Travels

After she came out of the office, she was not in a hurry to call Yu Qingge, she walked back to the apartment in a daze, and sat at the door in a daze for a long time.An ominous premonition enveloped her tightly, scorching hotter than the summer air.She was afraid to face the truth, and for the first time in 20 years, she prayed to God for a little luck to help her avoid the worst possibility.Success and fame and applause are dispensable, but she doesn't want to lose this sincerity no matter what.

Yu Qingge didn't make her wait too long. Three nights later, the door of the apartment was finally pushed open. She grabbed her hand and read the entertainment daily that she could almost memorize countless times. Her whole body shook like a dead leaf in the wind. He wanted to ask what was going on, but his legs seemed to be frozen, and he couldn't stand up.

"You're back."

She suppressed the fear in her heart, sat with a stiff back, and tried to ask in a calm tone: "Is the work going well?"

Yu Qingge went to the sofa and squatted down, put his arms around her waist, buried her in her arms and said nothing.

She softened for a moment in the center of such intimate physical contact, and couldn't help stretching out her arms to hug her back. She couldn't ask the doubts that had been simmering in her heart these days.

"what happened?"

"a bit tired."

She didn't know what to say, and wanted to ask if it was because of Yue Chuanlin's blue eyes that she was so tired, but she also felt that there was a sense of sarcasm in saying this.In any case, she didn't want to make any preconceived judgments before getting Yu Qingge's personal affirmation.

"Did you read the newspaper a few days ago?" She finally asked, her voice trembling.

The body of the person in his arms froze for a moment, Yu Qingge slowly raised his head, his gaze averted a little.

"Which day?"

Xia Wanmu had guessed seven or eight points from this reaction, and her mood went downhill like a roller coaster, with a sense of hopeless fear that she was about to fall into the abyss.There was a sledgehammer in her head, and there was a rumbling sound. She took a deep breath, her teeth chattering, and said one word at a time:

"It's the day after you came back very late because you had something to do temporarily."

The arm around the waist was retracted, Yu Qingge's lips parted slightly, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he closed his mouth tightly again.

She lowered her head and fixedly stared at the man with a strange expression, her index finger rested on the two slender eyebrows that were furrowed, and brushed gently.

"Why didn't you talk? Where did you go that night? I want to know."

Yu Qingge lowered his eyes, avoiding her gaze for the first time since dating.The air in the room was dull, only the vent of the air conditioner was whistling, the lights were dazzlingly bright, and there was nowhere to hide the emotions on his face.

She shook off the newspaper in her hand for a long time without words. The pages were already crumpled after flipping through them in the past few days. Large areas of handwriting lost their legibility in the creases, and only the large photos could barely be read. Come out with something.

"Want to take a look?"

She smoothed out the wrinkles little by little, acting cautiously, as if she was treating some baby.There was no echo in the thick and frozen air, Xia Wan Muzai carefully watched every subtle change on his lover's face, unfolded the newspaper in front of him, and spoke calmly.

"I want to hear your explanation. You have difficulties, don't you? Even if you have kept so many things from me before, it's not too late to say it now. I won't be angry, as long as you make it clear."

Yu Qingge's eyes fell on the gray paper, her thin lips were tightly pursed, and she lost her blood color and turned pale.

The long silence was a hint that the worst might have happened. She closed her eyes and her heart was trembling violently.

"What conditions did he give you? Talk?!"

The headache was severe, and all the strength in the whole body was vented with the angry voice.She didn't dare to imagine what price Yu Qingge was about to pay, or even what price she had already paid, and even more couldn't believe that on this occasion, it was the worry about Yu Qingge rather than the anger of being betrayed that prevailed in all the emotions.

"...No conditions." A cold hand was held upside down, and a deep voice hesitated to say something unclear.

"You can hide it from me, but don't take me for a fool. The surname Yue is not profitable, so he treats you like this without asking for anything in return?"

"No."

The short answer that didn't reach the point made her scratch her heart more and more. Blindly denying it without credible reasons is like pouring hot oil on the anger in her heart.

"What isn't it? Heh, you want to tell me that he put so much thought into praising you, and even took you by his side to announce it to the world, just because of your ability so that you can make him more money ? Where is there such a simple mutual benefit relationship in the circle?!"

Xia Wanmu has never hated this person's inarticulate character as much as at this moment.She looked at the man with a sad face, and she still kept the last trace of luck in her heart. For Yu Qingge to show such an expression, there must be some misunderstanding and difficulties, right?As if a knife was pressing on the vital point, she was more and more eager to get something out of this boring gourd's mouth, and she couldn't care less about talking in a soft voice, almost pleading hoarsely.

