at the gate of hell this afternoon. Made a turn.

Changsheng glanced at him, turned his head coldly: "No need. I saved my younger siblings, you are just passing by."

Wei Shu lowered his head: "We are the ones who have implicated them... I don't know... I don't know..." Bite his head, "Little brother...how is he?" Concern was palpable.

"Humph!"

"This matter... I'm really sorry. It's just... there are unpredictable things in the sky, and people have good and bad times. The young man probably knows that my old father and sister-in-law have both lost their lives. It can be said that the family is ruined... In such a situation, we..."

Changsheng suddenly got up.With a cold light flashing, he drew his knife and cut off a corner of the table: "Your family, never let me see you again!"

Wei Shu backed away in fright.Thinking of what he saw on the makeup removal table, the young man in front of him was really an evil star, he couldn't help shaking his legs and almost couldn't stand still.After a long time, I remembered the purpose of my trip, put the bundle in my hand on the table, and said tremblingly: "Young man, please... please calm down. This... When we went down the mountain, we found some gold in some robber houses. Silver. It’s something that has no owner, so I took it as a gift. I specially sent some, maybe a few people can use it. It can be regarded as... a little kindness from us.”

Seeing that the other party didn't respond, neither to leave nor to stay, he pulled out a smiling face that was uglier than crying.

Chang Sheng suddenly rushed out the door and called out: "Dude!" He was so frightened that he shivered again.

The guy came quickly: "What orders does the hero have?"

"Our three horses have been sold to Mr. Wei. I have already collected the money, so you can take Mr. Wei to lead the horses." He took the burden and squeezed it, and took out a small piece of silver and threw it to him. He, "Your reward. Send Mr. Wei away, serve the porridge, and send meals for the other three."

Wei Shu was confused, looked at Chang Sheng's frosty face, wanted to ask but dared not.

"Listen, just pretend that we brothers have never seen you. From now on, let me go as far as I can." He slapped the table, "Not yet!"

The two at the door were startled with fright, and hurriedly stumbled out.

Chang Sheng walked into the inner room with the bundle in one hand and the oil lamp in the other.Just saw Zi Shi turned sideways, supported his head with his arms, and looked at himself with a half-smile.

"Why is Gu Shaoxia so angry? His voice was so loud that he slapped the table loudly. He took money from him and refused to accept it, so he insisted on giving him a few horses...hehe..."

Zi Shi had already been awakened by them.However, this sleep was peaceful and comfortable, relaxed and comfortable.So he lay down under the quilt and listened to the conversation outside with relish.Hearing Gu Changsheng draw the knife, he thought to himself: "This time...he's really angry..." All the things before going to sleep were remembered for a moment.The bedding around her was still warm, proving the existence of that embrace.

Humans are not as good as heaven... I thought we could live in peace and nothing would happen, but God came so suddenly.This time, they were completely honest and honest, and the vague line was suddenly broken, and there was no way to avoid it.I don't know whether it is sadness or joy in my heart, I feel a little helpless and sad, and I am slightly comforted.

——There is no way to get rid of this situation.That being the case, let's cheer up and bear it.

With this figured out, his demeanor and demeanor are naturally relaxed, and he no longer has the slightest restraint.In the eyes of Changsheng, the face of the person in front of him after such a catastrophe is even better than before: like a holly grass that straightens its waist toward the sun after the wind and sand, like a centenarian that releases its fragrance against the frost at the first ice and snow.

I could feel a throbbing pain in my chest.

Putting down the things in his hands, he walked over and pulled the quilt up: "Cover it up for a while, and prepare to wear clothes and eat."

"Yeah." The neck retracted.He frowned after hearing the second half of the sentence, "I don't want to eat yet."

"No." With a stern face, "I won't take hard pours."

The one being scolded pretended not to hear.He poked his head out again, excitedly: "Open the bag and let me have a look."

"Money fan." Chang Sheng expressed disdain.When I opened it, I saw a whole pile of silver ingots, with several gold bars stacked in the middle, probably more than a thousand taels of silver.

Zi Shi sighed in admiration: "It turns out that there are such things as pies in the sky..." Xin Dao, this family is really tough, and they haven't forgotten to take advantage of the situation.With such a generous shot, I don't know how much they pocketed, so the stolen goods in the robber's den must be very considerable.He couldn't help laughing and said, "You said why didn't we think of it? I think that Bodhi Temple is probably a treasure trove, and the belly of the Buddha statue under the Buddha seat may be filled with gold, silver and jewels. It should be opened at that time to have a look... ..."