"Can you explain clearly? When I beg you, I don't know what to do...Since it's not what I thought, then please explain exactly what it is!" She couldn't say a few words. Covering his face, the muscles around his cheeks kept shaking, his teeth were about to be crushed, and his emotions were on the verge of collapse.

Since rejecting Yue Chuanlin that night, she has been waiting in fear for the coming blow for the past few months. The fear of the unknown permeates her heart, and a string in her mind has always been tense, and she is exhausted physically and mentally by now.What she didn't expect was that the split didn't start from the outside. Since when, she and Yu Qingge have been divorced. The once intimate time has become a history that cannot be recovered. Now they are listening to each other's love. A word of sincerity has become a luxury.

"He didn't make any excessive demands." Yu Qingge finally panicked when he saw that something was wrong with her, and said quickly, "Just let me cooperate with the company's decision-making for publicity."

Xia Wan buried her wooden face in her palms and did not move for a long time, her tone was a little soft, and she called out her lover's name in a low voice.

"Yu Qingge." She said, her voice hoarse and dry, like a midnight ghost, "Do you take me for a fool?"

"Why does he praise you like this for no reason? Do you dare to feel your conscience and say that he didn't benefit from you at all?"

The thin man was silent for a long time, with a look of depression on his pale face.

"I'm sorry." Yu Qingge looked over with guilt and sadness in his eyes, but his expression was firm, "There are some things you don't need to know, but it must not be what you think. I can protect myself, so don't worry."

"Why don't you make me worry?! It's really not what I thought, then you can say it, tell me, what do you mean I don't need to know, am I not your most important person?"

She raised her head and tried her best to search for any clues on her lover's face, but ended in failure.Yu Qingge looked at her straight, his face was full of sadness and distress, which made her heart soften.The remaining rationality was stimulated by love. She remembered that she had concealed and deceived herself not long ago, and fell into hesitation for a while. Maybe just like her, Yu Qingge just cared too much and didn't want her to be hurt a little, so she did this. What choice?

Although she didn't get a complete explanation and truth as she wished, the vague words finally injected a glimmer of light into her dark heart. She closed her eyes forcefully, and compromised bitterly: "Well, I won't ask you." gone."

Yu Qingge leaned forward and hugged her, and said sorry again.She passively accepted that warm embrace, her mind was in chaos, and a questioning voice kept echoing.

Is that all right?In the name of being good for the other party, constantly concealing and deceiving, and carrying everything alone, will this make you happy?If so, why did she and Yu Qingge become more and more strange and alienated in the "love" they gave each other?

It can't go on like this.She was in a trance, muttering uncontrollably.

"Do you know that Yue Chuanlin approached me not long ago? It was that time, I said there was a temporary ribbon-cutting ceremony, but I actually lied to you."

"That day, Yue Chuanlin pointed me to attend a dinner party with him. I went, and on the way back, he took me directly to his suburban villa."

"He wanted to lure me, put up a lot of bargaining chips, and even threatened me with your future, but I still refused. I know he can't bear to part with you as a cash cow. I won’t let him go. As for my own future, what does that matter? I didn’t really like the entertainment industry, I just wanted to see something new, if I can’t do it, I can always find other things to do. "

"I've thought about the worst-case scenario. At most, he'll be out of temper and have no brains to retaliate. The two of us have no work to do, and we'll be hidden in the snow. Just find a way to terminate the contract. We've made a lot of money in the past two years, and it's enough to pay for it all. Liquidated damages are paid. If you want to continue singing, you can go to Mingcheng or Shenghuang. With your strength, no company will refuse to send it to your door. Although the process will be very hard, I will always be by your side. When two people are together, what difficulties can’t be solved? I know you don’t want to worry about other messy things. If you like to sing, then just concentrate on singing, and let me worry about other things. gone."

"I want to protect you for the rest of my life, and I don't want you to be exposed to some messy things. Since the first day I was with you and wanted you, I have always thought so. But is this too domineering and disrespectful to you? I've never asked your opinion, and I don't know if you hate me like this."

She didn't expect that as soon as these words were said, Yu Qingge was touched somehow, and the man's long and narrow eyes gradually gathered a little bit of sparkle in one place, and the eyes were full of tears.Xia Wanmu froze for a moment, stopped the rambling words in his mouth, moved his right hand up tremblingly, bent his knuckles, and felt a little wetness remaining on it.

That was the first time Yu Qingge shed tears in front of her since we met, and it was also the only time in many years after that.

"Are you crying?" She murmured, her thumb gently brushed the wetness on the knuckle of her index finger, and she fell into a daze like a puppet.

"...Shouldn't I have told you these words? Is it too late now? You are not willing to tell me the truth. I always think that I am the person who knows you best in the world, but I am not at all .”

She smiled self-deprecatingly, gently wiped away the turbulent tears on her lover's face, and sighed regretfully.

"I'm still far behind."

Yu Qingge is a very quiet person, even crying silently after emotional collapse.She patiently wiped away the seemingly inexhaustible teardrops bit by bit, smoothed the corners of the man's tightly pursed lips, and leaned forward to kiss him lightly.

"From now on, don't hide anything, okay? If we can't even hear the truth between us, no matter how much we love each other, we will definitely get separated in the end."

These words came from the bottom of her heart, and she sincerely hoped that Yu Qingge would accept and agree with her true feelings. Peach Blossom eyes were full of pleading, but Yu Qingge did not speak, but looked at her fixedly with sad eyes. A gesture of silence expresses refusal.

It would be a lie to say that she is not disappointed, but now she has no way out and can only do her best to avoid the cruelest ending.Like a mother singing a lullaby to lull her child to sleep, her voice was patient and gentle, but there was a bit of tolerant anger underneath, "If you don't want to say it now, I can wait, but I can't wait forever. I asked Mo Sister, there will be a press conference in two weeks to announce the decision to fly solo, if by then, you still don't want to say anything..."

It was like giving an ultimatum, she shut up, heartbroken.Maybe that ending wouldn't come true if she didn't say it out, she wishfully muddled past with such unreasonable superstition.

"You know what I mean."

The atmosphere became cold and embarrassing, Yu Qingge withdrew the hands that circled her, and pulled a little distance away.As if her backbone had been destroyed by her decisive words, the thin woman squatted helplessly on the ground, her usually cold eyes lost their luster in an instant, and her whole body trembled slightly.

Xia Wanmu stared at the person in front of her with complicated emotions, hoping that such cruel words would smash the thick layer of ice that wrapped this person into pieces, so that she would poke her head out of the turtle shell and explain everything clearly. bare it.

It's just that this was destined to be a sleepless night, Yu Qingge finally chose to keep silent to the end.The two of them lay back to back on the big bed all night, each other awake until dawn.

Half a month later, the press conference was held as scheduled, and the popularity of the two of them reached its peak in an instant, almost taking over all the media headlines in those few days.Huaxing announced to the public that Yu Qingge would continue to sing, and that she would transfer to film and television dramas with her excellent appearance. There were public opinions about this, some applauded, some bad-mouthed, but that had nothing to do with her anymore.

Changing careers is false, but Xuezang is true.After the press conference, she went back to the apartment, packed up all her things, and took away what should be thrown away. In short, she didn't want to leave any traces here.

The ending has already been written, and at the end, she waited until her passionate heart was burned to ashes, but she still couldn't wait for Yu Qingge's confession. The last thing she needed, time after time, only made her heart colder and colder until she lost the last bit of nostalgia.

Probably because he knew that no matter what he said, he couldn't keep her. When he left, Yu Qingge just stood by the door and watched silently.She didn't respond, and kept busy while holding her breath, so she didn't know what kind of expression was on that face, was it heartbroken or relieved?

——It has nothing to do with her anyway.

What happened that night not long ago is still vivid in his memory. In the steamy bathroom, Yu Qingge leaned over and kissed her with a warm ceiling lamp on his back.That promise seems to still be ringing in my ears—"Then I won't sing."

Love words always hurt.

After all, she thought too much and was too self-righteous.It turned out that from the beginning to the end, she was acting alone in a one-man show about love.Yu Qingge may see very clearly that there are many gentle and patient people in the world, and there will always be another person who is willing to tolerate this boring gourd with a more generous heart, so that she will not be so lonely anymore.

How can there be no need for anyone to have feelings?She just lamented that such a beautiful relationship was so easily lost to ambition and interests, and it ended hastily just after tasting a little sweetness.She used to believe in Yu Qingge so much, thinking how pure and strong this relationship was, but she never thought that it would be unavoidable in the end.

She is the biggest fool.

The wheels of the suitcase rubbed against the ground, and she went to the door to change her shoes, deliberately avoiding that person, and finally took a look around the apartment that she had just moved in not long ago.If there is still a little regret, it must be that this farewell ceremony could not be held in the old and small dormitory before. Wherever it started, it must end where it started.

She pushed open the door and walked out without any nostalgia, without saying goodbye, the last unemotional words were accompanied by the click of the door lock in the wind, but Yu Qingge must have heard it.

"I wish you bright stars and a bright future."

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