This smiling face with stretched eyebrows came too fast, too bright and too unreal, making people feel apprehensive.Chang Sheng could no longer pretend to be with him, and suddenly stretched out his arms to hug him tightly: "Li Zishi, don't do this...you... don't do this..." Tears rolled down quietly, and he was filled with regret.

"sorry Sorry sorry……"

The hesitation and hesitation that has been lurking in the unknown for such a long time has all the answers in an instant.

——It turned out that it was all for him.

Zi Shi didn't speak for a long time.In the end, he patted him on the back reassuringly: "Hey, what are you doing...it really doesn't matter. Didn't you say that there are unpredictable things in the sky, and people have good fortune and bad luck..."

After a while, he seemed to laugh in a low voice, and said with a self-deprecating tone: "If I had gone to Louxi that day, probably this would not have happened. Or... because I refused to join the rebel army, I was punished like this?"

Changsheng's body froze like five thunders.Slowly put him down, his legs felt weak for a while: "Why... what are you talking about..." Slowly knelt down next to the bed, trying to calm down, "You just... just like to think wildly..." A voice in my heart Shouting: "No! This is my retribution from God! This is Fu Sheng's retribution!"

My mind suddenly became extremely clear: I shouldn’t, I shouldn’t pretend to be confused and deceive myself and others;

He clasped the edge of the bed with both hands, as if he couldn't wait to confirm something: "Li Zishi, before you asked me why I was late, I didn't have time to answer. So, now I ask you, why don't you ask again? Why did you Pretending to have forgotten? Why...why, you obviously want to blame me in your heart, but you just refuse to blame me? "

As soon as he opened his mouth, an inexplicable resentment surged in his chest, and he couldn't suppress it.After finishing the question in one breath, he suddenly realized that the hole had been dug and he wanted to jump by himself, so stop.

Zi Shi looked at him for a moment, seeing his bewildered and dumbfounded expression.

"I thought..." After half a sentence, he stopped.After a while, I held his hand, "So..." I didn't continue, looking at him and smiling.

"Okay, Gu Changsheng, let me ask you, why did you delay?"

Getting along day and night, the two hands have been handed over countless times, but this grip is very different.Changsheng's heart was beating like a drum, and he was almost exposed by his bright eyes.Finally grasping the remaining rationality, he mustered up the courage to digest that smile bit by bit.Finally, he lowered his head slowly: "I was afraid that I was not sure about the place you mentioned, so I went to explore it first."

"Ah."

"Later..." He gritted his teeth and raised his head, "Because there was something in my heart...it was very difficult, so...stayed in the mountains for half a day."

Zi Shi stared at him: "Then, have you figured it out?"

"I didn't. Now, I finally figured it out...half..." Swallowing the last two words, he grabbed his arm and stuffed it under the quilt.He leaned down, hugged her lightly through the quilt, and kissed her on the forehead.

"I'm going to see Zizhou and Zigui." He got up and walked outside.

It wasn't until he got out of the outer door that he leaned against the wall and covered his face with his hands: "Fu Sheng, Fu Sheng, what should you do?"

The waiter went upstairs with the food and walked over step by step: "Hero..."

"Put it on the table first." Changsheng stood up straight, calmed down, and said to himself secretly: "It doesn't matter. There will always be a way... There will be a way..."

He couldn't help thinking about Li Zishi's grip and smile again, he felt his head was heavy, his heart was soft, and his feet were light.Just so top-heavy, he flickered and knocked on the doors next door on both sides.

In the room, Zi Shi put his hand on his forehead.

Gu Changsheng.

Thinking back to the little things along the way, and weighing them carefully, I was sincere everywhere.It's just that I don't have a hug, and although this person is clear and profound, what surrounds him is a cloud of fog.That's why later I knew that he was full of thoughts, but I always turned a blind eye to him and let him fend for himself.If it weren't for this, probably he wouldn't have gone to the mountains alone to be in a daze - it can be seen that the word "clever" can never be mentioned in the affairs of the world.

Wry smile: It’s still retribution.

Caressing between the eyebrows, the remaining tenderness lingers.Sigh: Fate has come, what else can I do except follow the fate?Maybe... it's not retribution, but... a turning point?